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alubloba 2009

Tbilisi 2009

ISBN 978-99940-963-7-4

axali alublebi

axali, mravalferovani, ucnauri, sasacilo, tragikuli, ironiuli, fantastikuri, filosofiuri - zedsarTavebi ar gamomeleva, imisaTvis, rom davaxasiaTo am krebulSi dateuli moTxrobebi, miniaturebi, verlibrebi, Tu tradiciul metrze gawyobili leqsebi. Zalian Znelia, aseTi farTo speqtris krebulisTvis Sesavlis dawera da maTi gaerTianeba rame niSnis qveS. ra unda iyos es niSani? asaki? magram es Zalian bundovani kriteriumia, miT umetes, rom zogi moTxrobisa Tu leqsis sibZnem, maRamxatvrulobam, erudiciam SeiZleba advilad Segiyvanos SecdomaSi avtorebis asakTan dakavSirebiT. maSin ra? Taobis zogadi suliskveTeba? msgavsi problemebi? ra Tqma unda, am nawarmoebebSi SeiZleba gamoavlino saerTo Tematika: narkomania, gaucxoveba, mSoblebTan urTierToba, cxovrebis miznis Zieba da a.S. magram Tundac saerTo Temaze dawerili nawarmoebebi imdenad gansxvavebuli da pirovnulia, rom gaWirdeba maTi erTi rubrikis qveS moqceva. iqneb swored es aris is saerTo, rac am krebuls axasiaTebs: mravalferovneba, araerTgvarovneba, gamokveTili pirovnuloba, idiosinkrasia. Tanamedrove samyaroc aseTi araa? - postmodernuli, tradiciulSi daeWvebuli Tu rwmenadakarguli, axlis mZebneli da, ase vTqvaT, informaciis "warRvnaSi" myofi. dRes xom trdiciulis damcvelic mxolod maSin xdeba damajerebeli da mxolod maSin gamodis siyalbis da Sablonis "velidan", roca am faseulobas aCvenebs egzistencialurad, anu piradi, unkialuri gamocdilebiT. iqneb dRevandelobaSi tradiciulis amgvarad, axleburad warmoCena an xelaxali aRmoCena ufro Znelic iyos, vidre gulwrfeli, gabeduli protesti, Seulamazebeli da uxeSi, zogjer uwmawuri eniTac.

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moTxrobebis kiTxvisas iseTi gancda mqonda, TiTqos internetis erTi saitidan meore, sruliad gansxvavebulze gadavdiodi da ase kaleidoskopiviT: magaliTad, qarTuli patriotizmidan srul kosmopolitizmamde, sadac qarTuli mxolod ena iyo; realistur-naturalisturi Txrobidan bredberismagvar fantastikuramde, provinciuli Jargonidan Tbilusuramde, gurjaanis Sromis birJidan niu-iorkis studentur kampusamde a.S. ise ki, interneti SemTxveviT ar gamxsenebia, radgan zogi moTxroba SeuZlebeli iyo gagego am 21-e saukunis saswaulis gareSe, radgan avtori gulisxmobda, rom mkiTxvels unda winaswar scodnoda esa Tu is rok-jgufi, an momRerali, radgan uamisod mis saTqmels srulyofilad ver gaigebdi. ara uSavs, Tu "biTlzTan", "finq-floidTan", an Tundac Tu faq SakurTan mqonda saqme, kidev gavidodi iolas, magram, unda vaRiaro, rom, magaliTad, ania garbarekis vinaobis gasagebad da misi simReris mosasmenad internetSi atvirTul videorgolebze momiwia gasvla. asea Tu ise, didi siamovneba miviRe am moTxrobebis da leqsebis kiTxviT. Cans, rom saqarTveloSi, am Taobis mwerlebSi Cndeba da viTardeba axali gancdebi da gamocdilebebi; isini ar wydebian Tanamedrove samyaros - igi sunTqavs am nawarmoebebSi mTeli Tavisi sirTuleebiT, tkivilebiT da winaaRmdegobebiT. am teqstebSi TiTqmis ar aris didaqtika da moralizacia, sapirispirod, Warbadaa ironia da TviTironia - seriozuli, brZnuli azric ki zogjer ironiis konteqstSia naTqvami, rac ase axasiaTebs postmodernul eras. kargia, rom gulwrfel, gulSiCamwvdom da zogjer SemaZrwunebel monologebTan erTad, gvxvdeba moTxrobebi xalasi, araxelovnuri dialogebiT, arada, ramxela sirTulea dawero damajerebeli dialogi, yalbi intonaciebis gareSe! aseve, uzomod sevdian an tragikul moTxrobebTan erTad gvxvdeba Cexovismagvari iumoristuli moTxrobebi da miniaturebi, zogierTi sakmaod warmatebulic; albaT bevri dameTanxmeba, rom kargi iumoristuli moTxrobis dawera aranakleb da ufro Znelicaa, vidre sevdianisa da tragikulis. erTi-ori moTxroba religiurfilosofiur xasiaTs atarebs. erTi maTgani universitetSic wavuRe Cems studentebs "Sua saukuneebis evropuli filosofiis" kursze, rodesac negatiur Teologiaze vla4

parakobdiT (am ucnauri moTxrobis Tema iyo, Tu rogor gaxda RmerTi arafridan yvelaferi). leqsebs rac Seexeba: vfiqrob, leqsis umTavres silamazes ganapirobebs originaluri metaforebi, romelTa naklebobas winamdebare krebuli ar ganicdis, amaSi mkiTxveli, vfiqrob, Tavad darwmundeba. erTi sityviT, saqarTveloSi, axali Taobis mwerlebSi, raRac niWieri duRilia, romelic mniSvnelovani cvlilebebisa da ganviTarebis mauwyebelia; Cems Sesavalsac am krebulis erTi Zalian originaluri miniaturis sityvebiT vasruleb: "gamarjoba! Cvenc msofliosken mivdivarT!"

levan gigineiSvili

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alu bloba 2 0 0 9

poezia

maiko mestumre

*** Savosani bebruxana yovel saRamos dadis wyaroze da Cems sevdas ezideba Tixis doqebiT. keTilSobili qalebi muxlmodrekiT evedrebian RmerTs, rom daexsnaT Jruanteli da kabis kalTebze igrZnon Sveba. yovel saRamos, locvis Semdeg Camosxdebian buxrebTan da jvrebs qargaven samkuTxa TavSlebze. da keTilSobili qalebi SehRaRadeben RmerTs, rom aqvT Tvalis Cini da ician qargva. da maT ar ician, rom Cemi Svili brma iqneba da maTze mets dainaxavs. Savosani bebruxana yovel saRamos ezideba wyals Cemi dardis morevidan Tixis doqebiT da misi comiviT magrad mozelili warsulidan kuti purebi cxveba cidan Camongreuli ocnebebiviT. Savosani bebruxana yovel saRamos Caeyudeba nelTbil ToneSi da nacarSi kut purebs eZebs Cemi SvilisTana brmebis dasapureblad da maT pirdaRebul da mwyurval saxeze maxsendeba samyaros dausabamoba. keTilSobili qalebi yovel saRamos muxlmodrekiT SesTxoven RmerTs, rom maTi xerxemlidan gaqrnen WianWvelebi da maT mogrZo kabebs daexsnaT vneba. da Cemi kuti puriT gamokvebili brma Svili maTze mets dainaxavs cis usasrulobaSi. mxolod Savosanma bebruxanam icis, ra sevda dagas CemSi da yovel saRamos ezideba wyals Cemi dardis morevidan Tixis doqebiT. keTilSobili qalebi yovel saRamos SehRaRadeben RmerTs, rom aqvT Tvalis Cini da ician qargva. Cemi Svili brma iqneba da maTze mets dainaxavs!...

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*** me miyvars Seni mSvidi Zili da Seni kanis feri, rZesaviT rom eRvreba Rames da yavasaviT xsnadia sizmrebTan. me miyvars Seni kanis feri, yovel RamiT, roca mWedeli varskvlavebiT gamoWeds cas, da yovel diliT da yovel aiss. me daisamde miyvars Seni mSvidi Zili da Seni kanis feri, rZesaviT rom eRvreba Rames da yavasaviT xsnadia sizmrebTan. *** Seni Tavi gaCerebaze gelodeba fuli gaduxades seqsSi. Ceven apokalifsis Taoba varT. Sen cxel qalaqaSi rCebi marto da mowyenili, irgvliv saSineli simSvidea, Seni yoveli dRe TamaSis dasasruls gavs. ar moikla Tavi. Savbnel mxareebs daumtkice, rom Sen isev feradi xar da SegiZlia gaRimeba. Seni gza isev grZeli da usasruloa. tkivilebi ar aris bolo, ar moikla Tavi! ase ver uSveli samyaros, amoayole suli amosunTqvas da yoveli CasunTqvisas Tavidan daibade! yovel diliT Sexede mzes da mieci sxivebs ufleba, Semovidnen SenSi. CasunTqvisas binZuri haeri esiamovneba Sens filtvebs da igrZeni ca Sens garSemo. Seni Tavi gaCerebaze dgas, Ceven apokalifsis Taoba varT. ar mikla Tavi!!!

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daviT kunWulia

ufalo me bevrjer davrCenilvar martodmarto ukacriel qalaqSi, Rrublis Savi urdoebi isrebs rom uSenen. me bevrjer gavufenivar sarecxiviT xelebdakapiwebul diasaxliss. me bevrjer gadamdebia surdo gripSeyrili Semodgomisgan, qariviT rom vixvetavdi Wadris xmel foTlebs. me bevrjer... magram arasdros damiCivlia `ufaloo~, da zecisken ar aRmipyria vedrebiT Tvalebi. axlac gazquraze Semdges TeTrCaCianma mzareulebma xinkliani qvabiviT da Camodgma ki daaviwydaT...

*** gudians dakargvia guda. SexedeT erTi, rogor gdia TovlWyapSi Cazelili balRebis pawia fexebiT, romelTac Tavi gaiTavisufles da gabneuli aluCebiviT mimoifantnen.

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giorgi Sonia

*** axla ubralod gadamivlis Rrubeli Tavze da isev cremli eparebaT sevdian Tvalebs. Cumad vocnebob davrdomili, rom viyo navze, axla ubralod gadamivlis Rrubeli Tavze... yvelgan nislia, viyurebi mal-male gzaze da Tumca vici, ver vuSveli daRalul azrebs, axla ubralod gadamivlis Rrubeli Tavze da isev cremli ekarebaT sevdian Tvalebs...

*** suli gauZlebs yvela godebas da mixaria rom siCumea, vxedav awmyoSi bevr mwuxarebas da es karebi dasasrulia. axla imdenad movcildi zecas, axla imdenad var dabneuli, daveZeb yvelgan simarTles, rwmenas da vkargav sadRac nislebSi yvelas, xmel foTlebs nela awvimT, faqizad, bunebac TiTqos tragikulia, es yvelaferi ar Rirs kamaTad, radgan es grZnoba daisrulia. da Sen ar misce aravis fici, Tumc varskvavebi isev qrebian. iq gamoCndeba umweo Citi da misi sulic danamulia. axla es wvima aCnia leqsebs, leqsebic Cumad, nazad tirian da gavuyvebi ucnaur xazebs, romlebic ukve arsad midian. xedav? Semcvala drosTan Widilma da Cems saxls adgas muxis Crdilebi, isev maocebs oqtombris wvima da ucnauri melodiebi.

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sofo miqiaSvili

TuTisferi aq wvima iSviaTad modis. bednierebis xes meorenairad simdidris xes eZaxian da borjomis boTliT usxamen wyals yovel saRamos... aq xSiradaa qari. uyvarT misi ar SemCneva da ukeTes SemTxvevaSi masTan brZola... aq ar ician, rom qari waiRebT... aq TuTas iSviaTad Wamen, radgan Tumca Zalian tkbilia, Zalian uTxupnis saxes da xelebs... aq urCevniaT sufTad iyvnen... aq urCevniaT xmaurianad. ar axsovT, rom martoobis dasasrulTan bazaria da buzebis bzuils, romelic mas axlavs, qaris zuzunze advilad eguebian... aq xSirad loculoben, ufro xSirad samarSuto taqsebSi, da ufro xSirad imitom, rom bednierebis xe, romelsac meorenairad simdidris xes eZaxian, didi gaizardos... aq eSiniaT Sidsis, Tumca amboben, rom uyvarT... aq ar ician, rom Sidsi didi siyvarulia... aq eSiniaT... radgan yvelaferi aqvT, rom daicvan Tavi da araferi, rom daculi iyvnen... aq hgoniaT, rom mokvdebian da hgoniaT, rom cocxloben...

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... Tumca, Sen ras giyvebi, de... Sen boTlebs yovelTvis agdebdi da iSviaTad mosuli wvimiT savse Tmebs awuravdi yvavilebs, romlebisTvisac saxelebi arasodes dagirqmevia... Sen tuCebi wylisferi gqonda da xelebze martoobis naoWebSi TuTisfrad gqonda amovsebuli forebi... mec aseTive var. bevri amosavsebi naoWiT, romelsac ver xedaven, radgan Cemi Tmebic iSviaTad mosuli wvimiTaa savse da misi wveTebi avseben maT... mec miyvars qaris zuzuni, magram roca SenTan vatan kiTxvas, sicocxle metia Tu ara, vidre mogoneba, is zuzuniTve mpasuxobs da amitom, ar vici, Rirs Tu ara wrewiris centris Zebna wreze siarulTan erTad... ar vici, de... albaT isic SeiZleba vifiqro, rom Tu wres mTlianad movivli da SevZleb SigniT yvela mogoneba Sevinaxo, centri sasacilo sityva gaxdeba da zuzuns gadafaravs... Cven xom, de, qars ise SeveCvieT, siyvaruli viswavleT misi da zuzunsac ise viyenebT, rogorc Cven gvinda... xan misi xmiT viviwyebT aqaurobas da xan vaCumebT da vusmenT bzuils, rom gvaxsovdes, rom aq wvima iSviaTad modis da Cveni martoobis TuTisfrad amovsebuli naoWebidan Rirs gadmovRvaroT tkbili wyali, romelsac aqvs feri, romelic Znelad amodis... da arasodes vikiTxoT imis saxeli, visac daecema.

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dalaqis paradoqsi mamaCemi civi kacia, wignebis mZime suni asdis da kabinetis daketva uyvars. Cemi Zmebi mxolod uqaro amindebSi gadian gareT, bebiaCemi ki hamakSi arasodes wolila, amitom mis sxeulze daxatul kubikebSi arasodes aravis uTamaSia `krestiki-noliki~. papaCems mwvane cremliani Tvalebi da erTi kbili aqvs. deidaCemi mzisferia da radgan varskvlavebs Crdilavs, isini arasodes unaxavs. mamidaCems grZel xveul TmaSi Rame aqvs Cayolili da roca iRviZebs, hgonia sxvebs sZinavT da amitom fexakrefiT dadis. Cems deidaSvils mzisferi dedisgan damwvari kani gamoyva, siamovnebs, roca am kanze eferebian. biZaCemi cxenosani iyo, mere aivnidan gadmoxta. Cems erT megobars arteriebSi iasamnisferi sisxli daudis da qera Tma ewvis lodinisgan. meores mkerdze vercxlisferi laqebi aqvs da yovel dilas feradi funjebiT iRebavs adamianisfrad sxeuls. mesame mTvareulia - uyvars zRva da sicilisgan ifsams. meoTxe megobari mxolod sxvebis TanxlebiT mReris, elodeba qals, romelic marto umRerebs iavnanas. mexuTe megobars xoWoebiani saxli aqvs, amitom kinofakultetze filtrTmcodneobaze swavlobs. meeqvse megobari mas swavlaSi exmareba yovelTvis, roca scalia, radgan susti Zvlebi pirveli megobris iasamnisferi sisxliT aqvs miwebebuli da yovelTvis mis zars elodeba. Cemi meSvide megobari srulyofilia, da radgan amosasunTqi haeri CasasunTqs sWarbobs, asTmis SetevebiT itanjeba. Cemi merve megobari multiplikatoria, magram mTel

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dros xalaTiT oTaxebSi siarulSi da fexmZime katis momavali knutebis raodenobaze fiqrSi atarebs. Cems mecxre megobars amelis amsgavseben - sawyali, verav isTan ambobs, rom klubebSi siaruli da cxovrebis gineba uyvars. Cemi meaTe megobari Samania... xandaxan guli swydeba, rom arasodes arsad agviandeba... Cemi meTerTmete megobari TviTmfrinavebs awyobs da Tbili sagani rogorc ki exeba, uxerxulobisgan TviTmfrinavebis fotoebs iRebs jibidan. Cemi meTormete megobari savse mTvaris dros Tmas cisfrad iRebavs da katebisTvis cekvavs. Cemi mecamete megobari gasxivosnda da amis gamo sindisi qenjnis. kidev erTi megobari sardafSi cxovrobs. sawolTan klounis formebi ulagia, magram mtvris gad mosawmendad veRar iclis - sul sZinavs. Cemi pirveli siyvaruli pidarastia, meore - ioga. Cemi mesame siyvaruli gvirilebs putavs, ReroebiT saxls xuravs da mere saxlidan garbis. Cemi meoTxe siyvaruli dawolamde koncentraciis savarjiSoebs akeTebs, da roca veraferze koncentrirdeba, Cexovis ginebas iwyebs. Cems mexuTe siyvaruls nestis suni asdis, Tumca imuqreba, rom Camoibertyavs da mere saTevzaod wava. Cemi meeqvse siyvaruli iseTi ubraloa... iseTi ubralo... Cemi meSvide siyvaruli wiTel beRurebs elodeba da yvela xmaurze kani gulis adgilas gamWvirvale uxdeba. Cems merve siyvaruls dakargva unda, magram dasakargavad adgili ar yofnis. Cemi mezoblebi wyvil-wyvilad tirian

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da cal-calke ebadebaT erTnairi kiTxvebi. Cemi personaJebi depresiuli mimikebiT da Teatraluri grimiT bunuelis gmirebs gvanan. Cemi xelmZRvaneli films ase amTavrebs: `- ipove? - jer vera." operaturis Cems leqtors ki axlo xedebis gadaRebis erideba. dedaCemi angelozebma mzareulad aiyvanes da yoveldRe tartaletkebs acxobineben. Cemi RmerTi daiRala Cems fanjaraze dawerili survilebis tyuilad wakiTxviT da dilaobiT sawolis alagebaSi mexmareba. Cemi quCa yvelasia, vinc masze dadis. Cemi saxli me arasdros damilagebia. Cemi oTaxis kuTxeebSi Spaleri axeulia da dawebebuli, bavSvobaSi yviTeli kabiT vijeqi da Cemi naxatebiT axali Spaleris gakeTebas vcdilobdi. miyvarda gabrtyelebul comze Cemi naxelurebis datoveba da yureba, rogor Wamdnen Cems naxelurebian `peCeniebs". miyvarda mZinare dedaCemis yureba yvelaze tkbilsunian oTaxSi. miyvarda istoriebis mogoneba da maTi yvelasTvis armoyola, miyvarda Tovli da Cemi ZmisTvis arTqma, rom vcnobdi cxenosan biZaCems santaklausis formaSi. mkerdis amosvlamde Cemi laqebiani megobris sxeulze tirili miyvarda. miyvarda fiqri, rom viswavlidi qsovas da Cems mcivana Zmebs movuqsovdi did, Tbil kaSneebs. kidev miyvarda Cemi meore Zmis awewili Tmebi qarian amindSi. kidev werilebis wera momavlidan - vugonebdi cxovrebas, romelic elodaT. Cems erT mes hgonia, rom me yvelasi ukeT mesmis, vidre maT sakuTari Tavebis. meore mes maTi daxmareba uyvars.

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mesame me ki dabneulia da dalaqis paradoqss ixsenebs: dalaqs wesdebaSi ewera, rom unda gaeparsa Tma yvelasTvis, vinc Tavad ar iparsavda. dalaqi ver mixvda, ra unda eqna sakuTari TavisTvis.

Seexmiane gaCumebuli qaris agonia exmianeba xvalindel setyvas, romelmac dRes Rame cidan varskvlavebi mospo... manqanis Zrava exmianeba gaCumebul qars, radgan winaaRmdegoba misi stiqiaa... Seni stiqiaa miwa, yovel orSabaTs benzinis cisartyelebs exmianebi... yvela SesaZlo perspeqtiva kravs logikur jaWvs, sadac aqsiomebi da logikuri igiveobebia; mesames gamoricxvis kanoni ki mafinqrebinebs, rom an jaWvs SigniT var, an jaWvs miRma... qaRaldis gemebs miaqvT Cveni survilebi horizontTan, aRsasrulamde, Cven ki am survilebis gadarCenaze vuyvebiT Svilebs. sanam konduqtori yvela funTuSas SeWams, gadauRe foto da Seni Svili fonze dawyobil funTuSebs Seexmianeba da horizonts, sadac gadarCenili survilebi iZirebian... Cemi bebiis moqsovili sabani exmianeba velze gaSlil cxvrebs misi bavSvobidan. Seexmaine suls, da Tu mas sZinavs, Seexmiane romelime momxibvlel sxeuls, da Tu ar sZinavs... Seexmiane!.

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nika ZoweniZe

me poeti var qaris fesviviT var da arca var... ar movbezrdebi mTebs da tramalebs, Tu Senma gulma ver damitia, verc martooba gamaTamamebs. me poeti var! usaqmuriviT davdivar, miyvars, vocnebob, vdardob, viRaca fiqrobs, rom sabralo var, viRac ki gulSi Cems bedsa natrobs. RmerTo, me da Sen xom viciT mainc (maradisobas leqsebs rom andob), me rom ar viyo, mTeli qveyana moekideba siyvaruls samtrod. magram ar minda, rom SemiSindes Cemi lamazi, patara satrfo, iman ar icis, rom SeSlili var da `siyvarulis batoni~ ar mTmobs. vis vesizmrebi salosi naTlis, sad vexetebi, ver xvdeba. diliT, mzeSi vbanaobT da galumpuli grZnobs raRacas da Cems mkerdze tiris. ise moawye, rom ver SeniSnos, rogor vkrav caSi zmanebis saltos, an rad vRalatob martoobasTan, an umisobas raRatom vdardob. ra unda davTmo, miTxar, ufalo, Ralatis neba saTnod rom damrTo, me poeti var, magram Sen metad ici, racaa cxovreba marto... ha, Cemi guli, oRond gauSvi samSvidoboze, vinca myavs SigniT. me araferi gamomasworebs, bednierebas mivarTmev sikvdils. netar arian eulni suliT, siyvaruls suliT marto Tu bedavs.

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RmerTo, nuravin gaigebs qveynad, rasac poeti ambobs da xedavs.

rame sxva (galaktions) vxdebi inertuli, mipyrobs apaTia, dRea areuli, wera absurdia, qari nerviulad riTmavs galaktions, ismis oTaxebSi bramsis `rafsodia~, isev sibnelea, isev xmauria, da rogorc arasdros, ise sulerTia, sisxldaRvril quCebis gamWoli kivili, dauokebeli Ramis isteria. bedis qronometri ritmuli nabijiT iTrevs monotonur qaosSi saaTebs, mTvlemare fiqrebi morzes anbaniviT azrebs mTavazoben, rogorc amanaTebs. - viski?! koniaki?!.. - kiTxulobs barmeni, albaT, amaoa axla moisurvo, mainc daJinebiT viTxov ararsebuls: - cota romantika, rame poeturi... vatyob, dedamiwam Sewyvita triali, Tambaqos kvamliviT siCume Camowva. mzeras gakvirvebuls vxvdebi dabneuli: - rame poeturi... cota romantika... iribi RimiliT (Tan viTom ar imCnevs), samyaro dabeWdil menius mTavazobs: SiSi, agresia, sisxli, anarqia... - saswrafod, saswrafod, karebi CarazeT da ar SeeguoT, gTxovT, ar SeeguoT, cxovrebis umkacres da sastik ganaCens! vzivar... yavis naleqs naRveli daetyo, mTrgunavs apaTia... Tumca moatira qarma umZafresi xmebis rafsodia, viTxov mowyalebas, rogorc mawanwala: - rame poeturi... cota romantika...

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nino qopilaSvili

Tbilisi zamTarSia! vimogzaure... rom davbrundi, damxvda dasta Savi furclebis... damxvdnen navebi... Savi navebi... da caze Savi TviTmfrinavebi... me movitace naTura da mimyavda saxlSi... magram mgzavrobas ver gauZlo, damemsxvra gzaSi... da Citebi afrindnen gamxmari xeebidan... movida zamTari TbilisSi, an mivida Tbilisi zamTarTan... mezobli, aivani, gzajvaredini... mwvervalebi da ganrisxeba... gamosvla erqva, ara, ufro gamofxizleba! saxeli raRac momnusxveli Soreuli da mimzidveli zamTari... aq aris... gaixede, quCaze gadarbis... ecdebiT daabijoT, gadaagvaroT, magaram araferi gamogivaT, yvelas gagyinavT... misi sicive miwvdeba zecas da Tqvens sulebs gadmoxedavs... siSoridan... siRrmeebidan... da Tqven yvela daiwyebT kaknals... caze gaiklakneba Savi zolebi... acaxcaxdeba lampionebi... me ki gmiri viqnebi, radgan gavaTavisufle zamTari da me mteri viqnebi, radgan Tqven dagatyveveT...

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TeTri kedlebia... me, mogzaurs, usaSvelod TeTri megzuri myavs... TbilisSi zamTaria... ara, Tbilisi zamTarSia!..

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aleqsandre axalkaci

oTxi kedeli oTxi kedeli, arc erTi kari, oTxi kedeli da arc fanjara... kedlebis iqiT zuzunebs qari, Citebma Sekres caSi kamara. oTxi kedeli - gangeba bedis, oTxi kedeli, vaxsovar vinmes? kedlebis SigniT simRera gedis da am simReras sikvdili ismens. oTxi kedeli, siCume SigniT, oTxi kedeli - samare bneli, kedlebis gareT tirili mesmis da me dReidan aravin melis. oTxi kedeli, arc erTi kari, oTxi kedeli da arc fanjara... kedlebis iqiT zuzunebs qari, da me sikvdilis davrCi amara.

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ana martiaSvili

12345316 #1 is iyo, iyo da iyo is iyo bevri, bevri da bevri imdenad, rom msoflio gaeZRo da msoflios eyo, eyo da eyo, radgan mas hqonda siTbo, siTbo da siTbo da gvaTbobda... #2 mTeli samyaro erTi patara molekulaa RmerTis, romelic gvmarTavs, rom vmarToT TiToeuli samyaro-molekula Cvens sxeulSi... RmerTi gvaswavlis, Tu rogor unda viRmerToT ise, rom ar vicodeT amis Sesaxeb, da RmerTma ar icis, rom gvmarTavs, rom vmarToT samyaroebi molekulebSi... rom vatrialoT dedamiwa atomebSi... #3 me RmerTi var dagrovili leikocitebisgan Semdgari cis da sisxlisferi, cxeli mzis... me SemiZlia Sevqmna da movkla sicocxle...

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#4 me davxate mze da mivaxate cisferi areuloba... gadavaxate yviTeli xazebi da Cavasxi wyali, romelSic ixrCoboda mTvare... da mTvare iyo iseTive kaSkaSa, rogorc me xatvisas... #5 is iyo RmerTi sakuTari molekulebis, Cemebisac... is iyo ca, romelic eZebda damxrCval mTvares Cems naxatze... me ki vmalavdi, vmalavdi yvelas da yvelafers misgan... anda, piriqiT, me mas vmalavdi yvela RmerTisgan da ufro metad misgan, vis molekulaSic vcxovrobdiT da vaTbobdiT da vsaubrobdiT da vkamaTobdiT da vCxubobdiT da vklavdiT erTmaneTs... #3 me var RmerTi milionobiT samyarosi da vici, ramdeni xani sWirdeba samyaros Seqmnas... daujereT im RmerTs, romelSic cxovrobT, rom Semdeg Tqvenc ar mogiwyon bunti molekulebma... daujereT RmerTs, roca ambobs, rom sicocxle Seqmna mxolod eqvs dReSi...

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daujereT, rom Seqmnas da mospobas mxolod da mxolod nebisyofa da eqvsi dRe sWirdeba... #1 is iyo, iyo da iyo is iyo bevri, bevri da bevri imdenad, rom msoflio gaeZRo da is eyo kidec msoflios... #6 ucnauria, magram aravis uyvars Sinabera RmerTebi...

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aleqsandre lorTqifaniZe

hiran! ovva iala! dila iwyeba kvnesiT... ra ucnauri siyvaruli scodniaT aRmosavleTSi, fiqris RrublebiT moqufruli, yovel gamoxedvas feri aqvs wvimis da wvima ki ar Cans... es samefoa ganwiruli embrionebis... ovva iala! minareTebze Semomjdari patiosneba xarbad etaneba amerikul wyurvils... ra ucnauri fiqri scodniaT aRmosavleTSi, TiTqos aq mxolod caa wynari, mzea Rimilis, magram sul miwas CasCerebian tirifebiviT da bavSvi, cremliT xel-pirs rom ibans ganTiadisas, ocnebobs mxolod avtomatze bevri tyviebiT... da aq Tojinebs miuCines ra xania myudro adgili, cecxlis zvinebSi, miwis RrmulebSi... hiran! ovva iala! gakivlebuli vnebebiT da mzis Casvlisas miZinebuli angelosebiT... aq yovel wams sWedaven Tvalebis amboxs, TqrialiT Rvrian sakuTar sisxls gasamravleblad, seraven Rurblebs wvetiani mzeris isrebiT da arc elian cisgan Svebas... ovva iala! dRe sruldeba kvnesiT daRlili qalebiT da bavSvebi talaxebSi ibanen fexebs... hiran! ovva iala! dawnexili ocnebebiT gazipul Tmebsac xSirad etyobaT wuxandeli naocnebari amerikaze... es samyaroa daCexili embrionebis, da gamoWvartlul Tvalis gugebs daniT xeTqaven, rom aRarasdros dainaxon bavSvebis omi da minareTze Semomdgari mola mZinare...

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ovva iala! hiran! ovva iala! ra ucnauri siyvaruli scodniaT aRmosavleTSi... gayviTlebuli kocnebiT da rahaTluhumiT... da sitkbo aRwevs mxolod piris gamoqvabulSi, imis iqiT ki mTebi mwared igrixebian... hiran! ovva iala! ovva iala, hiran! ar CageZinos!

hei!

SiSiniT dabadebul bavSvebs, meeqvsed gardacvlil angelosebs, ultraiisferi gamosxivebis Tvalebs, kontrrevolucionrebs da tbis fskerze daZirul poetebs...

hei, niu-iork! feradia Seni dRevandeli toga da sisxliani saSodan isev gcviva bombebi, rogorc humanitaruli daxmareba Znelad aRsazrdeli ToTo qveynebisTvis... hei, niu-iork! didia saxeli Seni da movedin neba Seni, dauZlureba orsuli samyarosi, amen! hei, sfinqs! romelmac gadaylape udabnoebis guSindeloba da maxaTebiviT daurige naSromebi yalb Teoritikosebs, raTa eambnaT samyarosTvis Sens organizmze... hei, sfinqs! didia saxeli Seni da movedin neba Seni, gaucxoeba Cveni mogonebebis, amen! hei, Sids! yoveldRiurobis naTeliT damwyvdeulo

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da oflian TeZoebze Semxmaro lucifero, radgan moiyvane silamaze aq, golgoTaze da mainc ar geklda kdemamosileba... hei, Sids! didia saxeli Seni da movedin neba Seni, Cveni siyvarulis gaukvdaveba, amen! hei, uiliam Seqspir! isev usasrulod dgamen Sens piesebs eSafotebze, Sizoidur RameebSi izuTxaven uazro sityvebs da jer veravin, sul veravin mixvda, rom hamleti Seni mezoblis kataa... hei, uiliam Seqspir! didia saxeli Seni da movedin neba Seni, yofna-aryofnis formulebiT mumificireba, amen! hei, silikon! isev xocaven Sens wiaRSi bunebriobas, koliziuri aCrdilebiT angreven sxeuls, Sen ki sdumxar, an buybuyeb da Seeqcevi bigmaks da Cipss tuCebis tlekiT... hei, silikon! didia saxeli Seni da movedin neba Seni, gaberva Cveni tvinebis da Tvalis gugebis, amen! hei, RmerTo! jvridan jer arCamoxsnilo da jer armomkvdaro, isev axades fiqrebs Cvensas Tavsaxuravi da Robeebze Camoacves Cveni locvebis fitulebi, rogorc Seni fotosuraTebi negativebSi... hei, RmerTo! rodis iqneba saxeli Seni didi da rodis daadgeba neba Seni avtomagistrals Cveni Tmebisken... maSin, roca Cven amovxocavT irmebs gundebad,

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Tu maSin, roca SeviswavliT yvela inglisurs? hei, RmerTo! Cven Seni uCinari vnebebi varT, sulis mindorze gawolili turistebiviT... amen!

aqeT Tendeba... aqeT Tendeba, TqvenTan ufro bindia albaT, ser koka-kola, sadRac midian planetebi TavgametebiT, rogorc meddebi, sikvdilidan pirvel, dRes, SabaT, sevdis moyola iolia Tu Caetevi reglamentebiT amovsebul sicocxlis kursSi, ledi makdonalds, TqvenTan axla fiqroben ufro, vidre awuxebT problemebi sicarielis, me gTxovT miirTviT tkbili punSi, ar Rirs magdenad umizezo da usaubro kiTxvis pasuxi. simwaris da sigemrielis Tqveneuli axsna, krombaxer, ufro Soria, albaT axla, mTvaris sauflo, da dReebic, Cven rom davlieT gamofxizlebiT, xvdebiT, viclebiT da rom saxels azri ara aqvs, roca saxlad movrTeT Waobi, da usmeno RmerTis madlia, rom ar vizrdebiT.

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aqeT vicvlebiT, TqvenTan ufro sivrcea albaT, mister snikers, moSivdebodaT tomahavkebs sisxlis braesi, Savi ficrebiT, dagviWedes lursmnebi Warbad fonetikis. da vxvdebiT, isev aras gvargebs uzenaesi. TiTqmis dilaa, am miwaze Rameul tanjvis, tvinis arevis, guSindel dRidan suni agvyva ufero Sxamis, ras elodebi, amerika! dro aris lanCis, yavis dalevis, Cven RmerTi gviyvars, da RmerTsac ki ar sjera amis...

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baia buiZe

Cemo megobaro Sen, Cemo megobaro, roca aRtacebiT ferebis silamazeze miyvebi, Tavs giqnev Tanxmobis niSnad, maSin, roca Cemi dabzaruli mxedveloba mxolod Sav-TeTrs aRiqvams. Sen, Cemo megobaro, roca mokrZalebiT qadageb samoTxeze me giRimi, da rom ar SegaSino, Cemi suli jojoxeTs vmalav... Sen, Cemo mSvenierebis motrfiale megobaro, peplebs maTi frTebis mtvris gamo rom ver itan, amitomac garideb Tavs, radgan Cemi Sinagani samyaro herbariumia da mirCevnia, marto viyo alergiuli... Sen, Cemo megobaro, imdenad misabaZi da idealuri xar, rom yovel Sexvedrisas virqmev Semodgomas _ noembris gamomSralTvalebians, vidre sxva saxels movifiqrebde mosatyueblad. Sen, Cemo idealuro megobaro, sulac ara xar Cemi megobari, magram bavSvobidan ase xelCakidebuli mivuyvebiT gzas Sinisaken.

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un aborto ise gaufrTxileblad Camisaxldi, rom amirie mada da gamifuWe xasiaTi. ise gaufrTxileblad Camisaxldi, rom arc mifiqria gadamenaxa SenTvis sasunTqi haeri an ferebi, rom mere maTi garCeva geswavla... ra saWiroa sxva saxelis gamogoneba, roca problemad gicnobT me da is da roca mdumarebam orive gagvTqva. ra mere (?!), roca Seni uformo sxeulis feTqvac mZime danaSaulia, xolo likvidireba - ganaCenad gamotanili... kedlebi, kedlebi, kedlebi... ganSorebisas wamieri wamokivleba da mere daviwyeba ise iolad rogorc gameteba... da axla, roca RvTismadidebeli, aRsarebis furcelze erTsityvian codvad gwer, ver Sekavebuli cremlebiT gilocav Seni ardabadebis dRes.

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ra Seni bralia ra Seni bralia, Tu mamaSeni galoTda, dedaSeni ki sigiJis sasworze dgas... kuzad gazis depresiebi da yovel diliT nevrozis sawolSi iRviZeb da Sublze TmiT malav saxeze amosviringebul tkivilebs... codvili fiqrebi jaWvis rgolebad gkidia yelze da ufro mZimdebi, da Sens gaCenas yoveldRiurad amadli RmerTs... Semodgomis foTlebiviT gaferadebuli ocnebebi skamis fexebTan auxdenlad yria da fanjris rafaze Semoskupebuli, ori TiTis monacvleobiT zomav manZils jojoxeTidan jojoxeTamde. Senamde amoRweuli ezos bavSvebis xmauri gaxsenebs natvras da guli gwydeba, rom ar gergo wilad bavSvoba, ganvlili da gadasalaxi dReebis Semoteva gawiokebs da sxeulis samarTav obieqtSi erTmaneTis monacvleobiT aSuqeb Savfonian, jvarcmul kadrebs da isev iwyeb ori TiTiT manZilis gadaTvlas... magram ra Seni bralia, Tu mamaSeni loTia da dedaSeni ukve gagiJda?! Zalian gTxov, Camodi rafidan!

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giorgi iagoraSvili

ras hgavs?! mzesumziris Wamas hgavs Cveni urTierToba, mzes vumzerT! rodesac mzeras movaSorebT, Tvalebic maSin gvetkineba, magram male gagvivlis. kidev Tovas hgavs, didfantelebian Tovas. Cveni gacnobis dRidan xom Tovs, magram, ratomRac, ver debs. leqsis weris dros melnis gaTavebas hgavs. napovn yelsabams hgavs kidev, romelsac Sens nivTebSi malav, imis SiSiT, patronma ar naxos da ar wagarTvas. iafad nayid karg wigns hgavs, oRond, imdenad iafad, kiTxvis dros nervebi rom geSleba. SeSlilobas hgavs, SiSs... Sen win patara bavSvi rom waiqceva, iseT SiSs hgavs. ici, guSin wvimam Cvens nafexurebs tanebi rom dabana cal-calke da erT samyaroSi, mivxvdi, rom Cveni urTierToba CurCuliT naTqvami frazaa, oRond, imdenad CurCuliT, rom arc iTvleba.

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Cumad aWaRaravebs fanteli miwas, Tan fifiqi faravs nabijs miwians, kidev iTovebs Zalian didxans, gulma Cemken Tu gamogiwia. Tovs, siCumea, qalaqi elis xmauris macnes. nafexurebma gogona gasces. Cumad Tovs, Cumad, da is gogona miirTmevs umad biWis verkocnas, nafexurebma gasces ubralod. Cumad Tovs, Cumad...

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nikoloz guSaraSvili

zamTari fSavSi dauTovia xeoba, aragviRa sCans Wrelada, gadaTeTrebul naZvians Tavni uWiravT medgrada, wifliani da naZvnari goragor mosCans TeTrada, TeTria spetaki Tovli, egre yofila Zvelada. dRes raRa Secvlis oxersa, fanteli modis zecada, Tovli ar uyvars tirifebs, totebs daamtvrevs cerada. nadiric veRar moZraobs, Tovls kvalavs rasme Znelada, sazrdos veRara poulobs, ayvanilia mZevlada. TeTria mTaca yoveli, maRali, sipi, kldiani, namqeri moaqvs qarsaca, tans geyineba tiali. magram lamazi aria mTaSi iremi rqiani, gadmogiCndeba gorzeda, yvirili icis xmiani. veras daaklebs xanjali, verc blagvi, verca fxiani, magram xanjalsa vin dahkravs, erTiRa darCa rqiani. irems uxdeba TeTri mTa, saRamo roa gviani, Tovlic muqad sCans, iremic, dRe aris mokle xniani, daRamdeba da iwyeba cxovreba gza-ekliani.

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oTar kaxiZe

dur az gorgasar, anu haloueni qarTulad me moviare veneciis karnavali. movel aqamdis, rom mixarodes, rom vizeimo saqarTvelos gulisgulSi halloueni. Tan wamoviRe mTeli acma, dasta niRbebis; Tumca, rodesac iq SekrebilT daJinebuli mzera mivapyar, vifiqre kidec, rad sWirdeba Cvens Taobas netav niRabi (halouenisTvis)? magram bolosken mainc Cemma sisxlma iyivla da avirCie mgelis Tavi gorgasalis pativsacemad. - dur az gosgasar! geSinodeT-meTqi, mavrebo! - dur az gorgasar! katebo da mindvris Tagvebo, ,,kruelebo" da jadoqrebo,

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merideT-meTqi! da Zrwoda yvela, patarebi ifantebodnen (SiSSereuli, farTo TvalebiT)... TviTkmayofili, me xom ukve mglisTava gavxdi. da mixaria, cotaTi rom vigorgasale. bolos ki, roca davarbie urCi mtarvali, da guli qarTlis ganiwminda dampyrobelTagan, uecrad, uceb, saidanRac, sarkis win gavCndi, romelsac, isev daJinebuli mzera gavstyorcne da SevamCnie, rom niRabi arc mkeTebia.

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nino daiauri

aTengenobis Rame SatilSi janRi ram Semoxvevia Satils, amays da mrisxanes, Rame TavisTvis butbutebs, qvemoT bans aZlevs mdinare. aTengenoba gaTavda, xevsurT iRreves, ilaRes, daTroba hgulav nislebsac, mTebs dahbrunaven diadebs. Ramem dabura xeoba, varskvlavT ki sZinavT mdumared, aTengenobas suyvelam erTad pativi miages. vaJebma dakles saklavi, imReres, Tan igiJmaJes, yvela CaerTo ferxulSi: nisli, xeoba, mdinare. qalebi modgnen xatis pirs, stexdnen keceuls-xmiadebs, iyo garToba, kiskisi, axalgazrduli silaRe. axla janRi Samaexva Satils, amays da mrisxanes, daTroba hgulav nislebsac, mTebs dahbrunaven tialebs.

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Rreoba mTaSi dahmRerebs xevsuri laRad da amayad, simebze daelavs TiTebi natifi, maita, dagvisxi, dRes vRreobT, Tamadav! bans gvaZlevs midamo, Wiuxi, napiri. maita, daasxi, ar vnanobT arafers, ZarRvebSi gvielavs sicocxle, xalisi, Tu mteri movida, davxvdebiT amayad, Tavs davdebT, rom ukan ar vixevT nabijiT. xaroben xevsurni, xalisiT, Tamamad da cecxli elvarebs mdinaris napirSi, mRerian, bans aZlevs arRuni ankara malimal maismis: daukar!" `damisxi!"

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Tamar foladaSvili

*** mas mere, rac ca Camoiqca da mSobiare dedebma yviriliT Seakaves, da dauZlevevli tkivilisaTvis isev mihgvares ze-cas, axalSobilebi, sadRac viwroebSi Seyenebuli cxvariviT cdilobdnen dabrunebodnen venaxis mtevnebs, rom isev ecxovraT Tbil saSoebSi, sadac ufrosma debma, romlebic ankess ayolili TevzebiviT gaqrnen, dautoves Tbili wyali da grZeli mili, rom ki ar esunTqaT, Zval-rbilSi gasjdomodaT tkivili da sircxvilic... axla is Svilebi mayvlis bardebze xtunaven da Tu nayofs rame SeemTxva, erTmaneTs Txrian Tvalebs da yuris niJarebSi Rrmad ugoreben siyruis beWdebs... mas mere, rac dedebis tkivilma cas adgili miuCina, isini dadian muxlamde amomSrali fexebiT da ukve tkivilgadavlili saxiT mTis ZirebSi... da verc erTi swevs mdinaris wyliT gavsebul mucels Svilebamde...

sofeli sofeli, romelsac ori mxare aqvs da marjvniv, miwadalpobili civi wyliT savse

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quCebi, mTeli bavSvoba mimzadebdi saZirkvels, Robed amosasvlels... xeebis gverdiT Cumad marxavdi Cemi Zvlebis wiwilebs da cocxalad gamxmar herbariumebs mitovebdi buxris Tavze Semomjdari gogonasagan. mere uxmod Sevsebuli wasvlis blankebiT, im sofels, romelsac ori mxare aqvs gza Cagexerga... dai, CaWaobebuli bavSvoba damitove, marcxnidan mosavleli gazafxul-Semodgomamde... gavcivdebi, amomiSre wyali, me Robed darCenili martooba var... roca sibere Cvens papebs loyebs uWamda da Cumad qrebodnen wel-wel dayofili fotoebidan maTi sibrmaveebi, Sen isev Txridi da odesRac dabadebul morebad daWril Robeebs andomebdi Seni bavSvobis saflavebis ojaxs... sasaflao ki gakvaluli niadagiviT wylis mosvla-wasvlamde sadRac qreboda... da CaWaobebul bavSvobaSi Rrmad gaTxril saZirkvels Tevzebis dayrili qviriTiviT sityvebiT acocxleb...

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locva 1. xalxi, romelic uxalisod dgas moZrav gzaze da Cumad pasuxobs pirad telefons, cdilobs, rogorme Cumad gaeqces saTargmn cxovrebas da Tavis enaze Cumad ilocos. RmerTo, daifare WianWvelebi, isini mkbenen da wiTeli laqebi mrCeba samaxsovrod. RmerTo, daifare TeTri qandakebebi, romlebic CemsaviT SigniT pataraze grZnoben, rom gaqvavdnen da yovel Rame ... RmerTo, daifare yoveli Rame, rom SeZlon da gacocxldnen, adamianebis nacvlad, RmerTo, daifare, isini, adamianebis nacvlad rom gvkarnaxoben da Cvenc vyvavilobT, RmerTo, daifare Cemi smena, qalqaSi rom zRvasaviT mesmis da zRvasaviT miyvars sveli asfaltis orTqli... RmerTo, damifare gaqvavebisgan... fermkrTalobisgan, zRapris aivnisgan... RmerTo, damifare Cemi fiqrebisgan, maTi meSinia... xalxi, romelic wignebs ydebis mixedviT Cumad alagebs da SinaarsiT gadasawyob Taroebs Cumad abralebs, rom furclebi yvelaze mZimea, rom haeri TeTria da maTi zewrebic haerma Camoxsna aivanze gabmuli saubridan... RmerTo... daifare haeri!

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2. didi xania ar uwvimia, cisartyelac daikarga da qalaqi damtveril eklesias daemsgavsa, sadac loculoben ara RmerTebze wvimaze. RmerTo, daifare RmerTi. RmerTo, daifare dedaCemi ori feris fanjara rom aqvs cisferi da mwvane. RmerTo, daifare mamaCemi, Cumi molodini rom hyavs da ver aqrobs. RmerTo, daifare namsxvrevebi, fexebs rom miWris da ararsebobs ufro mWreli nam sxvrevebi, xelebs rom damiWris da momklavs. RmerTo, daifare sarkeebi, RmerTebs rom gvamgvaneben da sinamdvileSi `unamdvilo" nagavsayrelebi rom varT. RmerTo, daifare mezRapreebi, sanTlebi rom daaqvT wylis meore napiras da smenis magier, mxolod yiduloben. RmerTo, daifare ganieri mxrebis werilebi, rusulad rom weren da RmerTo, daifare TiTebi, rom anonimurad Segilocon CemTan laparakisas. RmerTo, daifare calmxare saxlebi, meore mxares rom bunebaSi gadian. RmerTo, daifare martoobebi da umartoo quCis ZaRlebi. RmerTo, daifare sardafebSi damwyvdeuli Seyvarebuli peplebi, daRvrili rZe da gaqcevebi. RmerTo, daifare Sav-TeTri sigamxdre da mimsgavsebuli Svilebi, kibeebidan rom xtunaoben. RmerTo, daifare boroteba,

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cas rom saxuravi waarTva da saqanelaze yris fiqrebs. RmerTo, daifare sinaTlis dasasruli, me rom ver gicno da RmerTo, damifare gamomwyvdeuli, atirebulic damifare. RmerTo, daifare carieli boTlebi, jer rom ver aivso wyliT da wylis sizmrebic daifare. RmerTo, daifare wvima, rom fanjrebi mivxuroT. RmerTo, daifare RmerTebi...

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salome SengeliZe

`ukaco saxli~ 1 Cemi saxlis saZirkveli dedaCemia, saxuravi ki - `ca-firuzi~, katexizmosaviT gazepirebuli. kedlebi Cemi coliT da SviliT gavamyare aTbalian miwisZvras uZlebs. aRmosavleTis kedlis mxares ufalia, romelsac xandaxan Cemi coli Tu Camoxsnis mtvrisagan gasawmendad. coli am dros fiWasaviT xdeba, misi yoveli ujredidan locva iRvreba TafliviT, romlidanc odesme mravali Svili Camoiqneba, axla ki jer erTi Svili gvinTia sanTeliviT. aRmosavleTisaken Cveni mzecaa, ufliT amosuli da arasodes Casuli, yvela mzeze ufro mwveli da xangrZlivi: zamTarSive rom gvkvirtavs da gazafxuls iseTi msxmoriareni vxvdebiT, Cemi damZimebuli coli milionobiT saalerso sityvas mSobiarobs, magram `aborti~ yoveli Cxubis Semdeg gardauvalia. me ki ise vmwifvar, rogorc SemiZlia, radgan ufro CrdiloeTiT var male dasavleTma finali unda maTamaSos! samxreTiT papanaqeba SuadRe dgas da Crdilebs gvimoklebs, usxeuloba ki Cveni xorcieli survilebis gamo gveuxerxuleba da SuadReSi Sesvlac amitom gveSinia; Svils es saerTod akrZaluli aqvs: vaiTu, TavSi es damRupveli koconi Cauvardes

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da Tavalebis moxasxase kordi gadauwvas... *** axla Cven nenes Semdeg aviTvlebiT!... is dabadebamde jer safeTqelSi myavda, mere mtkivneulad amoZravda: Tvalebis TeTronebSi xSir-xSirad Semocurebuli, xamxamisas linzasaviT cxaddeboda da roca xorxamde CamoqveiTda, Cemma colma wiTeli tuCebi Seageba da dafexmZimda. me ki, safeTqeldacariebulma, iseTi unayofo fiqrebi vSvi, TiTqos milionobiT sapnis operis meti arasdros araferi menaxa. dabadebis Semdeg nenem dawyebiT klasebSi dagvabruna da klasis damrigeblobac warmatebiT SeiTavsa: klasidan klasSi gadasasvlel gamocdebs zedmeti simkacriT gvitarebs, Cven ki Tvla mxolod samis farglebSi gamogvdis: Cven da nene... axla Cven nenes Semdeg aviTvlebiT. warsuli rTuli ariTmetikaa, romelic swavlis Semdeg uceb gvaviwydeba da awmyoSi mxolod ramdenime cifrsRa vtovebT ra viciT, raSi gamogvadges principiT...

2 cxra mTasa da cxra zRvas iqiT darCa Cemi saxli, ase nacnob `ca-firuz-xmeleT-zurmuxtSi~ Camxobili da msxmoiare Cemi ojaxiT, romelic erT aramelodiur simReras imxela xmiT kivis, klaviSebi amouvarda, bgeris mwvervalze ki me amiyvana, sizmariviT molandebuli, erT usaxelo da WuWyian mdinareSi TeTrraSdanisluli,

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ruxi da mSieri, verdasrulebuli emigranti. mec, yvela sxva emigrantis mgsavsad, iZulebiTi var: Cemi iZulebiTi cxadis xelovnuri gamwvaneba WuWyian da ariTmetikul `mwvane Suqs~ Seicavs, romelsac col-Svils TveSi erTxel vugzavni im imediT, rom nenes moxasxase kordi arasodes dabinZurdeba. aq sizmrebic ki aralegaluri maqvs: ojaxi sizmrad akrZaluli fufunebaa da nisls ar uxdeba, gauvals. Cemi colisagan xandaxan ferad-ferad werilebs viReb, aSkara kontrasts, sadac weria, rom qveynidan, sadac davibadeT, sadac mze Cveni gulebidan amodis da Cadis, sadac verasodes iswavlian, rom dro fulia, uamrav dilas migzavnis da yoveli dila Cven wil haers, wyals da miwas Seicavs da dapirebas, rom Cveni wili haeridan, wylidan da miwidan sahara arasodes gamoCndeba. magram quCaSi imden mosiarule mowikwike meqanizms vxedav (big-benis Rirseul Svilebs WanWikebi arasodes wamostkivdebaT), colis gamogzavnili dilebi miRamdeba da sisxli mtkivdeba, romelic aris gaxseneba miwis, sadac verasodes iswavlian, rom dro fulia.

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3 Cemi finali ukve eqvsi Tvea erT patara oTaxSi TamaSdeba, sadac yoveldRe gisosebiT mokbeCil mzes baliSis qveS vinaxav da RamiT Svils visizmreb, qarvisfers, kidev Sen, dedaCemo, bindisfero...

*** de, sizmarSic ver gpatiob Cems ZaldatanebiT arsebobas, romlis gasautkivreblad bavSvobaSive sigareti gavaRvive da didobaSi, albaT, mainc RmerTisa da Sen gamo, mtkvris wyalmcenareebze mudmivi fiqri gadaviviwye: axla ki aRarc potenciuri TviTmkvleli var, da aRarc `kamikaZur sizmrebs~ vxedav. maSinac bindisferi iyavi, dedaCemo, Cemi saknis kedlebisferi, yoveldRe Cemgan Tavdaxsnis ideas TeTr niJaraSi anTxevdi, Tvalebidan cremli ki ara, nesti da Cemi mosalodneli dabadeba gwveTavda mamaCemis gadamwyveti xmis uflebiT. ase iyo Tu ise, davibade da ager ukve meramdene welia, ukidegano siyvarulSi macxovreb, romelSic xandaxan danaSaulis rifi Cans Seni codva, milionobiT qalis sulsa da sxeulSi gaTqvefili, romelzec milionobiT ardabadebuli bavSvis guli frialebs.

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mas Semdeg giSeriviT xar, dedaCemo, iseTi gaafrTebiT icav Cems arsebobas, RamiT am ucxo qveynis nestian sakanSi gadaxlarTuli wyalmcenareebis nacvlad Wrel-Wrel sizmrebs masizmreb da Svils, mxolod sakuTari sisxliTRa nagrZnobs, Cems tkivilian mdinareSi `smailikebiani~ naviT SeumCnevlad Semocurebuls. Cems tkivilian mdinareSi milionobiT ankesia Cakiduli da yvela talRa gausaZlisad mtkiva, magram wyaldidobas arasodes viSvelieb: sakani rom gasaZlisi gavxado, gubesaviT davpataravdebi da Cemi Svilis nacvlad bayayebi Camisaxldebian.

*** netav meramdene Tvea verSvili, vermeuRle da vermama var da yoveldRe fanjris mier mokbeCili ramdenime grami mziT Svils da cols vilandeb, Taflisferebs, kidev Sen, bindiano dedaCemo.

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Chocolate guys irakli tomaraZe Zirs daxta da muxlebSi odnav moixara. me am dros ukve paraSuts vixsnidi. iraklim tansacmlis gasworeba daiwyo: nacrisferi materiis swori Sarvali ecva da aseTive pijaki, SigniT - Savi perangi mokle sayeloTi, ufro sworad, sayelos mokle bortebiT, romelsac saocrad uxdeboda viwro, Savi halstuxis akuratuli kvanZi. saocari biWia, ase saaRlumed gamowyobils gadmoxtoma ram moafiqra! SuadRe iyo. moRrubluli ca mzis Suqs Tbil da mZime filtrs adebda. Cven ragbis moedanze videqiT. mwvane, xasxasa balaxze Cveni TeTri paraSutebi daxocili weroebiviT eyara. Cemi Savi batinkis msxvili TeTri Toki weros kiseriviT gaWimuliyo. rogorc iqna, paraSutis yvela samagri movixseni - uamravi balTaa. Savi batinkebi mecva, viwro jinsi da sqeli maudis mokle pijaki didi Savi RilebiT. pijakidan lurji puloveri SigadaSig pikanturad Canda. an me rogor daveSvi am tansacmliT?! saocaria... aseT Tbil da msuye ganaTebaze irakli tomaraZis kostiumi Zalian kargad exameboda mwvane mindors, romelzec TeTri paraSutebi eyara. irakli Zalian gamxdari meCvena. axla Zalian hgavda Tavis Zmas - konstantines, romelic Cvens gundSi sigrZeze yvelaze Sors xteboda, sworzec da aRmarTSic. - koka rodis gafrinda? - vkiTxe iraklis, romelic Cemze win midioda. - or ianvars, Rame. - aTenis mere aRar minaxavs. - eg isev barselonaSia. - sami welia, ar minaxavs. - ukve Senze maRalia, eqvsi da cxra inCia. daburuli xeebi gaviareT. Cven win aguriT naSenebi Zveli, samsarTuliani Senoba gamoCnda. ori fligeli simetriulad iyo aqeT-iqiT ganlagebuli. gverdze saqvabe idga da grZeli Savi milidan TeTri kvamli amodioda, iseTi TeTri, TiTqos am Caxavsebul aguris xuxulaSi axali papi airCies da axla sixarulis droa. me da irakli isev Senobisken mivdiodiT. vigrZeni, rom

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mxrebze raRacebi ritmulad macvioda. xelSi gaurkveveli jekebi da sadenebi momxvda. uecrad gamaxsenda, rom Tavze tankistis qudi mefara. ai, Turme iraklis xma mogudulad ratom mesmoda! quds ar movixdi, lamazia da Cems dRevandel Cacmulobas uxdeba. tankistis qudi nataliam maTxova, frenisas Tavi ar gageyineba da dacemisas dartymisganac dagicavso. - iq ratom mivdivarT? - vkiTxe isev Cems megobars. - gamofenaa. `gamofenaze paraSutebiT movediT", - gavifiqre me, `viRacebi fanjridan dagvinaxavdnen da axla, albaT, erTi weli Cvenze ilaparakeben... Zalian kargi, SemdegSi paraplaniT moval!" TvalSi SesasvlelTan Camokiduli abra momxvda: `kentis sagrafo, isternvilis wm. Tomas saxelobis sasuliero skola". kari WrialiT daixura da bnel sivrceSi aRmovCndiT. marcxniv, odnav moSorebiT, kibes zemodan wamosuli Suqi mkrTalad anaTebda. iqiT wavediT. sibneleSi raRac rbils davabije, iseTi SegrZneba iyo, TiTqos axlad daxocil zazunebs gadavuare. - Zirs ra yria? - xeli gavkari iraklis. - ar vici, magram ase mgonia, TiTqos mkvdari zazunebia. - mec, magram ara mgonia, sasuliero skolaSi zazunebi hyavdeT. meore sarTuli carieli iyo, mesameze rom avediT, pirvel rigSi xmauris talRam damartya. uamravi nacnobi adamiani iyo. pirvelad kedelze Camokidebuli belarusis respublikis rukebi davinaxe, mere, cota gverdze gamofenili muhamed alis studiuri Sav-TeTri fotoebi. zustad ise gavxdi, rogorc `teit modernSi", kafesTan. xalxSi odnav win gaviwie da ramdenime nacnobs gavuRime. mivxvdi, rom mSvenieri adgili iyo axali gogoebis asagdebad. Tan iseTi gogoebis, mere rekviT rom ar gawuxeben. Cven, mxatvrebi, ufro erTjerad da mxolod yofili emociis daWeras vcdilobT. Tundac aseTi Tavyrilobis after party-ze Sexvedra ramdenime gogosTan, bevri kokaini, arayi da jgufuri seqsi aseTi emociisTvis miswrebaa. iraklis mxars iqiT, barTan, espaneli gogo davinaxe, maRali da mziani. gogo mitrialda da barmens raRac uTxra. `dagadni dundulze!" - gavifiqre da misken wavedi.

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- dainaxe? iraklim saxeloze damqaCa da gamaCera. Cem gverdiT TeTrTmianma da brolisTvalebianma salomem Caiara da wamis meaTediT gadmomxeda. am dros mokle Tma gaufrialda da cisferi Suqis sxiviT gaunaTda. zustad ise Caiara, rogorc maSin, pirvelad sizmarSi rom vnaxe. mere TeTrTmiani salome Semiyvarda da sizmarSi yovelRame vnaxulobdi. espaneli gogosken veRar wavedi. - wamodi darbazSi! - irakli eqspoziciisken waviyvane. raRacnairi maketebi iyo gamofenili: uSno, mtvriani, moZvelebuli dizainis, cudad ganaTebuli da is plastmasic ki usiamovno SegrZnebas mitovebda, romelic maketis masalad iyo gamoyenebuli. - zemoT aixede, mogwons? - miTxra iraklim. Werze Zalian didi maketi iyo miWedebuli, uzarmazari. zed simetriulad ganawilebuli patara xis kotejebi idga wiTeli saxuravebiT, imdeni, rom ver davTvale. Werze gamofenil makets oTxive mxridan kedlebze damagrebuli kilovatiani yviTeli skilebi anaTebda. - ar momwons, - vuTxari iraklis, - ase mgonia, Tavdayira vdgavar. Tan saSinlad simetriulia. - ai, yvelaze magari eqsponati! - iraklim mimatriala da xeli darbazis siRrmisken gaiSvira. iq didi TeTri dafa iyo Weridan CamoSvebuli da zed garkveviT ewera: `belgiuri Sokoladi". oqrosfer folgaSi gaxveuli Sokoladis burTulebi Sav xaverdze eyara. gverdze Savi tomara-zurgCanTebi eyara, gaxsnili da SokoladiT pirTamde savse. - ramdenia, Tan ra gemrieli! - wamoiZaxa iraklim, - zogi albaT nuSiania, zogs tyis Txili aqvs, an, ubralod, rZiania! Cemma megobarma ori burTula moipara da erTi me momca. me sufTa Sokoladi Semxvda, mware, msuye da srulyofili gemoTi. garSemo uamravi ucnobi da nacnobi damTvalierebeli gamofenili nimuSebis mxatvrul Rirebulebaze msjelobda. moulodnelad yvela fanjrebs miawyda, mere darbazSi Cxubi atyda. - wavediT, irakli! Sokoladis erTi tomara aviRe da zurgze movikide. iraklim meore aiRo. kedelSi gavediT da kibeze CavirbineT. ragbis moedani ukve moCxubrebiT iyo savse. iq veRar mividodiT. `netav

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ra unda vqnaT?!" - gavifiqre da gavCerdi. - aqeT wamodiT! - gavigone aleqsis xma. Sevxede da gavocdi: aleqss samxedro forma ecva, mxarze saxmeleTo SeiaraRebuli Zalebis Wreli gerbi hqonda mikruli, xelSi ki uzarmazari tyviamfrqvevi eWira. gamaxsenda, rom aleqsi straikbolis moyvaruli iyo da davmSviddi. - straikbolisaa, ho? - vaniSne iaraRze. - ara, namdvilia! Tu ar gjera, Seamowme! aleqsma tyviamfrqvevi gamomiwoda. saqvabisken mivdiodiT. iaraRi namdvili `er-ge-de" gamodga, Cexuri warmoebis. iraklis mSvidi saxe hqonda da xelSi, ratomRac, didi mrgvali varcli eWira. warmodgena ar maqvs, saidan wamoiRo. - gaxede, ra ambavSi arian! - aleqsma gverdze, sabavSvo baRis ezoSi moCxubari biWebisken gamaxeda. erTma meores didi xmali Caartya da marjvena xeli mxrianad CamoaTala. daWrili iariT nakverCxalze daeca da aSiSxinda. uceb gonze moego, daiRmuvla da wamoxta. saxe Sewuxebuli hqonda, samagierod, momwvari mxridan sisxli aRar mosdioda. daWrili xmlians mivarda da marcxena xeliT Sarvali Semoaxia. xmlians traki gamouCnda, SigniT mxolod strngi bikini da golfis getrebi ecva. moCxubrebi gaCerdnen, misken xelebi gaiSvires da dacinva dauwyes. saqvabidan isev TeTri boli amodioda. mis win oTxi uSvelebeli cacxvi idga. saqvabisgan moSorebiT, bostanSi qali wakuzuliyo da pomidvris CiTilebs rgavda. iraklis varcli gamovarTvi, moviqnie da gavisrole. varcli CiTilebian qals moxvda, waaqcia da ferdobze kiviliT gaiyola. - wadiT! - mibrZana aleqsma da mxedruli salami momca. - am bargiT SeZleb? - vkiTxe iraklis da Sokoladze vaniSne. - mgoni ki. didi xani araa, rac zrda Sevwyvite. xelebi moviqnieT da saqvabis zemoT avfrindiT. kidev erTic da ukve cacxvebs zemoT viyaviT. ai, sabavSvo baRi da bikiniani xmliani biWi. qvemoT oqrosferma burTebma daiwyo cvena - iraklis CanTa gaxsniliyo da Sokoladebi moCxubrebs acvioda. - oqros wvima! ra lamazia! - daiyvira iraklim da Sokoladebi isev gadayara. - kokasTan xom ar gavfrindeT? Sokoladi kidev bevri

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gvaqvs. - gauxardeba! - aba ra, belgiuri Sokoladia! - vuTxari da xelebi erTic moviqnie.

herkules konstanidis irakli konstandinisi saerTod ar iyo Cemi naTesavi. dedaCemi da dedamisi erTad swavlobdnen miunxenSi germanuli enis kursebze. erTmaneTs iqidan vicnobT. maSin orive patarebi viyaviT. mere saberZneTi evrokavSirs SeuerTda, cxovrebis done gamosworda da irakli da dedamisi Tavis qveyanaSi dabrundnen. me da dedaCemi mainis frankfurtSi gadavsaxldiT da male moqalaqeobac miviReT. bosniaSi dabrunebas arc vapirebdiT mTeli rigi mizezebis gamo. miunxenSi me da irakli yoveldRe erTad viyaviT da mogvwonda erTmaneTTan yofna. me musulmani var, is ki orTodoqsi qristiani iyo. religia orives fexebze gvekida. fexebze gvekida ra, bavSvebs am saqmis namdvilad araferi gagvegeboda. skeitiT davgoravdiT da saRamoobiT irakli ukravda. magrad momwoda misi dakruli da mSurda, imitom rom me beq flipis garda arafris gakeTeba vicodi. pianinos ki modi da ukeTe beq flipebi. iraklis dakvra dedamisma aswavla. bevri ki araferi icoda, aTi wlis iyo da cota raRacas axerxebda: ramdenime martivi nawarmoebi klasikidan da ori berZnuli melodia icoda. magram me magrad momwonda da mindoda mec damekra ase... ase mainc. mere, skeitze rames rom ver akeTebda, davcinodi. mere gadasaxldnen. Teqvsmetis rom gavxdi, radioSi daviwye muSaoba praqtikantad. musikaluri radio iyo FM96,9-ze. magari audioTeka hqondaT da Tan miqSerze muSaobac maswavles, cota fulsac mixdidnen da iq yofna magrad momwonda. erTi wlis Semdeg eTerSic damsves. kidev erTi wlis Semdeg Cemi Tayvanismcemlebic ki myavda msmenelebSi, picas migzavnidnen xolme Ramis eTeris dros. im picas dacva Wamda. erT dRes radioSi xveleba amivarda da eTerSi veRar gavedi, mikrofoni ki sisxlis wveTebiT davasvele. eqimma Tqva, tuberkulozis niSnebi aqvso. susti

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filtvebi mqonia da kvebac ar myofnida Turme. me xorcs ar vWamdi da Turme esec moqmedebda. frankfurtSi kidev haeri Zalian dabinZurebulia. me saxlSi vegde da vgminavdi. Tavs janmrTelad vgrZnobdi da gareT mindoda. yurebSi ararsebuli skeiterebis xmauri mesmoda da vgiJdebodi. mere dedaCemma naxmari kompiuteri moitana Tavisi monitoriT. interneti CavrTeT. Tavi sabanSi Cavyavi da ise davaxvele. mere sisxliani xelsaxoci davWmuWne da baliSis qveS Sevtene. magrad ar mindoda, rom dedaCems daenaxa, yvelaferi oqrosaviT midioda bolo periodSi. sisxlsac iSviaTad viRebdi. dedaCemma daiyvira, feisbuqze irakli da dedamisi vipoveo. ukve sami weli iyo iraklis Sesaxeb araferi vicodi. bolos dabadebis dReze gavugzavne petruCianis da jaretis diskebi. Tan misamarTic ar vicodi, savarudod gavugzavne. ravi me, miuvida ro?! dedaCemma konstantinidisebi daimegobra da aTinam CatSi rom moswera, sixarulisgan akivilda. aTinam Cemi Campali filtvebis ambavi rom gaigo, dedaCems egreve uTxra: midi, Caalagebine Cemodani da gamouSvi CemTan, argostilionSi irakli daxvdeba da wamoiyvanso. aTenis aeroportSi Cavfrindi da mere wavida avtobusiT CaliCi. Zalian didxans vimgzavre. mivdiodi adriatikis mxarisken, kunZul keTaliniaze. mesolongionamde CavaRwie. sazizRari klimatia saberZneTSi. Zalian cxela, qveynis SigniT haeric ki gamxmaria, zRvis pirze ki samoTxis filialia. mesolongioni Zalian lamazi gamodga, magram daTvaliereba ver movaswari, gemze Sevxti da keTaliniisken wavedi. arasodes scadoT gembanze skeitiT sriali, Torem bocmani amova da sul kargis traks gaginebT. gemma kunZuls samxreTidan Semouara da argostolionis navsadgurSi Sevida. me magari sazizRari gunebis kaci var, me TviTonac ar vici, ra miyvars, ra mixaria, ra maRizianebs da, erTi sityviT, merideT, ra! axla ki iraklis danaxva ise gamixarda, rom mzis wnuli amicaxcaxda. Cemi bavSvobis Zmakaci irakli, olisac rom ver akeTebda skeitze, axla navsadgurSi idga da xtunaobda, xelebs miqnevda, Wyioda da mokled, ra... magrad gavixareT. oRond berZens me ufro vgavdi: Savi, xuWuWTmiani da Cavadnili upeebiT. magari gamxdari viyavi da kani gamwvanebuli mqonda.

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irakli ki qera iyo, maRali, magari kunTebi hqonda da saocar energias afrqvevda. me cxrametis viyavi, is ki Cvidmeti wlis, oRond dids hgavda. taniT iyo Zalian didi da srulyofili, Tan magari TeTri Rimili hqonda, namdvili apoloni. es rom miunxenSi darCeniliyo, Cvidmeti wlis asakSi Cveni ubnis yvela gogo gadakuzuli eyoleboda. iseTebic, me rom kilometrzec ar damanaxeben. konstantinidisebi qalaqidan odnav moSorebiT cxovrobdnen. patara sofeli iyo, magram iseTi lamazi, rom ena Camivarda. momcro TeTri saxlebi idga sul. sofeli, mTis kalTaze Sefenili TeTri patara saxlukebis erToblioba, adriatikis zRvas gadahyurebda. mTlianad kunZuli iyo Zalian lamazi. zRvidan egreve klde iwyeboda, mere sadRac qreboda da ube Cndeboda, navmisadgomi ki cxraasi aTas oc navs itevda. navebi qanaobdnen da koxtaobdnen. kunZuli ki ara, namdvili elesdes abia! saxlSi rom mivediT, aTenam magrad Camixuta da imdeni alersiani sityva miTxra da imdeni mkocna, rom Cemi Cavardnili yavisferi loyebic ki SemiwiTlda. iraklim xeli momkida da sastumro oTaxSi SemaTria. arc ise did oTaxSi petrofis uzamrmazari roiali idga. irakla dajda da miTxra: - axla SenTvis unda davukra. - magrad momenatra Seni dakruli... me, tutucs, megona, rom irakla rame pataraobisdroindels gaixsenebda, magram tipma iseTi daukra, rom muxlebi amikankalda da Zirs davjeqi. iraklim jaretis `personal maunTinsi" Tavis pontSi, sxvanairi aranJirebiT daukra. gavgiJdi. mere yvela im trekis nawyveti daukra, rac Cems gagzavnil diskebSi iyo. irakli virtuozi kaci gamxdara. morCa raRac `mTvaris sonatebis" da `sirtakebis" periodi, bavSvi jarets ukravda Taviseburad. CanTidan iraklisTvis wamoRebuli jazis ormocdaaTdiskiani anTologia amoviRe da miveci. albaT ebrael moses hqonda aseTi saxe, Tavisma RmerTma mcnebebiani filebi rom misca. saRamos iraklim iseTi rame miTxra, rom Tavi namdvil mesiad vigrZeni: ~Du hast es mir gegeben, den Jazz zum ersten Mal zu horen"-o, pirvelad jazi Sen momasmenineo. irakli saerTod

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bevrs ar laparakobda, erCivna daekra. diliT raRac yru bartya-burtyma gamaRviZa. megona, ukana ezoSi aTina xaliCas bertyavda. magram bertyvas ar gavda, gavixede da irakli davinaxe - krivis msxals ubraxunebda gamwarebuli. Zalian ganviTarebuli muskulatura hqonda. yovel dartymaze trapeciebi da deltoiduri kunTebi ebereboda. "From zero to hero, From zero to hero - Herculeeeees!" - wavimRere da abazanaSi wavedi. irakli konstantinidisi mTel saberZneTSi ganTqmuli musikosi da mokrive gamxdara. iyo saberZneTis axalagzrduli nakrebis wevri krivSi da milioni musikaluri konkursis gamarjvebuli. misi musikis maswavlebeli Cioda, - folks da klasikas ise aRar ukravs, raRac zangur musikazea gadasulio. me rom iraklisTvis jareti da petruCiani ar gamegzavna, verc ki warmomidgenia, imxela tragedia datrialdeboda. erTi kviris mere iraklim miTxra, unda viCxuboo. me avdeqi da Cemi bebuTi aviRe. ise Wris, rom, uh, Tqvens mters! wavediT-meTqi. iraklim lamis Caifsa siciliT, eg dana dade da nifxavi Caicvi, qalaqSi mivdivarTo. saberZneTis gunduri Cempionati iyo da iraklis asakiT didebSi unda eCxuba. man, vis magivradac irakli gundSi Casves, xeli zRvidan badis amoTrevisas iRrZo. iraklam viRac aTeneli berZeni zorba gaTaxsirebamde scema. Zalian wynarad daiwyo da magrad SemaSina, erT-ori huki rom miiRo ybaSi. mere TiTo raundSi TiTojer aqtiurdeboda da Tavisze eqvsi wliT did mutruks muStebis setyvas ayrida. mec Zalian Wkviani var, Wkviani da CaTlaxi, me mivxvdi, rogor Cxubobda irakli. mTeli gza raRac melodias RiRinebda. aikviata. misi Cxubis tempi melodiis ritms zustad emTxveoda. pirvelad vnaxe krivSi misamReri da melizmebi. morCa, iraklis fani var. nok-autiT moigo. me Zalian maocebda erTi Zalian sakvirveli faqti: irakli didad ar giJdeboda Tavis mezobel sirinoziviT gogoebze. Zalian gamixarda, iraklim frenburTis saTamaSod rom wamiyvana plaJze. Tvalis dabnelebamde bevri gogo iyo. spilenZisferebi, Savebi, TeTrebi... gaskdi gulo da miyeviT zed avadmyofo filtvebo! zed aravin uyurebs Tqvens patrons da

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iraklis ise exvevian, rogorc peplebi Suquras. am kacis kidev veraferi gavige, ra mniSvneloba aqvs, burTs vin Caawvdis! mieci adamiano burTi, mieci! morCa, me iraklisi ukve mesmis. xom aseTi lamazebi arian es gogoebi, magram yvela magari soflelia. soflis winaaRmdegi ar var, magram eseni suliT arian iseTi goimebi, rom iraklisnairi zeciuri arseba, mikvirs, maT mezoblad rogor cxovrobs. suls, kargi, Tavs davanebeb, magram iRliebis gaparsva ra gaxda? an Tu ar iparsav, raRa frenburTs TamaSob? ise kargad viyavi ori Tve keTaliniaze, rom yvelaze mxeci berZeni mweralic ki ver dawers. wamosvlamde ori dRiT adre Cems badeSi erTi sirinozi gaeba, romelmac cota inglisuri icoda da jemi roquai uyvarda. im gogos Zalian movewone da roca gaigo, rom radioSi disk Jokei viyavi, im saRamosve momca. sadRac kldis wverze viyaviT afofxebulebi da gancxromas iqve miveZaleT. im gogom ar icoda, rom musulmanebs windacveTas ukeTeben da Cemi kanwaWrili penisis danaxvaze SekrTa. sabednierod, yvelaferi kargad damTavrda, magram mere magrad gaavdrda. napirze mdgari navebi talRebma mkvdari TevzebiviT pirqve gadaabruna. grialebda, gruxunebda, anaTebda, zRva Rmuoda... me da aTena saxlSi visxediT da iraklis velodiT. varjiSidan fexiT modioda da axla, savaraudod, Tavidan fexebamde galumpuli iyo. kari gaiRo da irakli Semovida, Cemze ufro mwvane Tu lurji, sveli iyo da aZagZagebda. yvelaferi gaixada, tani gaimSrala, vaSlis ornaxadi Sinauri arayi daisxa da erTi didi Wiqa dalia, mere dawva da daiZina. Rame aTenam gamaRviZa, Zmarze gadadi nikopolidisTan, Torem sicxis damwevi araferi maqvso. iraklis loginTan rom mivedi, lamis guli gamiskda: sul gawiTlebuliyo da bodavda. magari sicxe hqonda. tansacmeli ZmriT davusveleT da CavacviT. kankalma gauara, magram isev bodavda. meore dResac bodavda. guli gaxeTqvaze mqonda. dedaCemis mere es erTaderTi usayvarlesi adamiani axla sikvdilis piras iyo. me kidev movdiodi. iraklim ver gaigo rogor wamovedi, eZina. aTenam miTxra, dRes saavadmyofoSi unda waviyvanoo. me ki, sanam aeroportSi mivedi, aTive frCxili daviWame nerviulobiT. yvela RmerTs vTxove, rom irakli ar momkvdariyo.

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frankfurtSi Cavedi. dedaCemma rom daminaxa, jer ver micno: Tma gazrdili mqonda, loyebi amovsebuli, avadmyofuri mwvane feri brinjaod Semcvloda da ukve janmrTeli kaci viyavi. gadamexvia da Camixuta, mere telefons mivarda da aTenas daureka. - iraklisTvis meningitis diagnozi dausvamT, - miTxra da Cem gverdiT dajda, - araferia, meningiti axla aRaraa saSiSi. frankfurti ukve ise mezizReboda, rom quCaSic ki ar gavdiodi. erTaderTi radioSi mivdiodi da mere saxlSi vbrundebodi. seqtembris bolos CanTa kidev erTxel Cavalage da saberZneTSi wavedi. saxlSi rom Sevedi, marto aTena damxvda. Cemi danaxva ki gauxarda, magram arc ise Zalian. didad arc dedaCemis saCuqrebs gauxarebia. mere iraklisTvis Camotanili raRacebi vaCvene da miTxra, - Zalian moewoneba, hasan, axla baRSia, forToxlebs rwyavso. sastumro oTaxSi Sevedi da gaviar-gamoviare. roiali isev ise idga da fanjridan mze Semodioda. kedelze krivis xelTaTmanebi ekida. navebi zRvaze koxtaobdnen. roials saxuravze mtveri lamis erT santimetrze edo. Zalian gamikvirda, irakli yoveldRe Salis naWriT aprialebda, mere instruments win ujda da raRacas berZnulad ebutbuteboda xolme. saxlSi Semovida da gaiRima. isev iseTi didi da TeTri iyo, ubralod degenerativiT iRimoda. - herkules! iraklim miyura, miyura, mere movida da damajanjRara: - sad xar amden xans! - mere daayola, - pasta gacivda. - naxe Tu mogewoneba! - vuTxari da diskebis Zalian didi yuTi mivawode. iraklim daxeda, gadaaTvaliera da karadaSi Sedo. - modi, vWamoT, - miTxra berZnulad. pasta amomiRo da TviTonac win damijda. makaroni swrafad Seisruta, makaronma bolo moiqnia da cxvirze tomati Semesxa. - hahahaha! - iraklim gadaixarxara da erTic wamomartya.

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civi Cai - nu xvrep! - raa? - nu xvrep-meTqi! - aa?! cxeli roa?! - daelode, gacivdes! vaJam kiseri moxara, Cais Wiqas Tavi cerad gauswora da kovziT dauwyo moreva, amoiRebda kovzs da isev ukan Caabrunebda, cdilobda, morevi gaekeTebina, mere kovzi Wiqis kideze Semodo, aqeT-iqiT mxareebi erTmaneTs gauTanabra, cdilobda, kovzi ar CaZiruliyo. sami cdidan samivejer CaeZira. dilis mzem dahkra minas da gamoacocxla. Sav-TeTri gaferadda... mkrTali - gamuqda... Cai - gacivda... - gacivdeboda! - xo, vici! - vaJam moxrili Tavi gamarTa, kovzi WiqaSi Caagdo da mosva... - amoiRe, Torem Tvali getkineba! - ee! ra gamixure saqme! Sewvi ra, rasac wvav! - Sewuxda vaJa bebiis gadaWarbebuli yuradRebiT da gangeb moxvripa Cai. bebiam Tavi ukmayofilod gaaqnia da amoixvneSa... cota xanSi karze zari gaisma. tafis SuSxunSi bebiam ver gaigona, vaJam gaigona, magram ar SeimCnia. meored dareka zarma. - zaria! - raa? - bebiam tafas Tavsaxuri daafara. - zaria-meTqi karze. bebia dafacurda, amasobaSi kidev erTxel dareka zarma. bebias WuWrutanaSic ar gauxedavs, ise gaaRo. Sav, siarulSi gacveTil da gadaxunebul fexsacmels daaStera gafarToebuli Tvali, Savi Sarvali, Savi tyavis qamari, lurj saqaRaldeze SeaCera dafeTebuli mzera. - gamarjoba, `yaztransgazidan" var, SeiZleba?! - mosulma bebias pasuxi ar acada, ise Semodga marjvena fexi. dafacurda bebia da samzareulosken wamovida. - mobrZandiT, mobrZandiT!

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mosulic maleve Semovida samzareuloSi. veeba, gacveTili saqaRalde vaJas cxvirwin daubrexva, skami gamoswia da dajda. saqaRaldis braxunze SeinZra Wiqa da SeimRvra Cai. mosulma saqaRalde gadaxsna, gacveTili perangis gulis jibidan gacveTili kalami amoiRo. gacveTili saCvenebeli TiTi eniT daisvela da anidan vinamde gadaSala furclebi, gacveTili TiTi gvarebs Camoayola, Tan butbutebda: -v..., v..., vaC..., vaC-na-Ze! sami oqtomberi. bebias TeTrma gadauara saxeze. Cakvetebuli mavTulis gamosaZrobad tafiT xelSi eSmakurad miipara mricxvelTan. tafa xelTan erTad ukankalebda. ar exerxeboda bebia Tamars eSmakoba, mricxvelTan xelis asawevad mizezi ver ipova da erT adgilze gaqvavda akankalebuli tafiT xelSi. TavSi aTasi azri erTad utrialebda, eblandeboda: ,,ori aTasi lari! ori aTasi! vaime, daviRupe! vaime, ra gveSveleba?! vaime, damengra ojaxi! vaime, momeWra Tavi! vaime, Sevrcxvi! ubeduro, ubeduro Tamara! eg rogor mogivida?!." vaJam SeamCnia bebias akankalebuli xeli, verafers mixvda. cota xanSi gaaxsenda mricxvelSi Cakvexebuli mavTuli, romelic am siarulSi gacveTil gazis kacs ar unda enaxa. ori aTasi lari! mTeli ori aTasi! ramdenjer gaumeora maSin koliam, am oxeri mavTulis gakvexeba da mricxvelis gaCereba rom aswavla, xom uTxra, arafriT dagaviwydeso, isic uTxra: RmerTma dagifaros da, Tu dagiWires, me ar maxsenoo, sadaa axla RmerTi?! gafiTrda vaJa, SeeSinda, ra eqna, ar icoda, bebias skami miuCoCa da xelis mirtymiT aniSna, dajeqio. bebiac dajda tafiT xelSi, marcxena xeli Sublze moisva, ofli moiwminda. mere wamodga, tafa Tavis adgilze dado, Wiqa instinqturad aiRo da gazis gacveTil kacs daudo win, mere aw gaciebuli Caidani moimarjva da kankaliT CauRvara koplebian WiqaSi. Cai adidda, adidda, gapimpilda da gadmoiqca. gaukvirda gazis gacveTil kacs, bebiam umalve daagdo tilo, gaJRinTa da aiRo. Saqari daaviwyda. - be, Saqari dagaviwyda! - xo, xo, vici. - ar minda, uSaqrod vsvam, madloba! - uSaqrod?! xoo, kargia uSaqrod! - oRond salaparako

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Tema gamosCenoda vaJas da esec xelidan ar gauSva. - vici! - janmrTelobaa! - vici! - saerTod, Caia janmrTeloba! giyvarT Cai? - ki, miyvars! - Caecina gacveTil kacs, TiTqos mixvdao vaJas Caciebis mizezs. - ra iyo?! - gakvirvebiT hkiTxa vaJam. - araferi, araferi, - kidev Caicina gacveTilma, - marto xarT saxlSi? - ki, me da bebia! - da TaviT mianiSna bebiaze vaJam. - deda, mama?! - ar myavs, aRar myavs! avariaSi... - samwuxaroa, hm... - guli moukvda gacveTils. vaJam Tavi uxmod Caqindra. - ar SemiZlia! - raa?! - gaikvirva bebia-SviliSvilma. - iciT Tqvenc, - moiRuSa gacveTili, - kargad iciT! bebia-SviliSvilma erTmaneTs Sexeda. - xoo! - moiRuSnen esenic. - ra vqna, samsaxuria! gamomagdeben aqedanac da bebiac ar myavs me, saerTod aravin myavs! oTaxSi siCume Camowva. - gamogexeda am dasawvav `glazokSi", ra iqneboda?! - anerviulda gacveTili, civi Cai mosva, ar esiamovna da sul ZaliT gadaylapa. aumwarda piri da saxe damanWa. - ra vqna axla, ori aTasia, iciT, magaze?! sad gaqvT Tqven magdeni?! mipasuxeT erTi! - moiyuda civi Cai gacveTilma... Sercxva bebia-SviliSvils... gawiTlda TeTri... - ro vnaxav gaCerebuls, ra vqna, davxuWo Tvali? miTxariT, ha?! ar SemiZlia, batono, ara! patiosnad minda cxovreba! siCume... atirda Tamara... bebias cremli gacveTils moxvda gulze. Rrmad CaisunTqa... fexze swrafad wamodga:

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- tualeti sadaa aq?! gacivda Cai...

SWEET HOME SACHHERE dilas nabaxusevze gaviRviZe. macivarze magnitiT mimagrebul qaRaldis naglejze dedaCemis warwera damxvda: `dRes bebiaSenis dis qmris panaSvidia da sofelSi unda Caxvide, yava magidaze devs, fuli Sarvlis jibeSi gidevs, oci lari aqeT-iqiT gzaSi geyofa, asi lari kidev bebiaSenis das unda misce, lamara hqvia. uTxari, viziareb-Tqo da es dedaCemma gamogigzavna-Tqo, furceli amoatriale." furceli amovatriale. `saxarjo fuli, aTi lari, Sarvlis ukna jibeSi gidevs. bebiaSenis dis, lamaras Tvalwin sigareti ar mowio. or saaTze iq unda iyo, Sen ici, rom Caxval, damireke." furclis bolos Znelad gasarCevi asoebiT kidev iyo mijRabnili raRac: `macivris Tavze kidev devs furceli." macivris Tavze kargaxans vafaTure xeli, furclis nagleji Zvlivs momxvda xelSi. `aqedan eqvs nomerze dajeqi, didubeSi Camodi okribasTan da iq saCxeris marSrutkas gayevi bolomde." es mindoda axla?! yava gacivebuliyo. cota xanSi dedaCemma dareka da yvelaferi gamimeora, rac furclebze ewera, isic miamata: - da mand, skamze, dauToebuli tansacmelia gadakidebuli, eg Caicvi. - xo, kai da, im saxls rogor mivagno? - pirvel saaTze Seni bebiis ZmisSviliSvilebi dagxvdebian Tbilisi-saCxeris marSrutkis gaCerebaze. - arc erTs ar vicnob! - naxevrad mZinare, Zlivs vcnobdi sityvebs. - erTs jemali hqvia, meores - laSa. jemals jemali ar dauZaxo. - raa? - ra da, ar uyvars jemals rom eZaxian da jemiko da rame egeTi... midi, midi axla, droze gavardi, Torem daagvianeb, sir68

cxvilia. iq Tavi ar momWra, seriozulad moiqeci. - xo, kai, kai. oris naxevarze saCxereSi viyavi, orma biWma gaCerebac ar acala marSrutkas, ise gaaRo kari garedan. Tavebi Semoyves da gadagvaTvalier-gadmogvaTvalieres. - demetre romeli xar? SevSindi cota, ra aRar vifiqre da Tavi Cavxare dabla, mere gamaxsenda jemali da laSa da momeSva. amovyavi Tavi. - me. biWebma Casvla ar macales, ise gadamexvivnen, damamtvries sul neknebi. mere mZRols Cemi mgzavrobis fuli misces. CamovediT. orives erTnairad ecva, Savi pijakebi, wvetiani, priala fexsacmeli, Tma erT mxares sveli xeliT gadavarcxnili. sqeli Sekruli warbebi. erTi saTvale da SlapaRa akldaT da pirdapir saCxereli Zmebi bluzebi iyvnen! Camsves Sav `SestSi" da amajanjRares saxlTan. ezoSi rom Sevedi, aTasi Tvali erTad momaSterda. - avTos biWi ar aris es? - dedaa, ramxela gazrdila! - kopio mamamisi. im kuboian oTaxSi Sesvlisas qalebma Cem danaxvaze atexes wivili, kivili, tirili da vaeba. saCxereli bluzebi gverdidan ar mcildebodnen. mimaniSnes lamara bebiaze, am ukanasknelTan Cavicucqe, gadavexvie da yurSic mivuCurCule, viziareb-meTqi. jibidan gzisTvis gadanaxuli xeluxlebeli oci lari CavukuWe xelSi, aqedan bluzebi dampatiJeben-meTqi, vifiqre. SemrCa asi lari. kubos samjer davartyi wre, gaocebulebi miyurebdnen, mere gamaxsenda, rom erTic sakmarisia. micvalebul bebiaCemis dis qmars rom Sevxede, amityda sicili, Cveva maqvs egeTi. piri sayeloSi Cavrge da Sevecade, ar SemmCneoda. gareT gavedi Tu ara, movefare saxls da avtexe xarxari. Semomiswres bluzebma. - ra gacinebs? - erTxmad mkiTxa orivem. - aa, jemal, - ufrosma bluzma jemalma kidev ufro Sekra isedac Sekruli warbebi.

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- a, jemiko, xo, jemiko! - moeSva cota, - isa, gamaxsenda raRac da... - erTic gadavixarxare, oRond amjerad ZaliT da xelic movartyi mxarze. bluzebma erTmaneTs gadaxedes. sigareti amoviRe, mere jibeze xeli movirtyi sanTebelisTvis, magram vin gacdis, umcrosma bluzma momikida ukve. saxlidan xalxi daiZra. bluzebma manqanaSi Camtenes. jer sasaflaoze wavediT, bluzebma TiTo cremli Caayoles babuis dis qmars. uyure Sen bluzebs, ra aferistebi yofilan. isev Camtenes manqanaSi da qelexSi wamiyvanes. sufraze aqeT-iqiT momeqcnen, alyaSi viyavi. sul ZaliT masves Rvino. TviTon odnavadac ar moekidaT, me ki damaTvres. - is, elvud! - raa? - gamomxeda jemalma. - ki ara da, jemal! Sekra isev warbebi. - tfu, Seni, jemiko! moeSva cota. - gamatare ra, tualetSi gaval da or wuTSi moval. sul kedel-kedel viare da Zlivs mivageni sapirfareSos. kari gavaRe da viRac gogo SemrCa, atexa kivili, wivili, vaeba. vin moaswrebda bluzebs. mglebiviT Semovardnen sapirfareSoSi, erTmaneTs gadaxedes. gogo kivils ar wyvetda, mec mivuaxlovdi dasawynareblad. umata kivils, mecnen bluzebi. forTxial-forTxialiT gaveqeci gareT, kedels amovefare, telefoni amoviRe da dedaCems davureke. - deda, - mebmoda ena. - xo, deda, ratom ar dareke? - deda, bluzebi momdeven. - vin bluzebi? - ki ara da, jemali da is meore... - ratom, jemali dauZaxe, xo? xo gagafrTxile... - atexa dedaCemmac kivili. gavuTiSe. sigareti amoviRe, viRacam momikida da gaviTiSe mec. diliT nabaxusevze gaviRviZe saxlSi. macivarze magnitiT

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mimagrebul qaRaldis naglejze dedaCemis warwera damxvda: `ojaxis Semarcxvenelo, civi daide Tvalze".

biWuna da leo Zia Tebervlis qariani dRe iyo. mze cerad dahyurebda gadaxunebul mindors da oqrosfers fenda. soflis bolodan yrud ismoda xarxari, viRacis Caxrenwili xmiT nayroyinebi da cotac aplodismenti. sofels moSorebuli saxli mTis dasawyisSi, ferdobze idga. bolomde ar iyo damTavrebuli. orive sarTulze aenToT naTurebi. qvemoT qalebi dafaTurobdnen, meore sarTulze kacebi misxdomodnen magidas da tyvrebodnen RviniT. am Ripian kacebs ori bavSvi Sereoda, biWebi, erTi, ase, TxuTmeti-Teqvsmeti wlisa iqneboda, meore - cxris. ufros Zmas xeli hqonda gadaxveuli umcrosze da Tavs uqnevda gradusSi Sesuli kacebis nalaparakebs, win TiTqmis savse Wiqa edga. marcxena xeliT atrialebda da sulmouTqmelad eloda Tavis rigs. umcrosi magidas urWobda danas da atrialebda mere. - daanebe, biWo, Tavi, dadevi ager eg oxeri da usmine! CamoarTva gverdze mjdomma kacma dana, mama iyo, etyoboda. - ra ginda, daanebe e bovSvs Tavi, ras erCi? - gamoxeda mamamiss gverdidan RviniT saxeawiTlebulma momRimarma kacma da bavSvs gadausv-gadmousva Tavze xeli. bavSvs ar esiamovna da Tmebi isev aiburZgna. - Sen kide, miaqcio iqneba yuradReba, rom miSterebixar mag Wiqas, aravin wagarTmevs, - gamoxeda mamam ufros Svils, imanac idayvi miartya patara Zmas. amasobaSi ufrosi Zmis dalevis jeri movida, daimorcxva, xma daiboxa, Zlivs gamocra, - gagimarjoTo, - da Cacala Ziramde Wiqa. - eh, genacvale, uyure amas, rava gavs mamamiss. mamas sadRac gulis siRrmeSi esiamovna Svilis mimsgavseba, magram ar SeimCnia. - Se SobelZaRlo, sadRegrZelo mainc Tqvi, ro etake... gamoxeda Svils. biWs saxe auwiTlda, CaiRima da morcxvad Caxara Tavi.

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- ra ginda, valodia, es Tu ar iswavla, sxva ra vaswavloT, aba, ha?! - gamosZaxa sufris Tavidan gasiebulma kacma, - Sen Cemi ikako unda naxo, rafra clis yanwebs. gadaixarxara sufram... - ver meiyvane mere? - sad maq, Tu Zma xar, magis nervebi... ravari celqia, ici?! ver Cerdeba erT adgilas. garedan manqanis xma Semoisma. - leo Zia movida? - axeda umcrosma mamas. - midi da naxe, me ras mekiTxebi? - mokled mouWra mamam. - ise, ki unda mosuliyo amden xans, - gaepasuxa pirdapir mjdomi kaci. - ras geigeb magisas, rodis mova, rodis wava? Sen ggonia fxizeli mova? patara biWi magidis qveS gaZvra, viRacebis fexebs mied-moedo da aivanze gavida. saxlis ezoSi fergadacrecili furgoni SemojanjRarda. - leo! - biWunam Tvalis daxamxamebaSi Cairbina kibe. furgonidan kaci mxriT orjer miawva kars, ver gaaRo, fanjara Camoswia, xeli gadmoyo da garedan gaaRo. gadmovida leo Zia manqanidan, furgonmac amoisunTqa, borblebze ise aiwia, TiTqos welSi gaimarTa da gaizmorao. leo Ziam gamoqanebuli bavSvi aitaca haerSi da daatriala, xelebiT mobRuja da dorbliani tuCebiT CaproSna. eg araferi, biWs leosi araferi ezizReboda. kaci bavSviT xelSi Sevida sufrasTan. - vaa, leos gaumarjos! - ha, daiwyeT ara uCemod? vicodi, rom daiwyebdiT da mec cota geaxeliT kai WaWa saxlSi. ucbadve Semoutanes skami leos qalebma. dilamde sves. biWuna gverdiT mijdomoda leos, Tvalebi exuWeboda, magram ar midioda dasaZineblad. ai, leom sul daiviwya da yuradRebasac aRar aqcevda, Wiqas Wiqaze clida da bolos sawol oTaxSi gasatani gaxda. xuTma kacma Zlivs aswia gaTiSuli leo. biWunac fexebSi edeboda da cdilobda, cota wvlili Seetana biZias awevaSi. rogorc iqna daawvines leo, gaxades da gaaxvies sqel sabanSi. TviTon xarxariT dabrundnen sufrasTan da gaagrZeles sma.

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biWunac gamoyva Segradusebul mamas da erTi Wiqis dalevis ufleba gamostyua. auwiTlda loyebi da auRvivda Tvalebi. saZinebelSi gavida, erTi xelis mosmiT gaiZro fexze, tanze da Seuwva leo Zias loginSi. Tebervlis civi dRe iyo, qari araxunebda saZineblis fanjris moyanyalebul minas.

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Fish bowl - deee, bedobas gilocaaav! au, yava gamikeTe ra... ara, ra Saqari! ver vxvdebi, ra saWiroa Saqari yavaSi da Tmis davarcxna diliT, roca xveuli Tma gaqvs da Tanac - wiTeli! vgiJdebi Cems wiTel Tmaze da uSaqro yavaze diliT! viRacebi rom amboben, mafxizlebso, magitom ki ara, ise, ubralod! dRes mwvane kabas Cavicmev. io ambobs, kontrastuliao mwvane kaba wiTel TmasTan, kidev raRacebs ambobs, magram ar maxsendeba axla! saaTi unda waviRo mesaaTesTan, meased vucvli elements! - Carli, Carli, Carlz! modi, gareT gavdivarT! neta, ra jandabad mindoda es ZaRli?! isic kargi uazro tipi iyo, dabadebis dRisTvis ukeTesi saCuqari ver moifiqra?! Tumca, imazec madlobeli var, erTi cali vardiTa da sunamoTi xelSi rusTavelis metrosTan rom ar daminiSna Sexvedra! Tumca, ras ambob, gavqandebodi! an SeiZleba gavqanebuliyavi kidec, maSin ise aRfrTovanebuli viyavi misi votersiseuli ieriT da Cemze dawerili simRerebiT! kuzma ambobs, ras gavso votersi! ratom? me momwons... auuu, naTela!.. arada, dRes bedobaa! morCa, wels magrad daviTarse, eg xom kudiania da RamRamobiT cocxiT dafrinavs!.. - ori puri, nabeRlavi, Saqari da mawoni minda! neta, am maRaziis mepatronis TavSi Camaxeda, amisTana jmuxi gamyidveli ram daaqiravebina? azrze ar arian, arada, sabazro ekonomikaa - servisi, servisi, servisi! anu Rimili, Rimili, Rimili! vin Semova axla amis maRaziaSi?! Tumca, me sul aq ar davdivar? mezareba iqiT gadasvla da imitom! Carlis gamoyvanac mezareba xolme, vin sTxova, maCuqeo? xo vuTxari, pakameTqi?! arada, im dRes rogori TvalebiT miyurebda? mapatieo da rame. ise, ranairi iyo, ara? sul me vuSlidi nervebs da mapatieo, TviTon meubneboda mere! manqana rom mivulewe, erTi sityva ar uTqvams, arada, im dRes ra vimetiCre? ras vqoqavdi, neta, im manqanas? romeli Sumaxeri me var, aTjer CaviWeri gamocdaze! auuu, marTvis mowmobaaa!

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eseni dilidanve aq sxedan! ratom momwonda, neta, es biWi adre? kidev kargi, TviTon ar mimCnevda, Torem egeTebis moSoreba ar ginda mere? arada, ra kargi deda yavs, vgiJdebi mag qalze! Svili ojaxis sarkeao, rom amboben, araa, ra, egre, ubralod, ucnaurebi varT adamianebi - yvela erTmaneTs vgavarT magrad da vcdilobT, ganvsxvavdebodeT erTmaneTisgan da sisuleleebs vakeTebT da aqedan gamomdinare, miT ufro gansxvavdebi sxvisgan, rac metad gavxar mas! - deee, movediT! saWmeli ra gvaqvs? mSia me! saRamos mwvane kaba Cavicva, Tu lurji? au, ratom faravs Rrubeli cas? da saerTod, es ranairi dRea? Tavi mtkiva da saxe maqvs axeuli da "How I wish , how I wish you were here"... am zamTars magrad gavuferuldi. Sav-TeTri gavxdi da mosawyeni! - deee, telefons upasuxe ra?! me? am diliT vin unda iyos? - ho, TekuS, ho! maxsovs, aba ra! axla vfiqrobdi zustad, mwvane kaba Cavicva, Tu lurji. kargi, TekuS, xuTze mand var, gioc iqneba? kargi, droebiT! magaT goniaT, Tu gio iqneba, gavfrindebi, sulac ar momwons eg gio, carieli Tvalebi aqvs da Savi palto acvia! - Carli, Carlz, modi CemTan! fu, ver vitan, ra, amis bewvs, Camivardeba pirSi da movkvdebi, ufro sworad, gardavicvlebi da gaviSlebi samyaroSi plus usasrulobidan minusSi. ise, adamiani xom oTxganzomilebiania: sxeuli, suli, guli da goneba; hoda, stiqiac oTxia: miwa, haeri, cecxli da wyali, da roca adamiani gardaicvleba, oTx paralelur ganzomilebaSi gaiSleba da imitomaa es deJavuebi da saswaulebi rom xdeba da atomi rom gaxliCes saxleCi atamiviT da rom aRvfrTovandiT! TiTqosda ra? - me beThovenis mecxre simfonia magiJebs da uSaqro yava diliT! Tumca, vin mekiTxeba, azrze ar var arafris da martoobis meSinia!.. es ranairi zamTaria, Tovli mainc mosuliyo! megona, axal wels mainc movidoda... axla yvelaze metad Tovli minda movides da kidev Toma! momenatra Toma, m o m e n a t r a !!! magram aravis vetyvi, rom momenatra, aba, ra wesia? ise, manqana rom mivulewe,

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mekiTxa mainc, Tu gaakeTa. davureko? kuzmika rom ambobs, ras gavs votresio, ratom? me momwons! Tan Carlika maCuqa, Txiliani Sokoladebis mTeli Sekvra da `Tolia, saxelad jonaTan livingstoni"... wvims. ra dros wvimaa am Sua zamTarSi?! ra Tarsi bedobaa! arada, dRes specialurad marjvena fexze avdeqi, maram rad ginda, diliT naTela SemefeTa da Tan verafriT gadavwyvite, mwvane kaba Cavicva, Tu lurji? axla ras vizam, ici? Sav kabas Cavicvam. ise, am bolo dros mainc Sav-TeTri var da mosawyeni! Worfli unda moviSoro, naxe ramdenia?! - dee, forToxlis wveni gamikeTe, ra! me ras vakeTeb da vmecadineob, oTxSabaTs maqvs kolokviumi, ho, kargi, ar minda, nu gamikeTeb! sul ar minda araferi, vijdebi aq da ar avdgebi saerTod, protesti yvelas da yvelafers: T o m a m e n a t r e b a! kargi, ho, mwvane kabas Cavicvam da kuzmikas vTxov, is CanTa maTxovos, magrad midis am kabaze! - kuz, xo wamomiReb? ra mWirs? ara, araferi, ra unda mWirdes? cota mezareba wamosvla, Tan mTeli dRe imaze vfiqrobdi, mwvane kaba Camecva, Tu lurji da saxe gamZvra! kargi, kuz, xuT wuTSi SuqniSanTan viqnebi, CanTa ar dagrCes! e, isev naTela! ra daviTarse, ra, dRes! axla fexi gadamibrundeba da momtydeba da mere TabaSirSi Camisvamen da mivejaWvebi logins, ar unda Camecva qusliani fexsacmeli! neta, Toma Tu mova Cems sanxavad?! es gio ra debiliviT miyurebs? wavedi aqedan! mival saxlSi, davwvebi da vuyureb Wers, manqanebis farebis Suqs rom ireklavs da daviTvli, ramdeni manqana gaivlis Sems quCaze bedobis Rames da mere CameZineba, albaT. magars gaverTobi! es marTvis mowmoba kidev raRa gaxda, ra, riT veRar aviRe?! ooo, gamacilebs ara is!.. - ara, madloba, ar minda gacileba, melodebian! kai, kai, paka! vaaa! axla taqsis gavaCereb da saxlSi waval, ara, fexiTac SemiZlia, magram Cqara unda mivide saxlSi, davwve da Wers vuyuro! "We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year"...

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- dee, movedi! ho, ase male, aba, iq xom ar davrCebodi? Sokoladi damitove? kargi, maSin waval, daviZineb! ara, ar minda! xval me TviTon viyidi! Zili nebisa, de! - Carli, Carlik, modi CemTan! ra sayvarelia! amas magrad vuyvarvar, me kidev ar mevaseba! ara, rogor ara, mec miyvars! oRond diliT gayvana mezareba xolme da magis bewvs ver vitan, imitom, rom martoobis meSinia da am zamTarSi cota gavuferuldi, albaT. ise, dRes ranairi bedoba iyo? ra damebeda, neta, me? naTela? Tanac orjer! - Zaan magaria! am RamiT mainc vin rekavs? - T o m a a ? ? ? gmadlob, Tom, mec gilocav! Tomaaa... momenatre!!! "Running over the same old ground. What have we found? The same old fears. WISH YOU WERE HERE" vaimeee, T o o v s ! ! !

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beso beso Cemi gitaris maswavlebeli iyo. besoze keTil, mazalo da aferist kacs ver ipoviT mTel TbilisSi. beso mgoni yvelaferze ukravs, razec ki ikvreba, yovel SemTxvevaSi, TviTon ase ambobs, ocdaaTze met sakravze vukravo. ori weli viare, magram TiTqmis veraferi viswavle. pirveli weli ugitarod viare. pirvel gakveTilze, Tu sworad maxsovs, vivaldize melaparaka. - Sako, Tu CemTan daukrav, icode, pirveli unda iyo, "ok"? - raRac ucnauri aqcentiT miTxra beso masma da saxe damanWa. - kargi, beso mas. besosTan erTi gogo dadioda, kargad damamaxsovrda, meriko erqva. pirvelad rom vnaxe, mikrofoni hqonda SeerTebuli musikalur centrSi da rac Zali da Rone hqonda gahkioda, mgoni, ,,nirvanas" simReras. srul Wkuaze ver iyo, imitom ki ara, rom mReroda, es maSin gavifiqre, roca mis Sarvalze Camokidebuli kbilis jagrisi SevniSne. besos hyavda coli gaia, daaxloebiT Cemxela biWi nikuSa da ori wlis, rogorc TviTon eZaxda - `kaxpa". yovel SemTxvevaSi, Cemi TandaswrebiT saxeliT arasdros miumarTavs. meore wels masTan miviyvane gio, gigi da luka. gigi ukve xuTi weli iyo, rac swavlobda da kargadac ukravda, magram mere ra... besosTvis rom gekiTxaT, gigis dakvra swored man aswavla. gio da luka damwyebebi iyvnen. lukas, kidev kargi, lukaTi mimarTavda. ai, gios ki xan JorJs eZaxda, xan mik jagers. magra gevxaro, ase eubneboda. - JorJ, yavas dalev? - ara, mas, gmadlobT. Cemi TandaswrebiTac dauleviaT yava da Semdeg besos umkiTxavia kidevac, oRond lukasTvis da giosTvis, gigisTvis ara. - ai, Cemi marlon brandoc movida! me Tavs davxridi morcxvad, gitaras aviRebdi da, ro78

gorc TviTon ambobda, Cems saqmes vakeTebdi. Tumca maSin ar vicodi, vin iyo marlon brando da roca `naTlimama" vnaxe, maSinve beso gamaxsenda. rogorc mere gairkva, Turme, gigisac am saxels eZaxda. me da luka vugebdiT erTmaneTs da erTad virCevdiT Sesaswavl simReras, gigi ki Sav dReSi iyo. gios da besos, rogorc aRmoCnda, `bitlsebi" uyvardaT da sul `bitlsebs" akvrevinebda. gioze bedniers veravis naxavdiT. beso mas, rame qarTuli gvaswavleT ra... - Txovda gigi. - modi, gigi, gios versiac vnaxoT. gios, ra Tqma unda, `bitlsebi" undoda da wavida isev `bitlsebi"... ise, besos yvela moswavle, rogorc TviTon ambobda, silamazis konkursze gamodioda da yvela `mis saqarTvelo" iyo, oRond rogor, ar vici. erTi moswavle hyavda, klasikaze giJdeboda. - beso mas, is daukariT ra, `kvazimodoSi" roa... besoc ukravs, moswavlec siamovnebisagan Tvalebs xuWavs, magram vin aclis? beso risi besoa, Tu rame Tavisi ar Seuria? da gadadis beso `kvazimododan" jazze, axla me da luka vsxedvarT sulganabulebi da vusmenT. gigim da lukam maleve daanebes besosTan siaruls Tavi da SemovrCiT me da gio. erT mSvenier dRes mivdivarT da gvxvdeba viRac jirkviviT kaci cxvirSi SerWobili ucnauri nivTebiT. tamtamze ukravda, besos moswavle yofila. Turme, romeliRac soflidan Camodioda yovel kviras. amanac kargi rame moyva: guSin me da Cemi jgufi panaSvidze viyaviT damkvrelebado. gardacvlilis Zmam ganacxada, Cemma Zmam verc qorwilis da verc dabadebis dRis gadaxda ver moaswro da saqeifoebi daukariTo... beso ucnauri kacia. besoze keTil, mazalo da aferist kacs mTel TbilisSi ver ipoviT.

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am molodinsac cxovreba erqva quCas nacrisferi dasdeboda da zizRiT ylapavda wvimis narCenebs. cxrametsarTuliani binis korpusTan oTxi gawuwuli axalgazrda idga. es korpusi erTaderTi monstri iyo am prestiJuli ubnis labirinTSi, amden narCev, ufro sworad, narCen suldgmuls rom itevda. Tumca, iq oTxi, arsebiTad diferentuli arseba binadrobda. - hei, devil, Sen Tu ici, ratom aqvs cxrameti sarTuli Cvens saxls da gitaris samas samocdaerTi simi Sens bedovlaT daqals Sin? - cxvirze dacemuli wvimis oboli wveTi moiwminda bonom, romelic ninas kargi xmis mqoned moenaTla. - amas uyure, vaa, cxrametis kvadrati rom icis ramdenia. ha, haaa... daazuste, brat, gawyvetili simi. sada aqvs magas magdeni gitaris fuli, ho, ufunqcioba ki naklebad xiblavs. da sainteresoa, aba, rad unda? - ara aqvs, magram eqneba da mere erTad mouyris Tavs, miasxams benzins da aha, sicivisgan epilefsiianebiviT rom vfarTxalebT, norC Zvlebs mainc gaviTbobT, - waifilosofosa ninam. - e, bono, magitom farCxavdi guSin TiTebs mTeli Rame? mere da, geyo Rame da TiTebi Cemi simebis dasaTvlelad? rad minda da bebos vunaxav, zafxulSi pomidvris nergebs aakravs, emi lamis miwaze gawva siciliT, Tumca, miwa sveli iyo da... - oe, bono, biWo, polidaqtilia gWirs? ui, Se sabralo. mec ar gamikvirda, skolaSi gamravlebis tabulis swavlisTvis ar mogiklavs Tavi da... ara, ra, gonieri, faqtobrivad, xar. yvela ki ver axerxebs SesaZleblobebis gamoyenebas miznis gasanaRdeblad, - lamis gaibzara devili - msoflioSi yvelaze samarTliani eSmaki, megobrebi xSirad rom eubnebodnen, erTi miwis qveSaa da meore Sen xar miwis zeviTo. es ise, xumrobiT, Torem eSmakis samefos lokalizaciaze bevri ukamaTiaT, bolos yvela erTxmad ambobda: dae, egdos iq, sadac gdia. gvelodos, male aRvkvecT berad an monazvnad, Tu hermafroditia? kai, magasac eSvelebao... - ee, wavedi, wavedi, gaviyine, - axla eleqtro SokdartymuliviT gafarTxalda nina da sadarbazosken gaemarTa.

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- rao, dostoevski gaqvs wasakiTxi, Tu Zia onofre? - "uinqing smaili" styorcna bonom. - ai, idioti! - Seageba ninam. - a, xom giTxariT, Teodori-meTqi? ha, ha... xo, kargi, gaveTre, xo? - amoiluRluRa bonom, Tumca ninas es aRarc gaugonia. devilma tamtams miaSura, bonom logins, emim oTaxis yvela WuWrutana dagmana da wignis samyaroSi gadaeSva, mas an brZeni mosaubre sWirdeboda, an, ubralod, kargi wigni, ninam ki jer dedis naCuqar roials miualersa, mere gitaris simebze aaTamaSa TiTebis askinkila. da bolos azrebis morevs mieca. * * * ai, aseTi iyo es oTxi axalgazrda. perspeqtiuli, imedgacruebuli, codvili, angelozi, gzaabneuli Wkviani, mainc xmalSemarTuli da ra vici, kidev ra epiTetiT Sevamko, Tu davaknino maTi arseba. sakmaod martivi da garkveuli urTierToba hqondaT. erTmaneTs amagrebdnen, Tumca piroba arc erTs daudia, rom umal isic moiSTobda Tavs, Tu ki erT-erTi maTgani matareblis relsebSi gaeCxireboda, an braziani mZRolis msxverpli gaxdeboda, Tu ki misi manqanis saxuravidan gadawyvetda Tevzaobas, an ubralod, frenisas frTas daizianebda da mere tvins daanTxevda dedamiwas. uaryofdnen dogmas, wesebs, Tumca, cxovrebis mTavar wess - sikvdils - aravin gaurboda, piriqiT, nebismier wams mzad iyvnen jojoxeTis ferxuls SeerTebodnen, isini xom repeticias yoveldRe gadiodnen, Tumca, mze uyvardaT da zRva, sakuTari Tavi da erTmaneTic. * * * SuaRamis zarebi rekdnen, ninas oTaxSi ki telefonma dareka. emi iyo, sulis matrofirebeli raRac sWirdeboda. karSi Sesul ninas maSinve mkvaxe fraza axeTqes: `sicocxle iluzirebuli speqtaklia, ni!.." ninam kari daxura da iqve Camojda, zRurblze, `uelqom" da iqve emis amoqarguli `Tu laiflend" rom amSvenebda. emi zRurblisken gafofxda, Tavi ninas muxlebze Camodo, muxlebi TavTan miitana da Tvalebi daxuWa. - emi! da iluziaSi gvepatiJebi, ho? - ni, veRar vxedav, mgoni, ici? an arc arasodes vxedavdi. vici, vici, rom sadRac amfiTeatris scenaze var, milionobiT

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Tvali miyurebs, xedav? miyurebs kidec. me ki adgilidan ver davZrulvar, TiTqos, xeibris roli momaniWa reJisorma da ukmayofilo var. mere Cemken raRac moemarTeba. mklavs, macocxlebs, mere CemiT interesdeba, xvdeba da isev macocxlebs. me, me ki usavarZlo xeibari var, gesmis? vcdilob gaveqce, mivfofxav, Sublze momdgar ofls warbebi veRar aCerebs, scenaze aqa-iq gabneuli dekoratiuli lursmnebi merWoba da aha, saocreba - fexebSi tkivils vgrZnob. ise msiamovnebs es tkivili, rogorc arasdros. Tumca, ver vdgebi. ai, davuZveri im raRacas da axla ra memarTeba, ar ikiTxav? sakuTar Tavze guli mereva, rom laCariviT gaviqeci, ukan mivfofxav da aRar madardebs, rom isev momklavs, piriqiT, vijereb kidec, rom SevZleb mis damarcxebas... - an, iqneb, ar gklavs, emi? iqneb xvdeba, rom Sen, mokvdavma, qalma da adamianma SeZeli da daamarcxe, an is mainc moaxerxe, rom ar daemarcxebine. aqvs azri, am SemTxvevaSi, iqnebi Tu ara scenaze reJisoris mier moniWebuli uflebiT? Tumca, me vici Sen ra gingrevs gonebas. Sen swored is gaRelvebs, ramdenad moixibleba reJisori Seni arsebiT, ramdenad moindomebs sxva roli mogces. sad da vin, ara, emi?.. pasuxi aRar iyo saWiro. emi wamodga. ninas moeCvena, TiTqos igi wabarbacda da gaifiqra: ai, zRvari, sadac sxeuli sulis sayrden funqcias veRar iTavsebs. isic wamodga, emis xeli CasWida da yurSi CasCurCula: wamo, viTamaSoTo. emis, rogorc iqna, gaeRima. rogor uyvardaT is TamaSi da saTamaSo iardi... ramdenime wuTis Semdeg saxuravze idgnen. - emi, cxovreba marTlac rTulad saTamaSo iluzirebuli speqtaklia, gansakuTrebiT maSin, roca rTul rols iTxov da iReb kidec. mas improvizaciis marTlac seriozuli niWi sWirdeba, magram icode, Seni megobari mudam Sens sulTanaa da SeiZleba ver gimkurnalo, magram yovelTvis mogismen. - vici, ni. da iTamaSes emim da ninam. mTvares dasdevdnen emi da nina. mTvare emaleboda emis da ninas. * * * mwvane moli da biliki molze. midis devili da netarebisgan lamis ixrCoba. ager, TeTri, yviTelTvala gvirilebi,

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konebad rom Seukravs viRacas da macdurad iRimebian. yviTeli Tvalebi? hm, gaaxsenda, ra aJiotaJi atyda, roca biologiis maswavlebels amis Sesaxeb hkiTxa. devilis erT nacnobs yviTeli Tvalebi hqonda da, faqtobrivad, vampiriviT cxovrobda, iSviaTi saxeobis vampiriviT. mas RmerTis swamda, mere ra, rom RamiT eklesiebs ketaven. is karTan idga da xatismier mexsierebaSi unTebda sanTels wmindanebs. Turme, erTxel, bavSvobaSi, dedas gamohparvia da maSin unaxavs pirvelad, rogor CaxCaxebda sanTlebi xatebis win. ikiTxa: vin arian es lamazi deidebi da biZebio, an es babua vinaao? da mogvianebiT Tavad gasca pasuxi. ra eqna? Sin xatebi ar hqondaT, mzec enatreboda... - ai, yviTelTvala gvirilebo, Tqven ar cxovrobT vampirebiviT, mxolod sicocxlis Sesrutvis survili rom aqvT? devili ixreba gvirilebis konasTan, ramdenimes amoaZrobs da meore konaSi debs, meoredan mesameSi gadaaqvs da ase... wamiT Cerdeba da fiqrobs: arsebobs qali dedamiwaze, romelic aqedan waRebul yviTelTvala gvirilas imsaxurebs? erTic vnaxoT da yviTelTvala alaparakda: - devil, aeTrie, ra ZilquSi gWirs, a?... `es gvirila ki ara, ninaa, hm, dila ra sasiamovnod iwyeba... o, Seni...~ - raa? - ikivla ninam da iseTi uTavaza, sawyal biWs wyali aRar dasWirda gamosafxizleblad. Se devil, Tu anJela, eg ra gaifiqre, a? `qalo... Cemo wyevlav da netarebav!..~ - ara, ni, Senze ar mifiqria, dedas geficebi. yviTelTvala gvirilas vuTxari, - amoiluRluRa ninas intuiciiT ukve meramdened gaocebulma devilma. - verc ityodi, - warbebi awkipa ninam. `rao? Sevcdi?..~ ho... ra yviTelTvalaoo? SemTxveviT raime mwvane xom ara? oRond cxadSi. aba, uambe Sens mesawole bers. ra eqna devils? aba, ninas rames gamoaparebda? ase rom, adga da Ramis netareba ninas Caukakla. - he, midi axla da arCevani Senzea. ras uwodeb: tvinis Senelebul muSaobas, Tu winaswarmetyvelebas, rom samoTxeSi adgils mimzadeben, an ubralod mwvane mcenares, oRond cxadSi nanaxs.

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- ara, dev. me, miT umetes, gijereb. samoTxeSi ki yofilxar da... rao, liliTs miakiTxa devilma? sacole gageqca, Tu mama devils wauyvania ukve? - lamis sawoli aayirava ninam. - ha, ha, ha... icine... keTili eSmakic brazdeba, icode, SeubRvira devilma. - dev, ginda, giambo, guSin vin damesizmra? - midi, aba. - deda... - vaa, dediko moenatra ninaCkas?.. ho, kai, kai, gismen. - vijeqi da wigns vkiTxulobdi, mere deda Semovida oTaxSi da miyvarxar-meTqi, - gavifiqre. man ki ra miTxra, ici? vicio, da mere mTeli Rame raRacebs maswavlida da marigebda, vici, rqiani xaro. bolos daayola: , ? - ... - ra iyo, dev? agatire, eSmako? a? - araferi, ni, deda miyvars mec. neta, is Tu metyvis, vici, rom giyvarvaro? - dev, me vici, rom yvela deda icnobs sakuTar Svils 100%-iT. ici, amas winaT ra wavikiTxe? dedisadmi siyvaruli egoizmis gamoxatulebis umTavresi formaao. - marTalia, ici? mara, dagRupavs Sen magdeni kiTxva. - ra, Senc mamaCemiviT oqsfordis sagiJes miwinaswarmetyveleb? - pirdapir Cems azrebs iparavs mamaSeni. ra, plagiatoria? - idioto!!! - baliSi xeTqa ninam. devilma xelebi gaukra, Caixuta da Sublze akoca: - Cemi Wkviani boTe xar Sen. - Seni ara, is kide... * * * bono? bono sul dagvaviwyda. es SemaerTebeli rgoli roksa da danarCen sam arsebas Soris. bono rokiT sazrdoobda. ukravda, mReroda da grZnobda. ocnebobda, rom odesme msoflios aiyvanda caSi misi rok jgufi, magram misi ocneba RrublebSi frenisgan arsebiTad gansxvavdeboda. swored bono iyo imis mizezi, rom emis gitaras sul uwydeboda simebi. ver Seigno bonom, rom mediatorad yvelas da yvelafris gamoyeneba ar SeiZleboda. bonos jgufSi oTxi adgili ukve dakavebuli da

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ganawilebuli iyo. emis sanoto rveuli ki jgufis simRerebis notebs daekavebina. nina eubneboda, "iu Tus" bonos Sen sjobixaro da, SeiZleba, arc ki cdeboda. bavSvebi musikiT kvebavdnen suls da surdaT, xalxic gamoekvebaT xarisxiani sakvebiT. xalxi da ara brbo, arc erTs surda oqlokrati yofiliyo. bonos SeeZlo uzarmazari siamovneba mieRo musikisgan, eleqtrogitaris kivili suls uZravda. ramdenjer uTqvams, RamiT gitaris kivili mesmis, meCxubeba, ufunqciod ratom varo, didi scena minda da minda xalxis sisxlSi SeviWrao. bonos erTi ram ar SeeZlo mxolod, misaRebi siamovnebis dozis kontroli. meti da meti undoda. erT dResac sakuTari Tavi daajera, rom gamosavali ipova. man ipova sakuTari mes blokatori. ramdenjer uTxres, Tu ar SeeSvebi, mokvdebi, oRond manamde CvenTvis mokvdebio, magram ver gawires. mas xom yvelaze metad sWirdeboda gamagreba. is yvelaze susti aRmoCnda cxrametsarTuliani samyaros dedamiwelebs Soris. bonos uamravi qali uyvarda, ufro sworad, rogorc erT dResac daaskvna, sZulda. mxolod maTi sxeuliT tkbeboda, iRebda im TerTmet Tu SvidwuTian netarebas, magram is bono iyo da ar akmayofilebda qalis mxolod sxeulis floba, mas suli undoda, gansakuTrebuli qalis suli. bonom erTxel emis uTxra: - ici, em, an siyvaruli ar arsebobs, an kidev me ar SemiZlia siyvaruli. emi dumda, vai, rom es azri masac uburRavda tvins. - ara, bono, - oTaxSi nina Semosuliyo. rogorc bevri ityoda, Sen SegiZlia siyvaruli, albaT is arsebobs kidec, oRond manamde Sori gzaa, is Sengan Sorsaa. rogorc amboben, cxovrebis arsi swored magaSia, ipovo gza misken mimavali da is iq, labirinTis bolos gelodeba. sadRac minotavricaa, SeiZleba viRacam SeZlos da im gziT iaros, romelic minotavris bunagis gavlis gareSe midis daniSnulebis adgilas, magram umravlesobas ruka ar aqvs, iRleba da Tavbru exveva. Tu minotavrs gadaurCa, ukan im azrs Seguebuli gamodis, rom uniWoa, an piriqiT, hgonia, rom labirinTs gasasvleli ar aqvs, iq mxolod minotavri da erTi Sesasvlelia, saidanac, Tu ki ukan gamovida, mxolod imis wyalobiT, rom geniosia. am SemTxvevaSi, is gamarjvebulad Tvlis Tavs, satyuaras rom ar wamoego... - erTi miTxari, rogor axerxeb, rom amdeni cinizmi da

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ironia Cqefs SenSi?! rogor SegiZlia yvelaferze gqondes pasuxi, roca araferic ar ici. ra, ar var marTali? Sen imas eZebdi da eZeb, rasac me, magram amas arasodes aRiareb, nina. dabolos, darwmunebuli var, marto, buxris win, romelime samedicino enciklopediiT xelSi, ise gagZvreba suli, gafiqrebasac ver moaswreb, ramdeni gaakeTe da mainc ra idioturad icocxle, maqsimumi gindoda da arc minimums gausinje gemo. gecada, iqneb am minimumSi gepova maqsimumi. geubnebi, ni, sikvdilis win daskvnis gakeTebasac ver moaswreb, vin iyavi, siyvarulTan damarcxebuli Tu urwmuno. - bono, meCveneba, Tu Sen axla sakuTar Tavs esaubrebi? Tvalebi Cemdami zizRiT gaqvs savse... ratom, bono? ra, aqac Tavad unda veZebo pasuxi? aRar SemiZlia, ar minda, guli mereva im minimumze, rac Sen maqsimaluri doziT miiRe, morCa, aRar minda amaze saubari. SeiZleba, marTalic xar, magram me Cemi simarTle maqvs da minda iqamde Tavad mivide. mjera, es odesme moxdeba... - saSineli optimisti xar da eg gSvelis yvelaze ukiduresi ufskrulidanac ki Tavis daRwevaSi. emi Cumadaa, vici, ratomac. isic ebrZvis sakuTar Tavs. ici, me da Sen bevri saerTo gvaqvs, magram me da emis kidev ufro meti. emimac scada da gemo gausinja im minimums, razec Sen uars ambob. masac sjeroda, rom ramdenime safexuris Semdeg aucileblad miadgeboda piks, Sen ki ggonia, piks aucileblad erTbaSad dainaxav da mere komfortuli TviTmfrinaviT afrindebi... emim ver SeZlo Tavis motyueba. albaT, marTali xar, roca am gadawyvetilebas iReb, magram rodemde, nina? rodemde daicdi? gana, lodini ar gagagiJebs? - uceb fexze wamovarda, xeli moiSiSvla da qavili autyda. - ai, ai, sadamde mimiyvana siamovnebis meti doziT Secnobis survilma, dozas dozaze viReb, gavanadgure sakuTari deda, sakuTari Tavi da... - cdebi, bono, - Zlivs amoiRo xma emim, - iseve, rogorc Cven yvelani, magram Sen yvelaze metad. Tavs iTiSav, blokav sakuTar mes, rogorc aRniSne, gaTele yvelaze wminda - deda da ver moaxerxe ninasTvis simarTle geTqva... - ra simarTle? - gamofxizlda nina. - damacade, nina! bono, gekiTxebi, Sen SeZeli Seni

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sasurveli maqsimumis ganaRdeba? ara... ratom? ra, ar SegiZlia? me maxsovs Seni saxe, im fsevdo usinaTlo maTxovris luRluRs rom vismendiT Cvens kiTxvaze - `ra uyavi sindiss?~ gaxsovs, ra vuyaviT im fuls, mTeli weli xmis Camweri studiisTvis rom vagrovebdiT? - ra Tqma unda, maxsovs... - ara, ar gaxsovs, Sen xom SeZeli misi sindisis gaRviZeba. ra kargad amxile... Savi saTvalis miRma sakuTari saRi Tvalebi daanaxe da am qveynisaken moabrune, magram Cven... Cven ver SevZeliT Seni mobruneba... erT banalur frazas getyvi: inaneb, magram gvian iqneba... - bono, ra simarTle unda geTqva? - ra?.. ho, mazeg koncerts vatarebT. - ra? - ikivla emim. * * * sami Rame repeticiebs gadiodnen. repertuarSi bonos, emis da ninas kompoziciebi iyo, devili yovelTvis ambobda, weraSi ar verevi, eg TqvenTvis damiTmia, me mxolod dramze ritmulad tyapuni da ritmis amRereba SemiZliao. ambobda, arasodes gavakeTeb imas, risi gakeTebis survili mTlianad ar momicavso. bono dozas dozaze umatebda, xvdebodnen - kargavdnen da aRar ucdiaT misi SeCereba. erT Ramesac transSi myofma dawera `ior laif~. Tumca, ganacxada, amas xval ar vimRerebT, misi Sesrulebis dRe jer ar damdgarao. am simReris adresati Tavad mixvdeba, rom mec da es simRerac misi sakuTreba varT, mixvdeba, rom man SeZlo flobdes Cems suls. ai, maSin Cemi misiac Sesruldeba. swored is Seasrulebs am simReras da me ukanasknel wamebSi movismen absurds, romelsac Cemi cxovreba hqviao. uxmod daeTanxmnen... mazeg gaTenda... * * * - devil, modi, sul cotas gagikeTeb, gWirdeba, xvdebi? - gagiJdi, bono? e, Zmao... me ar mWirdeba narkotiki, me Cemi ritmika gamomkvebavs... Sen aRar xar bono, is bono, mxolod sakuTar Tavs rom hgavda... - rao, morisons davemsgavse? geTanxmebi... - Caimuxla

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bono da SubliT kedels mieyrdno. - ufleba ar misce narkotiks, eSmakis saufloSi wagaTrios. - daiviwye, - wamodga bono, - wamo, vikaifoT, aha, vusruleb Cems gitaras ocnebas. ici, guSin erTaderTi Rame iyo, roca kivili ar gamigonia... emi da nina SesasvlelTan idgnen. `rokis princesa~, mwared Caecina bonos. scenaze oTxi arseba gamoCnda. isini CarCoSi moqceul rokerebs sulac ar hgavdnen. maT CarCo gaerRviaT da scenis ZirSi miegdoT. - sadaa amoSavebuli Tvalebi? - satanis mzera? - tyavis Sarvlebi? - daiyvira viRacam. - idioti, - Cveuli cinizmiT miageba obieqturi epiTeti ninam. meomrebma erTmaneTs gadaxedes da aniSnes, - samyaro davrokoTo! daiwyes da dasasrulsac bolo mouRes. scena ar iyo didi, arc darbazi, Tumca iqidan samyaro imzireboda. bonos gitara sadaveawyvetili mustangiviT miqroda usieri samSoblosaken. oTxive grZnobda sakuTari energiis nakadis simZlavres, oTxivem dainaxa, rogor daiara am nakadma mTeli samyaro, mis suls xeli moxvia, aitaca da caSi aiyvana. ~The people without names" - ase JRerda bolo simRera. repeticiaze, roca saxelis garda yvelaferi mzad iyo, emim Tqva: Cven ar gveqneba saxeli, Cven veravin gagvibedavs CarCoSi Casmas. icodeT, amas veravin gabedavs. daeTanxmnen da emis naTqvamic gamarTlda. maTi saxeli aravis gamoucxadebia, Tavs damtydari mexiviT Secvivdnen scenaze da ai, swored axla acocxlebdnen `usaxelo adamianebs~. bonos gitaram sawadels miaRwia. * * * - xalxo! bono kvdeba, - iRriala emim. - ra? ara... bono taxtze egdo, Zirs dagdebuli yavisferi xeliT,

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mowamluli suliT da fexebSi sayvareli gitariT. devili bonos TavTan ijda, emi sadRac usasrulobaSi dafrinavda, nina ki sawolSi iwva, mSvidi saxiT, satanur simSvides flobda misi saxe. saocaria, axla imaze metad SeeZlo emociisa da grZnobebis kontroli, vidre odesme. bono misi alternativa iyo. wamodga, abazanaSi Sevida, sarkidan ucxo qali umzerda, saxeze wyali Seisxa, scada satanuri simSvidis Camorecxva. mere bonos gitara aiRo, emis sanoto rveuli gadaSala. bonos Tvalebi gaubrwyinda da Tavis wamoweva scada. ninam Tvalebi mis mzeras gauStera, simebs TiTebi Camousva da ukanaskneli survili Seusrula mustangis patrons. bonos marcxena Tvalidan cremli Camougorda. - ratom, nina? ratom? nuTu siyvaruli marTla ar SegviZlia? Sen me meZebdi, me kidev - Sen... Tumca, Sengan gansxvavebiT, me gipove. orive miviwevdiT labirinTis gasasvlelisken, mere sadRac Sen Camexerge da ai... - ara, bono, gvian, Tumca mainc gipove. axla erTaderTi sityvis Tqma minda, magram ver vaxerxeb, ar SemiZlia, vici, ucnaurad aJRerdeba Cemi bageebidan, vityvi pirvelad da ukanasknelad. - xedav, nina? me wesi davarRvie, megobrobis wesi da davisaje kidec. dasanania, roca am sityvas mec pirvelad da ukanasknelad getyvi, magram me axla sikvdil-sicocxlis zRvarze var da vrwmundebi, rom swored am zRvarze davinaxe WeSmariteba. miyvarxar, nina... - msgavs situaciaSi sxva wyvili rom menaxa, aucileblad gadavixarxarebdi da am yovelives egreve marazmis iarliys mivakravdi, magram ici? mec davisaje... maxsovs, erTxel rogor davcine paskals, sayvareli qalis saxeli mxolod da mxolod sikvdilis win gaumxelia, me cxviri avibzue da es davayole, - mis adgilas amas arc sikvdilis win vityodi-meTqi. dasanania, ara? me Sens saxels axla vamxel, oRond, Cemi ki ara, Seni sikvdilis win. ai, yvelaze didi sasjeli... miyvarxar... acremlda nina... amdeni cremli arasodes enaxa, miT umetes, sakuTari... bonom raRac Tqva, gaRimebis Tavi aRar hqonda, magram ninas arc es gaugonia. is garboda, xelebiT ikafavda gzas im usasrulobaSi, raSic emi ukve yurebamde Cafluliyo.

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mwuxarebis, siyvarulis, gaurkvevlobis da gaocebis grZnobebma erTxmad dascines ninas. Tumca, axla ukve icoda, vin iyo, ra gaakeTa da ras gaakeTebda. `bono, minda icode. Sen arc urwmuno xar da arc siyvarulTan damarcxebuli, Seni cxovreba sulac araa absurdi. Sen ipove labirinTidan gasasvleli, ubralod, gzad minotavrs gadaeyare Cemi saxiT.~ odesRac devils simarTle bolomde ar uambo, daumala, ras arigebda deda. `deda, me... me SeiZleba martoobisTvis var gaCenili. dae, buxris win romelime samedicino enciklopediiT xelSi gamZvres suli, magram me SevZeli da vipove gza siyvarulisken. deda, me siyvaruli vipove.~

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arc ra, anu istoria RmerTad gaxdomisa iyo da Tan ar iyo... ra? araraoba, romelsac araferi erqva. is arafrisgan aSenebul saxlSi cxovrobda da yovelTvis erTaderTi saqmiT arafriT iyo dakavebuli. Tavze mudam araferi exura da fexzec araferi ecva. arafers Tesavda da imkida imaves. Wamda arafers da imaves svamda. uyvarda araferi da Zulda igive. cxovrobda ase, arc erT ferSi, iqamde, sanam Tavisi erTaderTi saqmiT dakavebulma, Tavi Zils ar misca da arc ra daesizmra: midioda sivrceSi, sadac araferi iyo SesaZleblobis garda; miadga arafrisgan agebul uzarmazar arafers, yvelaze dids, rac ki araraobas Tavisi ararsebobis Jams enaxa. is arafriT iyo Caketili da mxolod arafriT iReboda. arafers unda epova araferi da araferTa Soris yvelaze arafruli araferi swored amiT gaeRo. eZeba: gadaiara uferuli sivrceebi; Sexvda ararsebuli dabrkolebebi da moZebna. dabrunda, gaaRo uzarmazari araferi da Sig imdeni feri ipova, imdeni, imdeni, rom... uceb yvelaferi gaxda.

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* * * me keTilma, danaoWebulma xelebma Camyara madlian miwaSi. me miwa madlianad mnamavda da arsebobisTvis mifrTxildeboda. me fesvebi gamovibi. me gaviazre da mivxvdi, rom Cemi fesvebi ukve sakmaod Zlieri iyo da SeiZleboda zedapirisken amosvla. me vecade da aRmovcendi norC mwvane ylortad. me wvima almasis kristalebiT manebivrebda. me mwvane ylortidan grexil, yavisfer Stoebad gadaviqeci. me moxucma wvril, gabmul Tokze mimaba da momca swori mimarTuleba. me nayofi gamovibi msxvil Sav mtevnebad. me venaxi miwoda man da daloca Cemi gamCeni. me Semodgomaze damkrifes da xmel uremze moaTavses Cemi mtevnebi. me madlianma xelma damwura, wveni gamadina. me didxans Seminaxes da daaRvines wveni Cemi. me doqSi Camomasxes da gamitanes sufrasTan. me TasiT amiRo man da Tqva: - miiReT puri, rogorc xorci Cemi, da Rvino, rogorc sisxli Cemi. me Cemi arseboba mTlianad Sevalie mas da ufalmac damlia...

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beqa baRaSvili

Tea for one yvelaferi iqidan daiwyo, rom Tvrameti wlis gavxdi da Semamkes saCuqrebiT. marjvena xelze saaTi, romelmac darCenili cxovrebis aTvla daiwyo, marcxenaze ki samajuri, romelic yovel wams maxsenebda, visTvis unda mecxovra darCenili wlebi. Tovli dneboda, qreboda gulidan imedis sxivebi, magram realoba ukeTess mimzadebda, Tovli dneboda. ori umSvenieresi Tve masTan gavatare, Cven davdiodiT, visxediT gaCerebaze da velodiT sasurvel avtobuss. me vukiTxavdi mas da is bavSviviT lamazi saxiT Sescqeroda Cems gulmkerds, ismenda ormagad. me vumRerodi mas da is morcxvad xrida Tavs, an SemomanaTebda damRlel Tvalebs da gugebiT mefereboda daWimul saxeze. Cven yovel Rames da yovel dilas erTi mesijiT viwyebdiT: `me SenTan var!" Cven samni viyaviT - me, is da kidev xan mze, xan mzis sxivebi, xan Tovli, xan wvima, xan qari da xan selpakis cxvirsaxoci. me da is kavSiris mudmivi wevrebi viyaviT, mesames ki RmerTi gvigzavnida. ori umSvenieresi Tve gailia kamaTSi, erTmaneTis ferebaSi, siyvarulSi, romlis magvaric araferi gamomecada Tvrameti wlis ganmavlobaSi. deda meubneboda: `gamofxizldi!" da realur samyaroSi mepatiJeboda, momiwodebda ojaxis dagegmvas, swavlasa Tu ekonomikur aRorZinebas. me ki mamaCemiviT mouTokavi grZnobebiT vagrZelebdi svlas da viRebdi udides talRebs, romlebic xan kargs, xanac cuds moaswavebdnen. me ganviTarebadi kaciviT mindoda adreul asakSi ojaxis Seqmna masTan erTad da uamravi Svilis yola im imediT, rom erT-erTi mainc gaxdeboda saqarTvelos morigi damaqceveli prezidenti. mokled, me mTeli sxeuliT Sevtope siyvarulis am udides, ulamazes kolxeTis WaobSi, ai, swored im WaobSi, romelic quTaiss esazRvreba... daRmasvla erT dRes dasrulda, maSin, rodesac morigi kamaTis gamo erTmaneTs SevxvdiT. me, rogorc yovelTvis, civad Cavexute, is meambora. me mivuSvire loya, arada, mTeli sxeuliT mindoda isev megrZno misi tuCebis sisvele Cemi gaxsnili bagiT. Sevikave Tavi. kamaTis mizezi rigiTi sisulele da sasacilo ambavi iyo, arc erTi vapirebdiT ukan daxevas da patara bavSve93

biviT sruli eqstremizmiT vicavdiT Cvens simarTles. am gaugebrobaSi, roca quCaSi aTasi dainteresebuli saxe Semogyurebs da akvirdeba Tqvens urTierTobas, ise, ubralod jibrze, guli ramenairad rom stkenoda, mivaxale, rom guSin sul ori wuTiT SemzizRda, mec gulze viyavi gaxeTqili, mivaxale ise usamarTlod, siyvaruliTac ki, arada, marTla ase rom yofiliyo, me xom aRarc Sevxvdebodi, an ase rogor iqneboda, aravin mezizReboda am qveyanaze da am arsebas SevizizRebdi, romelic Camovasxi, Semovikedle, Cems meTerTmete neknad vaqcie? Cemi sityvebis mere is, Cveni urTierTobis ganmavlobaSi pirvelad, usityvod gatrialda da wavida... me isev mimatoves, Sua quCaSi TavSi waviSine xeli da daretianebulma maxlobel kedelTan Cavimuxle. wiTeli sisxli masxamda tvinSi. Tvalebze xeli avifare, ver amoviqviTine, verc zizRi vigrZeni, arc vinane, saSinlad mindoda dabrunebuliyo da kidev erTxel menaxa misi Rimili gaiRime, ii (oRond ZaliT ara)! damartya gonebaSi, rom unda gavkidebodi, rogorc es happy end-ian sasiyvarulo filmebSia da wamovdeqi. xelebi moviSore saxidan da veraferi davinaxe. davretiandi, davibeni, iq aRarc quCa iyo, aRarc mosiarule xalxi, gadaWedili saavtomobilo gzatkecili, aRarc sagazeTo jixurebi da aRarc qvafenili. iq mxolod Cemi Cumi wyvdiadi sufevda! Semomesma: `nela iare, Zmao!" xelebi gavacece da mivxvdi, davbrmavdi. sasowarkveTili mivegde quCaSi da goneba davkarge. *** im dRiT dasrulda Cemi orTviani cxovrebis didi bedniereba. stresma damibnela mze, RmerTi isev amimxedrda, ar macala arc bavSvebi, arc ojaxi, Tumca, ii! ii CemTan darCa. Cven veRar davdivarT Zveleburad, axla mas davyavar, velodebiT avtobuss, magram me veRar veubnebi, ra nomeri movida. veRar vukiTxav leqsebs da axla is mikiTxavs Cems Zvel najRabnebs. veRarc vumReri, dabrmavebis Semdeg is buStic gameWeda yelSi da axla mxolod gitaraze Tu vukrav sevdian melodiebs. veRar vuyureb iis mowyenil saxes, xandaxan Tu momesmis misi kiskisi. maxsendeba, Zvelad rogor iRimeboda da warmovidgen... xSirad mesmis misi Cumi, morcxvi qviTini Sors, oTaxebSi, Tumca ar vimCnev, rom gavigone. vnatrob, odesme isev amexilos Tvalebi, SevZlo misi cim94

cima Tvalebis, brdRviala, eSmakis Tvalebis danaxva, Rimilis ­ `gaiRime, ii!" im patara cxviris, romelic me movuRrice, gapuwuli Tmebis, tuCebis, Rawvebis, susti patara tanis... kidev Sevcqerode mis vnebian, SeSlil, mowyurebul saxes, Sevcqerode misi tuCebis sisveles. Tumca, rac davbrmavdi, imis mere aRar vaZlev uflebas meamboros, piriqiT, vTxov, wavides, damtovos, Seqmnas ojaxi da erT-erT vaJs beqa daarqvas, magram is aRarasdros wasula Cemgan! im dRis mere aRarasdros mivutovebivar. sinanuliT ki marto erTs vnanob, ar unda mimewera erTxel misTvis - `ii, Sen Cemi sicocxle xar!" yvelaferi iqidan daiwyo, rom Tvrameti wlis gavxdi da Semamkes saCuqrebiT: marjvena xelze saaTi, romelmac darCenili cxovrebis aTvla daiwyo, marcxenaze ki samajuri, romelic yovel wams maxsenebda, visTvis unda mecxovra darCenili cxovreba. Tovli dneboda, qreboda gulidan imedis sxivebi, magram realoba ukeTess mimzadebda, Tovli dneboda.

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giorgi jamburia

Tbilisoba - gio, gZinavs? - ki. mama daixara da ise damacqerda. - ar mZinavs, ra ginda? - me exa mivdivar da iraklim Tu damireka, svaneTSi var wasuli! - ra ginda svaneTSi? mama gaimarTa. - ra minda svaneTSi? - ravi me, Sen ar Tqvi, mivdivaro... - ebiWo, ki ar mivdivar, iraklim Tu damireka, uTxari, rom svaneTSi var. - da vinme sxvam Tu dagireka? mama dafiqrda. - yvelas egre uTxari, yvelas, vinc damirekavs, uTxari, rom svaneTSi var! - da svanebma Tu dagirekes? mama dafiqrda. - mekaifebi? - me gekaifebi? dila uTenia maRviZeb da svaneTSi mivdivaro... - ebiWo, ki ar mivdivar, irakli Tu damirekavs, uTxari, ro svaneTSi var! - ras gerCis irakli? - ras merCis irakli? - aba, ratom emalebi? - sad vemalebi? - svaneTSi! - ra minda svaneTSi? - aba, me ra vici... - ebiWo, araferi Sen ar ici... me wavedi da Tu damirekaven, ar ici sada var! - anu, ar xar svaneTSi? - ra minda svaneTSi? - xo, kargi, wadi...

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- aba, ras etyvi vinc damirekavs? - saerTod ar aviReb telefons, kaco! - ras ar aiReb?! iraklim unda darekos! mama kai xnis wasuli iyo, rom avdeqi. samzareuloSi Caidans ukve aRar ekida cecxli, SigniT bolomde aorTqlebuliyo wyali, garedan kide kidev ufro gamuruliyo da damwvris suni idga. samzareuloSic da sxva oTaxebSic Suqi enTo, mTqnarebaatexili davdiodi da vaqrobdi, telefonma rom dareka. sanam iqamde mivaRwie, miwyda da mere isev dareka. - ras Svebi, gio, sad xar? - saxinkleSi vzivar biWebTan erTad. - ebiWo, xo giTxari, saxlidan ar gaxvide-meTqi. - saxlSi mirekav, mama! mama dafiqrda. - Caxvedi ukve svaneTSi? - ra minda svaneTSi? - iraklimo, isao... - xo, xo, dareka? - vin? mama gabrazda. - bebiaSenma! - ara, bebos ar daurekavs. - iraklis? - arc iraklis. - rato, kaco? - ra rato? - rato ar dareka? - bebom Tu iraklim? mamam gaTiSa. me Cais daulevlad visauzme da rezisTan mivedi. rezim momkida xeli da gigisTan avediT. gigim mogvkida me da rezis xeli da lukasTan CavediT. lukam mogvkida me, rezis da gigis xeli da yifosTan wavediT. yifom mogvkida me, rezis, gigis da lukas xeli da SakosTan gavediT. Sako gzaSi Segvxvda da gaukvirda, ase xelCakidebulebi rom dagvinaxa... ukve saRamovdeboda, roca gamaxsenda, rom mamaCemi svaneTSi iyo wasuli da CemTan avediT yvelani. kari Ria damxvda da gamikvirda: saxlSi mamaCemi ZmakacebTan erTad qeifobda.

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irakli Tamadobda. Cvenc gvaqeifes im Tbilisobas...

saaxalwlo saCuqari anu Tovlis babua, romelic marTla arsebobs Sarka brazobda. Sarka brazobda, radgan patara da nislian qalaq brnoSi axali weli oqtombris miwurulidan ipareboda. lampionebis maRal da moCuqurTmebul boZebze sxvadasxva feris naTurebiT moWedil girlandebs gaabamdnen. patara SadrevnebTan yinulmodebul qvis lomebs yoveli mxridan anaTebdnen da momcro skverebSic daTovlil naZvebs da erTmaneTs mityupebul juja saxlebsac naTurebiani girlandebiT Semownavdnen. da Sarkac sxvadasxvafrad gaCaxCaxebuli girlandiviT iyo da mere, brnos blant buruss brdRvnidnen mbJutavi sinaTleebi. brno saSobaod moulodnelad afeTqdeboda, mwifdeboda da es Sarkas abrazebda. Sarkas abrazebda gawelili molodini oqtombris bolodan dekembris bolomde (dekembris bolomde, roca brnoSi, rogorc yvelgan, axali weli dgeboda, ubralod, brnoSi ufro meti nislebi iyo). - Sarka, me Senze moTxrobas davwer! - ratom mekaifebi, giorgi? - me davwer, rom Sen Soba ar giyvars! - miyvars! - me davwer, rom Sen arc axali weli giyvars! - miyvars! - Sarka, me Senze moTxrobas davwer! - wadi Seni! saaxalwlod milan kunderas ori wigni mergo. ufro sworad, mamaCemma iyida da gasamarTleblad erTi me maCuqa da meore Cems Zmas. ase Tan saintereso wigni iSova da Tan saCuqrebis problemac gadaiwyvita. Cemma Zmamac, Tavis mxriv, me maCuqa. ase Tan wignis wakiTxvis aucilebloba moiSora da Tan saCuqris problema gadaiwyvita. midevs axla me milan kunderas ori wigni da ver gadamiwyvetia, wavikiTxo, Tu mec vinmes vaCuqo. Sarkas ki ukve karga xania vuTxari, Cemi sayvareli Cexi mwerali milan kunderaa-meTqi. Sarkas gauxarda, Tan cota gaukvirda da sanam rames mkiTxavda, isev ludze davuwye la98

paraki. Sarka Cemi Cexi megobaria, cxovrobs patara da nislian qalaq brnoSi da guliT sjera, rom `starobrno" (misi qalaqis ludi) saukeTeso ludia msoflioSi. me Sarkas arasodes araferSi veTanxmebi da vamayob, rom CexeTis fexburTze masze meti gamegeba. me da Sarka inglisurad, germanulad, aqa-iq rusulad vsaubrobT da gabrazebuli qarTulad maginebs xolme. `wadi Seni!" Sarkas sayvareli frazaa qarTulad. `giorgi, wadi Seni!" me Cexurad erTaderTi sityva vici - `slenCo". `Sarka, Se slenCo!" `slenCo" qaliSvils niSnavs. Sarka Cemi Cexi megobari gogoa, Sarka gogoa da mainc Sarka hqvia, Sarka giorgobasaa dabadebuli da mainc Sarka hqvia, me Cexi megobari gogo myavs, magram mas Sarka hqvia. - Sarka, Se slenCo, me Senze moTxrobas davwer! - wadi Seni! - Sarka, modi Sen Cemi muza iyavi, mere ra, rom Sarka gqvia! - mere ra, rom Sarka mqvia?! - Sarka, me davwer, rom Sen Cemi muza xar! - ar var! oriveni Cven-Cveni ekranebis win vicinodiT. - davwer da saaxalwlod gamogigzavni! - ras? - moTxrobas Senze! - da qarTulad dawer, ara? - aba ra! - da me ver wavikiTxav, ara? - aba ra! Cven-Cveni ekranebis win vicinodiT oriveni. - da ras daarqmev? - ras? - moTxrobas Cemze! - ese igi, mainc ginda, rom davwero. - da ras daarqmev? - unda saerTod ki saTauri? -Sen ra, usaTauro moTxrobas momiZRvni? - Sarka, Se slenCo! arafersac ar giZRvni, me, ubralod, vwer Senze. me vwer, rom Sen Cemi muza xar, miuxedavad imisa, rom Sarka gqvia! Sarkas verafriT gaego, ra SuaSi iyo misi saxeli. Sarka

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cxovrobda patara da burusiT mocul qalaq brnoSi, sadac TovliT dafarul, mokirwylul quCebSi axali wlis moulodnelad mZafri suni idga. mere ra, rom brnoelebs sul ar hqondaT gozinayi. oTxi wlidan arc erT axal wels ar miZinia. buxari ar mqonia, amitom karebTan maRal skams mivaCoCebdi, zed Semovdgebodi da karis WuWrutanaSi viWyitebodi. mere ufro dabali samfexa skamic mkmaroda. cota ufro mere ki saerTod aRar mWirdeboda skami, magram Tovlis babua arc erTxel gamoCenila. gamoCndeboda mxolod maSin, rodesac lodinisgan sulakawkawebuls sul erTi wuTiT mainc wamZlevda guli saaxalwlo sufrisken. gamoCndeboda uCumrad, mokrZalebulad miawyobda saCuqrebs karTan, zars darekavda da sanam me da Cemi Zma karTan pirvelad mirbenisaTvis vibrZodiT, uCumradve gauCinardeboda xolme. axal wels mxolod erTxel CameZina, oTxi wlis viyavi da dilaadrian gamoRviZebuls saCuqrebi rom damxvda sawolSi da gancvifrebisgan Zalian gvian gamofxizlebuls rom miTxres, Tovlis babuas Seni gaRviZeba moerida, saCuqrebi dagitova da wavidao, magrad gavbrazdi. magrad mabrazebda Tovlis babuas mokrZaleba da moridebuloba da yovel werilSi saCuqrebis nacvlad vTxovdi, gambedaoba moekriba da ar SeSineboda mamaCemis didroni ulvaSebis, romlisac xandaxan mec meSinoda. rogorc yvelas, mec Cemi Tovlis babua myavda, ubralod sxvebze ufro mokrZalebul-moridebuli. - Sarka, Sen gjera Tovlis babuis? - ra Tqma unda, Sen ra, ara? - ra Tqma unda, ara, me maRali, qeraTmiani da grZelfexeba sneguroCkebis mjera. - me ar vici, vin arian sneguroCkebi, giorgi, - meubneboda Sarka, - amixseni. uxseni exa amas, vfiqrobdi me da mainc vuxsnidi: - sneguroCka, Sarka, Tovlis babuis elfiviTaa, oRond ufro... - ra ufro? - ufro qaluri da mimzidveli, xo, ai, egeTia sneguroCka! - da Sen Tovlis babuaze ufro gjera misi? heh, uxseni exa amas! vicinodiT oriveni Cven-Cveni ekranebis win.

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moRrublul TbilisSi ki brnosgan gansxvavebiT axali weli erTbaSad Semodga, rom aravin eloda, ise. brnosgan gansxvavebiT TbilisSi ar iyo rZisferi nislebi, aq arc naRdi Tovli iyo da arc gamoZaxebuli Tovlis babuebi iyvnen naRdebi. TbilisSi naRdia mxolod Wyapi da mobuzuli beRurebi da danarCeni naRdi rac gvqonda, sadRac Tvalidan gamogvepara, yuradReba ver mivaqcieT da Tbilisuri TovliviT dadna. - neta, ras akeTeben Tovlis babuebi gamoZaxebiT, roca maT ar iZaxeben? - gamoZaxebas elodebian. - ara, Sarka, sxedan fexze fexgadadebuli da lamaz sneguroCkebs abamen, romlebic sicil-kiskisiT amzadeben msuye gozinays, rom Tovlis babuebs Ripebi ar CaefuSoT. - ara, giorgi, egeni ar arian namdvili Tovlis babuebi. namdvil Tovlis babuas aravin iZaxebs da namdvil Tovlis babuas Tavisi Tovlis bebo hyavs da namdvili elfebi, uSnoebi da kacurebi, didi yurebiT da didi cxvirebiT. - eh, Sarka, Se slenCo, vis rad unda Seni ararsebuli Tovlis babuebi. - me minda, yvelas unda! - me kide ar minda! - wadi Seni! Cven-Cveni ekranebis win oriveni vicinodiT. - Sarka, modi Sen Cemi sneguroCka iyavi, mere ra, rom Sarka gqvia. - mere ra, rom Sarka mqvia?! - mere Cagkideb xels da vivliT saxlidan saxlamde. karebTan davtovebT saCuqrebs, frTxilad davrekavT zars da mere mamaCemis didroni ulvaSebis SegveSindeba da Cumad gavqrebiT, sanam karis gaRebas moaswreben. - giorgi, me ar vici gozinayis gakeTeba. - mere ra, arc me momixdeba gaberili Ripi. oriveni vicinodiT Cven-Cveni ekrenebis win. - Sarka, wavedi me axla, sanam Tovs, ZaRli unda gavaseirno! - giorgi, Sen ar gyavs ZaRli! ZaRli me, ra Tqma unda, ar myavda. ToviT ki Tovda, pirvel Tovls Tovda. Tovda da gada101

Tovda da Tan Tovda da Tan dneboda da rac rCeboda - iyineboda da rac dneboda - talaxad iqceoda da mere moyinul Tovlze fexasrialebulni, atalaxebul TovlSi viSxlarTebodiT, uares SemTxvevaSi - Tavqve. da mere Cumad vtirodiT, vicremlebodiT da an xmamaRla viginebodiT da axali weli ki Semodioda, uCumrad dgeboda, arafers gvekiTxeboda da ise, rom Cvenc ar gvesmoda, cota ufro naRdebi da namdvilebi vxdebodiT. - Sarka, wavedi me axla, sanam Tovs, Senze moTxroba unda davwero! - giorgi, Sen arafersac ar dawer Cemze! Sarkaze me, ra Tqma unda, ar vwerdi. ToviT ki Tovda, axali wlis pirvel Tovls Tovda.

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nika sergia

matarebeli swrafva ...roca bavSvma imdenad auwia xmas, rom mosaubreebi Seawuxa, viRacam kalami SeaCeCa xelSi da pataramac tirili Sewyvita, - saqme gamouCnda - furcelze, romelic upatronod iyo migdebuli, raRacis jRabna daiwyo. es, ra Tqma unda, vearavin SeniSna, aravis unaxavs, rom patara najRabni wirebis Tavsa da bolos erTmaneTTan aerTebda da ase gamodioda Zalian, Zalian uSno wreebi... wre srulyofili figuraa. misTvis arc erTi wertilis mimateba SeiZleba da arc gamokleba. ufro sworad, SeZlebiT ki SeiZleba, magram Sedegad miRebuli ram wre aRar iqneba. Tvals moatyuebs figura, romelic, ubralod Zalian hgavs wres. unaklo wres veravin daxatavs, radgan wertilis aRqmamde gamaxvilebuli SegrZneba aravis aqvs. adamianebi, ubralod, metnaklebad zust wreebs xataven, Tu gnebavT, xazaven. es imas ar niSnavs, rom namdvili wre ar arsebobs, ara, is arsebobs, magram Cven ver vqmniT, ara gvaqvs. samagierod, SegviZlia, Zalian, Zalian lamazi, namdvilTan bevrad miaxloebuli wreebi davxazoT... adamianma wres, srulyofilebas, RmerTi daarqva. daiwyo swrafva misken... es procesi daemgvana casTan kibis midgmas, ufro sworad, am kibeze asvlas. ca, anu atmosfero, aqve, miwaze iwyeba, Tumca, rogorc Cans, mis meore bolos veZebT. am kibeze, gnebavT, godolze avdivarT dausruleblad da dausruleblad vuaxlovdebiT srulyofilebas. im safexurze, romelzec movkvdebiT, vtovebT momavals, axal awmyos, anu STamomavals. es STamomavalic gvgavs, anu aseve iqceva. sabolood gamodis, rom srulyofileba mxolod mimarTulebaa, romliskenac dausrulebliv unda iaro, marcxis, warmatebis, sicocxlis, sikvdilis da sxva rameebis Semdegac. bevrma ver gauZlo miznisken dausrulebel swrfvas, radgan eZebda Svebas. maT egonaT, rom miznis miRweva iyo Sveba. maT ar icodnen, rom ar arsebobs Sveba, arsebobs mxolod Svebisken swrafva. amitom maT gamoigones uamravi mizani da ocneba, da CaTvales, rom maTi miRweva mianiWebdaT nanatr Svebas. aseTi

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gamogoneba uamravia _ es aris yvelaferi, rasac warmatebas vuwodebT, fuliT dawyebuli da fuliT damTavrebuli. roca martivi miznebi miRweul iqna, Sveba ki - vermiRebuli, jeri dadga ufro da ufro rTuli miznebisa, romelTac SeiZleba foladis miznebi vuwodoT, radgan TvisebebiT Zalian hgvanan folads _ ganuzomlad did simyaresTan erTad simyife, anu zRvari axasiaTebT. Sedegad, urTulesi mizanic ki miRwevadia, misi miRwevis Semdeg ki Sveba mainc ar Cans da Zieba ki grZeldeba... aRmoCndnen iseTebic, romlebmac gadawyvites, rom `vnebis simZafre SenebaSia da ara aSenebuliT tkbobaSi", amitom isev im erTaderTi miuRwevadi miznisken iswrafian, romelsac srulyofilebamde miRweva hqvia. am swrafvas bolo ara aqvs, is imisTvis araa, rom mizans miaRwio da amocanis pasuxi miiRo, aramed imisaTvis, rom amoxsnis gza ipovo da am gzaze siaruliT datkbe, miznis miRwevis imediT iyo bednieri da ara miRweviT, rac ukmarisobis grZnobas badebs. am gzaze yoveli nabiji sixarulia, radgan srulyofilebasTan kidev ufro miaxloebas niSnavs. da saerTod, cxovreba imitom aris sasruli, rom is aCveno, Tu ras gaakeTebdi, cxovreba usasrulo rom yofiliyo. ...bavSvi isev xatavda (Tu xazavda) wreebs, oRond ukve bavSvi aRar iyo... axla telefonze laparakobda da ise xatavda, qvecnobierad... es wreebi bevrad, bevrad srulyofili iyo, vidre isini, maSin rom xatavda, bavSvobisas, Tumca srulyofilebas kidev bevri uklda.... ori `Cadenilia sisxlis samarTlis danaSauli, gamoZiebis safuZvelze dakavebulia damnaSave, wayenebuli aqvs brali ganzrax mkvlelobis muxliT," - Tqva policielma. `Semoiyvanes pacienti, Zalian mZime mdgomareobaSi. gulis areSi aRmoaCnda cecxlsasroli iaraRiT miyenebuli gamWoli Wriloba. movaxdineT swrafi reagireba, rac SegveZlo, yvelaferi gavakeTeT, magram..." - ganacxada eqimma. - amas dauwyia Turme, uginebia Tu raRaca... mtyuania mkvleli, magram arc is sacodavi yofila marTali. - ras ambob, Se qalo, kraviviT biWi iyo is sacodavi, WianWvelas ar daadgamda fexs. - Tavisi Tqves Woriknebma. garSemo tramali. kaci. tvinSi xmac da wiTeli laqebic

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ganuwyvetliv. xma ornairi. xma pirveli: gasrola. xma meore (CurCuliT molaparake, magram boxi da garemos amavsebeli): `Sen ra gegona! es sxvaa, sxva, ufro sabediswero! mkvleloba adamianis suls glejs or nawilad, sindisad da damnaSaved glejs! naxav, dageweva sindisi." kaci garbis, xSirad ukan ixedeba - Tavis Crdils xedavs. eSinia, saSinlad eSinia da gaurbis sakuTar Crdils - ukve mixvda, rom es aris sindisi. kidev ufro Cqara garbis, magram mainc ver usxlteba, Crdils versad gaeqceva, TiTqos winaswar icis, sad wava... kacs es Crdili xandaxan is msxverplic hgonia da kidev ufro eSinia. mere gaaxsendeba, rogor warmoiqmna Crdili da axedavs mzes. usasrulo tramalze usasrulo cisferi xvimiria damxobili da Tvals abrmavebs uzarmazari, mrgvali, CaxCaxa mze. kacs mzisa ufro eSinia da sasowarkveTilebaSi vardeba - ukan is iyo, rac Tavs ar anebebda da ganuwyvetliv dasdevda, win ki mze. kaci uceb feTdeba, mkveTrad ukan Semobrundeba da giJiviT gamoudgeba Tavis Crdils. axla ukve damnaSave misdevs sindiss, gaTelvas, gasresas, ganadgurebas upirebs. gadajegavs mkvleli tramals, ver grZnobs aCqarebul guliscemas da mainc ver eweva Crdils. mze ufro mwvaved aWers zurgze. maSin miva sindissgamokidebuli kaci ufskrulis piras da moixelTebs sindiss, imitom rom sindiss ar unda gadaCexva, icis es kacma da ufro da ufro kuTxeSi imwyvdevs sakuTari sulis mrisxane naglejs. bolos fexs aswevs dasadgmelad, dadgams, ausxlteba fexi, gadaiCexeba ufskrulSi, garemos kivili avsebs, gulSemzaravi, gulisgamawyalebeli, yuriswamRebi kivili... gziT ukeTes SemTxvevaSi, adamianebi kidec `arian~, kidec `hyavT~ da kidec `aqvT~. janbegi ki mxolod `iyo~, mas arc `hyavda~ da arc `hqonda~. im adamians ki, romelic mxolod aris, bevrs arafers eubnebian admianebi, romlebic kidec `arian~, kidec `hyavT~ da kidec `aqvT~... amitomac arxeinad iyo janbegi, arc davalebuli iyo cxovrebisgan da arc TviTon avaldebulebda mas... janbegs adre viRacebi `hyavda~ da raRacebic `hqonda~.

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maSin man naxa, Tu rogor iketeboda erTi qalaqis uzarmazari karibWe... isic naxa, rom xandaxan adamianebi karg saqmes akeTeben... kidev is, rom mTaze fexiT asvlisas, kargi SegrZneba modioda da sunTqva mTis haeriT advili da sasiamovno iyo... naxa didi CaxCaxa mze, Takaras rom eZaxian... amis garda, bevri ram naxa da gaigo janbegma da bolos gadawyvita, enaxa, Tu rogor Relavs zRva, magram swored am dros dakarga is viRacebi, vinc `hyavda~ da is raRacebi, rac `hqonda~ _ sayolebeli ufals miabara, saqonebeli ki TviTon miibares adamianebma, romlebic xandaxan cud saqmesac akeTeben... maSin gaxda janbegi adamiani, romlic mxolod `aris~... mas mere janbegs araferi unaxavs iseTi, rac daamaxsovrdeboda, ver naxa, Tu rogor Relavs zRva da dakarga Tavi.... da axla, roca ukve nanaxi Takara mzis naxva ar undoda, janbegi iwva xis ZirSi, romelic warmoqmnida Crdils da ar aCvenebda janbegs ukve nanax mzes... janbegs eZina, roca uTxres: - adeqi! janbegs maSinac eZina, roca gaumeores: - adeqi! - da daumates, - adeqi, kaco, riT ver gaigeo! maSin gamoeRviZa da ise, rom mzisTvis ar Seexeda, Tvalebi mimarTa mTqmelisken, gamRviZeblisken. - ra ginda?! - mosveneba. - mSvidad upasuxa axalgazrda kacma, maRalma, dakunTulma da saxiT sandom. - ratom?! gana aq sxva adgili ar aris, Tundac Crdiliani, SegiZlia iq daisveno - upasuxa janbegma, odnav gakvirvebulma imiT, rom misgan raRc moiTxoves. - es iqneba safasuri. - kidev ufro mSvidad Tqva axalgazrda kacma. - safasuri? ris, gana rame momeci? - ara, mogcem. me getyvi, ra unda qna. Tu ginda, giTxra, wamodeqi. janbegs swored is ainteresebda, ra unda gaekeTebina. imitom gaxda aseTi, rom es ar icoda... janbegi mixvda, rom sWirdeboda Zala wamosadgomad da gauwoda xeli axalgazrdas. axalgazrdam wamoayena. - adre Sen dadiodi Seni gziT. mere Sen gagicruvda imedi

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da ise miatove Seni gza, rom bolomde ar misulxar da gaxdi iseTi, rogoric xar. arada, am gzis bolos Sen ipovidi WeSmaritebas, anu sakuTar Tavs. Sen jerac ar ginaxavs, Tu rogor Relavs zRva... wadi, naxe da ipovi! janbegs araferi uTqvams axalgazrda damrigeblisTvis. es kaci misgan arc arafris Tqmas iTxovda, madlobisac ki. janbegi xvdeboda, rom am kacisTvis mTavari da erTaderTi sazrunavi xalxisTvis aseTi sityvebis Tqma unda yofiliyo. janbegi gaudga gzas, romelsac is sakuTars uwodebda. man icoda, rom am gzis bolos ipovida imas, rac dakarga, radgan gakeTebuli eqneboda yvelaferi, rac unda gaekeTebina cxovrebaSi. is iqneboda erT-erTi iobi, romelsac dakarguli daubrunda. Semodgoma mtvriani iyo gza. fexis TiTebi qviSis marcvlebiT mevseboda, tuCebi uares dReSi mqonda, eniTac ki ver visvelebdi da nasicxar miwas mimigavda. mcenareebs SemohqondT CemSi moxarSuli mwvane ganwyoba, iseTi, rogorsac gaxurebul haerSi dakidebuli foTlebi toveben. iq, sadac wyarosken biliki iwyeboda, ori xe idga, karibWesaviT. gadavuxvie da or wuTSi wyarosTan aRmovCndi. iq ukve iyo viRac - erTi moxuci ijda da xelSi Camqrali yalioni eWira. me gamarjoba vuTxari. pasuxs ar davlodebivar, ise SevuSvire peSvi wyals da xarbad davlie, mere ki balaxze gulaRma gaviSxlarTe. cota xans ase viyaviT mec da moxucic, mere siCume isev man daarRvia. - ra gqvia, babu, Sen? - yaras meZaxian, - mivuge me da ise, rom zeze ar wamovmdgarvar, misken gadavtrialdi. - hm, - Tqva moxucma pauzis Semdeg, - arada, ar Canxar Sen Savi kaci, - me gaocebulma Sevxede, - ho, yara sparsulad Savs niSnavs. ramdeni wlisa varo, ra Tqvi? me ar mqonda Cemi asaki naTqvami, magram gameorebis toniT vuTxri: - TxuTmetis-meTqi!..

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karga xans vuyurebdi moxucs, - raRacas mipasuxebs-meTqi, - magram araferi uTqvams. is iyo wamodgomas da wasvlas vapirebdi, rom mkiTxa: - yara, Sen Tu ici, miwa ra aris? aseT kiTxvas ar velodi da vupasuxe: - ra vici, martivad rom giTxraT, is aris, razec axla me da Tqven vimyofebiT. - ukeTes pasuxs arc velodi, magram odesme dafiqrdebi, albaT, amaze, babu! - Tqven ukve ifiqreT? - Cemi xnis xalxs TiTqmis yvela SemTxvevaSi nafiqri aqvT am SekiTxvaze, sxva saqmea pasuxis gacema. me Cemeburad vupasuxe, sxvam albaT kidev Taviseburad... miwa yvelaferia. aba, ras ver uwodeb am saxels? marto mzisa da cis Sesaxeb ver ityvi, miwaao, sxva ki rac dablaa, yvelaferi egaa, miwa. ai, am foTols xom xedav xeze? Semodgomaze Camovardeba maqedan. sad wava, Tu ici? miwad iqceva. is ki ara, ai, am bumberaz xesac ki daudgeba Tavisi Semodgoma da miwad iqceva. foTolic da xec miwam moiyvana. magram saqme isaa, rom marto miwam ara - miwasTan erTad camac asazrdova orive. bolos, Semodgomaze, es foToli rom Camovardeba da rogorc giTxari, miwad iqceva, Camovardnamde Tavis nawils maRla, xeze tovebs. is xeze tovebs Tavis energias, romelic mziTa da ciuri namiT gamoimuSava. ese igi, foTolic adamianiviT sxeuls miwas abarebs, suli ki maRlidan aqvs moniWebuli. sanam aq, saaqaoSi varT Cven da foTlebi, manam sulic da sxeulic Cven gvabaria, magram, mova Semodgoma da orives patroni miibarebs. amitom, Cemo biWiko, ase ityvian CvenSi: xorci - miwas, suli - zecas, saxeli - droso. kaci verc miwas Seerkineba, verc zecas, magram dros ki erCis. xorcic, sulic da saxelic rom TavTavis samyofelSi wavides, maT Soris mTavari - suli ar unda daimZimo. am SemTxvevaSi SevZlebT vajoboT dros da vipoviT WeSmaritebas. Tavi avwie da moxucs Sevxede. is miRimoda...

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maiko - vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar, vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar... ijda maiko gvirilebiT gadaTeTrebul yanaSi, gvirilebiani kabiT da gvirilebs aclida furclebs. ubeSi aseTi dawiwknili siTeTris mTeli grova eyara... - vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar, vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar... - da ase grZeldeboda saRamomde. misi gamoTvlebis sababi soflis xan erTi mziT damwvartaniani biWi iyo, xan meore - saxeWorfliani, xan mesame - xuWuWi, cisferTvaleba da ra vici, kidev vin aRar... magram mere ra... vin aukrZalavda maikos gvirilebiT TamaSs? lamaz maikos, mwvaneTvala maikos, mzeukareba maikos. TviTonac mzes, mzis mTeli kona edga Tavze, soflis mSveneba iyo... gvSurda kidec misi... ded-mama ar hyavda. ratom, arc Cven gvaxsovda da arc ufrosebi ambobdnen rames. iqneb, arc TviTon icoda. bebia zrdida, xelebdakoJrili, SavTavSaliani bebia. gadmodgeboda Zveli ficruli saxlis moajirebyanyala aivanze da gasZaxebda: - maaiiikooo.... - vuyvar, bebooo... - gamosZaxebda yanidan maiko. bebom yovelTvis icoda, sad iyo maiko, magram mainc ase eZaxda, albaT, ise, ubralod. CvenTan arasdros TamaSobda, ucxo iyo, monatrebuli. yvelas gviyvarda Signidan, Tbilad, lamazad... dro gadioda... maiko mSvendeboda. ufro da ufro emsgavseboda im feriebs, varskvlavebi rom uWiravT da saswaulebis moxdena SeuZliaT, magram maikos xelSi isev gvirila eWira, vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar, vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar... - is gvirilebiani kaba damokleboda da ZlivsRa ufaravda saTlis saxelurebiviT morkalul gverdebs. fiTqina, grZeli fexebi TiTqmis ar uCanda gvirilebSi. xveuli Tma welze scemda. maRal Subls naxevrad ufaravda TeTri dawnuli gvirgvini mzeebiT. erTxel Cvens sofels TeTri, zeukareba xalxi estumra. raRac didi naWris bunagebi gaSales da Caibudes. Cven buCqebs ukan vimalebodiT da TvalebdaWyetili mivSterebodiT maT yovel moZraobas. sufTa, axali tansacmeli ecvaT da gamudmebiT aqeT-iqiT icqirebodnen, TvalebTan raRac Savi, patara yuTebi mihqondaT, iRimebodnen da aCxakunebdnen, anaTebdnen. is raRac yvelaze metad mogvwonda Cven. mere im zeukarebebma

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soflis orRobeebSic daiwyes xetiali. bavSvebi gundad, moSorebiT davyvebodiT... xandaxan Cvenkenac motrialdebodnen TavianTi CxakunebiT... erT dilas moajirebyanyala saxlTan mTeli soflis qalebi Segrovdnen, yvela TavisTvis CurCulebda da fusfusebda. zogi ezos asufTavebda, zogi fardebs xsnida gasarecxad, zogi iataks wmendda... SigniT, oTaxis SuagulSi, Zvel muqornamentebian xaliCaze iwva maikos bebo da dakoJrili xelebi daekrifa gulze. ar gagvkvirvebia, sofelSi xan erT saxlSi iwvnen sxvebis beboebi ase, xan Cemi megobrebis beboebi, Cemi bebo da axla maikos beboc. aseTia beboebis wesi... maiko ki ijda Tavisi gvirilebiani kabiT bebos TavTan. mere romeliRac mofusfuse qalma Tbili Sali moaxura beWebze. Cven fanjrebze cxvirmiWyletili viWyitebodiT SigniT, magram aprialebul minebSi isev Cven vCandiT da kargad ver varCevdiT, ra xdeboda iq... moCxakuneebma aqac Camoiares, dainteresdnen, aCxakundnen... gaasvenes... Cafles... Camarxes... gaaciles... wesi iyo... uamravqvian da jvrebian ezoSi maiko ar wamosula. wevso, avad ariso... moiwyina sofelma. xan erTi qali gadadioda cxeli saWmliT moajirebyanyala saxlSi, xan meore, xan bevri erTad. sxva soflidanac amoiyvanes eqimi, mainc vereferi gauges... Cvenc wagviyvanes Cvenebma, naxeTo, iqneb TqvenTan gamoxalisdeso. wavediT. avaWrialeT amdenma keTilismsurvelma yanyala kibe, moajirebi, SuSabandi... TeTr loginSi iwva TeTri maiko, ufro TeTri, gvirilaze TeTri... mwvane Tvalebi Cascvenoda da sul daekarga simwvane... baliSi mTlad daefara oqrosfer kululebs... uferul tuCebs odnavRa etyoboda haeris mimosvla... mainc lamazi iyo, mainc SesaSuri... ar Semouxedavs... kedelze gakrul muqornamentebian xaliCas miapyro naxevrad gaxelili Tvalebi, erTxans ase iyo, umoZraod, mere mzeukareba, TeTr, lamaz, fiTqina, mzeebian maikos CaeZina... pirvelad vigrZeni aseTi Rrma Zilis surneli, Ria karSi rom gahqonda niavs, surneli nestiT, gvirilebiT, Wriala saxliT gaJRenTili... - vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar, vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar... ijda maiko gvirilebiT gadaTeTrebul velze, Robis nasaxic rom ar Canda, iseTze da gvirilebs aclida furclebs. ubeSi aseTi dawiwknili siTeTris mTeli grova eyara... - vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar, vuyvarvar, ar vuyvarvar.

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vaJa_fSaveladan naZaladevamde zustad vici, quCaSi meored rom Semxvdes, veRar vicnob. veRar vicnob, imitom rom sul samjer Sevxede. samjer, imitom rom meti ver gavbede. rames ar mixvdes-meTqi, SemeSinda. Tumca, ras unda mimxvdariyo, vagonSi vinc ki vinme mdedri iyo, yvela mas misCereboda, miuxedavad asakisa da ojaxuri mdgomareobisa. ra Tqma unda, TviTonac SeamCnia. albaT, amitom iyo, SigadaSig ulvaSebSi rom ecineboda xolme. giTxariT, sul samjer Sevxede-meTqi, Tanac samivejer TvalebSi da Tavi qali megona. Tqven icineT, icineT. samjer Sevxede, magram ise, rom didxans aRar damaviwydeba. memaxsovreba iseTi, rogoric im wuTas iyo. gauparsavi, jinsebSi da mwvane ketebSi, Sav qurTukSi da or qudSi. kidev, memaxsovreba SuSis anareklSi rogor dadiodnen Cveni meore meebi erTad. uh, sad ar iyo am dros amuris isari?.. am ocnebebSi viyavi, roca gavigone: `vagzlis moedani, bolo gaCereba..." hoda, morCa, aq gaiyo Cveni gzebi, is naZaladevSi wamomsvleli mainc ar aris-meTqi. da gabrazebuli am yvelaferze, ise gavvardi win, mgoni, jer karic ar iyo bolomde gaRebuli. hoda, ase gabrazebulma mainc mivixed-movixede da sul SemTxveviT movkari Tvali nacrisfer kapiuSonze qurTukis meore Sav kapiuSons. ise gamixarda, TiTqos movidoda da rames metyoda, ra... me Sen getyvi, yavaze dampatiJebda, Tu saxlamde mimacilebda? magram mainc gulis brali iyo yvelaferi ra... yvelaze sasacilo ki is iyo, rom Cemgan sakmaod Sors movkari Tvali da vagonSi mainc erTad aRmovCndiT. - va, -gavifiqre CemTvis, gamikvirda. Tumca, ra va, WeWyva iyo gaqanebuli. kari rom daixura, kargad davinaxe, qudis qvemodan aparebda Tvals. ox, am germanulis dedac, iqneb gavacdino da cota xans kidev vimgzavro-meTqi? - ise vawyobdi gegmebs, TiTqos, eg iyo da kinos bileTebiT melodeboda, ra... mere usiamovneba maswavlebelTan, usiamovneba ojaxSi da usiamovno niSnebi wlis bolos? ra ambavia... amdeni usiamovno da arc erTi sasiamovno? Cemi bedi rom vici, gamiyvans sadRac RrmaReleSi da ise Cava, xmasac ar amoiRebs. eh, wavedi, wavedi, sanam gascda aqaurobas. metroSi gacnobili biWi mainc ra unda iyos-meTqi, - da Cavedi. Tanac ise, rom ukan arc ki momixedavs. arada, zustad vici, rom ori qudis

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qvemodan isev me miyurebda. Tavisuflebis mwerlebi Tavi I pirveli tyuili yovelTvis Znelia. Semdeg giadvildeba. rodesac pirvelad miTxari, "miyvarxar", Rame iyo da cioda. rodesac sakuTar TavSi arc Tu ise darwmunebulma gipasuxe, "mec", dRe iyo da mze anaTebda. rodesac pirvelad movityue, mewyina. Semdeg ukve TavisTavad moxda. rodesac sakuTar Tavs ebrZvi, yovelTvis marcxdebi, rodesac guli Sen gebrZvis, yovelTvis imarjvebs. rodesac yvelafers toveb da ginda wero Tavisuflebaze, maSin iketebi sakuTar TavSi da cdilob, ar ifiqro cudze. Tavi I I rodesac sxva gza aRar grCeba, rodesac ixseneb ganvlil dros da rodesac yovelive amis Semdeg amCnev, rom mTeli baliSi mlaSe cremlebiT gaqvs dasvelebuli, albaT, yvelaze kargi gamosavalia, gaaRo kari da gaiqce rac SeiZleba Sors, Sors misgan da yvelafrisgan, rac mis Tavs gaxsenebs. moatyuo yvela, ojaxis wevrebi Tu megobrebi. moatyuo da TvalebSi Cauxedavad uTxra, rom yvelaferi kargad gaqvs, radgan simarTlis gagebis Semdeg TanagrZnobiTa da SecodebiT ar gadmogxedon. gaiqce sakuTari saxlidan da gaeqce sakuTar Tavsa Tu warsuls. gaeqce yvelafers, rac adre mogwonda da siamovnebas ganiWebda. gaeqce bavSvobas da naadrevad gaigo, Tu ra Znelia imedgacrueba. am yvelafris Semdeg rCebi marto did mwvane mindorSi da xvdebi, rom ginda wero Tavisuflebaze. Tavi I I I cxovreba aseTia - sastiki, daundobeli. TiTqos yvelafers gegmav. iazreb, ganicdi, ggonia. TiTqos, gixaria, rom marto ar xar, arada, xvdebi, rom marto xar. TiTqos, ginda raRac axali, didi da dausrulebeli, da am dros xvdebi, rom gWirdeba viRac, vinc mogkidebs xels da dagexmareba am cxovrebaSi gadarCenaSi. ebrZvi Tavs, ebrZvi qars da misi talRebidan gadarCe112

nils, cxovreba gixaria da samyaro Seni ggonia. arada, cdebi. da marto rCebi, sul marto sakuTar TavTan. amis Semdeg ki maleve xvdebi, rom gaklia raRac axali. qari giwewavs Tmas da Tvals uWris sapirispiro gzaze momavals, Tumca ici, rom esec droebiTia da warmavali. ocnebob bevrs, ocnebob, rom ar iyo marto, ocnebob, rom gagigos vinmem. vocnebobT manam, sanam cremlian saxeze ar mogvereva Zili. ocnebobs yvela, ganurCevlad sqesisa da asakisa, Tumca ocneboben gansxvavebulad da erTmaneTisgan damoukideblad. vocnebobT frTebze, vocnebobT uxmo yvirilze, vocnebobT Tavisuflebaze, vocnebobT megobrebze. vocnebobT manam, sanam cocxlebi varT, Tumca, vcocxlobT cotas. samagierod vWamT yvelafers, rac xelSi mogvxvdeba, vylapavT borotebas, vZRebiT tyuilebiT. vTamaSobT erTmanTis nervebze. viTmenT manam, sanam SegviZlia, mere vskdebiT, boRmebad viqceviT, da sadRac isev martoebi viRvrebiT. varT umadurebi, Zalian umadurebi da vWamT yvelafers, ufro xSirad ki erTmaneTs. Semdeg vsxdebiT yvelani erTad da usindisod vsaubrobT Tavisuflebaze. Tavi IV vxvdebiT, gviyvardeba da guls vtkenT. mere midis, gvibrazdeba da guls gvtkens. sinamdvileSi aravis arasodes vyvarebivarT. mxolod Cven gviyvarda, isic xandaxan da uazrod. mere siyvaruli dneboda gayinul Tovlze da qreboda ukvalod sadRac. albaT, rCeboda gulebSi marad. da anaTebda irgvliv yvelafers mzis patara Svili, sawylad martoka... da misi mzera... da es fiqrebi mudam rom Tan gdevs, kiserSi giWers da Tavs gaxsenebs. cxovrebas ebrZvi, marcxdebi, gtexavs. uyureb sarkeSi, gezizReba, gZuls, ver itan. arada, imas ras erCi, yvelafers bedi unda, sakuTari Tavis povnasac ki. ubalod, minda viswavlo, rogor vicxovro. ubalod, minda gavigo, rogoria, roca ar gtkiva da mxolod gixaria. ubralod, minda vicino uazrod bevri. minda ubralod vcadoT da cota xniT mainc viyoT Tavisuflebis mwerlebi. cota xniT viocneboT da movityuoT Tavebi, TiTqos varT Tavisuflebi.

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ieroglifi kibis safexuridan TovlWyapSi Camovxti. yinavda. vrceli ezo unda gadameWra. ca sulis SexuTvamde Camowoliliyo Zirs, mZimed, tyviisfrad. zamTari Svid weliwads grZeldeboda. Svidi weli-meTqi... ara mze, ara ca _ lurji. yvavebs dasCemdaT Cveni sagvareulo cixesimagris Tavze triali. mamidaCemi ambobs, Cvens gvars wyevla aqvs, Cveni yvela mezobelic sagvareulo wyevliT itanjebao. ucnauri qalia mamidaCemi kaede. Tavisi pirquSi cixe-koSkis pirquSi danamati. lafis uzarmazar gubes gadavaxti da isev TovlSi mivSariSurob. iseTi siwynarea, mTel baRSi ismis Cemi nabijebis xma. muxis axali kari dauyenebiaT, aRar Wrialebs. Tovli Sevibertye da marmarilos farTo kibes mivuyvebi. - Cveni mezoblis gvarSi yvela mamakaci raRac nivTad unda iqces da saukunod darCes maTi cixedarbazis ganuyofel nawilado, - ambobs mamidaCemi. is mobuzRune, beberi kari maxsendeba, arafris didebiT rom ar SegiSvebda mezoblis biblioTekaSi. Cveni gvaris wyevla... mainc, saidan iRebs saTaves?! mamidaCemi ambobs, Cveni gvaris mawyevari cxrameti saukunis win miicvala armonanie da maradis SfoTviT suldamZimebulio. axlac mamidasTan mivdivar sasaubrod da drois mosaklavad. zamTris saRamoebs mamidaCemis zRaprebiviT gawlawuli saubris elferi adevs. cecxlTan mimjdara sarwevela savarZelSi Cafluli. SesvlisTanave msuqani, Savi kata macocdeba muxlebze. darbazSi Tbila da bnela, uzarmazari oqrosCarCoiani sarke kidia, Zveli, dabrecili.. - mTeli Cveni qalaqi dawyevliliao, - ambobs, - ukve meramdene Tvea, yavisfrad Tovs, avis maniSnebeliao. maSinac ase iyo, Sens dabadebamde xuTiode wliT adrec yavisferi Tovli movida Cvens qalaqSi, didi ubedurebis dasawyisis pirvelniSani. ras aRar iuwyebodnen viTom naTelmxilvelebi. zogi oms varaudobda, zogi mzis dabnelebas, zogmac bednierebis maniSneblad CaTvala, magram, aba, ras warmovidgendiT, rom Cvens qalaqs Cur114

Culi SemoeCveoda. mTeli weliwadi gvtanjavda. SavebSi mosili dadioda kardakar. Tan dahqonda CurCuliT naTqvami Tu gulisxmadmyofi aTasi Wor-marTali. ara, verc ki mixvdebodi, vin iyo. CurCuls sxeulSi Casaxleba axasiaTebs. ise, qvrivi dedabris saxe aqvs, Zalian gamxdaria, grZeli, WaRaranarevi Tma aqvs samgloviarod CamoSlili. sul erTmaneTs gadagvkida mTeli qalaqio, - ambobs. savarZeli daarwia. kvamlSia gaxveuli. ar saubrobs. misi yoveli ujredi odesRac, warsulSi momxdari ambis gabmul Txrobad qceula. kvamlic nel-nela ikrebs Zalas, nel-nela erT wertilSi xvavdeba, nel-nela iZens samgloviarod Tmagawewili qalis siluets. yavisferi Tovli... namdvilad moaswavebs avs. namdvilad gvelis raRac wino. CurCuli oTaxSi iwyebs borials. fexakrefiT, mdumared. sarkesTan midis da saCvenebeli TiTiT amoRamebul quTuToebs isinjavs. - qalaqis meri batoni rodmeri... - ufro TavisTvis laparakobs mamidaCemi... - batoni rodmeri, batoni rodmeri... esoden crumorwmune da cru. esoden uzarmazari... Tavis kabinetSi ijda garderobiviT gaxevebuli taniT da zorba idayvebiT Camoyrdnoboda magidas, qaliviT movlili xelebi mSvidad daelagebina gankargulebaze: "CamoaxrCveT kaede beberi! Tu ukve mkvdari dagxvdeT, moTxareT gvami misi da sajarod dawviT mawyevarTa koconzeo". am brZanebis daweris win CurCuli Sesuliyo imis kabinetSi. - kaede bebris wyevla aris, qalaqs CurCuli rom SemoeCviao, - eTqva da Camomjdariyo magidasTan... CurCuls eRimeba. sarkidan gamohyurebs mamidaCem kaedes. TiTqos TvalnaTliv vxedav zRva xalxs mamidaCemis sagvareulo cixesimagresTan mojaruls, maT ki amayad mouZRvis b-ni rodmeri, Tan qaliviT movlili Zalauflebiani xeli kaede bebris samyofelisken gauSveria. imatebs SfoTi da mZvinvareba. xalxis brbo Rmuis da zvirTebiviT exeTqeba cixesimagris kedlebs. gamosula mamidaCemi Zalian mSvidad. gamouketia mZime kari da gadmohyurebs aRSfoTebul brbos. ucnauri qalia-meTqi mamidaCemi. xalxis mTel nakads gadasdebia misi simSvide. maradis mborgavi b-ni rodmeric dawynarebula friad. erTxans ase

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erT-erTi maTgani, SekrebilTa Soris yvelaze umcrosi, romelic Tavisi simelotis damalvas marcxena safeTqlidan Tanabrad gadmonawilebuli TmiT cdilobda, wamomdgariyo fexze, - rodemde viTminoT magisi znegadasuli saqcielio?! da muSti magidaze daexeTqebina. Semdeg vrceli sityva warmoeTqva, wina RamiT dawerili da kargad gazepirebuli. iq Sekrebili pativcemul melotTa sazogadoebac Tavs uqnevda da yvelaferSi eTanxmeboda. daadgines, rom aucilebeli iyo b-ni rodmeris gadayeneba dakavebuli Tanamdebobidan. meamboxe, aRfrTovanebuli sakuTari qarizmiTa da mWevrmetyvelebiT, axla ukve Tavmomwoned avlebda Tvals erTsulovan auditorias. oTaxSi mdivanma Seyo Tavi, - batoni meri mobrZandebao, auwyaT. yyvela fexze wamodga da mdablad daukra Tavi baton rodmers. weRandeli amboxis kvalic aRarsad Canda. erT-erTi maTgani gulmodgined exmareboda mers dajdomaSi - skami gauswora da Tavis adgils daubrunda. b-ni rodmeri miujda magidas da TaTbiric daiwyo. mamidaCemi Cemken trialdeba, Tma kvamliviT wasvlia WerSi. - giiom mortus de gordoni Tu gagigiao? - mekiTxeba. - ara-meTqi, - aseTi aravin gamego. - pirvelmizezi Cveni qalaqis Semdgomi daqcevisa da ganadgurebisao, - ambobs CurCuli, Tan mamidaCemis garderobebSi iqeqeba gulmodgined. xelmoukidebels arc erT nivTs tovebs. yavisferi Tovli da dekembris susxiani dila. sainformacio gamoSvebas mivSterebodiT yvelani. im RamiT qalaqis udidesi adamiani, multimilioneri biznesmeni giiom mortus de gordoni epovaT Tavis biblioTekaSi gardacvlili. magidasTan mjdariyo da xelebi Zirs Camoeyara. eqspertebs eRvawaT da daskvna imave Rames daedoT, - tvinis simsivniT itanjeboda ubeduri da moulodnelad gardaicvalao. b-ni gordonis dakrZalvaze wavedi. cota xalxi iyo. oriod veqili, policiis sammarTvelos ufrosi b-ni sadmor trauri da b-ni rodmeri. megobrebi ar hyavda gordons. aSari da kacTmoZule, marad Tavis sagvareulo sasaxleSi ijda romelime

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mkvdari enis ieroglifebiT aWrelebul gragnilebSi danTqmuli. erTaderTxel movarda CemTan, diriJoriviT iqnevda xelebs Tmagawewili. grZeli plaSi iatakamde dasTrevda. gaugebrad metyvelebda romeliRac mkvdar enaze. mSvidad vusmendi da vxvdebodi, sazogadoebidan gariyuli da droidan amovardnili b-ni gordoni, raoden mdidar da Rirseul suls atarebda. cota xanSi damSvidda da TvalebSi momaSterda, - aravin mWirdebiTo, - momaZaxa da karSi gauCinarda. swored am SemTxvevam maiZula mis dasaflavebas davswrebodi. ceremoniam mSvidad da uemociod Caiara. b-nma rodmerma upatronod darCenili qoneba saxelmwifo sakuTrebad gadaaforma da dakrZalvis dRidanve daiwyo qalaqis mSenebloba. bevri ram gakeTda b-ni gordonis qonebiT: aSenda TavSesafrebi, skolebi da saavadmyofoebi. b-n rodmers xelis CamorTmeviT ulocavdnen gamarjvebas. madlieri moqalaqeebi didi pativiT egebebodnen xelisufals. yovel kviras satelevizio gadacemebi gadioda masze, rogorc istoriul pirovnebaze. im diliTac Cveulebrivze adre mobrZanebuliyo meriaSi SuSebCamogmanuli, mooqrovili karetiT. Sesvlamde mdivans uSaqro yava SeukveTa da kabinetis kari SeaRo. or wuTs ar gaevlo, rom kakuni gaisma da oTaxSi b-ni giiom mortus de gordonis gvami miupatiJeblad Sevida. erTi Tvis dasaflavebuls xrwna arc ki daewyo, mZime nabijiT gadaWra kabinetis moWriale parketi da magidasTan dajda. TvalnaTliv vxedav, rogor zis b-ni gordoni qalaqis meris pirdapir. Tma da wveri wamozrdia. Tvalebi Ria aqvs da arafrismTqmeli. miwaSi debiT gamtvrianebuli kostumi acvia. zis gulze xelebdakrefili. xmas ar iRebs. arc moZraobs. enaCavardnil rodmers isRa moexerxebina, gangaSis RilakisTvis daeWira TiTi. Semocvivdnen ZaRlebiviT dawvrTnili sqelkisera biWebi. yovelgvari emociis gareSe daavles gvams xeli da gaaqanes dilegSi. batoni giiom mortus de gordonis Sors waReba arc dasWirdebodaT. RmerTmani... meriis Senobis sardafebs sapatimro kamerebad iyenebdnen xolme rodmeris merobis dros.

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im dilas marto batoni gordonis gvams ar moewadinebina Tavisi maradiuli gansasveneblidan gaseirneba, aramed mTeli qalaqis mkvdrebi amovidnen saflavebidan da qalaqis quCebSi daiwyes yiali. naxevrad mixrwnili, Tu ukve Zvlebadqceuli moseirne cxedrebi didi veraferi Svili sanaxavi iyo. SeSinebuli mosaxleoba mozvavda da miawyda qalaqis merias. saswrafo reagirebas iTxovdnen iq Sekrebilni. im dRes micvalebulebis SuasknelSi boriali didxans ar gagrZelebula. b-ni meri gamosuliyo terasaze da warmoeTqva sityva, - erTad aRvkveToT Tavs damtydari ubedurebao. saRamosTvis yvela cxedari ukve Tav-Tavis samareSi CavabruneT. Tavebi davaxureT kuboebs da gadaTxrili sasaflaoc xelaxla movalamazeT. erTaderTi saflavi, romelic im saRamos carieli darCa, giiom mortus de gordonisa iyo. saxlSi dabrunebulebi ori saaTis ganmavlobaSi vismendiT b-ni rodmeris satelevizio gamosvlas: - am mkrexelobis Camdenma raRac manqanebiT SeZlo gvamebis amoZraveba. man wabilwa Cveni warsuli, Seuracxyo Cveni micvalebulebi da Cven vpirdebiT mas dakavebasa da linCis wesiT gasamarTlebaso. am gamosvlas morCa Tu ara, b-nma rodmerma gamoketa kabineti da viwro derefans gauyva. TviTonve ar sjeroda sakuTari nabodvaris. veRarc ki ixsenebda, qadagad davardnilma ra wamoroSa kamerebis win. filebayril grZel kibes Cauyva, romelic miwisqveSeTSi miiklakneboda. ukuneT sibneleSi Zlivs ikvlevda gzas... dakiTxvis oTaxSi skamze daedoT gvami, gaSeSebul TvalebSi naTura CaenaTebinaT. b-n mers mZime kari rom gauRes, oTaxis romeliRac bneli kuTxidan gamomZieblis xma gaisma, micvalebuli uars ambobs CvenTan TanamSromlobaze, wamebamac ar gaWrao, - daayola, magidaze mortus de gordonis oriod TiTi dado da oTaxidan gavida. b-ni rodmeri... rkinis nervebiT, Svidgzis wyeuli gvaris matarebeli, axlac aumRvrevlad dajda mortus de gordonis win da, - ra gindao? - ekiTxeba, - risTvis dabrundi, ra ar gasvenebso? - wamiT ase Cascqeroda gayinul TvalebSi, mere sayeloSi swvda, - mipasuxeo, - uRriala da SeanjRria. gvami ki zis, ar iRebs xmas. anda, ra xma unda amoiRos? policiis sam119

marTvelos ufrosma sadmor traurma Seyo oTaxSi Tavi, eqspertizis pasuxi movidao. meore dilasac zustad igive ganmeorda, sagodebeli kvlavac gadaCiCqnili dagvxvda, quCebSi kvlavac cxedrebi darialobdnen. qalaqis saukeTeso mkvlevarebma gangvicxades, mkvdrebi Zlier arian daavadebuli. es daavadeba ar aZlevT mosvenebas da aiZulebT saflavebidan amovidneno. raRac epidemia gavrcelebula micvalebulebSi, snebaSeyrilni Cvengan elian daxmarebaso. mkvlevarebi dagvpirdnen, cota xanSi vaqcinas SevimuSavebT da yovelive dasruldebao. kvlav davasaflaveT Cveni micvalebulebi da sulis mosaxsenebeli paraklisi gadavixadeT, vimedovnebdiT, es mainc daasvenebdaT. - adamianis suli rom imis gvamidan gavals, rom datovebs Tavis WurWels, mere maT erTmaneTTan aRara akavSirebTo, - ambobs CurCuli da kvlavac ujrebSi agrZelebs xelebis faTurs. im saRamos laboratoriaSi isxdnen qalaqis meri batoni rodmeri, sadmor trauri da qalaqis mTavri eqsperti souSo albedo. ucnauri moTeTro Suqi mkveTrad anaTebda baton souSos uTmo Tavsa da gamRrZval kiserTan mixvetil nakecebs. Tmis nasaxic ar hqonda mTel saxeze. aseTi uwarbwamwamo dabadebuliyo. - ra epidemiaze melaparakebiTo, - kiTxulobs rodmeri da Sav saqaRaldes Cascqeris. - swored aseao, - mokuWul pirs xsnis eqsperti albedo, saflavTa Sina daSTenil ZvlebSi ar Casaxlebulan avi sulebi, arc sakuTari sulebi dabrunebulan lpobagamjdar sxeulebSi. arca raiTa satanisa manqanebiTa STauberavT samSvinveli maTTvis. swored rom epidemia mZvinvarebs. SfoTven gvamebi! viTarca SfoTiani kaci vera hpovebs simSvidesa sulisasa, iginic vera dasdgebian maradiulsa gansasvenebelsa Sina. sZulda baton rodmers souSos saubari, erTi piroba enis amoWra daupira, magram mere mixvda, weriTac iseve dawerda, rogori eniTac saubrobda da yovelive samomavlod gadado. kolbaSi Cagdebuli bayayiT erToba sadmor trauri, - Sei120

Zleba gordonis gvami waviRoTo? - kiTxulobs royiod. - wagragneT guami ege. uwyodeT, sneba misi ganvrcobili ars sxvaTa guamTa zeda. - rogor, gindaT TqvaT, rom gordonis cxedari daavadda pirveli da Semdeg sxvebsac gadasdo? - da swored aseao, - pasuxobs souSo. kvira dila Tendeboda. maSin ase ar iyo xolme, maSin bazrobebi mxolod kviraobiT ewyoboda. gardacvlilebis qalaqSi borials yvelani Seguebuli viyaviT ase Tu ise. im diliT bazrobaze unda gavsuliyavi aucileblad. fexsac ar gavdgamdi gareT, RmerTmani, rom ara valdebuleba da yoveldRiuri zrunva sakuTari xorcisaTvis. gadavwyvite, pirvel rigSi qalbaton marad saiTaxaris yavaxanaSi finjani yavis dasalevad gamevlo. yavaxanas rom mivuaxlovdi, mivxvdi, ar damxvdeboda mTlad dalagebuli situacia. erTi kviris win gardacvlili cnobili biznesmenisa da mecenatis gvami sapatio stumarTaTvis gankuTvnil magidasTan gamoWimuliyo da maradi amaod cdilobda misi yavaxanidan daTxovas. wamovedi iqidan da grZel xeivans gavuyevi. gasarTobi parki unda gadameWra, rodmeris saxelobis moedani da bazrobaze gavsuliyavi. parkis saqanelaze ori gvami ido da oric aiwona-daiwonaze bairamobda. mSvidad gavcdi moedanze moseirne micvalebulebsac, magram sayidlebze gamosuli doloresebis rva dRis win gardacvlili rZali rom davinaxe, nervebma mimtyuna. sagvareulo cixedarbazSi davbrundi. kari gadavraze da am dros msaxurmac mauwya, erT-erTi cxedarTagani Cems WaSi mokalaTebuliyo da sasmeli wyali daebinZurebina. saerTod, mTeli qalaqi sibinZuresa da autanel sunSi gaexvia. sul ramdenime adgilasRa SeiZleboda sasmeli wylis Sovna, verc mecnierebi gvSvelodnen rames. epidemiebi mZvinvarebda mosaxleobaSi. am dros ki b-ni rodmeri sakuTari qalaqis daqcevas Zveleburad aumRvreveli da amayi Sehyurebda. civi gonebiT Wvretda yovelives da gamosavals eZebda. mTeli qalaqis cxedrebs ver davwvavo, - fiqrobda, - gaWirdeba saqme. micvalebulebis dawva mTeli Cveni warsulis, Cveni gvarisa da Cveni

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vgrZnobdi, mec aRar maklda bevri. gulis yoveli amofeTqva ucnaurad aRviZebda Cems sindiss da odesRac, xsovnaSi daZirul codvebs ativtivebda zedapirze. am dros qalaqis mTavari eqsperti, b-ni souSo albedo Tavis laboratoriaSi ijda, raxmaninoviviT TiTebi TeTri xalaTis jibeebSi Caelagebina da fanjridan iyureboda. icoda batonma souSom, am areulobis damwyebi iyo erTaderTi, visac yovelives dasruleba SeeZlo. isic icoda, mkvdrebi manam iborgebdnen, sanam Zvlebi ar SemoelewebodaT da mainc ar damTavdeboda amiT qalaqis daqceva, - axali, da kacis gonebisgan jer kidev ganuWvreteli ubedureba dagvatydeba, Tu ar Seimusra mizezi da ar ganikurna dasnebovnebuli Cveni qalaqi mTlado. bevri arc uyoymania baton souSos, arc rodmers dahkiTxvia rames, ise miaSura televizias da gangvicxada, - micvalebulebSi epidemiis gamavrcelebeli giiom mortus de gordonia da Cveni erTaderTi xsna misi uxrwneli xorcis daSoSmineba ariso. am dros ki giiom gordonis gvami meriis romeliRac jurRmulSi esvena da arc ki SeeZlo, rom xrwna daewyo. misi sxeuli, misda Seucnoblad maradiul gansasvenebelsmomlodine, axla borgavda da mZvinvareba eufleboda. marto erTi adamianis neba rom yofiliyo misi sikvdili, kidev gadaitanda rogorme, magram mkvleloba zemdgom instanciebSi ganixiles, werilobiT daafiqsires da beWedic daartyes. SfoTs ver iokebda gordoni. usamarTlobis gancda aiZulebda erTi mxridan meorisken gadaenacvlebina da kvlav da kvlav sizmareul CvenebaSi ganmeorebuliyo, Tu rogor ewvia mkvleli RamiT biblioTekaSi da mSvidad miujda magidas. batonma giiomma ieroglifebiT aWrelebuli gragnili gadado gverdze. finjani yava SesTavaza mosuls. Semdeg mTeli saaTi mimoixilavdnen qalaqSi arsebul politikur-ekonomikur situacias. - savalalo mdgomareobaao, - eTqva mkvlels Tavis qneviT da TvalebSi CaStereboda giioms, romelsac winaswar Seemzadebina sityva, rom veranair proeqts ver daafinansebda, magram

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mkvlels amis Taobaze sityvac ar dauZravs, raRac uwyeba amoaZvrina CanTidan. uTxovia, - gaecani da xeli, ai, aq momiwereo. sabralo giiom mortus de gordoni! kiTxulobs Turme da ar ujerebs sakuTar Tvalebs... oTaxis sibnelidan CurCuli gamodis da Cemken moemarTeba. N-raodenobiT mamidaCemis mZivebi da samajurebi ausxams da moCxrialebs. - sjobs Tavad waikiTxoso, - eubneba kaedes da raRac qaRalds mawvdis. mamidaCemi almacerad gaxedavs CurCuls da Tan CibuxSi TuTuns tenis. werilia. swored is werili, romelic am aTiod wlis winaT giiom mortuss eWira da verafriT daejerebina wakiTxuli. b-ni rodmeri iuwyeboda: Cveni qalaqis meriam, Seqmnili ekonomikuri krizisidan gamomdinare, imsjela da miiRo gadawyvetileba sicocxle mouswrafos amave qalaqSi mcxovreb baton giiom mortus de gordons, radgan misi sikvdili araCveulebrivad waadgeba Cvens qalaqs. - Tqveno aRmatebulebav, batono gordon, gulwrfel bodiSs gixdiT imisaTvis, rom Cveni qalaqis meriam Tqvens magivrad vifiqreT, vimsjeleT da davaskveniT. Tu es SeRavaTi iqneba TqvenTvis, minda mogaxsenoT, rom piradad Tqveni sawinaaRmdego araferi gvaqvs, magram, xom iciT, es sazogadoebrivi interesebi! Cven gansakuTrebuli valdebulebebi gvakisria xalxisa da qalaqis winaSe. gulwrfelad gvSurs Tqveni xvedris, Tqven xom gaqvT pativi msxverplad SeewiroT moyvasTa keTildReobas. winaswar gixdiT uRrmes madlobas gaweuli samsaxurisaTvis. sxva mxriv, keTilad brZandebodeT, batono giiom mortus de gordon, RmerTma daumkvidros sasufeveli Tqvens suls. qalaqis meri b-ni rodmeri.

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RmerTi da limoniani Cai dilis 7 saaTi, lampionebiT ganaTebuli sveli quCa. brZaneba - Zebna! sami wami da nacrisferi korpusi, meTerTmete sarTuli, mwvaneSpaleriani oTaxi, rkinis sawoli, TeTr zewarSi gaxveuli Tbili masa... ZilSic ki ar asvenebs damqancveli fiqrebi. odnav gamoRebuli karis ukan viRac dgas da mis wil haers sunTqavs. saWiroa dazusteba - mizanSi amoiRes da wavida... grZnobis receptorebi - wesrigSi aqvs, siamayis maCvenebeli araamqveyniurad maRali, emociebi - parols iTxovs, warsuli dablokilia, momavali - parols iTxovs isev... Zieba dasrulebulia, obieqti aRmoCenilia, signalma qvesknelamde CaaRwia, adresati kmayofilia, informaciis wyaro - ganadgurebuli... sawoli Seirxa. rva saaTi daiwyo. civ iatakze wyvili gamxdari fexi gamoCnda, landi kedelze gawva da fanjaras miuaxlovda... damimaxsovre samyarov, ufali gesalmebi! irgvliv sibnelea, gayinuli mina TiTebis miaxloebiT daiorTqla, magram anabeWdi ar Cans.. hm, anabeWdi? mereda, ar iciT, rom RmerTebs is ar gvaqvs? mimifuTxebia Tqveni Tavdacvis meqanizmis srulyofili sistemisaTvis, gimeoreb, hei, kacobriobav! me sakuTari Tavis da Seni ufali var. nu gikvirs, sicive mec TqvensaviT maRizianebs, TvalebSi ras miyureb, ras dainaxav, sacodavo qmnilebav, viRacam Seni dRiuris furcelze migijRabna: `Tvalebi sulis sarkeao" - da Senc gjera araa? mand avxorci RmerTebis STamomavlebze araferi weria? me ki getyvi, rom Cems TvalebSi verafers dainaxav, me mxolod mkerdze dametyo, rogor moqmedebs sicive Cemze... rao? sisxli mogawva? magram ra mikvirs adamianis, romlis maxvilma gonebam `incestic" ki aRiara da Seisisxlxorca. iqneb Semdegi mec ki var rigSi, magram ver mogarTviT, iqneb dros CamorCa Tqveni RmerTi, magram mainc moviTxov, Tayvani Tu ara, pativi mainc mceT! ubralo mokvdavebo, erTmaneTiT moikaliT Jini, javri iyareT im xorcis naglejebze, romelsac erT mSvenier dRes SeexrwnebiT. Semdeg ki Tqveni pirmSoc winaprebis ganvlil gzas daadgeba da ase gagrZeldeba, sanam yelSi ar amomiva es amazrzeni sanaxaoba, rasac Tqveni cxovreba hqvia. dawyevlili geni gaqvT, magram ar mecodebiT, sakuTari Tavi mecodeba, Tqveni yureba rom miwevs, Tqveni vedrebisTvis

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yuris dagdeba, Cems kerpebTan Tqveni yalbi cremlebis Rvris cqera. zafxulis cxel saRamos, roca romeliRac Tqvengani, erT-erTi gzaabneuli mdedri kuTxeSi iqneba mimwyvdeuli, maSin gavaxsendebi, mxolod Semdeg daiwyebs vedrebas, me ki mag dros cxel Cais vsvam xolme limoniT da aivnidan viyurebi. Sen ki, sacodavo homosapienso, tansacmels gaxeven, mtverSi gsvrian, Zalas gatanen. Seni azriT, mTeli maradisoba erTi da imaves yurebiT ar daviRale? Sen Cems adgilas maSinve gavardebodi gaWirvebulis dasaxmareblad? davijero, Sen ar giyvars limoniani Cai? me ki miyvars da milionobiT Sennairs mirCevnia, egre nu miyureb, RmerTi var, Cemi nebaa. magram, roca Seni `napoleoni" sabolood dagipyrobs, mere dagexmarebi, sul raRac cxra TveSi, Semdeg ki mixvdebi, mainc ra kargia, me rom varsebob amqveynad. nu geSinia, Tu bevrs iloceb, vecdebi, bavSvs `napoleonis" Tvalebi ar gamohyves, egre ratom miyureb? mixvdi, rom dagcini?! moica! vin xmaurobs? vin gabeda Cems xumrobaze sicili?! ooo, mamakacebo! adamis modgmav! xelosnebo da mexanZreebo, sanimuSo mamebo da maradiulo qmrebo, Tqven raRa gacinebT? maTze ukeTesi ggoniaT Tavi? modi, maSin sxvagvarad daviwyoT. dubli 2. ooo, mamakacebo, adamis modgmav, xelmocarulo biznesmenebo da arSemdgaro mewarmeebo, gakotrebulo bankirebo da dapatimrebulo direqtorebo, bolos da bolos, maradiulad qmrobisTvis ganwirulo arsebebo! ra gixariaT, Tqvens naSierebs iqneb sxvisi Tvalebi gamohyva... magram Tavs mainc samyaros RerZad TvliT, me gakvirdebiT da geTanxmebiT, gansakuTrebiT diliT, nagvis gadasayrelad roca midixarT, maSin, mag dros erT xelSi nagvis parki unda geWiroT, meoreSi ki kverTxi gepyraT, magram ara uSavs, isedac sasaciloebi xarT. arc erTi xarT mokvdavTa Soris ukeTesi. cxvrebi xarT da Tqvengan faras me vqmni, msaxiobebi xarT da speqtakls ki me vdgam. crumorwmuneebi xarT da, aha, mec aq var! monoba gaqvT genSi da mimiReT me, Tqveni mbrZanebeli! saukuneSi erTxel Tu gamoereva TqvenSi Rirseuli, Tqven ki Rirsebis danaxva ar gsurT, aTasSi erTi qadagebs WeSmaritebas, Tqven ki ar gsurT Sesmena. me riT giSveloT? frTebi

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kivili Edvard munch "scream" gaxsenebac ki ar minda am yvelafris. saSinelebaa. anda, rom ar movyve, isic ar SemiZlia, vinmes xom unda vuTxra? ,,vinme" kidev vin iqneba, Tu ara Sen. megobrebi damcineben, mSoblebi wamlebs damalevineben. Sen ki, maqsimum, meored aRar waikiTxav nawers, esaa da es, meti aranairi garTuleba ar moyveba amas SenTvis, amitom getyvi. ese igi: im dRes, konkretulad ki erTi wlis win, da ufro konkretulad ki 28 noembers, vseirnobdi. miyvars marto seirnoba da musikis mosmena, magram im dRes musikas ar vusmendi. mindoda Sememowmebina Cemi fexebis intuitiuroba da bolomde mivende, mainteresebda, sad wamiyvandnen. bevri matares. saerTod, rogorc wesi, quCaSi gamvlelebs did yuradRebas ar vaqcev xolme, viZabebi. is dRe gamonaklisi iyo am mxrivac. bnedianiviT viyurebodi irgvliv da mivdiodi. mokled, jer araferi iseTi, SeiZleba gaifiqroT kidec, rom tyuilad mocdiT, magram moicaT, yvelaferi winaa. bevri viare Tu cota viare... ai, uneblied zRapris elfers vaZlev Txrobas, principSi, sxvagvarad SeuZlebelic kia. es yvelaferi ra iyo, Tu ara... morCa, morCa, vxvdebi, rom dalagebulad ver vyvebi da Tavs vabezreb mkiTxvels, Tumca, mkiTxveli gamigebs, roca istorias bolomde CaikiTxavs. mxolod faqtebi, mets aRarafers vityvi awi. mokled, 28 noembers vseirnobdi quCaSi. susxi iyo da cioda, Tumca, amas did yuradRebas ar vaqcevdi, im martivi mizezis gamo, rom sicivis aRqmaze pasuxismgebeli receptorebis Tandayolili ukmarisoba maqvs. es, erTi SexedviT, kargic kia, radgan arasdros mciva, Tumca, meore mxriv, cudia, radgan arasdros mciva. isev mivedmovedebi, xo? Tavidan: 28 noembers vseirnobdi quCaSi. susxi iyo. qari uberavda cotaTi. saaTnaxevriani bodialis Semdeg mivxvdi, rom Cems fexebs tvini ar aqvT da saerTod ar daejerebaT, radgan sadRac gadakargulSi amovyavi Tavi. qalaqis am nawilSi cxovrebaSi ar vyofiliyavi da cotaTi SemeSinda kidec. bevri adamianic ar dadioda. principSi, saerTod aravin dadioda. mokled, goneba

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CavrTe saqmeSi, sxva gza ar iyo, da gamosavlis Ziebas Sevudeqi. Ziebis procesSi ki Cem win xidi davinaxe. cotaTi gamikvirda. pricipSi, qalaqSi rom xidi naxo, aq gasakviri araferia, magram daukvirdiT: xidi iyo xis, sakmaod grZeli da qalaqis im nawilSi, sadac mdinarec ar iyo. sabolood, es yvelaferi Cems geografiul umecrebas davabrale da gza ganvagrZe. davintrigdi, gadavwyvite xidze gavla. vgrZnobdi, rom fexqveS ficrebi iryeoda da aman cotaTi SemaSina. gamaxsenda xidis Cangrevis aTasi SemTxveva (sinamdvileSi, sul ori - isic regionebSi, magram Cemi daZabuli fsiqikisTvis esec sakmarisi gamodga). miuxedavad SiSisa, ukan gamobrunebaze arc mifiqria, radgan mtkiced mwamda, rom xidis boloSi taqsi meloda (ar vici, ratom megona) da saxlSi wasvlasac SevZlebdi. ase, ocdaaTi metris sigrZis iqneboda xidi. aTi ukve gavlili mqonda, roca ori persona davinaxe, Cemken modiodnen da vifiqre, Cemi gataceba xom ar undaT-meTqi. am ucnaurma azrma gamakvirva, Zlivs mivedi aRmoCenamde, rom Cem ukan gza iyo da es ori patiosani moqalaqec, sulac ar modioda Cemi mimarTulebiT, ubralod, im gzas mouyvebodnen, romelsac me sapirispiro mimarTulebiT mivuyvebodi. damSvidebulma svla ganvagrZe da SevamCnie, rom xidis dasawyisSi Seyovndnen, daixarnen, xelebi gaiSvires win, dabla da mere isev gaimarTnen. albaT rame aiRes, an ZaRls miefernen, an ra vici, ra qnes, ver davinaxemeTqi, aki vTqvi da marCielobas azri ar aqvs. SavebSi iyvnen Semosili, sakmaod ucnaurad. filmebSi mecxramete saukunis inglisel jentlmenebs rom acviaT xolme, iseTi plaSebi ecvaT da erTs cilindric ki exura. aman ufro damabnia, radgan aq da am epoqaSi amgvarad Cacmuli aqamde aravin menaxa. miaxlovdebodnen. Rrmad CavisunTqe da gza ganvagrZe. gadavwyvite, SiSi dameZlia. sami nabiji gabedulad gadavdgi, Tumca, mere mzera davZabe da ucnauri kacebis zurgs ukan raRacas davakvirdi. sami silueti gavarCie. ai, aq ki namdvilad SemeSinda, Tumca ar maxsovs wesierad - ratom. faqtia, rom raRac saSineleba vnaxe, ramac adgilzeve gamaqvava. is raRaca imdenad saSineli iyo, rom veRarc vixseneb, Cemi mxdali tvini Tavs icavs da eSinia, radgan icis, rom gaxsenebam SeiZleba bolo momiRos. saintereso kia, ra iyo, ras ar mivcemdi axla im suraTis detalurad aRsadge129

nad! mere kadrebi idRabneba. maxsovs, rom Semovtrialdi da Tavze xelebi vitace, vifiqre, rom im kacebs verafriT avuqcevdi gverds, vai da, zurgidan dana CaertyaT an rame eqnaT, rame saSineleba. kaci rom mecxramete saukunis londoneliviT dadixar, Sengan yvelaferia mosalodneli. meorec, davuSvaT, uvneblad gavcdenodi am kacebs, eg kidev araferi, win xom namdvili ,,saSineleba" meloda da gulgrilad namdvilad ver Cavuvlidi! ra iyo, RmerTo, gamaxsene ra, ra iyo?.. mokled, Semovtrialdi da Tavze xelebi vitace. mere vigrZeni, rom nel-nela ca gawiTlda da mdinare gaSavda. vxvdebodi, rom raRac xdeboda Cems Tavs da imas vnatrobdi, rom am raRacas droze moReboda bolo da an movmkvdariyavi an kidev rame momxdariyo. am gawelili da mtanjveli procesis atana ukve aRar SemeZlo. Tvalebi davxuWe, Tumca, oriod wuTSi gaxela momiwia, radgan vigrZeni, rom raRac memarTeboda. tanze davixede da mivxvdi, rom Cemi sxeuli saSinlad deformirdeboda da drekadi xdeboda, Cemda uneburad waRma-ukuRma iRuneboda da me ar SemeZlo misi gaCereba, TiTqos saerTod arc arafer SuaSi vyofiliyavi. ra unda meqna? Tqven ras izamdiT amgvar viTarebaSi? avdeqi da vikivle. mere aRaraferi maxsovs. ai, imis gaxsenebaSi kide, uux! cxovrebas mivcem, vinc gamaxsenebs ra saSineleba vnaxe, magram meeWveba, vinmes rameSi gamoadges Cemi cxovreba da, miT umetes, Cemi daxmareba SeZlos, iq xom mxolod me viyavi, is ori kaci da sami silueti. ori dRis Semdeg gambedaoba movikribe da gadavwyvite, isev im adgilas wavsuliyavi. vinicobaa menaxa is ori kaci da gamomekiTxa, ra moxda, an sulac im sam siluets wavwydomodi, magram yvelaferi kraxiT dasrulda, radgan rogorc Tqven ar yofilxarT im xidTan arc pirvelad da arc meored, ise me veRar mivageni im adgils. yvelas ukvirda, roca veubnebodi, sadme xom ar ici xis xidi-meTqi. aravin icoda, cxadia, da me ki damcinodnen msgavsi suleluri kiTxvebisTvis. erTi sami dRe vibrZole, viwvale, sad ar mivede da sad ar movede, magram, roca araferi gamomivida, far-xmali davyare da Tavi vaiZule, damejerebina, rom arc araferi momxdara. ubralod, nasvami viyavi da damaxinjebulad maxsovs faqtebi, an kidev rame vWame, risi Wamac araa rekomendebuli da halucinacia iyo, an tebleti gadavylape

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SecdomiT, an... Tumca, sul tyuilad vwvalobdi, radgan iseTi rame SememTxva, ris daviwyebasac normaluri kaci ar ecdeboda. da roca davfiqrdi, mivxvdi, rom sisuleles Cavdiodi. gadavwyvite, krinti aravisTan dameZra momxdaris Sesaxeb, daviwyebiT ki arc arafris daviwyeba micdia. Tumca, aravisTvis arafris Tqmac rom rTuli saqme gaxldaT? `ZaRli erT mSvenier dRes, roca gareT mze anaTebda da amindic Sesaferisi iyo, ojaxma gaseirneba ganizraxa. ojaxs Seadgenda qali, kaci da bavSvi. gareT gavidnen saxetialod. bavSvi Cumad midioda. col-qmari ki saubrobda da yuradRebas arc aqcevda pataras. bevri iares Tu cota iares, xids miadgnen. erTmaneTs gakvirvebiT gadaxedes, radgan ver mixvdnen, aq rogor aRmoCndnen da, saerTod, sad imyofebodnen. gadawyvites xidze gadasvla, radgan darwmunebuli iyvnen, rom gaRma taqsi idga, romlis meSveobiTac advilad gaignebdnen gzas. - moica, sayvarelo, ase ar SeiZleba! - Tqva qalma da meuRle Seayovna. kacma gakvirvebiT Sexeda cols, romelic CanTaSi iqeqeboda da raRacas eZebda. - modi aq, modi droze! - qalma bavSvs dauZaxa, romelic morCilad aituza dedis winaSe. - es gaikeTe, mome kiseri! - kargi, ra, sayvarelo, iqneb araa saWiro? - me ukeT vici, ucxo adgilas varT da uxerxulia. - raa uxerxuli? - xalxi ras ityvis? vinme nacnobi rom Segvxvdes? xom ici amisi ambavi, rom daiwyos axla Taviseburad... - midi maSin, Sen ukeT ici, marTals ambob. - modi aq! - qali bavSvs eZaxda, erTi wuTis win normaluri bavSvi ki cofianiviT darboda wreze. - daiWire, sayvarelo, amis devnis Tavi ar maqvs me! kacma bavSvs qeCoSi waavlo xeli. bavSvi iklakneboda, igrixeboda, magram xelidan ver usxlteboda. amasobaSi ki dedam yelze Toki gamoaba da moqaCa kvanZis Sesamowmeblad. myarad aRmoCnda ganaskvuli. - axla ki SegviZlia gza ganvagrZoT! - qalma kacs gauRima da igive miiRo sapasuxod.

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qali, kaci da daoTxili, Tokgamobmuli bavSvi xidze gadasvlas apirebdnen, roca ori kaci wamoewiaT. ucnaurad gamoiyurebodnen: Savi plaSebi emosaT, erTs cilindri exura Tavze, zustad ise, mecxramete saukunis inglisel jentlmenebs rogorc ecvaT xolme. - ra sayvarelia, Tqvenia? - diax, Cvenia. - SeiZleba miveferoT? - rogorc geneboT. - oRond frTx... mamam saTqmelis dasruleba ver moaswro, cilindriani rom daixara da bavSvs Tavze xeli gadausva. iman ki SeuRrina da sakbenad gaiwia, Tumca dedam gaakava. - bodiSi, giucxovaT da... mogviteveT. - rogor iqcevi, ar grcxvenia?! - darcxvenilma kacma bavSvi daariga da isic gaitruna, eSinoda albaT. - Zalian sayvarelia, ramdenisaa? - xuTis. - ui, ramxela yofila! - marTlac! - RmerTma gagizardoT! biWia Tu gogo? - gogo. - sasiamovno iyo, kargad brZandebodeT! cilindrianma gauRima wyvils da gza ganagr...~ ...ai, aq ki kalami gverdze gadavde da davfiqrdi. axlave gagarkvevT, raSicaa saqme: im SemTxvevis mere wera daviwye, vwerdi bevrs. vwerdi fantastikur moTxrobebsa Tu novelebs, romlebic fantastikurad cudi iyo da aravin kiTxulobda. yvela siuJetSi iyo xidi, ingliseli jenltmenebi, sami piri, wiTeli ca da Savi mdinare, rac, cxadia, bevrs ar ainteresebda, Tumca es me fexebze mekida, radgan sxva mizani mqonda: rac ki ram momividoda gonebaSi, yvelaferi furcelze gadmomqonda, Tundac sruliad absurduli da uazro, es erTgvari testi iyo testi gonebisTvis! ase vcdilobdi, im dRes momxdaris Sesaxeb Cemi mexsierebisaTvis rame dametyuebina. vinicobaa, romelime Cemi siuJeti mimemsgavsebina imdRevandelisTvis da yvelaferi gamxseneboda. ase rom, sulac ar vRelavdi, Tu Cemi romelime

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megobari ukmayofilebas gamoTqvamda, Tu ra saSinelebebs vwer sxva Tanamedrove mwerlebTan SedarebiT. ise, es mdgomareoba sasaciloc ki gaxldaT, radgan me maT namdvil mizezs ver vumxeldi, isini ki seriozulad aRiqvamdnen Cems axirebas da metic, meubnebodnen, rom niWi mqonda, magram tyuilad da uazrod vflangavdi! haha, arada, zustad vicodi, rom niWi romc mqonoda, mainc araferSi gamomadgeboda, radgan mwerlobas namdvilad ar vapirebdi. mokled, amgvarad iyo saqme, roca erT saRamos davjeqi da daviwye novela ,,ZaRlis" wera. zemoT xsenebul adgilamde rom mivedi, kalami xelidan gamivarda (nu, am aqtSi cotaTi Teatraluri elementebic eria, magram mere ra?), radgan gamaxsenda! iseTi gancda dameufla, rogoric eqneboda albaT budas gasxivosnebisas, Tumca budas gasxivosneba amasTan SedarebiT sisulele iyo da meti araferi. me ufro did rames wavawydi. amdeni xani rac mtanjavda da mRrRnida, imas bolo movuRe da meti raRa gasxivosneba gindaT? axla ki droa weras SeveSva da Cveulebriv cxovrebas davubrunde, ar Semityuos am saqmem da ar daviRupo Tavi sruliad SemTxveviT. kargad brZandebodeT, Zalian damexmareT, mSvidobiT! *** - diax, diax, Cemi megobaria, ra xdeba, gamarkvevT vinme? - sasiamovnoa. axlave gagarkvevT: ese igi, Tqvenma megobarma anamnezis Sekrebisas gangvicxada, rom gasuli wlis 28 noembers seirnobda quCaSi da Tavi ucnob adgilas amoyo, ubans ver gvisaxelebs da aRwerilobiT ki vaskvniT, rom amgvari ubani Cvens qalaqSi arc arsebobs da arc arasdros arsebula. man sruli damajereblobiT gangvicxada, rom raRac xis xids miadga da gadasvla ganizraxa. mogexsenebaT, Cvens epoqaSi xis xidebi muzeumebSic araa Semonaxuli. is ki darwmunebulia, rom xidi iyo xis da ficrebic ki WraWunobda fexqveS. Semdeg gviTxra, rom viRac ori SavebSi Cacmuli kaci naxa, mecxramete saukunis ingliseli jentlmenebiviT ecvaT. sanam miuaxlovdebodnen, colqmars Sexvdnen, maT bavSvi hyavdaT, romelsac kiserze Toki ZaRliviT hqonda gamobmuli. mamakacebi bavSvs miefernen, bavSvma ki sakbenad gaiwia, is dedam gaakava da mamam ki datuqsa. Semdeg ori mamakaci isev misken gamoemarTa, am dros mdinare

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gaSavda da ca gawiTlda. ar vameteb, batono, ase miTxra sityvasityviT: mdinare gaSavda da ca gawiTldao! Semdeg ki sxeulma deformacia daiwyo da vikivleo. Tqvens megobars halucinaciebi aqvs, rogor fiqrobT, araa saWiro mkurnaloba? - gasagebia, gmadlobT. esec Sen! gamyidveli megobari! iuda! arada, yvelaze naklebad amisgan velodi! rogor damtova am cxovelebis xelSi? xom icoda, rom ar vityuebodi da marTla vnaxe es yvelaferi? ara ra, daskvna erTia: aravis arafers vetyvi da nawerebsac saswrafo wesiT gavanadgureb, Torem marTla gamomketaven saavadmyofoSi da arc aravin iqneba mere iqidan Cemi gamomyvani. ase rom, morCa! xma, krinti, Cumad var!

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ori bileTi evropamde da ukan Tbilisis saerTaSoriso aeroportSi irgvliv ganlagebuli yvela xmis gamaZliereblidan gvatyobineben, rom Cveni TviTmfrinavi bazelis mimarTulebiT ormocdaaTiode wuTSi gafrindeba. registraciagavlilebi pirvelsave skamze vexeTqebiT, moxmarebul sabuTebs ukan, CanTebSi vinaxavT da sruliad kmayofilebi erTaneTs gadavxedavT. maleve vamCnev, rom orives erTi uCveulo da cotaTi sasacilo ram gvWirs: yovel or wuTSi Cven-Cveni zurgCanTis jibeebs isteriulad vxniT da SeSlili saxiT vamowmebT ukve bare ocjer Semowmebul bileTebs. vfiqrob, araferia gaugebari, Cemi martivi da sruliad arapretenziuli fsiqologiuri daskvniT, ubalod, orives saSinlad migveCqareba iq, Suagul evropaSi da meti araferi... ormocdaaTi wuTic, rogorc aseT dros xdeba, saSinlad gaiwela da Tan Cveni mouTmenlobac CaiTria. ai, Casxdomis niSanic da xelCakidebulebi trapisaken miveSurebiT. cali xeliT erTmaneTs vebRauWebiT, meoreTi - bileTebs... ise, rom gegmaSi arc ki mqonia, TviTmfrinavSi CameZina. roca gamovfxizldi, mas muxlebze ruka hqonda gaSlili da bazelis Teoriulad aTvisebas cdilobda. rukis minawerebze amovikiTxeT, rom oficialurad maspinZlobas Svidi milioni Sveicarieli gagviwevda, rom maTi absoluturi umravlesoba qristiania da rom imdenad bevr enas floben, Tavisuflad SegiZlia maTTan saubari saocrad mravalferovnad warmarTo. asea, metyveleben germanul, frangul, italiur da TviT retormanul (!!!) enebze (mere ra, rom Cven mas ar vflobT). amas davumatoT is detalebic, rac am rukis gareSe da mis dauxmarebladac saerTo ZalebiT vicodiT. magaliTad, is, rom sulerTi iyo, velosipeds viyiddiT, Tu sendviCebs mivirTmevdiT, nebismier aseT SemTxvevaSi, fuli evroebSi unda dagvexarja...

evroebze gamaxsenda mTavaric, ukve oTxi welia, sruliad

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safexburTo evropa Sida masStabis Cempionats elis. ho, 2008 wlis 7 ivnisis Tbil saRamos, adgilobrivi droiT (romelsac axla ukve yvela evropeli daemorCileba) 18:00 saaTze matCis mTavari arbitri sastveniT mTel evropas (da ara marto mas) auwyebs, rom daiwyo!!! daiwyo is, rasac am xnis ganmavlobaSi didi enTuziazmiT gvimzadebdnen avstralielebi da Sveicarielebi, rasac erTnairad eloda frangi da espaneli, Turqi da poloneli... es yvelaferi SveicariaSi, qalaq bazelSi, sent iakobparkze moxdeba. swored iq, sadac ase miviCqariT axla Cven orni, Cveni ori bileTiT... - gTxovT moemzadoT, ramdenime wuTSi TviTmfrinavi daeSveba. SveicariaSi axla 12 saaTi da 17 wuTia. qalaq bazelSi haeris temperatura 22 gradusia", - momsaxure personalis erTerTi wevris sasiamovno xmis tembri da hamburgeris mozrdili lukma... CavediT... mgoni stiuardesam aSkarad gadaaWarba. namdvilad ar igrZnoboda, rom adgilze 22 gradusi iyo. cotaTi Semcivda kidec... qalaqi adgilobrivebiTa da aTasi rjulis turistiTaa savse. sulerTia marketSi Seixedav, Tu metroSi Caxval, yvelgan zeimia, haeri evropuli fexburTiT aris gajerebuli. dabneuli qarTuli nabijebi neitralur qalaqSi, sruliad araneitraluri posterebi da sxvaTa daxmarebiT mignebuli viwro derefniani sastumro. mis danaxvaze asociaciad movlenili Cveneburi fardulebi da isev quCaSi gamavali kibe, gaWirvebiT daZleuli misi safexurebi da taqsi Tavis mZRolianad, Cveni kuTvnili evrokupiurebi Tavis mxares rom gadaibira. eg araferi, namdvilad Rirs amad - male iwyeba!.. maRviZaras gulisgamawvrilebeli zmuili Camesmis da verafriT vxvdebi, saidan modis es xma. male am xmas, `misi" xmac daerTo da axla ukve orni, saerTo ZaliT cdiloben gamaRviZon. Camyviris, rom leqciaze magviandeba.

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Tvals vaxel da saswrafo wesiT vcdilob gaverkve, ra xdeba. `mis" oTaxSi vwevar maSin, roca male tribunaze unda movkalaTebuliyaviT. anda ra dros leqciaa, roca ukve fexburTelebi gasaxdelidan gamosasvlelad emzadebian?! ...samarTliani wuwuniT vdgebi, zarmaci da axladgaxelili TvalebiT wamwamebs miRma aRmoCenil realobas viazreb, evropul qvafenils, quCebsa da molodins veTxovebi... Tbilad vicvam, Tavze keps wamovixurav, kalams xels davavleb da zamTris quCaSi gavdivar. gayinul xelebs jinsis jibeebSi vmalav, xolo spiralze agebul bloknotsa da evrosizmars iRliaSi amoviCri...

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erTi kiTxvis aTi pasuxi (interviuebi gzad saxlidan skolamde) - gamarjoba! - gagimarjos! - Seni saxeli? - Tamuna. - gvari? - miqelaZe. - ramdeni wlis xar, Tamuna? - Teqvsmetis. - bednieri xar? - ratom mekiTxebi? - ise, mainteresebs. Seni azriT, bedniereba ra aris? - roca adamiani Tavs kargad grZnobs, me mgoni, bednieria. - ufro zustad? - roca sasixarulo ambavs gaigebs da Tavi amqveynad yvelaze bednieri hgonia. - ai, Sen ra gaxarebs, ra ganiWebs bednierebas? - Cemi ojaxi. Tu ki is Tavs kargad grZnobs, maSin mec bednieri var. - ukacravad, erTi wuTiT... - me meZaxi, bebo? - diax, Tqven. - ra ambavia, mSvidobaa, qa? - mSvidobaa, bebo, mSvidoba. - ui, Sen ki gaixare, lamis guli gamiskda. - Tqveni saxeli, bebo? - mrcxvenia Cemi saxelis Tqma. rad ginda, Svilo? - ratom, bebo, yvela saxeli dasafasebelia. - ra vici, aba, Zveli dro xo ici, fatyume damarqves. ise, yvela fata bebias meZaxis. - ramdeni wlis brZandebiT, bebo? - dedaCemi metyoda, blobisas xar dabadebulio. ise, samocdaaTs karga xania gadavabije. deT, mobrundi, levaniko, Sens gaxarebas, Svilo, erTi eg Zroxa momibrune... ho, ras meubne138

bodi, Svilo? - Savi kaba gacviaT, vinme mogikvdaT? - eh, qmari, Svilo, ukve oci welia. - Svilebi gyavT? - aba, ras ambob, biWo! SvilebiT vuZleb am wuTisofels. - ras fiqrob, bebo, bedniereba ra aris, arsebobs ki saerTod? - Sen TviTon ginaxavs bedniereba, Svilo? - ara. bednierebas verc naxav, mas SeigrZnob. - hoda, roca sadme waawydebi, maSin mkiTxe. bedniereba rom arsebobdes, ase oxrad vegdebi me? - rezo, romel klasSi xar? - viTom ar icis. - kargi, ho, miTxari. - merveSi. - ra niSnebze swavlob? - pirveli xarisxis warCinebuli var. - bednieri xar? - ra vici. - ratom? ar ici, ra aris bedniereba? - jer ar vici. verc vxedav da verc vexebi, verc aRviqvam. arc maTbobs da arc axlos mikarebs. bundovania CemTvis. erTi moclili xar Sen, ra gebedniereba, skolaSi ar davigvianoT. - asiko bicola, rogor brZandebiT? - gmadlob, Cemi biWi, Sen? - me kargad. SeiZleba erTi kiTxva dagisvaT? - me arsad meCqareba, Sen ar dagagviandes. - dro mec maqvs. bedniereba ra aris, Tqveni azriT? - raRa bednierebaa, Svilo, Cemze ubeduri qali ar dadis... - ratom, aseTi ra moxda? - gogo gamiubedures, Seni kbila, Svilo, Cems gaWirvebas es simware raRaSi sWirdeboda... - ui, vwuxvar. - sad aris, sad, bedniereba? naxevrad mSieri, naxevrad SiSveli, Tan es ambavic zed daemata. - kargi, damSviddiT, mets aRar SegawuxebT...

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- lia mqvia, gvarad beriZe var, sul axlaxan Semisrulda Cvidmeti weli. - ras fiqrob, lia, bedniereba arsebobs? - ki, ratomac ara. igi Cven irgvlivaa, Cven SigniTaa, sul yvelganaa. - da ra aris igi? - siyvaruli. - ratom maincdamainc siyvaruli? - ar gagigonia: `usiyvarulod mzec ar sufevs cis kamaraze"? - Sen xar Seyvarebuli? - raSi gainteresebs? - ratom daimorcxve? minda gavigo, ramdenad bednieri xar. - ver vityvi, rom mTlad bednieri var, radgan bevri xelisSemSleli mizezi gamoCnda. - mainc? - ar msurs amaze saubari. - babu, meramdene wreze modixarT am diliT? - ukve mesameze. siaruli Cemi dilis varjiSia. - ise, mxned gamoiyurebiT. - raRa dros Cemi mxneobaa, Cemi xnis qvac aRar gdia, ukve oTxmocdaaTs mivukakune. - albaT, kargi cxovreba gqondaT, ase axalagazrdulad rom gamoiyurebiT. bednieri brZandebiT? - ra vici, aba, viTom ubeduri ratom unda viyo, coli myavs, Svilebi, SviliSvilebi. - e. i. bednieri brZandebiT? - eh, Svilo, Cems Tavze kalo ar galewila mxolod. qorwinebaSi ar gamimarTla. erTi coli, meore, mesame... pirveli momikvda, RmerTma acxonos misi suli. misgan ori Svili damrCa. meorem TavSi uro Camartya, Cemi mokvla undoda da gavagde. misganac xuTi Svili damrCa, xuTi wvrili Svili. RmerTs madloba, yvela davzarde, davakare. axla mesame colTan vcxovrob. masTan Svili ar myavs. erTi cudi zne sWirs, roca gabrazdeba, behemoTs meZaxis, ha-ha-ha-ha! - da mainc, bednieri brZandebiT?

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- cocxali var, babu, cocxali, Cemi fexiT davdivar da es aris yvelaze didi bedniereba. - meSvide klasSi viyavi, roca Cemi geografiis maswavlebeli Semiyvarda. maRali iyo, oqrosferi qoCora Tma hqonda. tansacmelic oqrosferi ecva xolme. amitomac Cems fiqrebSi ,,oqrosferi Wabuki" Sevarqvi. sul iRimeboda, ucolo iyo. gogonebi gagvagiJa. me ukve sicxianiviT vbodavdi. eniT ver aRvwer, ras ganvicdidi. erTxel axlobelma miTxra: Tamazi (ase erqva geografiis maswavlebels) ambobs, CemTvis vzrdio... - gadavirie, xes da foTlebs vkocnidi. - Semdeg ra moxda? - coli SeirTo. aq damTavrda Cemi xanmokle bedniereba. amis Semdeg kidev mqonda gataceba, siyvarulic ki, magram is bedniereba aRar migrZvnia. - axla bednieri brZandebiT? - sruli bednierebisaTvis bevri ram mWirdeba, Tumca Svilebi, ai, ra aris yvelaze didi bedniereba. me maT gul-mkerdze amosul yvavilebs veZaxi. - da ,,oqrosferi Wabuki" ra iqna? - is warsulis sunTqvasa da mogonebas gahyva. - fuli oxrad maqvs, komforti ar maklia, Svilebi davakare, qmars biznesi aqvs, sxva ra mWirdeba sruli bednierebisaTvis? - amboben, marto cxovrobT. - eg marTalia. gogo gavaTxove, biWi muSaobs. orives vaswavle. sofeli ar undaT, qalaqs ver elevian, me kidev, aqaurobas ver vSordebi. - qmari, qmarze ratom arafers ambobT? - qmari oci welia ruseTSi cxovrobs da muSaobs. aba, simdidre haeridan xom ar mosula. ager, beWedi rom mikeTia, briliantisaa, ici ra Rirs?! - e. i. bednieri brZandebiT? - bednieri var, Tundac imiT, rom sxvaze ukeTesad vcxovrob, sxvaze ukeT macvia. xelis ganZreva ar undaT, - gviWirs, dagvexmareo, - wuwuneben. ara da, oci TeTric fulia. tyuilad ver davkargav. waRebis dros waiReben, motana ki ar ician. ager,

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levanis coli sul axlaxans uariT gavistumre. me rom martod var, vinme mexmareba?! - e. i. marTla gakliaT raRac sruli bednierebisaTvis. - Znelia martooba. Cems naoWebs rom uyureb, samocdaaTi wlis gegonebi, ara da, ormocdaaTi guSin Semisrulda. sxvaTa Soris, didebulad aRvniSne. martoobam da uZilo Rameebma damanela, Sen advili ggonia? - maS, ar yofila simdidre bedniereba. - iqneb arc aris, magram sxvas guls ver gavuxareb, ver mivaxvedreb, rogor marto var da rogor miWirs. - leila maxaraZe, ormocdaaTi wlis. - saxelic iseTive lamazi gaqvT, rogoric suli. - Sen Cemi sulisa ra ici? - TvalebSi gemCnevaT. imdeni siTbo da sikeTea maTSi, albaT, CaviZirebi. - didi madloba. amas xSirad meubnebian, - keTili xaro. - mere, amiT bednieri ar xarT? - amiT ki, magram ise ara var bedenieri. - ki, magram, ratom? - ar Semisrulda survilebi. - mainc ra survilebi gqondaT? - Cemi ojaxi mindoda mqonoda. sami wlis gaTxovils ojaxi damengra. qmars davSordi da mSoblebTan davbrundi. vaJi myavs. iveria Cemi yvelaze didi bedniereba. - aki, bednieri ara varo? - es bedniereba erTxel vigrZeni, isic maSin, roca Svili SemeZina. - ras grZnobdiT maSin? - udides simsubuqes, aRzevebas. magram erTia kidev, bednierebasTan SeiZleba axlos mixvide, magram raRac ver gaTvalo, ver mozomo da dakargo. mec ase damemarTa. aseTi sizmari vnaxe: Relavda zRva, Tavs iwonebdnen mindvrebi, mTebi, baRebi, koxta saxlebi. aravis eZina. yvela gareT gamosuliyo. xelixelCakidebuli idgnen da gaocebuli Sehyurebdnen zecas. caSi bedniereba dafrinavda, angelozis frTebi hqonda, ucnauri SuqiT

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aCiraRdnebda samyaros. siyvaruli uzarmazar jaWvad Semovleboda adamianebs, Seekra da SeeduRabebina isini. bavSvebis Jriamuls Zil-RviZilidan gamohyavda miyuCebuli are. aravis araferi awuxebda. tkivils dahyroda miwa. afxazeTic Cveni iyo, oseTic. Txa da mgeli erTad Zovda... ai, meaTe pasuxic. Semdegi Sen moZebne. an kidev Sen, radgan amiT ar mTavrdeba yvelaferi.

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litfoto neta, Tu ici, ra grZnobaa, rodesac dilis oTx saaTze, roca sam wuTSi xuTi gaxdeba, muzebi gejajgurebian da ar gaZineben, gakontroleben da ainteresebT, rogor gadmoitan maT cxadSi. faliaSvilis quCis kuTxeSi SemTvrali kaci Zalian gemrielad, netari saxiT eweoda sigarets. idga, TiTqos moZraobaSi gaaSeSeso da warmoudgeneli siamovnebiT isrutavda nikotins. mini-ritualiviT iyo. TiToeul nafazs sayvareli qaliviT epyroboda. iasamnebianma kacma Caiara. cxviri iasamnebSi hqonda Serguli. taniT win iyo gadaweuli da Savfexsacmliani fexebi Zlivs eweoda patrons. iqve axlos, sacxobSi, ugemrieles da ufafukes funTuSebs acxobdnen. patara gogosaviT anci surneli faliaSvilis quCis Wadrebs exveoda da xsenebuli quCis ZaRlebic pirdapir cxviriT mihyavda patara fanjarasTan. axalgazrda gogona, maRal quslebze amxedrebuli, parfiumeruli pigmentebiT SeniRbuli da flakonSi Camwyvdeuli surneliT Semkuli, ucnauri siamayiT miabijebda da qvemoT Camoxedvas arc apirebda. patara biWma Tovlis gunda esrola. saidan moitana Tovli maisis cxraSi? albaT, Zalian undoda da misTvis moTova. gogonam Seicxada da gza ganagrZo. biWi miimala. dRes viRacas dabadebisdRe aqvs. gi-lo-caav!! Seni wamzomi gamorTulia. viRacis sikvdils ori weli Seusrulda. bneli fanjridan bluzi ismis. ritmulad zanzarebs minebi. sardafidan `stepis" xmauri ismis. mourideblad xvrinavs jemali biZia. Tavisi zolebiani joxi fosforisfer uniformaSi Caudia da dasaZineblad mSvenieri manqana, BMW aurCevia. suraTi unda gadagiRoT yvelas. gaaRviZeT, jemali biZia! cota axlos moiwieT. gaaCereT iasamnebiani kaci. eg cxviri cotaTi CamoswieT, gogoni. sacxobi gamoaCineT. ai ase, ar gainZreT! ara, Citi ar gamofrindeba. gavuSvi eg Citi. litfoto mzadaa. SegiZliaT daiSaloT. faliaSvilis quCis kuTxeSi aromatebi da xmebi erTmaneTs CasWidebian da midi-modian. SemTvrali kaci ki warmoudgeneli sifaqiziT da siamovnebiT wovs kvamls sigaretidan. mogwons?

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wyali Cveni sofeli mdidaria tbebiT, miwiszeda Tu miwisqveSa mdinareebiT, wyaroebiT. imdeni wyalia, TiTqos dasalevi wylis problema ar unda iyos, magram sofelSi, sadac oTxasamde ojaxi cxovrobs, sul xuTi wyaroa. amitomac am sofelSi wylis motanis Taviseburi forma da rituali arsebobs. wyali ojaxSi ZiriTadad qalebs moaqvT, ar gegonoT avtomanqaniT an xeliT, maT am saqmisTvis specialuri `joxi" aqvT, romelsac `uzluys" anu `mxrikets" eZaxian. `uzluys" naxevarmTvariseburi forma aqvs, Tavsa da boloSi magari rkinis sakidebiT, romelzedac aT-TxuTmet litriani vedros Camokideba SeiZleba. uzluyebi Taobidan-Taobas gadaecema. zogi maTgani saukuneebsac ki iTvlis. mas marto qalebi xmaroben. is aucileblad muxis xisgan unda iyos gamoTlili. yvela ojaxSi arsebobs patara, saSualo da didi zomis uzluyebi, romelsac asakis mixedviT xmaroben. hoda, memkvidreobiT miRebuli uzluyebiT diliT da saRamoTi moaqvT wyali ojaxSi. yvela wyarosTan rigi dgas, wylis molodinSi ras ar gaigonebs da moismens kaci. ise, ramdeni rame icis wyarom - didi mesaidumlea. wylis avsebis Semdeg ubnebis mixedviT dajgufdebian qalebi, mxarze uzluygadakidebulebi, tanis rxeviT gauyvebian saxlisaken mimaval bilikebs. am dros Seudareblad lamazebi arian. zamTarSi wyali virebiTa da cigebiT moaqvT. dilasaRamos quCaSi rom gaixedo, dainaxav zurgze kasrebgadakidebuli virebis `qaravans", romlebic zlazvniT miedin-moedinebian wyarosaken. zogi viri didia, zogi ki taniT iseTi pataraa, rom zurgze wylis WurWelwamokidebuls, marto win yurebi da ukan kudi uCans, miuxedavad amisa, upretenziod, morCilad, CikCikiT mihyvebian TavianT patrons. es yvelaferi ise mogewonebaT, rom Tavs, sul mcire, ramdenime saukuniT ukan igrZnobT.

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gza am wels adre dadga zamTari, pirveli Tovli nel-nela Semoipara, gagviRima da gviTxra, - Tqven gixariaT Tu ar gixariaT Cemi mosvla, sul ar manaRvlebs, eqvsi Svidi Tve arsad wamsvleli ar varo. da ase wamojda Tovli mTebze, mindvrebze, gzasa Tu orRobeebSi. Tovlis mosvla yvelaze Zalian qars gaexaexarda: -aqamde marto davqrodi, axla orive erTad viqrolebTo. Tovlisa da qaris erTad sirbils CvenSi `qarbuqs" eZaxian, romelic yvela misasvlel gzas ketavs qalaqTan, sofelTan, naTesavebTan Tu eqimTan. mxolod saiqioSi wasasvleli gza rCeba Ria, romelsac Tovlma da qarma veraferi mouxerxa. am zamTarsac, aravin icis, vin darCeba cocxali da vin mkvdari. sofelSi ramdenime mZime avadmyofi iyo. maT Soris Cemi mezobeli bebia SviliSviliT. bavSvis mSoblebi saSovarze iyvnen ruseTSi wasulebi. bebia yoveldRe eloda maT Camosvlas, sul gzisken hqonda Tvalebi. am molodinSi babua gardaicvala. bebias daawva mTeli ojaxis simZime. ver gauZlo amden Sromas, gacivda da loginad Cawva. mTeli sofeli cdilobda maT daxmarebas wamlebiTa Tu sakvebiT. iyo brZola sikvdil-sicocxlisa. maTi saavadmyofoSi wayvana SeuZlebeli iyo. sofelSi yvela maTze laparakobda. bebias imedi hqonda, dRes Tu xval gzis mwmendavebi movidodnen da gza gaixsneboda. TumcaRa... bevri dRe gavida, gza isev daketili iyo. sofelSi yoveli dRe ase iwyeboda: viRacam-viRacas daureka, viRacam ambavi moitana - Turme Tovlmwmendi traqtori mezobel soflamde mosula da xval Cvenc gveSvelebao. yvela mezobeli, vinc avadmyofi bebiisa da SviliSvilis sanaxavad modioda, moxucs`gzis gawmendis" Tavisebur versias uyveboda. bevrma icoda, rom es tyuili iyo, magram mainc imeorebda imas, rac TviTon moigona. erTxel mec mindoda bebia gamexarebina, tyuili arafrad

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miRirda da vuTxari: - mamaCems movusmine, xval gza gaixsneba, Tqvenc saavadmyofoSi wagiyvanen, gimkurnaleben da kargad gaxdebiT. bebia gamxiarulda da miTxra: - kargia, male Cemi Svilic Camova ruseTidan da gveSvelebao. gavida dReebi, kvirebi, Tveebi, gza ki mainc daketili iyo. bolos maTTan rom viyavi, bebia Zalian cudad iyo, Zlivs laparakobda. mis sityvebs verc varCevdi. mxolod es gavige: - axla aprilis boloa, gza kidev ar gaxsnila, vici, gzis gaxsnas veRar moveswrebi, verc Cems Svils vnaxav. RmerTsa vTxov, is biWi mainc momjobindes. maisi iyo, bebia rom gardaicvala. bebia daasaflaves, meore dRes gza gaixsna... vin icis, momaval zamTars vis rogor gauRimebs bedi.

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*** SemorCenili nagleji warsulis Semovinaxe, masTan uxmod Camovjeqi da gavirinde. TvaldaxuWuli mze atuzula Savi Rrublebis gverdiT... oboli bavSviviT gaifantnen foTlebi sadRac... civi xelebiT SemoaRo kari zamTarma, aforiaqdnen xeebi da miatoves `mwvane" da mokvda sevda usaxlkaro, uazrod CurCulebs sicocxle bundovani, arafrismTqmeli! da daveufle bgerebs usasrulos, moklul grZnobaTa usaSvelo frazebs, sikvdilisas... dRes me mizidavs qviSiani miwa, aq odesme daimsxvreva Cemi civi Zvlebi... amovanTxie boRma da erT martod migdebul civ qvaze mZimed Camovjeqi! foTolTa nakadi qaris mimarTulebas usityvod emorCileba, iseve rogorc me am daundobel wuTisofels... me vxvdebi, rom sikvdilTan brZola amboria sicocxlisaTvis! me momwons aRgznebuli natura Cemi oTaxis kedelze, alkoholSi viZirebiT me da Cemi samyaro, es diadi dRea... da grZnoba mokvda usasrulo, sisxliani da daundobeli! Cveni mimarTuleba viwro biliks hgavs, sadac ar arseboben warsulis mogonebebi! kidev erTxel daarwia wynarma siom beberi muxis sevdiT savse foTlebi da sadRac gauCinarda... odnav bJutaven quCis bolos SemorCenili lampionebi... Sevegebebi wiTel sikvdils, ukvalod davtoveb grZnobebs da davemSvidobebi naTel lampionebs! mSvidad SevaRe kari momavlis da dRevandelobis gverdze wamovweqi... cerad gavuRime sixarulis namsxvrevebs aqa-iq mofantuls da martivad moviRuSe... Sav-TeTr kadrebSi Camovkide fiqrebi frTxilad da mxolod rwmena amovqarge imedgacruebul gonebaSi! grZnobebi gavaxvie yviTel naWerSi da gverdze gadavde... me aRar mawuxebs kivili sisxlisferi warsulidan, aRarc siTbo gamaCnia da arc sicives vemalebi, arc sakuTari me mtanjavs da aRarc Sen mebralebi... Sen veRar datoveb tkivils gasaqrobad, rameTu aRar arsebobs naSTi siyavrulis! da roca gadawev sinaTlis fardas, SenTvis mxolod dalaquli minebi darCeba warsulis mosaxsenieblad, iq, sadac SenTvis aRar aenTebian Camqrali lampionebi... me Sevicani graneliseuli gardacvaleba...

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erTi Cveulebrivi dRe, anu roca gios Seuyvarda - e, biWo, ra gWirs? - ha? - Tqvi rame... - pasi. - ra pasi, biWo, samis kartia minimum, - veRar moiTmina usaqmod darCenilma mexuTe zedmetma dadum. - pasi, - jinaze gaimeora giom. - Segeteneba! - bolojer gaibrZola dadum. - davai, ra! xmamaRali tkacuniT isrodnen banqos furclebs da wagebis mTel boRmas magidaze anTxevdnen. marto gio afrialebda ori TiTiT msubuqad da marto giom ar icoda, igebda Tu agebda. oTaxSi ar cioda, magram mainc qurTukebiT isxdnen. maTematikis rveulis ukana furcelze miwerili iyo: `zuka, Cikva, aCo, gio". mere dadum aiRo da oTxives Tavze Tavisi saxeli daawera, - mainc me vTamaSob yvelas magivrado. - mwyuria, - dadu ar Cerdeboda da zukas SesaWrel xuWuWa Tmas qaCavda. - iqaa Wiqa, - zukam xeli aiqnia. - kai, gio, ra, amoiRe xma! - aCo furcelze raRacas jRabnida. - pasi-meTqi, xom giTxari? - magaze ar geubnebi. - aba raze? - lizaze. - vin lizaze? - ai, lizaze, qeraze da cisferTvalebaze. - yvela qera da cisferTvaleba lamazi araa, - uadgilod CaurTo Cikvam, romelic ZiriTadad ubralo komentarebiT afiqsirebda sakuTar azrs. - es qera da cisferTvaleba liza lamazia, - ufro giosTvis Tqva aCom da mere SiSiT gadaxeda. gio dumda. - morCiT mand zuzuns! zuka, aq Wiqa araa! - auu, es isev Wiqas eZebs.

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gio dumda. - vipove! wyali? - wyali - onkanSi! - yvela miCveuli iyo dadus idiotur SekiTxvebs. - biWo, gio... - sami. - ra sami, biWo, oTxi mainc Tqvi, - dadum wyali dalia. - davai, ra! - kurtkebs ratom ar ixdiT? - dainteresda zuka. - qurTukebs, - Seaswora Cikvam, - civa SenTan. - midi, kaco, erTi... - biWo, gio... - vinmes gindaT jokeri? - moulodnelad ikiTxa giom. - isedac vTamaSobT, gio, jokers. - magitom ar mikiTxavs. - aba? - aRar minda. karti marto Cikvam dayara. - biWo, gio, liza xom mogwons? - uceb miayara aCom, rom aRaravis Seewyvetinebina. - vin liza? - cota xnis dumilis Semdeg hkiTxa giom. - liza, qera da cisferTvaleba. - mere? - ra mere, qeni rame... - ara, biWo, egrec araa, "qeni rame"... me, magaliTad, arafersac ar vizam, Tu ar Sevatyob, rom gogo Cemze giJdeba, CaerTo dadu. - da raze atyob? - ise Sexeda aCom, TiTqos am qveyanaze sxva araferi ainteresebda. - Tvalebze, ra Tqma unda... - aba, lizas iseTi Tvalebi aqvs, tanisamosiani giJi gegoneba, gioze gagiJebuli ki ara... ras gaugeb... - rogori Tvalebi aqvs? - didi, cisferi... - cisferi ara, is!.. - xma amioRo giom. - racaa, naxevari skola magis Tvalis ferze msjelobs. - magram amaod, - paTetikurad warmoTqva Cikvam da aCos karti daayrevina.

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uazro `gmiroba" dRes adre gameRviZa. saerTod, SuadRemde miyvars Zili. Tvalebi gavaxile, instinqturad marcxena xeli loginze movafaTure, mobilurs veZebdi, rom menaxa, romeli saaTia... vaa, ver vpoulob, sad davde, neta... Tavi avwie, gavixed-gamovixede, albaT, orwuTiani pauza gavakeTe da mowyvetiT davvardi uxeS loginze. ra telefoni, ris telefoni, cixeSi xar, idioto. - meoce! - daiyvira viRacam. - ocii! - ganmeorda. wamovjeqi sawolze, sigarets movukide, Tvalebi movifSvnite da Cavfiqrdi. magram fiqrs vin gaclis. derefanSi isev yvirilia: - meoce! oci! meoce! - gaRizianda viRac. ra nomeria Cemi kamera, neta?! avdeqi, kameris `glazokidan" wina kameris kars gavxede, `19" aweria. Rrma nafazi davartyi, tuCebi `glazokSi" movaTavse, gavabole da daviZaxe, meoces romeli eZaxda-meTqi. siCumea. - romeli xar? - boxi xma momesma cota Soridan. - gio var, Sen romeli xar? - vupasuxe cota uniaTod. - rava xar, gio? - mkiTxa. vicnob, neta, Tu vinaa? - magra, Zmao, Sen rogor xar? - gaveci pasuxi gakvirvebulma. - magrad, brat. axali xar? - xo, wuxel Semomiyvanes. - kai, brat, da CestiT ra kaci xar? masas ainteresebs. vinaa? ra unda? ra CestiT vin var?! gio var, erTi vakeli biWi. ra Cesti, ris Cesti? masa, anu xalxi? - gio var, meti ra giTxra, Cesti ar vici, - uxalisod vupasuxe. - kai, kai, brat, - momesma yrud da mere kai guliani sicili atyda. ise, unda mepasuxa, CestiT erTi tipiuri Tbiliseli, moqeife, laRi, usaqmuri, cota moZvelbiWo siri var-meTqi... egaa da eg Cemi Cesti. mere menaxa Cemi dacinva... sada var, raminda aq? - gikvirs, ara? - gaisma xma kameraSi. SevSfoTdi, aSkarad marto var kameraSi. - vin xar?

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- mec SensaviT mikvirs, gio, - isev xma. saidan ar vici. saswrafod tualetSi Sevvardi, wyali movuSvi, saxeze Sevisxi, sarkeSi Cems Tavs SeSinebuli vuyurebdi. - gamodi droze, gio, suni Segawuxebs! - isev xma. gamovardi SeSinebuli da dabneuli. - kai, momismine, - daviwye nerviulad, - saerTod sul mjeroda raRac sulebis da ucnaurobebis, magram cixeSi ra ginda, suli Tu xar. wadi, gafrindi, rame kargi naxe, aq ra ginda? icinis. ver mixvdebi, romeli kuTxidan ismis. TiTqos mTel kameraSi grialebs. - ra gacinebs? - gavRiziandi. - ee, gio, gio... wasvla SemeZlos, xom wavidodi. mara Sennair ugunurebs vin Seawevs erT-or sityvas! - isev xma. vaa, es sad movxvdi, jer Seni `Cestio", axla raRac suli ugunurs meZaxis. - momismine, azri ara aqvs axla gaocebas da panikas, mokled miTxari, sul aq unda iyo? - Tu ginda, gverdze kameraSi gadaval, magram mgoni damlaparakebeli gWirdeba. hm, damlaparakebeli ki minda, magram badragma Tu mkiTxa, vis elaparakebio... ra vupasuxo, - iciT aq sulia da unda erTiori sityva Semawios me ugunurs-Tqo? sigiJea! - ra gqvia, is mainc miTxari? - vkiTxe. - angelozi var. - ra unda angelozs cixeSi? - cota cinikurad momivida. - Sens dasaxmareblad var aq da Tu ginda, gavbrundebi. sxva ra gza maqvs, `19"-Tan laparaks isev amasTan jobia... - ara, ara, iyavi aq, damelaparake, - Tavi movaCvene, viTom davijere, rom angelozia. - gio, ratom dagemarTa aseTi rame? arada, araCveulebrivi biWi xar. skolaSi friadosani, ojaxSi mosiyvarule, guli keTili gaqvs da mamaci xar. imas ra damaviwyebs, SanrSan sanapiroze marto rom moseirnobdi daRvremili da gulnatkeni ninisTan daSorebis gamo, xma mogesma mtkvridan, Senxela biWi ixrCoboda, Sen ki, rom dainaxe, gadaxti wyalSi Sua zamTarSi da gadaarCine. gio, axla mainc gjera, rom Seni mfarveli angelozi var da sul Sens gverdiT viyavi? maSinac, mtkvarSi, siciveSi... gaocebisgan loginze Camovjeqi, vecade Tavi xelSi amey153

vana, magram ranairad? angelozi Sig cixeSi mewvia... Tan yvelafers marTals meubneba. ise, magra Semcivda im dRes mtkvarSi... - ar vici ra vTqva. damabnie Zalian. rogor mogmarTo, angelozo? - Cems xmaSi ukve cota SiSi igrZnoboda. - miqaeli mqvia, magram mTavarangelozi ar gegono, erTi ubralo RvTis msaxuri var da Seni piradi mcveli, - TiTqos vigrZeni, rom gaiRima. - gasagebia, - vTqi TiTqmis CurCuliT. - gio, ratom miatove RmerTi? - mkiTxa. banaluri kiTxvaa ara? - ar vici, - vupasaxe gulwrfelad. - RmerTi ar tovebs adamians, mTavaria, adamianma ar datovos RmerTi, gio. marTalia, - gavifiqre. - miqael, Zalian Sors Sevtope da axlaRa mivxvdi. - gio, eg aris Senxela biWebis problema, sadRac midian da hgoniaT, rom RmerTi ver xedavs. RmerTi giyurebda da TiToeul Sens nabijze guli stkioda, magram, samwuxarod, imdenad Sors waxvedi RvTisgan, rom ver gaiazre is, rom Tbilisis WaobSi iyavi moqceuli... - hm, RmerTo, ras moveswari, - gavifiqre. - ganagrZe, - vuTxari dainteresebulma. - ratom amxela agresia, gio, ratom? ra xiblia am quCur cxovrebasa da ZvelbiWobaSi? gio, mec Sennairi bavSvoba mqonda, SensaviT 24 saaTi quCaSi viyavi, vsvamdi, vCxubobdi, vcdilobdi, imisTvis mimeRwia, rom Tbilisis mTel Tineijerebs Cemze eTqvaT, Semsurlebeliao. vinc gzaze meRobeboda, yvelas umowyalod veqceodi, gogoebi Cemze ambobdnen, uvaJkacesia da daniT yavs daWrili naxevari Tbilisio. me es momwonda. gakvirvebuli davrCi kriminaluri warsulis mqone angeloziT. - da angelozi rogor xar, Tu egeT cxovrebas eweodi? mgoni logikurad vkiTxe. - mivxvdi, rom araferi eyara am saSinel WaobSi da erT dRes gadavwyvite, sxvanairad damewyo cxovreba. Tu rame problema meqmneboda, vcdilobdi, sityviT ise momegvarebina, rom aravin mewyeninebina. mivxvdi, rom quCur vnebas da romantizms

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xose ulamazo `Zalian nu daixarjebi, cxovrebaSi yvelaferi saukeTeso moulodnelad xdeba." gabriel garsia markesi warmoidgine, iseTi biWi xar, rom ityvian, aseTi uSno aravin dadis duniazeo. davuSvaT, xose gqvia da yvelas umtkiceb, nobelis premiis laureatis, kamilo xose selas pativsacemad damarqveso. sinamdvileSi ki babuaSenis frontis megobris saxeli giboZes, romelic tyved Cavardnila, mere sakoncentracio banakidan gamoqceula da tyeSi damaluli SiSisagan momkvdara: rom mipovon, mere raRa vqnao. realisti xar. bavSvobaSi wamiT ar gagivlia TavSi, rom Tovlis babua marTlac arsebobda. xvdebodi, rom iseTi saTno da keTili arseba, rogoric Tovlis babuaa, ar SeiZleboda aseTi Zunwi yofiliyo. Senda saubedurod, saxlSi bevri sarke gaqvs da xSirad icqirebi Sig. ici Seni Sesaxedaobis ambavi. erTi periodi ki fiqrobdi, qalebs lamazi mamakacebi ar moswonT, maT itaceben kacebi lamaz qalebTan erTado, magram mere mixvdi, rom arc es Teoria asxamda Sens wisqvilze wyals da Caweqi SlamSi TevziviT. arada, qali gesmis magrad. al paCinos gmiriviT surnelis mixedviT SegiZlia Tqva, ra feris kani, an Tma aqvs, magram dedamiwaze mcxovrebi qalebis 0,00001%-c ar ityvis Senze, xose mizidavso. jer policielobaze ocnebobdi, mere - mexanZreobaze, bolos fotografobaze. es ukanaskneli kargadac gamogdioda. Sen wina korpusSi mcxovrebi Savgvremani gogona mogwonda. ara, es zusti sityva araa, gagiJebda. ocnebobdi, misTvis suraTebi gadageRo. mere erTxel gaubede da TxovniT mixvedi. hoda, roca ukve mofurTxebas an rame amis msgavss elodi, Senda gasakvirad, Tanxmoba miiRe. saRamos saxlSi Tqvi, megobars mivyvebi qalaqgareT, Rame suraTebi unda gadaviRoTo. sinamdvileSi ki mTeli Ramis ganmavlobaSi im Savgvreman SiSvel kaxpas aqcevdi Seni fotokameris obieqtivSi. is gogo isedac Semcdenelad iyo movlenili dedamiwaze da Sen mTlad damRupvelad daxate. vaJiSvili iyavi da, roca gaixada, bunebrivia, Segiyvardeboda. im saxlidan

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dao. ase, ori Tve ar gaiparsavdi wvers, an uaresi - ar ibanavebdi. SeiZleba saxlSic Caketiliyavi (ise, Tu ar ibanavebdi, jobda, marTlac saxlSi Caketiliyavi). Cumad itirebdi, ifxizlebdi. mousmendi braian adamsis an meraia qeris simRerebs. Seni xasiaTze mosvla gazafxulis dadgomas daemTxveoda. gareT gamoxvidodi, gaiseirnebdi, megobrebs naxavdi. Tavs kvazis mdgomareobaSi warmoidgendi da, erTi xanoba, es gagitacebda kidec. mere mixvdebodi, rom Tavis wvaleba sisulelea da isev xose gaxdebodi. universitets daamTavrebdi da muSaobas daiwyebdi romelime iaffasian JurnalSi, romelic Sens qveyanaSi yviTeli presis TvalsaCino magaliTi iqneboda. gadaiRebdi uniWo Jurnalistebis uniWo respondentebis suraTebs. mere Seni mezobeli ukeTes samsaxurSi mogawyobda. dagawinaurebdnen da Seni samuSao mogewoneboda. gadaerTvebodi. xelfasi kargi geqneboda. male manqanas iyiddi. yvelaferi kargad wavidoda, magram erT dResac mixvidodi samsaxurSi da getyodnen, rom ukeTesi miiRes da Sen aRar sWirdebi. yvelaze gamaognebeli ki is iqneboda, rom Sens Semcvlelsac is Seni mezobeli moawyobda Sens adgilze, romelic manamde Sen dagexmara. mere ras izamdi? modi, gamovicnob: daiRale martoobiT da coloba sTxove Sens mezobels, romelic fizikuri `RirsebebiT" Zalian ggavda. roca winadadeba wauyene, gaicina da Tvalidan cremli gadmouvarda. Sen, albaT, ar itire. man xmis amoReba ver SeZlo - Tanxmoba Tavis moZraobiT ganiSna da Cagexuta. Tqvens jvrisweraze mxolod Zalian axlobeli adamianebi Seikribnen. jvriswerisas dedasa da bebias cremlebi gadmoscvivdaT. mama amayad idga da mxedruli sworeba eWira. ceremoniis Semdeg mSoblebma dagiZaxes da giTxres, rac daibade, SenTvis fuls vagrovebT da dadga dro, mogceTo. Sen mogerida da gaqvavebuli ideqi. mere muWi mamam TviTon gagaSlevina da fulis Sekvra Cagido. aq ki namdvilad itire. gadawyvite, sacxovreblad ucxoeTSi waxvide. Tan piradi nivTebi, maT Soris, is patara yuTi waiRe, loginis qveS rom inaxavdi. ukve ucxoeTSi xarT. colma, romelsac Zalian uyvarxar (nel-nela mixvdi, rom Senc yovelTvis gyvarebia), im SiSveli kax159

pis suraTebi aRmoaCina. Sen elodebi, rodis daiwyebs tirilsa da moTqmas imaze, rom unamuso da moRalate xar... mis dasamSvideblad da Tavis gasamarTlebladac emzadebi. coli ki ambobs, rom es idealuri suraTebia da aRtacebuli giyurebs. Sen gaxarebuli zixar savarZelSi da xvdebi, rom coli Zalian giyvars. meore dRes is erT-erT Zalian cnobil JurnalSi midis da Seni fotoebi miaqvs. amis Sesaxeb Sen araferi ici. mere im Jurnalidan mowveva modis - samuSaos gTavazoben. yovel diliT gasvlis win da mere saxlSi Semosvlisas cols kocni. gyavT Svilebi, romlebsac aRmerTebT. bavSvebi mSoblebs ar gvanan. saxelebic saguldagulod aqvT SerCeuli. im JurnalSi mTavar fotografad muSaob. da bednieri xar. gamovicani?

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monatreba Rame iwureboda. ramdenime saaTis win dasavleTis mTebs mofarebuli mze axla ukve aRmosavleTidan umzerda TeTr TovlSi gaxveul patara, myudro, SeRviZebul sofels. ise malviT abnevda sxivebs garSemo, TiTqos saukune gasuliyo, rac mSobliuri da kargad nacnobi mxare ar enaxa. umzerda da aSkarad esmoda civi, susxiani da mimofantul sxivebSi areuli qaris kivili. iqve, soflis bolos, uRonod Cakeciliyo misi saxli, TiTqos molodinisagan gadaRliliyo. ezo spetaki da ucodveli TeTri fifqebiT dafeniliyo, monatrebiT Sescqerodnen mzes, iseTi monatrebT, TiTqos undodaT, gulSi CaekraT TiToeuli sxivi da zed daufiqreblad Sekvdomodnen, oRond ki Sexebodnen. siRaribe sufevda. kacis xeli aklda saxls. uecrad kari gaiRo. daTovlil gzaze moxuci qali gamoCnda, dardisa da mwuxarebisgan welSi samad moxriliyo, saxe danaoWeboda. wamierad SeCerda da kaSkaSa, magram uZlur mzes Tvali Seavlo. raRac igrZno, Tumca... Tvalze gamSrali cremli moadga. cremlTa nakadma gza ver ipova da dadumda. mzes Tvali moaSora da Sors, TovlSi Caflul saydars gaxeda, RmerTs SehRaRada, pirjvari gadaiwera da gza ganagrZo... ...midis Cumad, martodmarto, doqiT xelSi. wyarosTan Sedga, welSi gaimarTa. is ki isev umzers da Tbili, magram jer kidev uZluri sxivebiT ealerseba. unda, axlos mivides, Caexutos da anugeSos, Tumca icis, rom es SeuZlebelia. `nu geSinia, deda, male davbrundebi Cems mSobliur miwa-wyalze", - butbutebda TavisTvis. tanSi sicivis Jruantelma dauara da aacaxcaxa. Zilisgan daRlili da miTenTili Tvalebi zantad gaaxila. irgvliv mxolod avtomanqanebis uwyveti da xalxis gaugebari xmauri ismoda. mze aRar iyo, nacrisfer Rrublebs STaenTqaT. win mxolod danisluli momavali moCanda... asadgomad wamoiwia, quCa dalanda. mixvda, rom isev sizmari naxa, sizmari dedaze, romelic ase daeCagra cxovrebis usamarTlo dinebas. gulSi raRac Caswyda. galurjebul muWaSi civma xurdam gaiCxriala...

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moCqares mougviandes sofeli. varskvlavebiT moWedili ca. ezoSi Wraqis SuqiT ganaTebul tablas ori Zma uzis da madianad Seeqceva Seukazmav lobios prasTan da wina dRis gamomcxvar mWadTan erTad. doqSi mezoblisgan nasesxebi Rvino asxia da Zmebi bednierad grZnoben Tavs. ramdenime sadRegrZelos Semdeg ufrosi Zma iwyebs saubars: - ra qeni, biWo, iSove qalaqSi fuli, qorwili rom gadaixado? Torem dadna madonia Seni molodiniT. - fuli ki viSove, magram sad moviyvano? am saxlSi Seni baRnebiT Zlivs etevi da me sad davwve Cems colTan erTad? - Tavidan `zalaSi~ dawvebiT, axla arc denia, arc gazi, xeli rom SegiSaloT televizoris yurebiT an abazanaSi SesvliT, wyalic ar modis da ratom SevalT?! - kargi, batono, ar movida deni, wyali, gazi, magram roca mova, mere sad wavideT me da Cemi madona? - mere? mere gamoCndeba rame, mivaSenoT am xuxulas erTi oTaxi garedan SenTvis, axla ar miTxra, riTio, didia sofeli, mogveSvelebian mezoblebi, naTesavebi da gavalT fons, apa, ase daqceulebi xom ar viqnebiT mTeli cxovreba? gamoswordeba es qveyana erT dRes da davubrunebT sikeTiT Cvenc yvelas, apa, rava iqneba?! - eh, qveyana rom gamoswordeba, manamde viyoT kargad me da Sen Seni angelinaTi da im xuTi angelozi baRanaTi. Zmebma xmamaRla gaicines, TiTo Wiqa gadakres da simRerac wamoiwyes. qorwilisaTvis mzadebaSi mTeli sofeli gverdiT daudga biWoia SvangiraZes, zogma goWi misca iafad, zogma qaTami, bostneuliT da xiliT gauvses beReli Zmebs, Rvinoc sakadrisi SeurCies. Seudgnen samzadiss ToneSi fiCxze danTebuli cecxliT. vin xaWapurs da mWads acxobda buxarSi, vin qaTmebs putavda, domentia goWs atrialebda Samfurze, xuta Rvinos asxamda doqebSi da cota-cotasac wrupavda, cdilobdnen moeswroT yvelaferi nefe-patarZlis mosvlamde. lamfebi moimarages, wyalic mezoblis Widan amoiRes, am oromtrialSi gaisma maxaroblis signalis xmac.

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- siZe-patarZali mobrZandeba! - iyvira ukve galeSilma buxutiam da erTi aTlitrianic miafSvna iqve. gulSeRonebulma da SeSinebulma `bednierebaSio!" qe iyvira, magram biWoias Zmam ise uceb waavlo qeCoSi xeli da ise uceb uTavaza panRuri, rom dafeTebuli buxutia haerSi mixvda, WinWrebSi rom vardeboda da farTxal-farTxalis Semdeg mainc moaxerxa fexze wamoxtoma da ezodan gavardna, imas aRar dardobda, Tu rogor aginebda biWoias maranSi darCenili Zma. atyda erTi aliaqoTi, yvela cdilobda pirvels mieloca nefe-patarZlisTvis gabedniereba. patara ZmiSvilic Caugores xelebSi sul ase gamravloTo, uTxres da sefaSi SeuZRvnen. didxans gagrZelda qorwili biWoias da madonias jinaze. aTi wlis Seyvarebulebs ganmartoeba undodaT, magram sanam yvelaferi ar SeWames da dalies, fexi ar moicvales stumrebma. rogorc iqna, morCa qorwili da biWoias rZali SeuZRva siZepatarZals zalaSi, sadac maT axali TeTreuliT gawyobili zambarebiani sawoli elodaT. siZe-patarZals sisxli auvarda TavSi, aT wels elodnen am dRes, anTebuli da aRgznebuli Sescqerodnen erTmaneTs da cali Tvali orives sawolisaken hqonda, romelsac biWoias rZali Slida. Cven movuvliT awi yvelaferso, Tavazianad uTxra biWoiam da xeliT aniSna rZals, dagvtoveo. - lamfas me waviReb, Svilebo, Tqven sibneleSi ufro gaugebT erTmaneTso, - Caiqirqila biWoias rZalma da kari gaixura. - Cakete kari, - CurCuliT uTxra madoniam. - vin Semova, genacvale, - uTxra boWoiam madonias da gulze miikra. erTi kocniT gamoxata aTi wlis monaTmeni. madoniam ki ukan daixia, - mTeli cxovreba win gvaqvs da nu aCqardebio, - magram ra gaaCerebda aRgznebul biWoias, eca da sawolze wamoaqcia. araferi axsovdaT erTmaneTis xvevna-kocnaSi nefededofals, arc xmauri gaugoniaT, arc "wyali movidao", biWoias ZmiSvili rom gahkioda. "zalaSi" tablebiT da laxankebiT SeiaraRebuli biWoias Zmis mTeli monagari Semocvivda wylis asaRebad da mosamarageblad, barem, sanam mezobeli qalebi aq arian, dResve davrecxavT WurWelso. erTi wveTi wylis dakargvac ar undodaT, awi rodis mova, vin iciso, da iyo erTi gawamawia. madonia awiTlebuli uRimoda mofusfuse brbos, verc ki

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amCnevdnen mas, ise swrafad garbi-gamorbodnen wylis asaRebad. ramdenimejer mwyralad Seigina biWoiam, magram ras izamda... nefe-dedoflis iRbalze wyali maleve Sewyda da yvela bodiSis moxdiT gavida gareT. Zlivs daawynara Sercxvenili madonia biWoiam. nela da nazad dauwyo fereba. - Cemo sicocxlev, wavsuliyaviT qalaqSi, agveRo erTi nomeri da wynarad viqnebodiTo, - uTxra biWoiam cols. gauRima da gaagrZela xvevna-kocna. uceb ganaTda iqauroba, dabneuli siZe-patarZali xmaurze da yvirilze mixvda, Suqi movidao. gaiRviZa sofelma da atyda `zalis~ karebze braxuni da yvirili, - biZia, seriali daiwyo da SemogviSvio! naxevrad SiSvelma da giJma biWoiam naZaladevi RimiliT gauRo karebi ZmisSvilebs da oTaxSi SeuZRva. facxa-fucxiT ikavebdnen bavSvebi televizoris win adgilebs. madonia ki elvis siswrafiT ikravda kavis Rilebs da Culqebs baliSis qveS malavda. yviriliT Semovarda biWoias Zma bavSvebis gasayrelad, - es ra qeniT Tqve urwmunoebo, ar acliT xalxs mosvenebaso, magram bavSvebi ise Caeflnen serialis yurebaSi, rom veRaravin mowyvetda maT teleekrans. ra uSavso. erTdroulad imeorebdnen SeSlili RimiliT SeuRlebulebi. madonia ki cdilobda logini gaesworebina. biWoiam gverdze gaiwvia Zma, romelic Zlivs mowyvita televizors da uTxra: wadi, buxutias uTxari, rom qalaqSi wagviyvanos, aviReb sastumroSi nomers da iq vicxovreb cota xanso. biWoias Zma darcxvenili wavida buxitiasTan. qalaqisaken mimavali biWoia didxans uyurebda gabrdRvialebul sofels da xmamaRla igineboda, axla ar qreba es Suqio. madonia Sescicinebda meuRles TvalebSi da fiqrobda, awi ra gveSvelebao. qalaqSi ise Zviri daufases biWoias nomeri, rom rac hqondaT, erTi Ramis gaTenebasac ki ar eyofoda. administratorma vagzlis sastumroSi gagzavna SeuRlebulebi. vagzlis sastumroSi Zlivs moaxerxes nomris aReba. Cabnelebuli derefani gaiares bebosTan erTad. - a, Tqveni oTaxio, - da SeuSva Seyvarebulebi erT patara oTaxSi. maTTvis oTaxis zoma ki ara, mTavari iyo es aTi wlis na164

grovebi grZnobebi gadmoefrqviaT. aq vinRa SeuSlida xels maT bednierebas. SvebiT amoisunTqes da miefernen erTmaneTs. maTi myudroeba raRac yvirilma daarRvia, rasac karebze braxuni mohyva. Sehkivla madoniam, - nu, Cemo siyvaruloo! biWoiam, - aqac xo ar masveneben es eSmakis fexis mkvnetelebio da kari sacvlis amaram gaaRo. gaRebuli ar hqonda boWoias kari, orma policielma rom gaskvanCa. - es kide aq moTreulao! - iyvires policielebma da panRuri uTavazes biWoias. biWoia Sarvals eZebda da Tan gahyviroda: ras merCiT, pirvelad var aqo! - Sen ki xar, SeiZleba, pirvelad, magram Seni kneina mexuTed mainc modis aqo. sanam rames ityodnen da Tavs gaimarTlebdnen, policielebi ukve derefanSi miaCanCalebdnen naxevrad SiSvlebs. manqanaSi, sadac isini Setenes, gogo-biWebis teva ar iyo. ris vai-vaglaxiT daxures kari da gauyenes gzas saqorwino mogzaurobaSi.

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werilebi ...roca Ramdeba, me yovelTvis raRac maSinebs, xolo dilas raRac mamSvidebs, ai es aris imis mizezi, rom gaoreba CemSi Tavs iCens. RamiT vfiqrob, rom damTavrda Cemi dro da gaTeneba aRar iqneba. diliT ki, mzis danaxvisas, SiSi miqreba da ucnauri simSvide mipyrobs. albaT Cacxreba bavSvuri vneba da mere mec laRad visunTqeb haers, Tumca axla me veRar vsunTqav da arc is vici, ra melis xvale. xandaxan raRac survilebi me suls mimusravs, da gasaqcevi gzis Zebnas viwyeb da sadac ki waval, msgavsi azrebi Tan damdevs... ...me yovel Rame vfiqrobdi cudze, cudze gardasul dReTa naSTidan, da yovel Rame maxsendeboda is siyvaruli wina Ramidan. aRar miyvarda mTvaris silurje, mxolod tkivili mekra bageze, magram yoveli gaxsenebisas, TiTqos iaras marils abnevdnen. ase gacvala susxma, qarebma kvamlSi da sunSi Cemi sikeTe da rac sikeTe gardaicvala, mas Semdeg ukve borots mizraxven. dRes damenavla da dameSrita ukanaskneli Zala cdunebis, vinRa macdunebs ukve nacdunebs, me xom, piriqiT, sxvasac vurCevdi... TovlSi Tu davflav Cems yofil grZnobebs, is ar gayinavs ise sastikad, rogorc qarebma, lurjma mTvarem, sul Tav-bolomde igi gayina. `kabis SrialSi fexis nabijebs vin gaigonebs,~ - ityodi Sen da mere brali mimtkicdeboda da gamarjveba xvda wilad imas, vinc usaTvalod imzireboda. axla me ukve vendobi arvis, da es ndobac ki ukve didia, imdenjer damces, rom wamodgoma arc SemiZlia da zedmetia. ra vqnaT, danebda yoveli saqme, Cven danebeba welSic gagvijda, me ki is vici, ardanebeba - mxolod da mxolod es aRar Rirda. me mewvis mxari da vewvi mxarsac, ukve daSlili mindorze vgdivar, aRar amkrifoT, ver avewyobi, `miwa viyav da viqeci miwad.~ ...maSin dReebi erTurTs ebrZodnen... keTilT undodaT Cveni gaTboba, magram sicive boroti ZaliT ganadgurebas Cvensas lamobda... im dRes iWeqa saocar ZaliT da CamouSva miwaze wyali, im dRes bunebam aRar dagvindo, ar dagvitova adgili

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mSrali da man ki miTxra, rom CemTan surda, magram wvimaSi ver movedio... albaT mizezebs rom igonebda, gonebasac ar hkiTxa rCeva. me ki vici, rom sikvdilis Semdeg momigoneben, rogorc maT undaT. am qveyanaze kargis daTesva ufro da ufro, ufro garTulda. Cvens arsebaSi icvleba raRac, ena xan gverCis, xan ara, magram bolomde... sanam varT erTad, erTmaneTs borots mainc vukeTebT da Cvens saqmeebs, esoden mxdalebs, Cveni Svilebi Tavad umzeren. mere ki viTxovT Svilebisagan wesierebas. roca magaliTs Tvalxilul vudebT, netav, vicodeT, mosamarTleno, rom karTan axlos arsebobs zRude... dReebi erTurTs isev ebrZvian, me ki sicives vebrZvi rogorRac, buxarTan vzivar, naxevrad mciva babuis naqon uxeS jorkosTan. ...ukve meoTxe werili aris... samjer gamkicxes, samjer Semaqes... ar momiwones me pesimizmi da pesimisti umal Semarqves. magram grZnobebis Tova raRaa, Tu ar davwere Cemi leqsebi. leqsi ar yviris, ubralod ambobs, rom Cven suyvela erTad vberdebiT... me vwer werilebs - uadresatod, magram xom unda sityvebs mizani? me vwer werilebs yofil siyvaruls, mas ki arasdros ar davWirdebi. me vwer dedaCems an kidev mamas, bebiasa da Cems ufros dasac, me vwer babuebs - ukve wasulebs, me vwer ubralod lamaz alublebs. ...ah, gaiRo martoobis kari, modiT CemTan, gulmxurvaled giwvevT. ar daxuroT gaRebuli kari, ar CauklaT arseboba imeds. modiT CemTan, visaubroT bevri, me ver moval, daviRale xvewniT, Tu ki ase gamamxnevebT risxviT, axla modiT, axla marTla gicdiT. aSrialebs qari Cem win fardebs, Tan fiqrebsac ugzoukvlod abnevs, gareT kidev galobs erTi Citi, me ki isev umowyalod gicdiT. gazafxulic mova albaT male da gaivlis zamTris civi xana, ra kargia, roca ici, viRac, roca viRac gelodeba sadRac...

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gakveTili mSoblebs (lesson N 1) Tqven xarT deda! Tqven yovelTvis axvedrebT sadils skolidan dabrunebul Svils. arasdros gaviwydebaT hkiTxoT, ra miiRo skolaSi, rogor iqceoda. ra Tqma unda! es xom dedis movaleobaa... yovel fexis nabijze SeniSvnasac aZlevT da arc imis Tqma gaviwydebaT, rom Tqveni megobris Svilebi ase ar iqcevian. Tqven Svils zrdiT! Tqven yovelTvis ekiTxebiT Svils, ra aqvs davalebad maTematikaSi, magram arc erTxel mogsvliaT TavSi azrad, geTqvaT: - dadeqi wvimaSi, mousmine, mere Semodi da rac gaigone, dawere... qari rom amovardeba, ar dagaviwydebaT kargad SeukraT qurTuki, qudi kisramde CamoafxatoT, kaSne wauWiroT da sirbiliT gaaqanoT saxlSi... ra Tqma unda! aba, xom SeiZleba gacivdes. samagierod, Tqveni Svili ver iswavlis frenas. Tqven arasdros gicdiaT qarSi gageCerebinaT Tqveni Svili da geTqvaT: - dee, daxuWe Tvalebi, nel-nela aswie xelebi... nela-nela, ras grZnob? da arc Tqvens Svils upasuxia odesme: - mivfrinav, deee! adamianebi ibadebian, mere didxans cxovroben da verc ki warmoudgeniaT, rom SeuZliaT gafrindnen. da es Tqveni bralia, mSoblebis! Tqven saguldagulod WedavT im CarCos, romelSic Tqveni Svili moaTavseT. yvela mxridan WedavT, rom veRarasdros gamoaRwios. samagierod, iseTi iqneba, rogoric gindaT, mezoblebi ityvian - deda, ra kargi Svili yavso! - samsaxuric eqneba, ojaxic... da Tqven bednieri iqnebiT... magram Tqveni Svili - ara! Tqveni Svili ar gamoiqceva saxlSi sixaruliT, rom gaxaroT, rogor mousmina qars da rogor dainaxa foTlebiT daxatuli

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naxatebi. is mova da getyviT, rom dRes xelfasi gauormages. Tqveni Svili ar gagaRviZebT diliT da ar SesZaxebs: - dee, naxe, rogori mze amovida! da ra Tqma unda, Tqvenc ver wamoxtebiT loginidan, ver gaixedavT fanjaraSi da ver upasuxebT: - naxe, ra wiTeli forToxaliviT gaeCxira mze xis totebSi... samagierod, Tqveni Svili dilauTenia perangis gauTovebas mogTxovT da Tqvenc siamayiT SexedavT halstuxian Tqvens Svils da gegonebaT, rom cxovreba auwyveT. yvelaze mTavari is aris, rom aRiarebis geSiniaT, Tqven arasdros uxdiT bodiSs Svilebs, arasdros eubnebiT, rom Tqven SecdiT... gauSviT, ra, iaron... mere Tqveni Svili Ripsac daidebs, halstuxs gaikeTebs, nabijic ufro mtkice eqneba... jibeSi fuli edeba! da Tqven CaTvliT, rom bednierad cxovrobT... samagierod, Tqveni Svili dakargavs yvelaze mTavars - grZnobebs da es iqneba Tqveni brali, radgan Tqven arasdros aZlevdiT siarulis saSualebas. ratom ver xvdebiT, rom Tqven verasdros agebT pasuxs verc Tqvens da, miT umetes, Tqveni Svilebis momavalze... amitom gauSviT... iaron... an Tqvenc maTTan erTad iareT. ratom ar gindaT gaigoT, rom cxovrebaSi mTavari ar aris ras ityvian emzoblebi, an rogori Svilebi hyavT Tqvens megobrebs. Tqven unda gixarodeT, rom Tqveni Svili cota mets grZnobs, vidre sxvebi. TqvenTvis ki es tragediaa! radgan Tqveni megobrebis Svilebs ar aqvT grZeli Tmebi, ar ukraven, arc daxeuli jinsebi da ketebi acviaT... samagierod, isini dilidan saRamomde mecadineoben (rom mere romelime bankSi daiwyon muSaoba, iqac dilidan sRamomde). Tqvenc egeTi Svili gindaT?! mzrunveli mSoblis rolSi SeiWeriT da ver xvdebiT, rom Tqvens Svils, romelic siaruls swavlobs, gamudmebiT win eRobebiT... hoda, erT dResac daiRleba da aRarasdros gaivlis... acadeT Tqvens Svilebs cxovreba, an Tqvenc icxovreT maTTan erTad. cxovrebaSi gacilebiT saintereso raRacebic arsebobs,

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vidre maTematikaSi miRebuli xuTiani, kargad dawerili karnaxi rusulad da an Tqveni megobris kulturuli Svilebi... Tqven arasdros gagiyvaniaT Tqveni Svili ezoSi da ar giCvenebiaT, rogor yvavis atami... samagierod, yovelTvis mogqondaT bazarSi nayidi atmiT savse CanTa, uTlidiT da aWmevdiT... Tqven yovelTvis geSinodaT, rom Tqveni Svili araswor gzas airCevda... samagierod, Tqven TviTon dagyavdaT im gziT, romelic verasdros miva bednierebamde... Tanac am gzas yvela mxridan jebirebs uSenebdiT, rom veRar SeZleboda gadaxveva. magram arc Tqveni bralia, Tqvenc ase gagzardes, Tqveni Svilebic ase gazrdian TavianT Svilebs. ase unda gagrZweldes dausruleblad? Znelia mSoblisTvis imis gaanalizeba, rom Svili ar aris misi sakuTreba... rom is maincdamainc ar unda Zerwo da ar unda misce iseTi forma, rogoric Sen ginda... nu cdilobT, ra, maT magivrad icqiroT... acadeT Tvalis gaxela. TvaldaxuWuli migyavT Tqven mier aSnebul gzaze da, ra Tqma unda, verasdros mousmenen qaris Srials, aTas rames rom yveba. verasdros dainaxaven mzes, romelic maTTvis anaTebs. nu cdilobT maT magivrad moisminoT, acadeT! acadeT, daZabon smena da, darwmunebuli var, isinic gaigeben. nu ggoniaT, rom Tqven yovelTvis marTali xarT... nurc imas ifiqrebT, rom sxvis Secdomebze swavla marTla SesaZlebelia... marTla ase rom iyos, maSin dRes aRaravin unda uSvebdes Secdomas... acadeT, SeeSaloT! da Tu, miuxedavad yvelafrisa, Tqveni Svili mainc bednierad grZnobs Tavs, maSin Tqveni mizani miRweulia... Tqvenma Svilma dakarga SesaZlebloba hqonoda frTebi... daxuWuli TvalebiT advilia siaruli, miT umetes, Tu gza ukve aSenebulia, magram gaxsovdeT, rom sirTuleebis gareSe bedniereba ar arsebobs, ase rom, arCevani isev da isev Tqvenzea, Zvirfaso mSoblebo, romlebsac ggoniaT, rom yvelaferi iciT!!!

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(dagxatav) SaviT TeTrze, anu cxovrebis wamzomi dagxatav ra... absolutur grZnobas davSli ferebad, cisartyelas ferebad, wiTlad, yveiTlad, mwvaned, lurjad, wiTlad, wiTlad, wiTlad da dagxatav. palitraze ferebi erTmaneTSi aiCexeba da mxolod wiTeli zolebi darCeba, zustad iseTi zolebi, Cems Tmas rom dahyvebian sisxlisfer Releebad, da me umowyalod dagxatav, Cemi sisxliT gamoviyvan Seni aramiwieri sunTqvis nakveTebs, dasvril xelebs loyebze Seviwmend da wiTlad atirebuli cis cxeli emociebiT dasvelebul gzebs gavuyvebi, Seval meTvramete nabijze Semxvedr barSi, sadac Cems amoCemebul magidasTan damxvdeba wiTeli forToxlis civi wveniT savse Wiqa, yinulebisa da sawrupis gareSe... gulis gamalebuli mousvenroba bzarebs gamiCens mkerdze, romelsac Savi korseti daakavebs da Cemi Savi, grZeli qvedabolo wiTeli wveTebiT daiwinwkleba... vitireb? albaT ki, movusmen Anja Garbarek-is "Her room"-s da kidev moviTxov wiTeli forToxlis wvens... gareT? gareT bevrni arian, usaSvelod bevrni, areuli, azelili erTnair, nacrisfer azrebSi, erTmaneTis CacmulobaSi, erTmaneTis gemovnebaSi, erTmaneTSi... me ki moviTxov sakuTari godolis agebas, raTa avide, bolomde avide, kosmosis vakuums mivawvdino Cemi grZeli, wiTeli Tma da gavskde wiTeli cremlebis gacemiT, moviTxovo siyvarulis kanonebi, SaviT TeTrze dawerili kanonebi, romlebic ar arsebobs... ui, ici? sikvdili gvaaxloebs siyvarulTan, romelic srul disonanss qmnis sulsa da cnobierebaSi. Cven veZebT, valagebT, vaxarisxebT, viviwyebT, vimaxsovrebT, gvciva, gvcxela, gveSinia, gvixaria, vtiriT, viciniT, vnerviulobT, vdardobT, veweviT, vsvamT, vsunTqavT, visunTqavT, musikas vusmenT, vukravT, vqmniT, vangrevT, vafuWebT, valamazebT, vgrZnobT, vxatavT, vxatavT, wiTliT Savze vxatavT, absoluturi emociebiT cxovrebas vcdilobT, absoluturi grZnobiT, siyvaruliT

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cxovrebas... gamodis? iSviaTad, imitom rom gveSinia, gveSinia erTmaneTSi areulobisa da vcdilobT, maT sinacrisfres SeverioT, vicxovroT `namdvili" kanonebiT, SaviT TeTrze dawerili kanonebiT, kodeqsebiT, muxlebiT, TavebiT, qveTavebiT, SeniSvnebiT, mcnebebiT, - avdgeT rvaze, visauzmoT, sayvarel adamians wlobiT naswavli RimiliT SevaxsenoT, rom gvaxsovs maTi arsebobis Sesaxeb, wavideT samsaxurSi, gavakeToT SaviT TeTrze dawerili saqme, daviRaloT, TanamSromlebi msubuqad gavWoroT, ufross mliqvneluri, wlobiT namecadinebi Rimili SevageboT, an aqeT Semogvagebon, imitom, rom mdivani gvyavs, romelic yavas gviduRebs, tradiciulad sul telefonzea Camokiduli da Worebis Tanaxmad, xandaxan minetsac akeTebs, imitom rom sakuTar ofisebSi vsxedvarT da, albaT, kidev ufro imitom, rom Cven varT `ufrosebi". mere saxlebSi dabrunebulebma meore naxevrebs dilandeli, cota daRlilobaSereuli Rimili mivawodoT, Sxapi miviRoT, vivaxSmoT, televizors vuyuroT, Tu gagvimarTla da, manamde ar CagveZina, wamaxalisebeli seqsiT davkavdeT, imitom, rom es kanonia, viRac gamo...vebuli dogmatebis mier dadgenili, rvaze ki isev gasaocari sizustiT darekavs maRviZara... da rodesac erT dilas Sua sinacrisfreSi davinaxavT adamians wiTeli TmebiT, romelsac xelSi palitra uWiravs da cdilobs, nacars wiTeli Seurios, avforiaqdebiT, SegveSindeba, myisve gadavSliT SaviT TeTrze dabeWdilebs, gadavaTvalierebT telearxebs, amovqeqavT arqivebs im kanonis ZebnaSi, romelsac siyvaruli da Tavisufleba hqvia, romelic quCaSi fexSiSvela dgas da xatavs, romelic ofisSi Semogviseirnebs da dilas daleul wiTeli forToxlis wvens ori TiTis daxmarebiT mSvidad gadagvirwyevs kanonebze, romelic gasaocari sizustiT dalagebul cxovrebas srul qaosad gviqcevs, da romlisac, ubralod, SegveSindeba, imitom, rom CarCoebSi vsxedvarT, patara CarCoebSi, zomiT sami oTxze, romelic piradobis SaviT TeTrze dabeWdil mowmobebSi gvikidia, pasportebSi, saqmian qaRaldebSi, romlebzec Cveni `Rirsebaa" damokidebuli, Cvendami erTmaneTSi azelilobis azrebia damokidebuli, qaRaldebzea damokidebuli, romlebsac erTi wiTeli naperwkali eyofa

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nacrad qcevisaTvis. kanonebs, bunebrivia, versad vpoulobT da iwyeba masobrivi ajanyeba, yvelani uecrad da SeTanxmebulad ...ze vikidebT Cvens `patiosnebasa" da `Rirsebas", RvTis, eris, rjulis, Rirsebis, patiosnebis, moralis, SaviT TeTrze dawerilebis, enis, mamulisa da sarwmunoebis saxeliT nacars vayriT am siwiTles da vcdilobT gaveqceT imas, rac qvecnobierad yvelas Zalian gvinda, ubralod, qaRaldebi gviSlis xels, qaRaldebi da erTmaneTi... dagxatav, ra... ara, me ar mwyins, rom gezizRebi, me xom SaviT TeTrze ar vwerivar, me xom qaRaldi ar var... vici, imisaTvis, rom giyvarde, `kanonebi" unda daarRvio, rac, minimum, Sens biZaSvilebs Zalian ewyinebaT, arada, me xom ubralod miyvarxar, me xom ubralod minda Tavisufali iyo... ici ra? modi, viTamaSoT! Sen kapitani iyavi gemis, me gemi. Cemi kapitani iyavi... Soreul naosnobaSi wavideT, davirqvaT okeaneSi dakargulebi da davikargoT... mere Stormi wagvlekavs, me saxeldaxelod awyobil tivad viqcevi da mxolod Sen gadagarCen, vicureb Tavdauzogavad, ukacriel kunZulze gagriyav da daRlili mivesvenebi svel da qvian napirs, Sen tyisken wamaTrev da mzian adgilas damdeb gasaSrobad. saRamo xans Segcivdeba, daanTeb cecxls da SeSad Cems gadaRlil sxeuls ixmar da me gagaTbob ukanasknelad, meyvarebi ukanaskneli namwvis Caqrobamde... mere mova sxva gemi... me ki davrCebi kunZulze nacrad qceul Sav laqad, romelsac drois ganmavlobaSi wvima gadamrecxavs, wvimisas gaCenil patara Releebs okeaneSi Cavyvebi da okeaned viqcevi, Cems gulSi iqnebiT Sen da gemi. mere isev Stormi, magram saxeldaxelod awyobili tivi gimtyunebs da Sen isev CemTan dabrundebi... TamaSi dasrulebulia, Cven okeane varT... ici? saaTi! uyureb saaTs, romelic wamebs iTvlis da, albaT, zizRsac moggvrida, fiqris dro rom gqondes, Sen xom SeiZleba xval ise

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gaqre, rom verc veravin gaigos, rom odesRac arsebobdi, Seni `RirsebebiT" gatenili qaRaldebi muyaos yuTSi Calagdeba da Taroze Semoideba, suraTs - sami oTxze - damkrZalavi biuros gverdiT arsebul kompiuteruli momsaxurebis ofisSi daaskanereben, gaadideben da qvaze amotvifraven, gaadideben, Sav CarCoSi Casvamen da sastumro oTaxis yvelaze TvalSisacemi kedlis SuagulSi Camokideben, xandaxan sanTels aanTeben, Senze an kargs ityvian, an arafers, yovel Sens dabadebis dRes, wlisTavze, aRdgomasa da micvalebulebis moxseniebis dRes sasaflaoze amogivlian, Rvinos daRvrian iq, sadac, savaraudod, Seni kubo unda iyos Cafluli, miuxedavad imisa, rom Rvino arasodes giyvarda da mTeli cxovreba `koka-kolas" svamdi, magram es yvelaferi xom kanonia, romlisganac gaqceva saSiSia, imitom rom mere Seni SeeSindebaT... me ki dagxatav... Sen ki ar dagagviandes samsaxurSi, wamzomi xom umkacresi sizustiT muSaobs! xo, da iqidan gamosuls qamris Sekvra ar dagaviwydes, Wori oxeria, qaRaldebSi Caweril `Rirsebebs" gaufrTxildi, me ki, ubralod, imitom miyvarxar, rom siyvarulis kanonebi ar arsebobs, magram ar meSinia... `adamiani Tavisi cxovrebis jvarzea gakruli, dabla daxrili Tavi daCxvletili aqvs sakuTari azrebis eklebiT." © pol valeri

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kata wvimaSi saxlSi ufunqciod CarTuli televizori... carieli Wiqebi... uamravi furceli... sigaretis namwvebiT savse saferfle... kidev erTi sigareti nicas akankalebul xelSi da magidaze dayrili daputuli gvirilebi... - ukve mecamete Reria... is ki ar rekavs... ara, aRar darekavs, ara... maram ase ver moiqceva... Zalian vuyvarvar imisTvis, rom ar darekos. magram mainc rom ar darekos?!. - nica, vaxSami mzad aris, gamodi! - ar mcalia, deda, xom giTxari! moTxrobas vwer, Sen kidev xels miSli! - me mets aRar dagiZaxeb, rac ginda, is qeni! - deda... de... de... - ra ginda?! - rogor fiqrob, darekavs? - vin? - magas ra mniSvneloba aqvs. marto is miTxari, darekavs, Tu ara. - mag moTxrobebma sul gagagiJes! Tu ginda tragikuli gamogivides, maSin ar unda darekos! - anu ar darekavs... me kide sul ar minda tragikuli istoria... - maSin darekos! - egre advilad ar aris yvelaferi, rogorc Sen ggonia! - nica, Tavi damanebe! - de, de, de, da Sen mainc rogor fiqrob, darekavs, Tu ara? patara quCaze foTlebi iwvis... civa... noemberia... naxmari Spricebi yria kuTxeSi... foTlebSi gaxveuli sigaretis namwvebi... kidev erTi sigareti nikuSas akankalebul xelSi... da ucnobis xelSi CakuWuli fuli... - amaze metis Sovna ver movaxerxe or saaTSi. ha! - ramdenia? - 600$ oRond droze momeci, magviandeba... danarCens mere gamovatan kokiCas. - eqvsi zaxodia. ori dRe imyofineT Sen da kokiCam.

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xuTSabaTs axali partia Camomiva. magrad... - spasiba, brat! - icode, Zalian Zlieria, bevri ar miqaroT! dilis eqvsi saaTi... saxlSi ufunqciod CarTuli televizori... carieli Wiqebi... uamravi furceli... Zirs dayrili sigaretis namwvebi... da savarZelSi mokuntuli, gayinuli nica... dilis eqvsi saaTi... patara quCaze Camwvari foTlebi... foTlebSi gaxveuli sigaretis namwvebi... im dRes meezovem kidev erTi Sprici Caagdo nagvis yuTSi da kidev erTi varskvlavi mowyda cas.

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*** ra aris cxovreba, to... zogierTisTvis cxovreba aris dro, romelic adamians sicocxliT dasatkbobad eZleva... CemTvis ki cxovreba naRdad araferia... erTxel mkiTxes: risTvis ibadeba adamianio? RimiliT vupasuxe: imisTvis, rom mokvdesmeTqi. rodesac kiTxva Sevubrune, mipasuxa: imisTvis, rom bednierad icxovroso. ai, piradad me ki imisTvis davibade, rom movkvde, magram sanam movkvdebi, minda, raRac iseTi gavakeTo, rom Cems cxovrebas azri mieces da amis mere SevZleb mSvidad sikvdils... dilidanve zaris xmam gamaRviZa. cvetSi leqsoa-meTqi, gavifiqre. yovel diliT eg maRviZebs, mere, tradiciulad, Tbili loginidan gamoZroma, telefonTan misvla da im Cemisas xma: ezoSi Camodio. mere, gabrazebulze, leqsos kargebs gavixseneb xolme da tualetSi gavdivar kbilebis gamosaxexad. sarkidan fermkrTali roJa miyurebs namZinarevi sifaTiT da aCeCili TmebiT, damcinavad iyureba. xo, sakmaod cinikosi roJa var, rac albaT cudi Cvevaa, magram ra vqna, egeTi var da ver Sevicvlebi... ezoSi Casuls leqso Semxvda da baRisken davaweqiT. es baRi, imena, Cveni saxlia, imdeni dro saxlSi ar maqvs gatarebuli, rac im baRSi. davsxediT, sigarets wavukideT da bura movcxeT egreve... dilidan buras vyomarobT, uRimRamo, dedaafeTqebuli dilaa, rasac ver vitan ra... yvelafris muRami mekargeba, Tan buraSic vageb da nervebi mewiwkneba. am dros biWebic gaeZrnen, problemebiao, srazu maxares. egRa maklda. viRacas exipiSe kide. Tan saqme seriozulad yofila, gasaxvretebi gvyolia viRac vakelebi. vakelebi isedac magra ar mevaseba. viTom Zaan Zerski roJebi da rame. vakeSi rom viCiTebi, sul imas vRiRineb: `vake-vera didia-meTqi". erTxelac magars gamigdeben magis gamo, magram egec magari mkidia kide. itogSi, es vakelebi unda vnaxoT eqvsisTvis neitralze. xoda, biWebma, - egreve davuSvaTo. xoda, meTqi, davuSvaT, magaTi dedebic! Cemi ra midis, gasaxvreti unda gaixvritos, ra... mere saxlisken davaweqiT. wamovweqi da vfiqrob, viRac

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roJebi unda gavxvrito, magram magaric mkidia. Cemi problemebic do xuia maqvs, axla kide magaTze idarde... risTvis cocxlobs adamiani? gavWede dRes am kiTxvaze. sul magaze vfiqrobdi, imena. erTma roJam Tqva: `sicocxle patara periodia or sikvdils Soriso". isev sikvdili... magari mainteresebs eg sikvdili ra pontia, to. imitom rom ibridebi, raRac axali da gansxvavebuli iwyeba da swored mag axlis muRami maq, to... mombezrda es erTferovani cxovreba da axali raRac minda... isev zari... isev leqso Tavis kargebianad... gavedi ubanSi, biWebi dganan, yvelani raRac pontSi nerviuloben. me kide magaric maxatia, egeTi roJa var, ra... erTxel miTxres, Sennairi cinikosi da ugulo roJa arc unda dabadebuliyo, siyvaruli Sen ar SegiZlia da sastiki xaro. ra unda meTqva, to? meTqi, Tu cvetSi egeTi var, saRol me-meTqi. xeli Caiqnia da wavida. itogSi, biWebma gavaWeriT, rkinebi aviReT da mivdivarT. magari raRacaa rkina, giWiravs da yvelaferi Seni ggonia, Sen xar yvelaze magari, im pontSi, ro erTi TiTis gamokvriT SegiZlia adamians yvelaze Zvirfasi waarTva. itogSi, davinaxeT is roJebi, mivuaxlovdiT da ar dagviSves, to? sanam azrze movediT, erTi raJoki dagvacales, xoda, meTqi, amaT dedebsac... da mivuSvi mec da, itogSi, vxedav, biWebi Zirs yrian, sisxlSi curaven, to, da me da leqsoRa varT fexze, xoda, meTqi, amaT dedebsac... da bolo cxra gramic davwvi da vxedav, viRac roJa leqsos umiznebs, to, da meTqi, bequS, dadga momenti, to, es yofila Seni sicocxlis azri da axla SegiZlia wynarad mokvde, da gadavefare Cems Zmas, to. tkivils ver vgrZnobdi, prosto mixaria, rom tyuila ar micxovria am dedaafeTqebul planetaze da sadRac Tbil loginSi uazrod ar vkvdebi, to. Zmakacis mklavebSi rom vkvdebi, eg mixaria, to, im Zmakacis, romelic imaves izamda CemTvis im momentSi... maxsendeba erTxel rom miTxres: bequS, imisTvis icxovre, rom gaakeTo raRac magario, - da Sevasrule, to... da mSvidad vkvdebi. da isev zaris xma mafxizlebs... da isev leqsos kargebs vixseneb...

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`rad ar meSleba es sxeuli esreT magari? rad ar gadneba da cis namad rad ar iqceva! an Semoqmedi Tavis mokvlas raRatom gviSlis? o, RmerTo, RmerTo! ra amaod davfusfusebT codvil miwaze." uiliam Seqspiri

`maSin, rodesac yvelas sjeroda, rom sabolood daaRwies Tavi saSinel mutantebs, giganturi monstri-mwerebi kvlav dabrundnen da axali Seteva wamoiwyes adamianebze." mcirebiujetiani filmis mokle aRwera erT-erT kinosaitze - steg, gciva? - arc ise. - me mciva, steg. - cudia. - raze fiqrob, steg? - araferze. - ho, mec araferze, ai, mciva marto. - marTla araferze fiqrob? - ai, ise rogorc Sen. - me vfiqrob. - raze, steg? pauza. - araferze. stegi Cemken modis. didi vardisferi Tvalebi aqvs. iRimeba. albaT, raRac axali aRmoaCina. ai, magaliTad, guSin aRmoaCina, rom meoTxe Tvali amosdis, danarCen sam did vardisfer TvalTan muwukiviT rom mouCans. stegi yovelTvis ambobs, rom aravin icis xval rogorebi viqnebiT. adre ar mjeroda misi. axla ukve mjera. is Cemze bevrad didia da meti icis. adrec unda damejerebina. albaT. stegma raRac icis da me ar meubneba. vgrZnob

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amas, raRacnairad vgrZnob. me araferi maxsovs. Zalian bevri kiTxva mawuxebs, magram stegi yvelafers ar meubneba. ise, mgoni, arc man icis yvelaferi. ai, axlac, Cemken modis. didi vardisferi Tvalebi aqvs. saerTod Zalian cotas laparakobs. rame Tu ar vkiTxe, TviTon arafers ityvis. mec davujdebi xolme da Tavs vabezreb. arasodes brazobs. Tumca, xandaxan aRarafers mpasuxobs da ase Cumad aSterdeba TeTr kedlebs. ho, ra gamaxsenda, erTxel, roca swored ase, Cemgan gabezrebulma sivrceSi daiwyo yureba, mec CavaSterdi misi mzeris mizans, is ki momitrialda da mekiTxeba: - iedai, ici ra aris TeTri kedlebis miRma? - `TeTri kedlebis miRma" ras niSnavs, steg? ra unda iyos. arc araferi. - ho, araferi. sworia, -Tqva da isev gaiRima. es SemTxveva kargad damamaxsovrda. maSin pirvelad SemeSinda misi. ise ki, stegi Zalian keTilia. Zalian lamazi zRaprebi icis. sul miyveboda xolme Zilis win. mere Cvevad SemorCa da axlac miyveba xolme, raRacnair arsebebze miyveba, stegi maT `adamianebs" eZaxis. is ambobs, rom isini yvelani erTmaneTs hgvanan. ucnauria. stegi miaxlovdeba. isev iRimis. cisfer siTxes maZlevs da TviTon iqve axlos jdeba. momwyinda am sazizRrobis daleva. adre megona, rom es mxolod droebiTi iyo. mere stegma TandaTan SemaCvia im azrs, rom sul unda vsva es raRac. jerac ver mivxvdi, saidan moaqvs es lurji siTxe, an sad poulobs xolme saWmels, Tumca stegma icis da me aRar vekiTxebi ukve. erTxel vkiTxe da gaugebrad mipasuxa, sxvebs moaqvTo, magram roca CaveZie, rogor Tu sxvebs-meTqi, araferi miTxra da gaiRima isev. man ukeT icis. - iedai, bolomde dalie. - ugemuria. - da aucilebeli. - ratom? - rom icocxlo. - da Tu ar davlev? - unda dalio. - Sen ratom ar svam xolme? - vsvam.

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- me erTxelac ar daminaxavs, rom es siTxe dagelios. - mere ra. - mere is, rom ugemuria. - iedai! - fuuu! - ai, xom xedav, ra ioli dasacleli yofila. - eg SenTvisaa ioli, CemTvis saSinelebaa. - kargi ra, iedai, sul araferia. - araferi, ara? - ho, araferi. - maSin aRar davlev. - Zilamde nu dalev. - arc mere davlev. - ratom? - ugemuria. - da aucilebeli. - Tan araferi, Tan aucilebeli? - Tan araferi, Tan aucilebeli. am bolo dros stegi Zalian Seicvala. kidev ufro cotas laparakobs. stegs Zalian didi piri aqvs, TiTqmis yurebamde, da roca laparakobs, yurebi cotaTi uTamaSebs, vexumrebodi xolme amaze da isic ki vifiqre, es xom ar ewyina da imitom xom ar dadis sul Cumad-meTqi, magram, mgoni, es ar unda iyos mizezi. yovel SemTxvevaSi, es rom swyenoda, albaT, metyoda. mxolod lurji siTxis dalevis dros melaparakeba. am dros stegi gansakuTrebiT aqtiuria, TiTqos unda STamagonos, rom es ugemuri raRac CemTvis aucilebelia. sisulelea da meti araferi. Tumca, stegma ukeT icis. am bolo dros Zalian Seicvala. Cven garSemo sul TeTri kedlebia, TeTri kedlebi yvelgan da maT miRmac TeTri kedlebi. magram raRacnairadaa dayofili, TeTri kedlis miRma TeTr kedelTan rom aRmoCnde, TeTri derefani unda gaiaro da sul aseTi gasasvlel-gamosasvlelebiTaa dayofili erTmaneTisgan, Tumca, araferi ganasxvavebs. yvelgan TeTri kedlebi. stegs Tavisi oTaxi aqvs. Cemi oTaxidan masTan mosaxvedrad mxolod erT TeTr kedels unda auqcio gverdi. nacrisferi sawoliviT raRac udgas mxolod, sawolsac ver davarqmev, magram stegs Zalian uyvars. erTxel SevamCnie, rogor

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SeZvra mis qveS da TiTqos iq raRacas akeTebda, magram me rom daminaxa, araferi SeimCnia da ukanve gamoZvra. ara, stegi Zalian Seicvala. Cems oTaxSi Savi sawoli dgas da kidev ori Savi skami. skamebi stegma maCuqa, Tumca, ar vici, saidan moitana. stegs raRacnairi unari aqvs, ararsebul sagnebs da nivTebs aCens xolme moulodnelad. stegis oTaxis gverdiT kidevaa patara TeTri Sesasvleli da iqac TeTri kedlebia. stegi sul CamCiCinebs, rom im adgils ar mivekaro. ar vici, ratom, magram stegma icis. man ukeT icis, magram am bolo dros Zalian Seicvala. - iedai, aq modi. - ra moxda? stegs ukve SesamCnevad wamoezarda meoTxe Tvali. TiTqmis danarCenebiviT didia. axla zustad axal Tvals maSterebs da makvirdeba. - iedai, Sen Tavs atyob rames? - anu? - rame cvlilebas atyob? - ar vici, ras? - verafers amCnev? - verafers. - iedai, Sens mxrebs Sexede. - steg, xom ici, rom ver vxedav Cems mxrebs. - ho, mapatie. - ra gapatio? - ara, araferi, ise. iedai, mgoni xelebi gamogdis. - ra? - xelebi! - anu SensaviT, ai, Sen rom gaqvs, egre? - ho, verafers grZnob? Sen, iedai, Sen yvelaze metad hgavxar adamians. - vis? - adamianebs. me giyvebodi xolme maTze. - aa, ho, - meRimeba, - riTi? - ai, xelebi Tu gamogiva, mere erTi Tvalic da Sen... - ra? adamians davemsgavsebi? steg, isini xom zRaprebSi arian. - da ara mxolod.

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- ar vici. ubralod, ar vici. - iedai, ici, aq ra weria? - `weria" - anu? - anu, aq me raRac sityvebi amovkawre. - marTla? - ho, gainteresebs? - Zalian. - ai, aq naxevar kedelze weria: `mutanti". - es ras niSnavs? - es Cveni saerTo saxelia, iedai. - anu? - ai, gaxsovs miTiuri arsebebi, adamianebi. - ho, zRapridan. - maT xom hqviaT saerTo saxeli? Cvenc gvqvia. - anu, me mutanti var. da Senc. - daaxloebiT. - magaria. - ara. - ratom? - adamianebTan ufro sainteresoa. - ra ici? - me vyofilvar maTTan. adre. - steg, bodav? - ara. kargi, araferi, daiZine, iedai. - ... - ise, ubralod vTqvi. - kargi, steg, Sen ukeT ici. - ho. Cem win lurji siTxe dgas. unda davlio. vuyureb. vaSterdebi. ai, zustad ise, rogorc stegi akvirdeba xolme TeTr kedlebs. oRond me lurj siTxes vuyureb, ugemurs da saSinels. ra iqneba, erTxelac movides stegi da miTxras, rom amis daleva aRaraa saWiro. ucnauri siTxea. ZirSi ufro muqia, zedapirze SedarebiT baci. netav stegsac aseTi ugemuri eCveneba? iqneb, mas uyvars kidec da mec imitom maZalebs, hgonia, rom sasargebloa da aucilebeli. SeiZleba. stegi Tavis oTaxSi wevs. ufro sworad, iwva, sanam am lurj siTxes momitanda. mere misi oTaxi184

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ar vici. ar vici. saerTod ver vxvdebi, ra xdeba. - steg, es ra aris? - gavediT! gavediT. gavediT... - steg! - me es SevZeli, SenTvis mainc. - steg! stegi TandaTan icvleba. raRac mosdis. ar vici, ra mosdis. iyineba. dneba. iSleba. ar vici. - steg! - iedai. es dedamiwaa. Cveni laboratoriis miRma samyaro. aq Sennairebi cxovroben. iseTebi, rogoric Sen unda gaxde. - steg! - ai, aq, me giyvebodi. ai, amaze. aqeT. es adamianebi... aq adamianebi... - stegi nawyvet-nawyvet ambobs gaugebar frazebs, aq adamianebi arian. gaxsovs adamianebi? - steg!! - ho, ho, adamianebi, Senc, ai, xedav, iedai? xelebi ukve gamogdis, Tvalic. Tvalic da adamiani xar. namdvilad adamiani. - ... - laboratoria daingreva. isini Zebnas dagviwyeben. Sen unda gaiqce. gaiqce. gaiqce. - sad, steg? sad? ra xdeba? Sen? - me damtove aq da dagewevi. Sen unda gaiqce, iedai. araferi mesmis. magram stegma Cemze bevri icis. garSemo gaugebari garemoa. ar vici, es ra aris. stegma icis, albaT, stegma ukeT icis da me mjera misi, me mjera stegis. mivdivar. mivdivar. mivdivar. unda gaviqce. stegi ukan wevs. me mivdivar. stegs jer kidev vxedav. mivdivar, zurgs vaqcev xan stegs, xan iqiT sivrces. - iedai! iedai! stegi TiTqmis ganaxevrebulia. meZaxis. - steg! - iedai, dRes xom dalie lurji siTxe? - siTxe? - xom dalie, iedai? - steg! - dalie? - ...

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- iedaiii! - ara, steg. - iedai! - ar damilevia, steg. - ara? stegi icinis, aseT dros yurebi uTamaSebs xolme, magram ara axla. icinis. xmamaRla icinis. - steg! - ar dagilevia, ara? stegi isev icinis. ara, steg. ra iyo? ukve Soridan veZaxi. misi xma Znelad aRwevs Cemamde. - araferi, iedai, araferi, ise. ise gkiTxe. gaiqeci, gaiqeci, an rogorc ginda. - steg! steeeeeeeeg! stegi aRar Cans. gavrbivar.

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ambavi pirveli mtredebian kacs zRvasaviT lurji da mRelvare Tvalebi hqonda, galiaSi mtredebi gamoemwyvdia da dila-saRamos mindvrad uSvebda. me megobari myavda - zambarebiani biWi, Tavze zambarebiviT amosvloda Tma, yovel diliT aivanze gamodgeboda da Tvals ar acilebda mteredebian kacs. zambarebiani miWi mindorSi ijda mwuxrisas da cas uyurebda, mteredebiani kaci mtredebs apurebda, misi Tvalebis zRvebze Toliebi isxdnen. mindorSi erTi xe idga, martodmarto da mowyenili. zambarebianma biWma xeze yvavilebis saxrCobela gaakeTa. mteredebianma kacma diliT, roca mtredebi mindvrad gamoiyvana, zambarebiani biWi dainaxa. xeze ijda da fexebs aqanvebda. Tavi yvavavilebis gvirgvinSi - yulfSi gaeyo da fiqrobda: ,,ca ra lamaziao!" mtredebianma kacmac gaakeTa yvavilebis saxrCobela. mtredebi galiidan gamouSva da zambarebiani biWis gverdiT Camojda. Tavze yvavilebis gvirgvini - yulfi Camoicva. zambarebiani biWi da mtredebiani kaci fiqrobdnen: ,,ca rogori lamaziao!" mere xidan Camoxtnen, mtredebma moifrines mindori, mze mindvris Suaguls gasworeboda, mtredebi dabrundnen galiaSi... mindorSi erTi xe idga, ori gaxevebuli sxeuliT yvavilebis saxrCobelaze. zambarebian biWs saxeze Rimili hqonda SerCenili da sio arxevda. mtredebiani kacic odnav irxeoda, misi Tvalebi aRar Relavdnen. me videqi martodmarto da mowyenili mindorSi. Tavze yavavilebis gvirgvini mexura, vfiqrobdi: ca rogori lamazia miwidan!!!

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ambavi meore joxebiani biWi da gazafxulisferi gogo joxebian biWs rZesaviT Rimili hqonda, tkbili bagedan gadmoRvrili, Tma - TavTuxisferi da puris RerosaviT swori. erT mwuxrsac ijda da fiqrobda mis gazafxulSi mcxovreb joxebian gogonaze, romelic samyaros formis saxlSi cxovrobda da yovel mis Rimils WerSi Rrubelze inaxavda. saRamoobiT mindvrad seirnobda, biWs ki TmaSi nakvalevi rCeboda, tuCebze finjnebi ekrobodnen, gogona Cais misi bagiT atkbobda. gogona trialebda da biWs Tavbru esxmoda, gogona wvimaSi moyva da biWi dasvelda. gogona seirnobda da biWi daiRala. joxebianma biWma gadawyvita, moepara yvela Tavisi Rimili gogonas Rrublebidan da gadaeRvara Tavisi bagiT damtkbari Cai. gogona mindorSi iyo yvavilebisTvis... mze cis Suaguls Camoscdenoda. joxebianma biWma moipara yvela Tavisi Rimili Rrublebidan da gogonas mindorSi ca moiRrubla. gogona saxlisaken gaiqca. biWma Zvel Tunuqis Caidans xeli mokida da samyaros fanjridan gadaRvara Tavisi bagiT damtkbari Cai. gogona cxeli Cais okeaneSi CaiZira da daixrCo. joxebian biWs aRar ekroboda finjnebi tuCebze, aRar esxmoda Tavbru, aRar sveldeboda, aRar rCeboda TmaSi nakvalevi. joxebian biWs Tma TavTuxisferi da puris RerosaviT swori hqonda. erT dResac ijda da fiqrobda mwuxrisas, samyaros karze miyrdnobili: `Cemi gazafxulisferi gogona Semodgomisfer CaiSi davaxrCe da Cemi bage wiwakasaviT mware gaxda, aRaravin mkocnis da mec damaviwyda gaRimeba"... joxebian biWs daviwyebuli Rimili hqonda wiwakasaviT mware bagedan, Tma - TavTuxisferi da puris RerosaviT swori.

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hitchhiker gzatkecilze vdgavar, aq Zalian cxela, asfalti fexis gulebs mwvavs. me ar vici, saiT mivdivar. orma satvirTom da erTma furgonma ar gamiCera. aqedan Sors minda rom viyo. aq yvelaferi oqrosferi da mtvriania. Tavze Tma ar aqvs, mxars xSirad ifxans da samkuTxedis formis tatu uCans, ver vxvdebi, ras unda niSnavdes es samkuTxedi, bevrs laparakobs. me mis furgonSi vzivar. albaT didxans ver gavZleb masTan da pirvelive sastumrosTan Camoval. me sastumroSi var, mxolod nomris fuli maqvs, dRes mSieri var. cxeli asfalti fexis gulebs mwvavs, Cems batinkebSi ukve Zalian cxela, amitom fexze vixdi da Cems mxsnels vucdi, magram aravis unda Cemi xsna, aravin miCerebs. guSin gverdiTa nomerSi mcxovrebi qali gavicani, sruliad SemTxveviT da ucnaurad. me mas gavuRime da man vaxSamze dampatiJa. dRes Zalian aRar mSia. jiza damiZaxeo, miTxra, grZeli Tma, yvavilebiani manqana da bevri marixuana aqvs. veweviT. me jizas ar veZaxi, Tu ramis Tqma minda, pirdapir vambob, mimarTvebis gareSe. jiza sadRac mepatiJeboda, me ar gavyevi. me Cemi gza maqvs, jizas - Tavisi. Ramea, gzaze araferi Cans, wvims. ara mgonia, vinmem gawuwuli Tanamgzavri inatros. aravin miCerebs, mciva. me asfaltze lotosis pozaSi vzivar, Tvalebi daxuWuli maqvs. maxsendeba bavSvis saxe, romelic televizorSi vnaxe orisami wlis win, gogona iyo patara da qera. gonebis talRebze xis saxli tivtivebs, romelSic vcxovrobdi da ratomRac ar maxsendeba deda da mama. mgonia, rom Cems sxeulSi udabnoa, me ver vpoulob gamosavals da yoveli azris Semdeg vxedav haerSi Camokidul saxrCobelas. mere vgrZnob mindvrebs, Svebas,

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man vaxSami gaamzada CemTvis da scada xelze momfereboda. me xeli gavaSvebine da isev vuTxari: - azri ar aqvs, me male unda movkvde. man marcxena warbi aswia da `rogorc gindao~, - miTxra. ufro xSirad maxsendeba bavSvoba da ufro metad vgrZnob cas. me meSinia misi. mindoda SemeSinebina... radgan maiZula RamiT davrCeniliyavi masTan. es bavSvuri TamaSi iyo. me misi sacvlebi da saRamos kaba movipare, roca eZina. baRSi gavedi da xeze saxrCobela gavakeTe. Tavi mis sacval-yulfSi gavyavi, niSnad imisa, rom misi siyvaruli maxrCobda da ar maZlevda Cemi gziT siarulis saSualebas, is Cems yvela gzas Robavda. me Tavs viklavdi, mas ki mSvidad eZina. es bavSvuri TamaSi iyo - CamoxrCobana. is Cems SegrZnebaSi ixrCoboda, me ki misi sacvlebi maxrCobda. mas Tavisi gza ar hqonda, yovelTvis Cemi gza izidavda. cxovreba mizania, umizno adamianebi daRupuli arian. mas damRupveli mizezi hqonda. xis wvril totze vijeqi, Tavi mis sacvalSi mqonda gayofili da vfiqrobdi, rom cxovreba cisartyelaa, unda axvide, moeqce mwvervalze da gadaeSva maradisobaSi - rkalad erTi bolodan meoreze gadasrialde. isev bavSvoba gamaxesnda da isev is TeTrwvera kaci, romelic momdevda. SemeSinda, gavrbodi. mxolod xma gavigone, toti Camotyda, me vgrZnobdi silurjeebs da vxedavdi sivrces. mas ki mSvidad eZina. me patara goraze vdgavar da dabla sivrces gadavyureb, yvelaferi saocrad lurjia. me momwons silurje. me TiTqos haerze vdgavar da SemiZlia sivrceSi vilivlivo. me viRacis SinaganSi vcxovrob. is mgrZnobs, rogorc sakuTar sisxls. me mkvdari var.

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isev gavqri dRes isev gavqri. - Gtxov!.. Meti ra gavaketo.. Mapatie rom gikvire.. Gamochndi ra. telefoni sawolze davagde. ra vqna, aseT dros sazizRrad eWviani da Sxamiani vxdebi da ar minda, rom sxvebic (ufro sworad, sxva) movSxamo, Tumca, amas uCemobiTac iseTive warmatebiT vaxerxeb, rogorc masTan yofniT movaxerxebdi. yvelaze cudi ki isaa, rom `aseTi dro~ sul ufro xSirad maqvs. Tavidan TveSi erTxel gaqrobiT daiwyo da geometriuli progresiiT izrdeba. - Me shen miyvarxar. telefoni isev sawolze vardeba. Tumca, survili maqvs sawols ki ara, im garaJis saxuravs daaskdes, Cemi fanjridan ocdaeqvsi metriT da ramdeniRaca santimetriT qvemoT rom mdebareobs. Tavisufali vardnis aCqareba... neta Cemze rogor imoqmedebda eg aCqareba? simsubuqis ramdenime wami da mere... `ra kargi biWi iyo~, damwuxrebuli saxis miRebis warumatebeli mcdelobebi da panaSvidebisTvis damaxasiaTebeli sazizRari Woraoba. droa. pirveli - patara, zedapirze, ubralod gambedaobisTvis. ra hqvia amas? depresia? ara mgonia. arc gardatexis asakisTvis damaxasiaTebeli `raRac~. riT ver gardavtydi da gavizarde? ar vbrazdebi advilad. advilad ki ara, drois umetes nawils katatoniur mdgomareobaSi vatareb, mamaCemma erTxel kinaRam fsiqologTan waReba damipira, magram droze gadaifiqra. xom ityodnen mere mezoblebi, biWi gaugiJdao. mere ra, rom `biWze~ didi xania amboben, mamamisi taqsistiao. neta, axla ra ufro ewyineba, mezoblebis Woraoba, Tu?.. - Bicho, 29-shi dalevas vapirebt da chemt... wadiT, Tqveni!.. 31-Si dedikoebTan da mamikoebTan svamT, xo?.. amjerad odnav acda kedels. im adgils, sadac wiTeli markeriT aweria: LIVING IS EASY WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED. Tavidan am mini-grafits Cemebi ar imCnevdnen, magram male Hell was full so I came back =)"-ic aRmoaCines sxva warwerebs Soris da SeSfoTdnen, xolo roca isic gaaxsendaT, rom Cemi musikaluri

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gemovneba ukve didi xania panksa da sqrimos Soris meryeobs, SeSfoTeba seriozul aRSfoTebaSi gadaizarda da saswrafod momTxoves am `satanistobis~ kedlidan afxeka, ris Semdegac Cemi aRSfoTebis jeri dadga da xmamaRali toniT kategoriulad movTxove: Cems sawolTan axeuli Spaleris yurebas sayvareli frazebis yureba mirCevnia, da Tu rame problema gaqvT, SegiZliaT remonti gamikeToT-meTqi. xma aRar amouRiaT, magram ar var darwmunebuli, rom nakurTxi wyliT ar scades mravalWirnaxuli kedlis `ganwmenda~. meore - ufro Rrma. mTavari jer winaa. - Sakvarelo... Mismine... Rac ar unda gchirdes, rogori gatishulic ar unda iko da rogorc ar unda gekido, gtxov, gaige, rom mikvarxar, ertaderti xar, rac dzalas madzlevs am planetaze vicxovro, chemi cxovrebis azri xar da shens meti aravin mkavs. da kidev, shen ertaderti xar, vinc realur mes xedavs. kvela sxva danarchens, uaxloes megobars tu daqals arasodes unaxavs rogori var sinamdvileshi. Gtxov, nu martmev imis shanss, rom realurad varsebobde. au, ar daezara amxela raRacis mowera? Tan darwmunebuli var, icoda, rom ar vupasuxebdi... rogor davajero, rom ar mkidia? albaT, iatakidan erTi adgilis aweviT (xels vgulisxmob), telefonis aRebiT da erTi wminda qarTul-vaJkacuri JReradobis mqone cxraasoiani sityvis miweriT. vici, rom egec eyofa. "miyvarxr!!!" ­ ai, sufTa egeTi sityvaa, ra... ratomRac is gansakuTrebuli, nazi grZnoba ki ara, mTvrali, Ripiani biZebis Rvinissuniani Caxuteba maxsendeba... magram, romc SemeZlos, ar vici, mivwerdi Tu ara. mTel efeqts gavafuWeb. jobia is waikiTxos, rac ukve didi xnis mofiqrebuli da kargad damuSavebuli maqvs. arada, arasodes miyvarda wera. - Televizors vukurebdi da... Tu jer kidev ar gitqvamt rom gikvart, axlave utxarito... Da vifiqre, aqamde iqneb ise ar mitqvams, rogorc sachiroa-metqi... gacuxeb? ara, ra mawuxeb... ar minda martooba. rom ar mwerde, bevrad ufro sazizRrad viqnebodi. magram me ver gipasuxeb. me xom egoisti var da sul mkidia Sen ras grZnob. da yovelTvis egoisti viyavi. arasodes arsebobda is patara, sayvareli da odnav modebilo bavSvi, Sen rom Seiyvare. namdvili `me" es var. dagruzuli idioti, iatakze rom zis da Bayside-s usmens. Cemebma sxvisi piradi cxovrebis pativiscema iswavles? mTeli ormocdaxuTi wuTia kari ar SemouRiaT. damaviwyda meTqva, rom Cems

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moxucebi bebia buxarTan zis da windas qsovs. babua Zvel, ukve aTasjer gadakiTxul gazeTs aTas meerTed kiTxulobs. erTi Svili ucxoeTSia gaTxovili da bebiac patara SviliSvilisTvis qsovs windebs. sjera, rom Camovlen. meore Svili ki omSi gmirulad daeRupaT. arian martoni, TavianTi fiqrebis anabara. babua gazeTs kecavs da majis saaTs dascqeris, ar muSaobs, magram mainc ukeTia. bebia amaze Cumad iRimis. - davwveT? - movrCebi barem da mere! - pasuxobs bebia da qsovas agrZelebs, babua TvaliT zomavs darCenil Zafs. - kargi, dagelodebi! - Tvalebs ifSvnets da skams eyrdnoba. bebia amazec iRimis, imitom, rom icis, babua ar daelodeba. bebia isev qsovs, babuas sZinavs.

nacrisferi fanjrebs ar wmendda, mtvriani romaa, ufro kargad Canso. miakrobda xolme Tvalebs Tavis nacrisfer fanjrebs da yvelafers Sav-TeTrad xedavda. erTxel mTxova, fanjris win dadeqio, wvimda, magram uari ver vuTxari, videqi TxuTmeti wuTi wvimaSi fanjrebis win, magram Rirda! iseTi kmayofili TvalebiT miyurebda, TiTqos es-esaa latariaSi didZali Tanxa moego. mere miTxra, nacrisferi ufro lamazi xaro. da mec Sevifere. dabadebis dReze nacrisferi kaba maCuqa da miyveboda istoriebs nacrisferze. rom vuTxari, nacrisferi sinamdvileSi ar arsebobsmeTqi, ewyina, meored aRar Tqvao.

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talaxi pirvelad rom SevniSne, meucxova, Tumca gansakuTrebuli yuradReba ar mimiqcevia, megona, gadaRlilobis brali iyo da male gaivlida. odnavi, Zlivs sagrZnobi tkivili damitova mxolod. esec maSin vigrZeni, im saRamos, saxlSi rom vbrundebodi. kari aravin gamiRo, werili damxvda, sofelSi mivdivarT, naTesavi gardacvlilao. gasaRebi Zlivs movZebne. saerTod, didjibeebiani SarvliT davdivar, aTasi raRac miyria jibeebSi. gasaRebi ki, yovelTvis maviwydeba, romel jibeSi midevs. kari SevaRe Tu ara, ucnauri suni meca, nestoebi amewva, kefa gamixurda, sxeulSi Soreuli gaelvebasaviT autaneli tkivili SemoiWra. warmodgena ar maqvs, ramden xans vijeqi iatakze fexmorTxmiT, rodemde viyavi garinduli. telefonis zarma gamomacalkeva siCumes. megobari iyo, Sevatye, xangrZliv saubars apirebda, amitom Sua laparakSi yurmili davkide da mere saerTod gamovrTe telefoni. sxva dros aseT rames ar vizamdi, maSin ki uxerxulobac ar migrZvnia, - utifari, - Tqva man CemSi da kuTxeSi dajda. gavxevdi, piri gamiSra, kunTebi dameWima, yurebSi gausaZlisi xmauri Cadga. - ugrZnobi, - Tqva man da fexze wamodga, momaSterda, ver gavuZeli Tavxed mzeras, Tvalebi davxuWe, quTuToebi mZimed daawva gugebs, usiamo SegrZnebam momicva. da mere vigrZeni meored... guli momekumSa, ver SevZeli sakuTari Tavis Secodeba, amomSral TvalebSi ar Cadga cremli, viyavi sruliad uRono. iyo ukuni, viqec talaxad, gawiTlebuli suli ver faravda siSiSvles... karze daakakunes, barbaciT gaviare grZeli derefani, WuWrutanidan davinaxe mezobeli. kverxci xom ar gaqvso. ar maxsovda, gvqonda Tu ara, Semodi da vnaxav-meTqi. ar gadmoabija karis zRurbls, aq vidgebio. ucnauri gogoa Taia, Cem danaxvaze wiTldeba. bavSvobaSi siyvaruli avuxseni, magram ukve oci weli

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gavida. axlac damorcxvebuli miyurebda, dedaCemis nacvlad me rom SevefeTe. kvercxi gavuwode Taias da kari davxure. kvercxi ar miyvars, sunze cudad vxdebi, mTel tanSi mburZglavs. bavSvobaSi bebia goglimogls mikeTebda da purze wasmuls ZaliT maWmevda, sasargebloao. mere gamosavals mivageni, ezos boloSi aluCis didi xe idga, rogorc ki davinaxavdi bebiaCems kvercxis dRvebaSi garTuls, maSinve gavrbodi da aluCis xeze avdiodi. msxvili totebi hqonda da dasajdomad mosaxerxebeli iyo. vijeqi totze da ar Camovdiodi, momwonda kidec. pirvelad rom avcocdi xeze, bebia xesTan movida, xelSi goglimogliani puri eWira da mexveweboda, Camodi, Cemo Wkviano da kargoo. sul ar viyavi kargi, Wkviani - miT ufro. erTxel Cemi yuriT gavigone, rogor eubneboda dedaCems bebia, meore aucileblad gaaCine, erTi Svilis imedze rogor unda iyo, Tan rTuli bavSvia, mainc enacvalos bebo, magram Sen mecodebio, Svilo. hoda, karga xans vijeqi xeze. mere papam kibe moadga xes da amosvla daapira. vifiqre, axla Tu Camomiyvanes, Cemi saqme wasulia-meTqi, kvercxis gulebi melandeboda ukve. imxela viyvire, kinaRam guli gauskda bebias, gaviWaWe, totidan Camovxtebi, Tu kibes ar moaSorebT-meqi. im dRes ra damaviwyebs, saRamos piroba wavuyene bebiaCems da mowmed papa daviyene, kvercxi aRar mixsenoT, Torem xeze aval da sanam Cemebi ar Camovlen, iq vijdebi-meTqi. Cemi moTxovna Sesrulda. pirveli gamarjvebac maSin vigeme. saerTod, sityva `gamarjveba" ar momwons, raRacnairad damarcxebasTan vaigiveb da cud xasiaTze mayenebs. es rom vTqvi, Cemma Zmam, debili xaro, miTxra. me da Cemi Zma ise ganvsxvavdebiT garegnobiTac, rom ucxoebs arc vgonivarT Zmebi. is TeTria da qera, lurji Tvalebi aqvs, gakvirvebuli. Tan iseTi keTili da gulubryviloa, axlac martivad vatyueb. erTxel universitetidan saxlSi rom mivedi (maSin fsiqologias vswavlobdi da Tavi Wkviani da `kai tipi" megona), Cemi Zma, televizors uyurebda. kari yovelTvis Ria rCeba, ver gaigo Cemi oTxaSi Sesvla, mivepare da yurSi magrad CavZaxe. ise

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Tiani wlebi iyo, qarxnebi ki ara, ise gaWirda, puri da navTi Zlivs iSiveboda. mxrColavi `kerasinika" Zlivs aTbobda oTaxs, cxovreba sanTlis Suqze Cemogvengra. im droidan Semiyvarda navTis suni. vijeqi saRamoobiT da Sevyurebdi sanTels, Cems Crdils rom xatavda. primitiuli cxovrebis fonze damakmayofileblad vsunTqavdi. mombezrda usaqmod yofna. ra unda mekeTebina? hoda, erT dResac golesTanis kiTxva daviwye, sami weli iqneboda, araferi wamekiTxa, vijeqi da vkiTxulobdi. dro ufro swrafad gadioda, movwydi realobas. oTxmocdaaTiani wlebi iyo-meTqi, weRan vaxsene, omSi ar wavsulvar, Tavis droze arc jarSi gamiwvies, mamaCemma imdeni iCaliCa, invalidis sabuTi gamikeTa. Cemi Zma sul sxva tipia, jaric moiara da afxazeTis omSic wavida. cocxali gadarCa, magram SiSebi dasCemda, xandaxan ZilSi ise yviris, yvelas gvaRviZebs. ena ebmeba, Tavidan yurebic dagubebuli hqonda, xmas ar iRebda, ijda TavisTvis, arafers Wamda, Cais Tu dalevda. mere oTaxSi Seiketa, laboratoria unda movawyoo. gaubera mgoni. erTxel, warmodgena ar maqvs, ra gaakeTa, magram SuadRisas iseTi afeTqeba moawyo, mezoblis fanjris minebic ki Caimsxvra. Cemi Zma skamze ijda da giJiviT xarxarebda. egeTi bednieri dabrunebis Semdeg ar yofila. amRvreuli TavalebiT miyurebda. quCaSi gavedi, cudad viyavi. mivxvdi, rom am xnis ganmavlobaSi erTxelac ar mifiqria, ar mifiqria araferze, axlac ar vici ratom, magram gadavwyvite, im wels universitetSi isev Camebarebina. ukve ocdaxuTi wlis viyavi, saxlSi rom vTqvi, unda viswvlo-meTqi. dedaCemma amoioxra, araferi uTqvams. mamaCemma yuradRebac ar momaqcia. SeCveuli iyvnen Cemgan moulodnel gancxadebebs. skolas rom vamTavrebdi, biologiis maswavleblma miTxra, uniWo ar xar, magram Tu znes gamoisworeb, ufro Wkviani iqnebio. znis gamosworebisa ra mogaxsenoT, magram me rom sibejiTe gamoviCine, Tavadve gamikvirda. samarTlis Seswavla

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gadavwyvite da bevri rom aRar gavagrZelo, Cavabare. isev studenti viyavi. marTalia, mecnierobaze xeli aviRe, magram mamaCemi, vatyobdi, kmayofili iyo. Cvidmeti wlis gogo-biWebTan nametani didi vCandi. mexamuSeboda amxela kacs cxra saaTze leqciaze jdoma da rveulSi bejiTi moswavlesaviT raRacebis CaniSvna, Tumca, imavdroulad, msiamovnebda xelSi wignebamoCrili siaruli. semestris bolos pirveli gamocda istoriaSi mqonda. kargi kaci iyo qarTlosi, magram gamocdaze rom Sevdiodi, mainc vinerviule, maSinac muceli amtkivda (ver gamoviswore zne). wels, Sua zamTarSi, swavla rom ar mimetovebina, cota xanSi diplomsac aviRebdi, magram mZuls formalobebi da ra vqna. rom warmovidgine, rogor vabarebdi bolo gamocdas da mere rogor gadmomcemdnen diploms, kinaRam gulis reva damewyo. aravisTvis arafris damtkiceba ar mWirdeba, esaa da es. Tavisufali profesiis adamiani var da morCa. erTi Tvis win samsaxuris Zebna daviwye. sadac mivedi, yvelgan uariT gamomistumres. arc mikvirs, ar vamtyuneb im xalxs, bolos lanZRva-ginebaze gadavdiodi, aba, ra iyo, iseT idiotur kiTxvebs misvamdnen, TiTqos icodnen, Cemi Zma adre regvens da debils rom meZaxda. verafriT aviwye cxovreba, guSin Cemi Zmis laboratoriaSi Sevedi. saerTod, iSviaTad velaparakebiT erTmaneTs. is sul Tavis oTaxSia, me mTeli dRe aqeT-iqeT davwanwaleb. qimia-fizikis araferi gamegeboda, maswavlebeli samians Zlivs miwerda, amas ki kolbebiT da raRac xsnarebiT aqvs savse magida. amas winaT gogirdi aaxrCola da aayrola mTeli saxli. kedelze dakidebuli Cemi fotoaparati davinaxe. amdeni weli gavida da erTxelac ar gamxsenebia. aparati aviRe da Zveli drois gasaxseneblad wavedi. rusTavelze ramdenime bavSvs gadavuRe da swored maSin vigrZeni, ukve mesamed. saerTod, bavSvobidan susti janmrTeloba maqvs, bolo dros kuWi mawuxebs da glandebic samkurnalo maqvs, ver moviSore angina, eqimma, unda amoiWra glandebio, magram magis Tavi sad maqvs, saavadmyofos sunic ki cudad mxdis. sul is maxsendeba, SarSan Cveni mezobeli rezo rom

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wyobaze mayenebs. naTesavi gardacvlilao, mwerdnen Cemebi, neta, vin unda momkvdariyo? Cemi megobari daCi meubneba, etyoba eSma mogeZala, aba, sul sikvdilze ratom fiqrob, taZarSi wadio. morwmune arasdros vyofilvar, bavSvobaSi TeTrwveriani moxuci megona RmerTi. sami Tvis win wirvaze dasaswrebad taZarSi rom mivedi, isic ar vicodi, marjvniv davmdgariyavi, Tu marcxniv. cota xalxi iyo, mosmenac kargad SeiZleboda, magram erTi sityvac ver movismine, iseTi mogonebebi wamomitivtivda TavSi, daviwyebuli rom megona. oflSi viwurebodi, muxlebi mekeceboda, meCveneboda, yvela me miyurebda, mrcxvenoda. - damloce, mamao. - RmerTma daglocos, Svilo. taZarSi Sedi, xatebs eambore, me aq dagicdi. - rogora xar? - kargad var, tkivils aRar vgrZnob. - nu geSinia, yvelaferi kargad iqneba uflis SemweobiT. sami dRis mkvdari lazare aRadgina mkvdreTiT ufalma, misTvis raa SeuZlebeli? - gamiWirda aqamde mosvla, arc ki vici, rogor, saidan daviwyo. - aRsareba imisTvisaa, rom suli ganviwmindoT, rac gvawuxebs, movinanioT, guli gavxsnaT, rom qriste Semovides CvenSi, ufali aqve dgas, Cven gverdiT, me gzas gagikvlev, Svilo. mec gamiWirda pirveli aRsareba, ocdaaTi wlisa mivedi taZarSi, damagvianda misvla. yovelgvari gansacdeli uflisganaa, ufals uyvarxar da axsovxar, amitom wyalobad miiRe. kidev xom araferi gaqvs, Svilo, iseTi, rac gawuxebs da ver ambob ridis gamo? ufali yvelafafers xedavs, Tu ramea kidev dafaruli. moZRvars samareSi miaqvs yovelive, rasac ismens. - axla aRaraferi maxsendeba, mamao. - kargi, yvelaze metad ra gawuxebs? - siyvaruls veRar vgrZnob adamianebisadmi. - es mciredmorwmuneobis bralia. Tavadve naxav, nel-nela rogor igrZnob uflis siaxloves. gaziareb, es yovelgvar wamalze uebaria. saxareba ikiTxe, Svilo.

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- diax, mamao, isev ganvagrZob kiTxvas. qali Semogveswro, saTno saxe hqonda, amoRamebuli Tvalebi, xma hqonda nisaviT mSvidi, - mamao, gelodebiano... msubuqi dRe iyo, mixaroda, pirvelad vgrZnobdi, rom sworad moviqeci... gasaRebis Cxakuni gaisma. albaT, Cemi Zmaa. dilas ambobda, eleqtroni unda gavakeToo. da me maxsovs, rogor iwvebodnen peplebi eleqtronTan. rogor mikbina kelam xelze da papam dana damisva, aRar gagisivdebao... esec mudo vinmea, isev Tavis laboratoriaSi Seiketa, arada, bebeiaCems rogor undoda meore SviliSvili gogo hyoloda. ar auxda survili. arc Cemi ocnebebi amxdara. ise, kacma rom Tqvas, natvra arc mqonia. ni iyo da gaqra... tkivili ufro gaumZafrda, Jolosferi daedo saxeze, isev aewva nestoebi, kefa gauxurda, daumZimda, veRar Seimagra Tavi, daikvnesa. WiplarSemoxveuli daibada, mTlad galurjebuli. mkvdari egonaT. yovladsulgrZelma mainc STabera suli. msubuqi iyo, uformo, usaxuri, mainc ar erqva maxinji. Tvali ar aexila jer, smena hqonda gamaxvilebuli. esmoda, rogor CasCurCula, - aha, haeri da Tavad gamosaxeo igi. cudad xatavda, mainc dausva funji tiloze. male bezrdeboda yoveli saqme, didxans arc xatva SeZlo, verc sakuTari suli igua. da uTxra mere, - gibruneb, Tu miiRebo. qari amovarda, Jolosfer zecas faravda Rrubeli, Ria kari exeTqeboda kedels, mgoni tiroda qali. Taia ar yofila. nic arsad Canda.

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sicive da yava nel-nela, mZime nabijebiT avedi talaxian kibeze. xelSi `franguli vanila" meWira da xelebs miTbobda. kafeteriaSi Sevedi. iq marto erTi gogo ijda. Tavi muxlebze hqonda Camodebuli da magidaze yinuliani kapuCino edga. - axali xar? - mkiTxa. - ho. - sasacilo Tma gaqvs, - es replika ukomentarod davtove, - SegiZlia Camojde. davjeqi da yava magidaze davdgi. - mkiTxe rame, Torem mTeli lanCi erTmaneTis yureba mogviwevs. - hm... kargi... ratom yinuliani kapuCino? - vkiTxe gonebis daZabvis gareSe. - ratom ara? - imitom, rom gareT civa, supermarketSic civa. civi situaciaa, xalxi araa, iataki civi qvisaa, garSemo macivrebia, kedlebic civi, ar vici es ra masalaa... - samagierod, gulSi Tbila. - da gayinuli yaviT agrileb? - ara, ubralod, zafxuls magonebs. - mizani mainc siTbo yofila. - Sen ggonia "franguli vanila" gagaTbobs? - fizikurad ki, fsiqologiurad - vnaxavT. - Seni yava bavSvobas magonebs, patara viyavi da suleli. - hm... axla bavSvi aRar xar? - albaT ara. - damijere, jer mTeli bavSvoba winaa. - CemTvis ara, - Tqva da loyebze xelebi miido. - modi, yava gavcvaloT da mixvdebi, rom jer kidev bavSvi xar. - Tu veraferi vigrZeni, maSin Cems gayinul kapuCinos erTi moyudebiT dalev! - yinulebianad? - Caylapav! da Tu rame gamogivida, maSin ra? - araferi.

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qaRaldis Wiqa orive xeliT aiRo, tuCebi auTrTolda, Tbili momwaro suni igrZno da Tvalebi nela daxuWa. - ara, me iq dabruneba ar minda! Cemi kapuCino momawode. cudi Tema - rogor gindaT mokvdeT? - moulodnelad ikiTxa jeikma, roca maTematikis gakveTilze visxediT. yvela daiZaba da mas miaSterda. - amis nacvlad binZuri koreeli rom movkla, ar SeiZleba? - Tqva ostinma da gadaixarxara. jeiks aseTi rasistuli gamoxdomebi, rogorc wesi, acofebda xolme, magram, am SemTxvevaSi, reaqciac ar hqonia. - me gaziT minda gavigudo, rom tkivili ar vigrZno, - Tqva lioram. - ra ici, rom sxva gziT tkivils igrZnob? - vkiTxe me. - naxevari saaTi sisxlisgan Tu daiclebi, albaT getkineba, - gamajavra steisim. - eg aravin icis, momakvdavebs ar ekiTxebian, stkivaT, Tu ara, - gavagrZele me. - anu, ar stkivaT? - gaikvirva lioram. - albaT, ara. - ratom, jer xom cocxlebi aran? - ki, magram am dros tkivili meorexarisxovani unda iyos. - Sen ra ici, ra da rogor unda iyos? - vvaraudob. kamaTi xmaurSi gadagvezarda da maswavlebeli mogviaxlovda. yvela gaCumda. - gamoiyeneT dro da iswavleT, - Tqva man, - sanam cocxlebi xarT, - daboloebam saerTod dagvSoka. siCume gaiwela. pauziT visargeble, saqaRalde gadavSale da alinas suraTs davaSterdi. meamayeboda aseTi suraTis gadaReba rom SevZeli, arada, asi suraTidan erTi kargi, ubralod, albaTobis TeoriiTac gamovidoda. Tan alinas silamaze rom ara, suraTi arafrad ivargebda, magram mainc, ratomRac meamayeboda. - idioti! - Tqva jeikma, - TviTon rom eswavla Tavis droze, am masalas agvixsnida mainc. - idioti Sen xar! - miubrunda megi, romelic am drois gan208

mavlobaSi Cumad iyo, - risTvis wamoiwye es uazro laparaki? - ratom? geSinia? - jeiks boroti Rimili daedo saxeze. - risi geSinia, roca ar ici, sikvdilis mere ra xdeba? isev CaverTe me. - an sikvdilis dros... - ratomRac Cems azrze gadmovida liora. - is xdeba, rasac Seni religia geubneba. - iqneb araa simarTle, yvelas xom sxvadasxva religia gvaqvs? - me mjera iudaizmis, - amayad Tqva megim, - vici, rom WeSmaritia. mindoda, magram ar SevekamaTe da isev suraTs davaSterdi. ramdenime wamiT, saukuneebamde siamovnebiT rom gavwelavdi, qandakebad viqeci. is ulamazesi iyo. nebismier SemTxvevaSi, mec mimiZRvoda wili mis SeqmnaSi. - me qristiani viyavi, sanam bebiaCemi mokvdeboda, amoioxra jeikma. - axla vin xar? - aTeisti. - mec, mec! - mxiarulad daayola lioram. - me megona, iudeveli iyavi, - aRSfoTda megi. - Cems mSoblebs dResac ase hgoniaT. - umalav? - jeikma isev is ucnauri Rimili gamosaxa. - jer ar ukiTxavT, - civad Tqva lioram. - jorj, - momibrunda jeiki, - Sen rogor ginda mokvde? - quCis CxubSi, - daufiqreblad vupasuxe me. - isev Sensas awvebi? ggonia, rom ar getkineba? - magas ra mniSvneloba aqvs? - aba, ras aqvs? - imas, rac mere iqneba. - da ra iqneba? - Cemi religiis mixedviT, - daiwyo ostinma, - Zroxebi modian, Tu raRac spiloebTanaa dakavSirebuli... da mere... mokled, induizmi sul cxovelebzea awyobili... Tu raRac aseTi... rogorc iudaizmi - saWmelze... ostinis mikibul-mokibul laparaks ver gavuZeli da isev alinas suraTs davaSterdi. jer ar miTqvams, rom es suraTi unda damexata. ubralod, unda damemtkicebina, rom adamiani

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teqnikaze Zlieria, miuxedavad imisa, rom teqnika ufro swrafia. kameram erT gaCxakunebaSi gaakeTa is, rasac me, albaT, erTi Tve movundebodi. magram vin daaWira TiTi kameras? - isev me. me mivatriale kamera am idealuri saxisken da es idealuri suraTi gamomivida. sakuTari xelovnebis gadaWarbebiT Sefaseba steisim Semawyvetina. - es koreeli sruli idiotia, - Tqva man rusulad, jeiks rom ver gaego, - ra sikvdili? ra sicocxle? mkurnaloba sWirdeba magas. maqsimalurad vcade erTi gamoxedviT rasizmis, zurgs ukan laparakis da adamianebis daufaseblobis zizRi gamomexata da steisi mitrialda. - Cemze Tqva raRac? - Cumad mkiTxa jeikma. - ho. jeikma Tavi merxze Camodo. - jeik! - mxarze daado xeli ostinma, - is, koreelze rom vixumre maSin, vixumre, sawyenad ar miTqvams, xom ici. - vici...

obieqtividan danaxuli silamaze - gaswie kamera! - ratom? - mgonia, rom cudad gamoviyurebi. - mSvenivrad gamoiyurebi. - nu miyureb. - ar giyureb, kameras vuyureb. - mgonia, rom cudad macvia, an Tma maqvs cudad, an makiaJi. momeci aparati. aha, mogwons? - `amerikul silamazes" ramdenjer uyure? - arc erTxel. mogwons, Tu ara? - me vici, rogorc gamoviyurebi. - kargad, Tu cudad? - mSvidad. - `amerikul silamazeSi" video kamera iyo.

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- aba, ar minaxavso? - ra mniSvneloba aqvs? balaxze dajeqi da budas poza miiRe. qudi moixade. ara, daixure. gadaReba rogor unda? - jobia, isev me gadaviRo. - ara. Cxak. - moicade, am yvavils daviWer. Cxak. - isini niu-iorkSi wavidnen, ho? - Zalian bevrjer ginaxavs, arada, uaryofdi. - magas ra mniSvneloba aqvs? - absoluturad sul erTia. Cxak.

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*** miyvars Semodgoma, Cemi droa, Cemi amindebiT, Cemi ferebiT, Cemi mziT. vuwyob ganwyobebs, vgrZnob mzes da cvlilebebs. musika mniSvnelovani xdeba da maJors sevda dahkravs. mWirdeba sada, ubralo sityvebi, imitom rom am dros yvelaferi martivdeba - winadadebebic. Semodgoma Cemi axali welia. am dros iwyeben Cemi planetebi moZraobas marcxnidan marjvniv (qarTuliviT) da bevrs vkiTxulob -azrebs, adamianebs, Tvalebs, gancdebs, xazebs xelis gulebze, xasiaTebs, winaTgrZnobebs, sizmrebs... mere vCumdebi, vkrav did xurjins da zamTarSi mivdivar. vdgebi dedamiwis SuagulSi da qveynis oTxive mxridan velodebi im xmas, romelic dabadebidan mesmis da romelsac SeuZlia Tovlis moyvana da mzis dabneleba Cems samyaroSi!

*** aRmosavleTidan dasavleTisken fiqrebis grZeli mwkrivi gavWime, magram axla Seni fanjris qveS yria mkvdari mtredebiviT da surneleben molodinad. Tu Sen Tvalebs daxuWav da daiZineb, verasodes gapatieb, imitom rom me ukve mesmis Seni xma, da Tu Seni winaTgrZnobac gaqreba, aRar amova xe Cemi siyvarulis gadaqceul wnelis RobesTan da mec iribi nabijebiT imedgacruebis mTebs davxatav Cemidan Senamde, magram Cemi Sendami rwmenis simRera ar dagaZinebs iqamde, sanam xelisgulebiT ar igrZnob Cems sevdas! me ki, induri ferebiT Cafiqrebul sizmrebis grovas gadavabijeb da grZnobis galiaSi gamomwyvdeul nislaCitebTan erTad xonCiT mogarTmev uTqmelobisgan damwifebul sisxlisfer sityvebs!

*** Cemi tkivilebis mTeli sicxe uriTmo sunTqvad gadameqca. Tma damcvivda da TvalebSi Camomemsxvra sicocxlis TaRebi. Cemi mklavebi, molodinad dakidebuli Cemsave tanze,

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yvebian ambavs, kenti ricxvebiT savses. Cemi mxrebi ki mxolod sevdian yvavilebs isxamen, romlebic ar xmebian xelisgulebSi. yelidan mkerdSi mcviva mkvdari sityvebi da mec, mTeli taniT ayolili miwis cxel cekvas, terfebiT vgrZnob mTel samyaros miwidan camde.

*** Tvalebs sizmriT dagrexili ZafiT amogiqargav ise, rom wamwamebs Seexamos, Tumca, Savs xom yvela feri uxdeba. gafiTrebul dumils agaxleC tuCebidan, momskdari sisxliT Zafs SevRebav da im sityvebs dagaqsov, romelTac arasdros ambob, me ki ise minda maTi gagoneba! yels tbili sunTqviT Segixvev. uxeSi ZafiT mogiqargav mklavebs (sircxvilia aseTi sinatife) mTel Cems simSvides da simsubuqes Zafad davarTav jaraze da mxrebze dagaqsov, bolos ki, Cagexutebi da daviZineb!

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Zveli mobili soflis avtobusSi SekuWul mgzavrebs suli exuTebaT, magram swored am drosaa bednieri mZRoli. jibes emateba da imitom. jibe imodena araa, imisma avsebam sulikos fexi fexze gadaadebinos, magram imdens ki daitevs, oTxi pirdaRebuli Svili da futkris nakbeniviT gatkipinebuli coli rom elodeba saxlSi, imaTi stomaqebi amoavsos da torsi Semosos. gansakuTrebiT colis. SiSveli mterma dainaxa. magis Semyurea, albaT, suliko sul jmux xasiaTze romaa, Tu ara, ezoSi moxekil tyemals da vaSls rom yidian, imisTana mezoblebze ukeT mainc ki aqvs awyobili saqme, rac, upirvelesad, sabWoTa abreviaturiT damSvenebuli yviTeli mobilis damsaxurebaa, romelic jer kidev modaSia soflad da misi wyalobiT TviTonac pativsacem kacad Tvlian. - daaCqare, venera, vin gagTvala, Se qalo, mag qaTmebi saseirnod gyavda wamoyvanili, Tu skoCi qondaT qalaqelebs gadakruli pirze, rom ver gagiyidia da ukan mogyavs? - miaZaxa isedac aCqarebiT momaval mezobels daqoqili avtobusis fanjridan sulikom da veneramac garmoniviT mikecil karebSi Semohyo Tavi. tanis Semosatevi adgili aRar iyo, magram mainc Semoatia. mere manamde Tavdayiravebuli qaTmebic rigrigobiT SemoaZvrina da, TokiT erTmaneTze fexebgadabmuli, avtobusis Werze mimagrebul JangSeparul saxelurze, rogorc qandaraze, ise Semoaskupa. siZvelisgan aqanqarebuli da axla gaqandarebuli saxeluri imaT wonas ar daumZimebia, magram Tavmoyvare JorJika qaTmebis Tavze wamoskupebiT ukmayofilo darCa da veneras geslgareuli iumoriT mimarTa: - ageniza pampersi mainc gegekeTebia, Se qalo. atyda avtobusSi xorxoci da simwris siciliT gaecina gulSewuxebul venerasac. - Cemi ar iyos, Tavze Tma ar gaq, JorJika, da kidec ro rame ikadron, bevrs verafers dagakleben mag Sav dReze gaCenilebi, - gamoesarCla veneras dedlebs ukana rigidan viRac. JorJikam Tavi gadaaaqnia. karga xans uxerxuli siCume Camovarda. mere viRacam isev wamoiwyo: - nametani glaxa dRe iyo savaWrod. msxali mqonda waRe214

buli da ki momaq naxevari ukan. Sen ra qeni, olia, gayide tyemali? - SeekiTxa gverdiT mjdoms SavebSi Cacmuli qali. - gadayra qvia magas, iseT fasSi Cavabare. saxlSi mobrunebas, ase varCie. Saqari da zeTi momaq bovSebiza da esaa. sulikos avtobusSi yvela erTmaneTs icnobs. mezoblebi arian da salaparakos ra daulevT. Tanac, qalaqad wodebuli raionuli centridan soflamde gaWimul kbilebCangreul gzaze CaqCaqSi drosac klaven. - eger, e, im saxlSia gamoTxovili Tamros gogo, - Tqva uceb erTma da yvelas Tavi ,,eger, e"-s mimarTulebiT mitrialda. - uyure, raval dvarecSi Sesula. kai xelis gamoReba marTebs amisTana ojaxis mosavlelad, - daaskvna viRacam. mere romeliRac gapartaxebuli ezo gaxda mgzavrebis gansjis sagani. - rava daaqcien Svilebma daTunies moyvanili ojaxi?! - yvela qalaqSi geiqca da, aba, ra mouvidoda... - bolos daaskvnian erTad. me ukana karTan vdgavar. dasajdom adgils vin maRirsebs amdeni xandazmulis garemocvaSi. fexebTan qatoTi savse tomara midevs, ukan - puris fqviliani, warweriT `faToRli". veneras qaTmebi duman. etyobaT, sazogadoebas miCveuli arian da meore kategoriis mgzavrTa wesebs zedmiwevniT icaven. samagierod, griSas ukanmobrunebuli goWi Wyvitinebs da TokiT gakoWil fexebs momakvdavi kaciviT asavsavebs. - rava yiddi? - SeekiTxa griSas gverdiT mjdomi da axali dialogic gaCaRda. - ass vafasebdi. - nametani mogindomebia, Se kaco. - Roris WaWaneba rom araa arsad, ar gagigia magi ambavi, Tu? - Seni rafer gadarCa? - SuSaSi myavda, SuSaSi da ise gamouZvra am Wirianobas. - magi ki gamouZvra Wirs, mara axla Cven gagviWira saqme. rame dasamSvidebeli migeca, ase rom ar SevewuxebineT. - gaCerdi, Se samgle! - Seuyvira griSam goWs da drunCSi miartya dakoJrili xeli. - aslarian goWs ki ar unda miartya, meefero unda. magis imedaT gyolia ojaxi, - gaexumra griSas Tavze mdgomi.

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amasobaSi avtobusi sofelSi Sevida da iwyes mgzavrebma nel-nela Casvla. zogma SeWedili yuTi Caitana, zogma - tomara, zogmac - `lilo-siTis" kubokruli CanTa da aqamde sulSesunTqulebma jer amoisunTqes, mere mxrebSi gaiSalnen da bolos, cal-calad darCenilebi, gverdiT gaTavisuflebul skamebze xruSCovkebze TviTneburad miSenebuli lojiebiviT gafarTovdnen. uceb, adre daqvrivebuli olias WiSkarTan gaaCera sulikom avtobusi. RobesTan jirkze Camomjdari moxuci xelmoCrdiluli elodeboda mis gamoCenas. axladaRebuli pensia gautanebia mezoblisTvis da axalgamomcxvari kalapotis puri da kanfetebi daubarebia. daloca. gaeRima jmux sulikos da aCaqCaqebuli avtobusis ukanmoxedili sarkidan xeli dauqnia Savosans. Semdegi gaCereba Tokze gafenili Cvili bavSvis sacvlebiT damSvenebul ezosTan mouwia. saxlidan gogo gamovida, gulze patara hyavda mikruli. - ha, Sen, biZia, pampersi! - uTxra sulikom gogos da xurda Cauyara xelSi. - gaZvirebula! - ambobs mezoblis rZali. - Sibaqi aRar mogwonT axlandelebs da, aba, rafer iqneba?! - epasuxeba suliko. - madloba, RmerTma gagaxaros! - isic locavs mZRols da avtobusi gzas agrZelebs. amasobaSi Cemi Camosvlis droc movida. bondis xidTan gavaCerebine da rweva-rweviT gadavedi Releze. aRmarTi aviare da sasaflaos rom gavcdi, mezoblis WiSkarTan patara gogo-biWebi SevniSne. erTs Citi hyavda xelSi da afrTxialebda. iseTi lamazi sanaxavi iyo, vinane, fotoaparati Tan rom ar mqonda. amitomac cota Sevyovndi da kadri Tvals samudamo mexsierebaSi gadavagzavnine. Citis patrons moeCvena, rom Citi mindoda da Cemken wamovida. gamomiwoda. me mivefere da aRar gamovarTvi. mas ufro uxdeboda. mere Soridan mivaZaxe, gauSvi-meTqi. gauSva. Citi gafrinda da haerSi SefrTxialda. am saRamos Wiakokonobaa. Cemi tolebi unda movZebno da maTTan erTad koconi davanTo. manamde ki bebiaCemi sagangebod damzadebuli Taflis sanTlebis namcecebs mimawebebs yuris bibiloebze. es aucilebeli ritualia, boroti Tvalisgan dam216

icavs da eSmakebic verafers damakleben. aqaurebi imasac amboben, rom am Rames yinva vardeba wyalSi da xvalidan bunebaSi yvelaferi fers icvlis. me arasodes minaxavs Cemi soflis mdinareSi yinva (zamTarSic ki), magram aseTia Tqmuleba, romelic sulikos avtobusze bevrad ufro Zvelia da Cemamde im xalxis gadmocemiT movida, axla rom dahyveba soflis aRmarTsa da daRmarTSi aTasi dardiTa da xalisiT. am Tqmulebebis pativsacemad, Sebindebisas veneras ukanmobrunebuli romelime dedalic, SeiZleba, buxarSi Seikidos mosaxarSad, olias ezoSic aTuxTuxdes saxeldaxelod Camokrefili tyemali samfexze, viRacis nayidi `faToRlic" iqces purad, griSamac, SeiZleba, gaimetos SuSaSi gamozrdili aslariani goWi dasaklavad. sulikoc daurigebs qalaqidan sagangebod amotanil tkbileuls bavSvebs. xval xom uflis dedis dRea da aseTi dReebi mezoblis bavSvis xelSi daWerili CitiviT mofrTxialdebian da gafrindebian. odesme venerac am dReebTan erTad gafrindeba caSi. JorJikac, Tamarac, oliac, griSac, daTikoc da maT ezoebSi Semofrenili vero, gio, lika, Tako da daTo ivlian da ifrTxialeben. me isev gzas mivuyvebi. dagrZelda, radgan mtvriTa da buRiT gaTanguli Tbilisis Semdeg lamazi sanaxavia xavsiani yoreebi da amwvanebuli ezoebi, JRurtuli, yivili, bRavili, CuxCuxi. ase mgonia, aq daibada odesRac samyaro da axla yovel dRe Tavis dabadebas aq zeimobs. modidan gadasuli atributebiT Semkuli Zveli mobili ki yoveldRiurad ezideba CaqCaqiT mavanT.

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mezoblis qals xels nu axleb... aivli, Caivli. Caivli, aivli mezoblis, sul axlo mezoblis qalo. aivli, salams gamoimeteb, Caivli - Rimils da waxval. ici, rogor ar ici, ici, ra cecxlsac gvikidebs Seni gamoCena. ici, ra Tqma unda, ra gamogepareba qals!.. da arxeinad aivli, Caivli!.. vfiqrob, sul vfiqrob, neta, ras dadixar?!. Tumca, saqmeze midixar, saqmeze modixar. mainc, aseTi ra gauTavebeli saqme gaqvs, rom Seni gaCereba ar iqna?.. ici, rogor ar ici, ici, rom qvafenilze ki ara, Cvens gulze daabijeb da Senc auRelveblad aivli, Caivli... Tan rom iRimi kidec? aivli, raRac grCeba da ukan brundebi. Caivli - raRac gaxsendeba da isev midixar, Tan aucileblad Rimili dagyveba Tan... iare, ra gveTqmis, mezoblis qali xar da, aba, xels vin gaxlebs. ivli. ivli da iare!.. aivli, Caivli. Caivli, aivli... raa, bolos da bolos! ara, iare, vin giSlis. iare, saqme gaqvs, saqmeze dadixar... iare, mezobelo, iare, xels gaxlebs vinme, ggonia? vera, mezoblis qali xar da vera! Senc ici es, isic ici, rom qvafenilze ki ara, gulze dagvabijeb da ase udardelad da cota damcinavadac ki iRimi! ra xarT es qalebi, mezoblis qalebi! aivliT, CaivliT. CaivliT, aivliT... Tan aucileblad RimiliT da aucileblad viRacis gulze...

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Tagunas ambavi ijda bebia cecxlTan da Tbeboda. fiso mis gverdiT wamogorebuliyo da krutunebda. Cven, mTeli ojaxi, magidasTan visxediT da vTamaSobdiT. gamovidoda Tagvi erTi kuTxidan da wavidoda meorisaken. adgeboda kata, gaekideboda, magram moxucebuliyo da veRar eweoda sacodavi. bebia dauZaxebda, - modi aq, dabrundi, jandabamde gza hqoniaT am virTxebso, - da erTi megrulad kargad Seiginebda. dedaCemi miutrialdeboda da eubneboda, - nu iginebi bavSvebTano da isev Tavis saqmes ubrundeboda. amoioxrebda bebo, - me aravis vuyvarvar, ratom davibadeo, - da isev fisos miutrialdeboda, rZiT avsebul finjans axlos miuwevda. sul ase meordeboda saRamodan saRamomde da bebo ver xvdeboda, ratom arafers iRonebdnen mSoblebi Tagunas winaaRmdeg. erTxelac, dajda bebo buxarTan, xelSi cocxi aiRo da Tagunas gamosvlas daeloda. dedaCemi kvlav eCxuba, - bavSvebis Tvalwin cudi araferi qnao, - magram bebiaCems, oRond Taguna moeSorebina da sxva araferi undoda. ijda ase saaTebi cocxiT, Tan fisos eZaxda, magram fiso arsad Canda. uceb garedan kakunis xma moisma. bebom kars gaxeda da verc ki SeamCnia, rogor gamoiqca xvrelidan Cveni Wkviani Taguna. roca gamoixeda, Taguna ukve kargi ori metris manZilze mirboda. bebom cocxi moiqnia, ifiqra, movaxvedrebo. roca cocxi aswia, qveS moyolil fisos Seavlo Tvali, romelic parketze gaSxlarTuliyo. - arc amas vyvarebivar, am ubedurs, amanac mimatovao, _ Tqva da neli, gabrazebuli nabijiT sawolisaken gaswia.

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me, Turme, yaraSvili vyofilvar! - salami biWebs! 2.5 mm kveTis orwvera kabeli minda gayvanililobisTvis. ha, visa gaqvT? SuadRiT gamdidrebuli (ase eZaxian dRes axlad gamdidrebulebs) batoni arCili sacxovrebeli binis rekonstuqcias morCa ukve. axla eleqtrogayvanilobas akeTebs. mere erTi kargi remonti da Svilebi samudamod uzrunvelyofili iqnebian, TiTis gatokebac ar dasWirdebaT. - ha, biWebo, droze, malavT, Tu ra ari?? guSin Cems mezobels aq uyidia. fass ar daveZeb, saswrafod mWirdeba. axla amis gulisTvis TbilisSi xom ar waval? biWebi, anu bazris misadgomTan quCaSi wvrilmanebiT movaWreebi, Cumad iSmuSnebian, xmas aravin iRebs. batoni arCili ki gaocebulia, - rogor, vaWari gasayid saqonels malavs? Tu aRara aqvT, Tqvan mainc, pasuxi mainc gascen. bolos wylis dasalevad gasuli SoTa zaxariCi dabruna Tavis saqonelTan da mdidar mezobels SeuZaxa: - rao, biWo, aCikuna, raSia saqme, risTvis garjilxar? mdidar xalxs aseTi gabeduli xumroba ar uyvars, magram asakiT Tavisze gacilebiT ufros mezobels veraferi gaubeda da Sinaurulad SesCivla: - zaxariC, erTi Sen mainc miTxari, kaco, kabeli minda Sida gayvanilobisTvis da pasuxs aravin maZlevs. ver gavige, raSia saqme, Cems fuls nomeri ara aqvs, Tu ra ari? - ki kaco, rogor ar aris. ramazi yidis, Cveni dadiani. axlaxan gauTavda da sawyobSia wasuli axlis mosatanad. - ramaz dadiani? ras ambob, zaxariC, gurjaanSi rodis aqeT gaCndnen dadianebi, ha? - eg Tu dadiania, maSin me bagrationi var, burboni da romanovio, - xiTxiTebs iqve gverdiT mdgomi feliqsa da Jangian rkinebs adgils ucvlis. Tan ukvirs, dilas ablabudaSi Tavi gavyavi, es kargis niSania da ratom verafers vyidio. - kargi, feliqs edmondoviC, ra iyo. saSviliSvilod xom ar unda gadaemteroT erTmaneTs. kaci ambobs, qarTveli varo, da Sen kidev erTi wyenis gulisTvis qveyanas uyri, somexiao. ar gekadreba, ganaTlebuli kaci xar.

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- magisi dedac da colic! neta ras eferebi? ranairi qarTvelia, aq rom daibada, imitom? maSin magis mama xaCika garaJSia dabadebuli da `samasvalia"? eg Cemisa ega, raRa dadianad daewera, dedis gvarze daweriliyo, deda xom qarTveli hyavs. an aruTinovia da aruTinaSvilad daweriliyo. uh, age mobrZandeba! - feliqsam gverdze gadaafurTxa da zauras Tavis kurdRlebze Camougdo saubari, Zalian mravldebian da aRar vici, rogor movuaroo. Tavis savaWro daxls TeTri kabelis did gorgalakidebuli rafik aruTinovi, igive ramaz dadiani, miadga, baton arCils mokrZalebiT miesalma da riTi SemiZlia gemsaxuroTo, SeekiTxa. - Sena xar, biWo, dadini? - Caicina batonma arCilma, meTqi, vis velodebodi?! mamaSeni xaCika kagad maxsovs. erTxel, qarxnis ezoSi rom baRCa hqondaT gaSenebuli, msxali movwyvite da yurebi amaxia, qurdoba rogor SeiZleba, ar mieCvio, Torem daiRupebio. kidev kargi, ar davujere, Torem mec dRes sxvebiviT mSieri vivlidi. ho, marTla, raRa dadianad daewere, Se kaco. es gvari kaxelebisaTvis aratipiuria. - swored magitom. aravin damiwyebs gamokiTxvas, ama da am kacisa ra xaro. yvelgan vambob, Cemi winaparia aq Camosaxlebuli revoluciis dros-meTqi da manebeben Tavs. zugdidian aq aravin Camova Cems gasacnobad. nacnobebi mainc almacerad miyureben, ar sjeraT Cemi qarTveloba. aqa var dabadebuli da gazrdili, qarTulia Cemi mSobliuri ena, Reri ar vici somxuri. skolaSi qarTulad vswavlobdi, umaRlesSi qarTulad vswavlobdi. deda qarTveli myavs, coli qarTveli myavs. ra vqna, erTi miTxariT, raRa gavakeTo, rom Cemi qarTveloba daijeroT?! - pasuxobs ganerviulebuli dadiani. - mtkvari unda gadacuro orjer da davijerebTo, - xiTxiTeben feliqsa da zaura, Tan Surnarevi mzeras apareben dadianis saqonliT savse daxlisken. - kargi, kargi, - amSvidebs aRelvebul dadians batoni arCili, - mag kabels ra fasSi hyidi? gasuli saukunis 60-iani wlebi. Tbilisis saxelmwifo universitetis istoriuli fakulteti. auditoriaSi ucxoebi Semovidnen, samni iyvnen, erTi wlo221

vani da oric axalgazrda. - aq erTi studenti gyoliaT, gvarad dadiani, - gvaCveneT romeliao. ramazma mokrZalebiT daukra stumrebs Tavi, me varo (unda iTqvas, rom dadians arasodes darCenia zrdiloba saxlSi, yovelTvis sanimuSo yofaqceviT gamoirCeoda). ufrosma dakvirvebiT SeaTvaliera da xeli CamoarTva. axalgazrdebi gadaexvivnen, Tan hkiTxes, sadauri dadiani xaro. - gurjaaneli varo, - kvlav Tavi daukra ramazma. stumrebma gaikvirves, saidan sadao? Cemi didi papa Camosaxlebula revoluciis dros. areulobas gamoridebia da SedarebiT mSvid kaxeTSi dasaxlebula. gurjaanSi mxolod Cveni ojaxia dadianebis gvarisa. rogor minda Cemi gvaris xalxis gacnoba, magram jer ara mqonia saSualeba, Tqven vina brZandebiTo? - swored Cvena varT dadianebi da Sens gasacnobad movediT. SemTxveviT gavigeT Seni gvari. wamodi, restoranSi gepatiJebiT, ufro axlos gavicnoT erTmaneTio. sufra mTawmindaze gaSales, aivnidan gascqeronen dedaqalaqs da Tan erTmaneTs eferebodnen, esiyvarulebodnen, cotani varT dadianebi, erTmaneTs unda gavufrTxildeTo. maSin xom mamis saxeliT mimarTva pativad iTvleboda da erTma, ukve kargad nasvamma dadianma, ramazs sTxova, mamaSenis saxeli maCuqeo. ramazi oci wlis ymawvili iyo. Rvinis sma axali dawyebuli hqonda da male daiTvra. daaviwyda Tavisi dadianoba da xaCikao, - upasuxa. rao, xaCikao??? Tavpirdasiebuli ramazi erTi kvira gareT ver gadioda, leqciebsac acdenda. Turme, morigeobiT scemdnen. gvaris Secvla ymawvil rafaels mamam urCia. ra ici, ra xdeba, win gaixede, egemand, gvarma cxovrebaSi xeli ar SegiSaloso. Tu Secvlaa, Secvla iyoso da didxans arc ufiqriaT, kaxeTSi Camosaxlebuli dadianis versia airCies. aba, rafikas dadianobas vin daijerebda da saxelic Secvales. es yvelaferi damamTavrebel klasSi xdeboda da saSualo skolis atestati ramaz dadianis saxelze gaica.

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oriode wlis Semdeg zemoT aRwerili incidenti moxda, magram ramazs warbic ar Seuxria, daiviwya, rogorc cudi sizmari, universitetSi ki cnoba waradgina, gripi mqonda garTulebulio. daamTavra swavla-ganaTleba da istoriis maswavleblad daiwyo muSaoba mSobliur raionSi. mere mixvda, rom maswavleblis xelfasiT ojaxs ver Seinaxavda da vaWrobas mihyo xeli, ufro sworad, spekulacias, maSin ase erqva, komunistebis dros. waramara eqskursiaze dadioda sabWoTa kavSiris Soreul qalaqebSi. Camohqonda deficituri saqoneli da mamasisxlad hyidda. mere dro Seicvala da TurqeTSi daiwyo siaruli, magram fexi ver moikida: wviTa da dagviT naSovn fuls biWebi erT kviraSi uxarjavdnen, restornidan ar gamodiodnen. restoranSi moswyindebodaT da saxlSi mihyavdaT Zmakacebi. - aRar aris, Svilebo, Rvino, durdoRaa ZirSi, - Cioda Sewuxebuli ramazi. - modi durdo! - gahkiodnen biWebi. - aRarc durdoa, xalxo, leqiRaa mxolod. - modi leqi! - bRavian galeqebuli biWebi. bolos ojaxSi leqic rom gamoilia, Svilebma mSobeli mama kargad dabegves, ukanaskneli kapikebi moaquCes da ruseTSi durTes Tavi. maTi xma aRar ismis, cocxlebi arian Tu mkvdrebi, aravin icis. gakotrebulma dadianma Zvel megobrebSi cotaodeni satrialo Tanxa isesxa, bazris misadgomebTan, xevis pirze, daxli Cadga da wvrilmanebiT movaWreebs SeuerTda. - erTi gaixedeT, biWebo, es Cveni TavadiSvili ra dRiT morbis! - gasZaxis movaWreebs zaura napireli. - TavadiSvili ki ara, namdvili viriSvilia! - xiTxiTebs feliqs maisuraZe. - kargi, xalxo, ra iyo, - dawynarebas cdilobda SoTa CugoSvili, - daberda kaci qarTvelobis fici-mtkicSi da meti raRa qnas?! amasobaSi aqoSinebuli dadiani daxlTan miiWra (carielTan!) da iq myofebs xelis qneviT Tavisken mouxmo: - gaigeT, xalxo, gaigeT? me, Turme, me, Turme, yaraSvili vyofilvar! yaraSvili vyofilvar, yaraSvili! qarTveli var,

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arian. eh, mcodnoda, rom yaraSvili viyavi!.. fiqriT daRlil avadmyofs Tvalebi exuWeba. samudamod. viRacam ambavi Camoitana ruseTidan, ramazis biWebi narkotikebiT vaWrobdnen da manqanaSi Caxoceso. Tavad ramazis saflavs didi xania balaxi faravs. ver gamravldnen kaxeTSi cru dadianebi. albaT, es maTi bediswera iyo. RmerTo, nu miwyen da iqneb pasuxi im gaxarbebul Cinovnikebsac mohkiTxo, ase daufiqreblad rom arigeben maRali rangis qarTul gvarebs.

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ga(m)ivlis... Cemnairi adamianebi 1989 weliwadSi erTxel ibadebian. roca 3978 wels Cemnairi adamiani daibadeba, saflavSi gaigeben Cemi beberi, qaTqaTa Zvlebi da gamivlis... me bavSvobaSi TojinebiT TamaSis nacvlad am usulo arsebebs kidurebs vaZrobdi, saTamaSo urikaze vdebdi da `Savlegos" simReriT warmosaxviT sasaflaoze mivasvenebdi. mere gamiara... roca 1989 wlis Semdeg dabadebuli Cemnairi patara adamiani Tojinebis magivrad cocxal adamianebs daaWris kidurebs, saTamaSos magivrad namdvil urikaze dadebs, `Savlegos" simReriT mTel qalaqs moatarebs, gvamis nafleTebs mJavas daasxams da amoWmul xorcs riyeze Caflavs, saflavSi gaigeben Cemi beberi, qaTqaTa Zvlebi, erTmaneTisken miCoCdebian da gamivlis... me Cems tolebTan SedarebiT aTi wliT ufro ganviTarebuli (da ara ganaTlebuli) viyavi. vocnebobdi gaevlo, magram ar gamiara... roca 3978 wels dabadebuli Cemnairi adamiani Svidi wlis asakSi dainteresdeba actekebis istoriiT, zedmiwevniT gaecnoba maTi msxverplSewirvis tradiciebs da dauyovnebliv aRasrulebs maT ocdamecxramete saukuneSi, saflavSi gaigeben Cemi beberi, qaTqaTa Zvlebi, ufro axlos miCoCdebian da gamivlis... me msaxiobi viyavi... samagaliTod micnobdnen Cems qalaqSi, ganaTlebuli, niWieri da zebunebrivad ganviTarebuli vegone yvelas, sinamdvileSi, nagavi viyavi mTeli cxovreba... ususuri, laCari, dauni, gaunaTlebeli da ukanaskneli maTxovari... arc aman gamiara... roca 3978 wels dabadebuli Cemnairi adamiani uSiSrad gamoaCens Tavis namdvil saxes, roca misi Tayvanismcemlebi dainaxaven sisxlismsmel vampirs, seriul mkvlels da SiSisagan guls SemoeyrebaT, roca TiToeul gulSemoyril Tayvanismcemels Cemnairi adamiani cocxlad gafatravs, cxeli sisxlis oxSivriT gabruvdeba da sisxlmowolili TvalebiT, duJmoreuli bageebiT daewafeba cxeli sisxlis TiToeul wveTs,

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amoaSrobs, xorcs daamarilebs da bavSvTa TavSesafrebs gaugzavnis, saflavSi gaigeben Cemi beberi, qaTqaTa Zvlebi, mWidrod SeuerTdebian erTmaneTs, ConCxad aewyobian da gamivlis... me ocdasami wlis asakSi avtoavariaSi CavZaRldi. rogor?.. rogor da... manqanas mTeli siswrafiT mivaqrolebdi svel trasaze, did satvirTos Sevaskdi da davkompostirdi... aRar gamivlis... roca 1989 wlis Semdeg dabadebuli Cemnairi adamiani, dampluri cxovrebiT Tavmobezrebuli, ocdasami wlis asakSi Cems sayvarel qalaqSi Cava, `tangencialeze" dadgeba da Tavis mosaklavad fexebiT gadaeSveba xelovnur mdinareSi, Cemi qaTqaTa, beberi Zvlebisagan awyobili ConCxi iq, bnel sasaflaoze xrtilebs Seisxams da gamivlis... me sikvdilamde gacilebiT adre davtove anderZi. Savi kubo, `sulTaTana", Cifsebi da erTi taSti cxeli wyali moviTxove panaSvidebze fexebis dasabanad. roca ocdamecxramete saukuneSi dabadebul Cemnair adamians italieli maSvelebi TmebiT amoaTreven `tangenciales" qveS gamavali xelovnuri mdinaridan da anderZis daweris pirobiT gauSveben, saflavSi Cayrili Cemi beberi ConCxi... aRar Seivseba da aRar gamivlis... mas ki gauvlis... italiel maSvelebsac gauvliT... Cems panaSvidebze tirilis magivrad lado burdulisa da "Led Zeppelin"-is Cemi sayvareli simRerebi ismoda musikaluri centridan. Cemi aferisti, dampali qarTveli megobrebi modiodnen, aferistul cremlebs yridnen, xelovnuri yvavilebi mohqondaT, Sav, ZviradRirebul feSenebelur kuboSi Cadebul Cems fermkrTal gvams Segnebulad uvlidnen ukuRma: sicocxleSic ukuRmarTi iyoo. aferistuli mwuxarebiT, niangis cremlebiT arTmevdnen xels moulodneli ubedurebiT Tavzardacemul mamas da mere Sekavebuli siciliT tovebdnen Cemi ojaxis saxls!.. ux, netav, Tqveni dampali sisxliT gamaZRo!... arada, yvelaze metad mama Semecoda, erTaderTi adamiani, romelic sicocxleSi miyvarda. masac male gauara!.. roca 3978 wels dabadebuli Cemnairi adamiani reabil230

itaciis kursebs gaivlis Cems sayvarel qalaqSi da misi avadmyofuri goneba isev mavnebluri, garyvnili azrebiT daitvirTeba, roca misi lamazi, sufTa, jansaRi sxeuli maxinji, WuWyiani da gaxrwnili suliT Senobidan samyarosTan urTierTobisaTvis gamova, amasac saflavSi gaigebs Cemi beberi ConCxi da kunTiT daifareba... mere gamivlis... Cems panaSvidze samZimris saTqmelad bolo modelis manqanebiT, `armanisa" da `versaCes" kostiumebSi gamowyobili, yelSi halstuxwaWerili pativcemuli cocxali gvamebi rom movidnen, Cemi qarTuli ka aRSfoTebam moicva, erTi ambavi atexa da ise gaJRinTa Cemi xrwnadi gvamiT damZimebuli Savi kubo da mTeli oTaxi siZulviliT, rom pativcemulma gvamebma CoqviT Semomiares ukuRma, sisxlis cremlebiT itires Cemi moCvenebiTi zebunebrivi niWi da CoqviT gavidnen gareT, sadac Cemi sruli gansaxiereba - talaxis wvima modioda. mere gaiara... roca 3978 wels dabadebuli Cemnairi adamiani morig msxverpls gafatravs, Signeuls amoaclis, xuT litr cxel sisxls sulmouTqmelad amoxapavs da eSmakTan dadebul sanaZleos moigebs, roca msxverpli mniSvnelovani figura aRmoCndeba, roca Cemnair adamians guantanamos cixis magivrad yelze Tokmobmuls SeaTreven rusTavis mkacri zedamxedvelobis koloniaSi, roca iq gaugonari, mxecuri mkvlelobebis seria datrialdeba da roca, erT mSvenier dRes, Cemnair adamians karcerSi venebgadaWrils ipovian, roca zedamxedvelebi gakvirvebiT gaSeSdebian karSi, radgan gadaxsnili venebidan mCqefare sisxls an majebs qvemoT Sededebul kolts ver dainaxaven, roca eqspertiza daskvnis, rom Cemnairma adamianma sakuTari sisxli ukanasknel wveTamde dalia, Cemi saflavSi Cagdebuli, kunTgadakruli ConCxis safari bunebriv fers daibrunebs. mere gauvlis... Cems gasvenebaze uamravi dampali qarTveli aferisti movida. isev ukuRma Semouares Cems feSenebelur Sav kubos, imave motiviT: cxovrebaSic ukuRmarTi adamiani iyoo, da gareT dadgnen. Cemi ka isev gacofda, isev mounda am damplebis myrali sisxliT gaZRoma, isev damuxta mTeli saxli Tavisi namdvili

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bunebis suliT da es viriSvili dampali qarTvelebi muxlebze xoxviT Semoiyvana naxevrad gaxrwnili gvamis win... laCrebma "sulTaTana" ugalobes Cems ararsebul suls, sisxlis cremlebiTac damitires isev, oRond, ara imitom rom Sevenane romelimes, aramed, imitom rom SeeSindaT... gareT ki sisxlnarevi Tovli modioda da Cems TeTr manqanas sapatarZlo kabiT mosavda. gadarecxes da gauara! roca 3978 wels dabadebuli Cemnairi adamianis lamaz sxeuls dampali sulis gareSe Sua qalaqSi daasveneben, raTa gamvlel-gamomvlelma yvavilebisa da cremlis nacvlad misTvis furTxi ar daiSuros, saflavSi Cemi kunTgadakruli ConCxi kansac gadaikravs da 1989 wlis winandeli gvami imave formasa da saxes miiRebs, rac Savi kubos Savi Tavsafris dafarebisas hqonda. esec gamivlis... roca Cemi gasvenebis dro moaxlovda, sisxlis Tovlma imata. wiTelkapiuSonianma axalgazrdebma swrafad gaitanes oTaxidan Cemi xelovnuri yvavilebi. Cemi gvami zeimobda sisxls... mere oTxma mutrukma aswia Cemi Savi, feSenebeluri kubo, mxarze gaido Cemi gaxrwnili gvami da fexiT waasvena sisxlis TovliT gadawiTlebul sasaflaoze. zed dasdioda Cems leSs sisxlis Tovli da bednieri iyo eg dampali!.. warmodgena ar maqvs, gauara Tu ara... roca 3978 wels dabadebul Cemnair adamians xuTi dRis Semdeg ar gaasveneben, roca ideba qarSi, wvimasa da sicxeSi saboloo ayrolebamde, roca dampal Toks moabamen yelze da xoxviT waaTreven im sasaflaosken, sadac 1989 wlis win Cemi dampali sulis aranakleb dampali gvami dakrZales, Cems xorcSesxmul sxeulSi limfuri siTxe amoZravdeba. esec gaivlis... amoTxril samaresTan mxridan CamomiRes. gaanaTloso, wiTeli RviniT uTxres Cems garyvnil-gaxrwnil cxedars, Tavi daaWedes Cems feSenebelur kubos da ukuRma Camdes samareSi Zveli motiviT: sicocxleSic ukuRmarTi iyoo. es arasodes gamivlis!.. roca 3978 wels dabadebuli Cemnairi adamianis ayrolebul gvams CemsaviT ukuRma Camarxaven samareSi, Cems xorcSesx232

mul gvamSi sisxli amoZravdeba, aCqefdeba, aCqroldeba, gaivlis sisxlis mimoqcevis orive wres da guls SekumSavs... swored maSin gavaxel Tvalebs da mxolod sibneles aRiqvamen Cemi 1989 wlis ganmavlobaSi dabrmavebuli Tvalebi. mere gamivlis... rom dammarxes, mere iyo tradiciuli qelexi: qalebi calke, kacebi - calke!.. me ki anderZSi SaviT TeTrze davwere, rom mindoda Cemi dampali sulis mosaxsenieblad gamarTul Rreobaze orive erTmaneTis gverdigverd aRmoCeniliyo!.. sazizRrebo!.. anderZi ar SemisruleT. gadagixdiT, sakuTar ararsebul suls geficebiT!.. gainteresebT, ra qnes Cemi ararsebuli sulis sacxoneblad gamarTul Rreobaze?.. CaTqvlifes lobio, xaSlama, CaxeTqes gakeTebuli wiTeli Rvino. daTvrnen. ise daTvrnen, rom pirdapir Roris stadiaSi gadavidnen. mere, qarTuli folklori uyvarda am ukuRmarTso, da raWuli `lale" wamoiwyes areuli xmebiTa da uwmawuri sityvebiT. mere Sarvlis yvela Rili gaixsnes, Ripebi rom Tavisuflad hqonodaT, mouSves yelSi waWerili halstuxebi, Cemi danatovrebis - manqanisa da talaxiani Ceqmebis sadRegrZelod gansxvavebuli CaxeTqes da wamoiSalnen. gareT Caxdilebi gavidnen, ar rcxvenodaT, Rilebis Sekvra arc gaxsenebiaT. meore dRes gakeTebul wiTel Rvinos borjomi daayoles da gauaraT... Cemma mogonebamac Cailuris wyali dalia... gaviare!.. roca 3978 wels dabadebuli Cemnairi adamianis yviTel kuboSi Cadebul gvams ukanasknel gorox miwas miayrian, Cems 1989 wlis win gardacvlil sxeulSi suli dabrundeba, gamwardeba, aborgdeba da zurgiT wamoimarTeba samaridan. mere gaivlis... mesaflaveebs SeeSindebaT, anerviuldebian, aborgdebian da SiSisgan gamowveuli stresiT iqve gawydebian! me gamiara. Tqven ar gagivliT. arasodes gagivliT. me davbrundebi Suris saZieblad imisaTvis, rom Cemi an233

derZi ar SeasruleT, imisaTvis, rom Tvrameti saukunis gasvlis miuxedavad, genderuli problemebi mainc arsebobs... Tumca, ratom vnerviulob, mawuxebs viTom es sakiTxi?.. namdvilad ara... mere ukan xom ar Cavbrunebuliyavi?.. isev ConCxad viqceodi da Zvlebis gaxrwnasac davelodebodi. mere, Suri rom unda geZia?.. ee... gamivlis... gagivliT... mere erTad SevikribebiT, vicekvebT, vimRerebT, vimxiarulebT, davixocebiT, aRvsdgebiT... magram qarTvelebi yovelTvis uzneo erad davrCebiT... gagvivlis... es moTxrobac gaivlis... Tqvenc gagivliT Cemi arseboba gonebaSi da mec gamivlis... gaviare!..

midioda matarebeli... midioda matarebeli... eqvsi Cabmuli cisferi vagoniT da daburuli fanjris minebiT... simpaTiurad gamoiyureboda... ager, erT-erT sadgurSi Sevida. kari gaiRo da xalxi gadmocvivda. amomsvlelebic mravlad iyvnen, bargic blomad hqondaT... isev daiZra matarebeli... isev eqvsi Cabmuli cisferi vagoniT... isev daburuli fanjris minebiT... oRond, ufro gatenili... xalxi vagonSi ver eteoda da winkarSi idga. vagonebi sxvadasxva produqtiTa da xiliT Tavmodgmuli vedroebiT ufro iyo savse, vidre mgzavrebiT. es ukanasknelni ki galajuliyvnen. erTi fexi vedros erT mxares edgaT, meore - meore mxares. quTaisidan momavali, skamebze nebierad gadawolili mgzavrebi netari RimiliTa da gazuluqebuli saxeebiT akvirdebodnen qveynis aRmosavleT nawilSi amosulT, fexzec rom Zlivs idgnen gasavaTebulni.

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gaWyletili qudi Zlivs Camoifxata erTianad mtverSi amoganglulma biWma. yurebze etyoboda, rom moWidave iyo. vagons miRma axalgazrda da qera mzeTunaxavic gamoCndnen. erTmaneTs Tvals morcxvad usworebdnen da daWmuWnuli tansacmlidan mtvers iferTxavdnen. vagoni aT wuTSi daicala. matrebelma erTi daikivla da daiZra. gaisma borblebis monotonuri xmauri. midioda matarebeli... winkarSi sisxlis kvaliT... daclili... WuWyiani... midioda, rom meore dilas kvlav analogiuri istoriebiT gamomgzavrebuliyo daniSnulebis adgilisaken... midioda imitom, rom aTasi juris adamianisaTvis droebiT Tu samudamod Seecvala adgilsamyofeli... midioda. ubralod, reisi hqonda aseTi... midioda matarebeli...

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kosmonavtika - Cven gavfrindebiT! - xSir-xSirad umeorebda lado Tavis Seyvarebuls, rooca mivardnil parkSi, an sadme quCaSi seirnobdnen, - aucileblad gavfrindebiT, - amasac daayolebda da kmayofili TvalebiT Sexedavda Tikos. Tikos gaeRimeboda da Tvals moaridebda, imitom rom ar icoda, ra unda epasuxa lados gabrwyinebuli, TviTkmayofili saxisTvis. usaqmuri tipi iyo lado. gardatexis asakis meamboxeoba Cumad da melanqoliurad rom Seepareboda, mSoblebs daereoda da daemuqreboda, - trailerSi gadaval sacxovreblado. es fraza filmidan hqonda damuRamebuli. ra Tqma unda, amerikuli filmidan, romelTa yurebiTac xSirad klavda dros. kompiuteris ekrans miSterebul da daRlil TvalebSi rom moxvdeboda uwyinari ded-mama, wamoimarTeboda lado, malebis tkacatkuciT gaimarTeboda welSi da mSoblebs autexda Cxubs, uazro, arafrismTqmel Cxubs. TiTqos eg asaki gavlili unda hqonoda, magram jer kidev daucxromlad iTxovda Tavisuflebas, damoukideblobas, ambobda, rom yvelam Tavi unda daanebos. mSoblebi erTi-ori sityviT Seepasuxebodnen da amiT mTavrdeboda es ambavi. dastacebda nervebaSlili lado jinsis qurTuks xels da gareT gavardeboda. iq monaxavda Tavis rokerul sastavs, sadme gaivlidnen, dalevdnen, esec daurekavda Tikos da daemuqreboda, - SenTan unda movideo. Tiko gabrazebuli etyoda, - eg ar gabedoo, - da mobilurs gauTiSavda. wavidoda lado saxlSi da isev Caujdeboda internetSi filmebs, ase, dilis oTx saaTamde, mere ki SuadRemde eZina, mSoblebi mainc aRar aRviZebdnen uimedo moTxovniT, rom skolaSi wasuliyo. saerTod, lados ukvirda, araviTar winaaRmdegobas rom ar awydeboda. mama samsaxuris saqmeebSi iyo Cafluli, dedas didi xania yvelaferze Caeqnia xeli. lado amazec brazdeboda, undoda mudmivi mowinaaRmdegis, mopaeqris yola, romelsac daumtkicebda, rom is marTalia da mis simarTles Cagraven. da veravis rom verafers umtkicebda, nervebi eSleboda, roker tipebTan saxuravebze dacocavda da saaTobiT elaparakeboda aqedan wasvlaze da trailerSi cxovrebaze. mkveTrad hyavda gamijnuli Tiko da saxuravis sastavi.

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hamaki (bodvebi) 1. xom gaxsovs, deda? es is droa, roca dro ar arsebobs da me da RmerTi vTamaSobT banqos. me vageb: 1-2. RmerTi miyurebs, makvirdeba da Semdeg meubneba: `Tu ginda moigo, unda iswavlo, rogor iTamaSo." isev miyurebs da vgrZnob, rogor miZvrebian misi Tvalebi Cems siRrmeebSi, patimariviT mCxreken da bolos xvdebian, rom Cemi sxeuli amindia. Sen, albaT, aRar gciva, deda! xom aRar gciva, de? me vici, rom warsuli ar arsebobs. istoria sisulelea. Cemi warsulic ki, rasac `bavSvobas" vuwodeb, mxolod filmia, romelsac xandaxan vuyureb xolme monatrebuli... dRes me isev mTavar rols vTamaSob - erTaderTi msaxiobi var, visac ufleba misces, magram es moZraobac pirobiTia, radgan kadrebi matareblis vagonebiviT misdeven erTmaneTs da me ver vaswreb quCaze gadarbenas, roca mwvane inTeba. isev meufleba SiSi, rogorc bavSvobaSi, roca gavrbodi da vecemodi. da xelisgulebidan sisxli mdioda. da veZaxdi dedas, romelic arasodes modioda. da mere sisvele migubdeboda TvalebTan. da mtkioda, rom deda ar myavda. an iqneb myavda kidec da me ar maxsovs... roialTan vjdebi (ramdeni welia aRar damikravs). vcdilob, gavixseno erTaderTi nawarmoebi, romlis dakvrac miyvarda - , ""... erTmaneTSi ixlarTebian bgerebi da notebi. notebi da bgerebi. gamebi. akordebi. maJorebi da minorebi... Cemi erT-erTi moTxrobis gmiriviT miTxevaddeba TiTebi. da mivcurav musikaSi, romelsac ukve aRar vukrav. es mSvidi curvaa. xom gaxsovs, deda, rogor vocnebobdi bavSvobaSi, rom zRva menaxa? gamarjoba, RmerTo! ici, Cemi televizori gadaiwva.

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grZnobad samyaroSi var mTlianad an zRvarze mainc da mZuls Seni filosofia! didi ambavi, Tu banqoSi migeb! gamarjoba, RmerTo! Seni moqsovili kaSne mekeTa dRes da ar momixda. jobda, ufro Txeli da uferuli mogeqsova. xom xvdebi, RmerTo, axla daviwye TamaSis swavla. da Cemi saaTi Zalian daberda. RmerTo, rogor fiqrob, vin gadaufrina gugulis budes? 2. zamTris bavSvebi dilaobiT yovelTvis is iRviZebda pirveli. Cems oTaxSi Semorboda da TvalebSi mkocnida, rom gaveRviZebine... fexsacmlis Tasmebs mikravda, zurgze mikidebda da ase damatarebda oTaxidan oTaxSi... xatva maswavla. yvavilebs mixatavda da mere mec yvavilebi davxate pirvelad... saRamoobiT ezos karTan visxediT da gzas gavyurebdiT. Cven velodiT, sul velodiT da gvjeroda, rom is movidoda. oRond me dRemde ar vici, vin unda mosuliyo... pirveli tkivili maSin ganvicade - pirveli adamianuri tkivili, roca gavige, rom yvavilebi mxolod me unda mexata. mogvianebiT ki aRmovaCine, rom TvalebSi mxolod im adamianebs vkocnidi, romlebic Zalian miyvarda... me vwuxvar, rom TvalebSi arasodes gakoce. arada, mjera, rom icodi, romel kategorias migakuTvnebdi... amas winaT Cems leqsebs vkiTxulobdi erT myudro literaturul kafeSi da uceb mTeli arsebiT vigrZeni, rom iq iyavi, msmenelebs Soris. da mominda dameZaxa SenTvis: `sad xar, Se wiTelsifaTiano! isev mekaifebi, xom?" raRac Camwyda da gameRima Tan... ici, me mjera, rom axla marTla cxovrob kentavrebTan erTad did tyeSi, sadac Sokoladis da rZis xeebia, rogorc gwamda. da roca aq ggrZnob, CemTan, da veRar gexebi, sul vfiqrob, rom ai, mec xom waval im tyeSi odesme, xoda avdgebi da erT did naWer picas wavuReb-meTqi im nabiWvars da aucileblad Sevasruleb imas, rac aq damagvianda - TvalebSi gakoceb... vici, axla metyodi: `ra suleli xar, magram mainc miyvars Seni TiTebi..."

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hei, RmerTo! xom ar CageZina? gamofxizldi! uxerxulia Tvlemde, roca... gulis babua dagivarda. RmerTo, es bavSvebi Seminaxe ra! gadaminaxe zamTrisTvis, rom palto Sevikero da mere... RmerTo, xandaxan mgonia, rom `mere" ar arsebobs. Sen mainc xom ici - sesilia maSin mokles, roca dabades... da iqneb es sulac me viyavi - sesilia, romelic maSin mokles, roca dabades? 3. me ise daviRale... rva Ramea ar mZinebia. vxvdebi, rom absoluturad yvela gancdisgan davicale, rom erTaderTi, rac TavSi mitrialebs Zilia da Zalian mindeba, Sua quCaSi tanze gavixado, raTa xalxma dainaxos yvelaze daRlili da carieli adamianis siSiSvle... ver vcnob axloblebs, da Tu vcnob, velaparakebi nela, wyvetilad, radgan laparakis Tavi ar maqvs, ver gamovTqvam sityvebs... isini ki ver xvdebian, rom daviRale, rom ise var daRlili, SeiZleba Tavi movikla da es xom yvelaze ucnauri motivia? `dRes Tavi moikla axalgazrda gogom, radgan is daiRala..." namdvilad gavriskavdi, sasacilod da banalurad rom ar meCvenebodes suicidi... me var Seni Semodgomis patriarqi da me ukvdavi ar var. me SemiZlia yvelaferi, magram martooba... meZineba. Cems xelebSi gadaTenebul Rameebs viTvli da vagroveb, rom mere gvirgvini dagiwna da gamomSvidobebisas xeli dagiqnio Cemi warsulis matareblis fanjridan. mjera, rom dainaxav. Tumca, es xom sisulelea... me ramdenjerme gavirecxe Tvalebi, rom wameSala bavSvoba da dedaCemi. axla ki Seni nayidi bileTiT vbrundebi ukan da Cemi nabijebis nakvalevze Tavidan vswavlob xazebis gavlebas... ici, me Zalian daviRale. da unda daviZino axla. axla unda daviZino, radgan mxolod axla vgrZnob wuTis udroobas, roca iRviZeben Toliebi da mesmis jonaTan livingstonis sunTqva. "Tu aris sadme zecad wodebuli adgili?"

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es is droa, roca dro ar arsebobs da me da RmerTi vTamaSobT banqos. me vigeb: 3-2. meubneba, rom adamianebs vuyvarvar, radgan miyvars Tavusufleba. me ki hamakSi vwvebi da viZineb... ar vici, ramden xans meZina - erTi dRe? ori? sami? iqneb saukune?! es xom is droa, roca dro ar arsebobs. da me samyaros ablabudasaviT vaqsov sazRvrebs... ici, ZilSi vgrZnobdi, rogor mayrida dekemberi adriani gazafxulis gadarCenil bususebs. bedniereba moaqvso, miTxres...

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qondris kaci (zogi tyuili, zogi marTali) CvenTan erTi biWi cxovrobda, avTo. pataraobidanve angina Zlier awuxebda. mexuTe klasSi iyo, glandebis operacia gaukeTes da `gaaTavisufles tkivilisagan". zrda Sewyvita da Zalian patara darCa. gadioda dro da Zalian iCagreboda TanatolebSi. Tanaklaselebma avTos xumrobiT `qondris kaci" Searqves. mSoblebi Zalian ganicdidnen Svilis mdgomareobas, ra ar iRones, vis ar aCvenes bavSvi, sazRvargareTac daukavSirdnen, eZebdnen zrdis hormonebs, magram yovelive uSedego aRmoCnda. eqimebma daaskvnes, rom operaciis dros zrdis nervi dauzianebiaT da avTo aRar gaizrdebao. yvela Seegua mdgomareobas. qondris kaci didi enakvimati da xumara gamodga, sadac is iyo, mTeli axalgazrdoba iq mogrovdeboda xolme da iwyeboda xumroba, trabaxi da cocxali tyuilebi. qondris kacs veravin sjobda. erTxel, aseTi Sekrebis dros yvelam Tavisi ambavi gaixsena, avTomac Tavisi Tqva da Tanac dasZina: waval, kldeze gadavvardebi da cocxali gadavrCebio. yvelam gulianad gadaixarxara: magaze didi tyuilic gagvigonia Sengano. qondris kaci iqve axlos WinWvelis naTxar goraze avida da gadavarda. erT dRes mezoblebs qondris kacis simRera SemoesmaT: `wisqvils simindi waviRe avkide samsa katasao", gaixedes, rom marTlac gamouyvania qondris kacs katebi da simindi aukidebia, gzaSi Tagvebi SemoefeTnen, katebi Tagvebs gamoudgnen da simindi daubnies. qondris kacma erT Tagvs keti mouqnia da fexi mostexa, danarCenebma qondris kacs simindi sul mTlad SeuWames da daemuqrnen kidec: momavalSic rom yanas daTesav, imasac SegiWamT mTlianado. zamTari axlovdeboda. qondris kacma ifiqra, zamTars mainc ver gadavitano, Cavida bostanSi, Camokida Toki qondarze da Camoekida - Tavs davixrCobo. mezoblebma dainaxes qondarze Camokidebuli, Camoxsnes,

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ras CurCuleben Semodgomis foTlebi foToli mowyda xes da gafrinda. bneloda. avtobusma Caigrixina, sinaTle zolad gadaatara oTaxs da Tan waiyola. Wers avxede, angelozebi isev ise civad miyureben TeTri Rrublebidan. ori Zalian lamazia, SeiZleba mesamec, magram feri gadasvlia. cisferi kedlebi usasrulod meCveneba. Tvalebi davxuWe da gadaveSvi sizmrebSi. gareT mawanwala lekvs Caxuteboda patara mawanwala. cioda. gaTenda atmisfrad. - gamarjoba! - dila mSvidobisa. - ra dagesizmra? - ormoSi Cavardnili spilo amomyavda. - amoiyvane? - ara, mec Tan gadavyevi da am dros gameRviZa. Sen vin xar? - me - yvelaferi. - mainc? - mainc araferi. - ratom xar yvelaferi? - imitom rom yvelaferi vici. - ra xdeba caSi? - cris. - ratom? - imitom, rom patara Rrubelma deda dakarga. - mere Wiamaias sTxovos da apovninebs. miwaze ra xdeba? - miwaze guburebi mravldebian, is ki mawanwala ZaRlebis da katebis sarkea, xandaxan loTebisac. - kidev ras xedav? - yvelafers. - mainc? - adamianebiT gaWedil avtobuss. biWi da gogo dganan. ai, biWma gogos jibeSi xeli Caucura - albaT qurdia. gogom igrZno, Sexta, magram Tavi Seikava da ironiuli RimiliT raRac uTxra. - ra uTxra? - ra Seni saqmea? - ar ici da ar meubnebi.

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- ho, ar vici. - aki yvelaferi vicio?! matyuara. - ra uTxra da naCuqari safulea, Zalian gTxov, ar momparoo. biWma gauRima, - arc vapirebdio, fuli gadauxada da Cavida. - aba, ratom Cauyo xeli? - aba, me ra vici. - sad wavida biWi? - guburebis gzas daadga. Sig fexebs abijebda da iwuweboda. - sawyali, albaT Sia, modi, dauZaxe da Cems fafas vaWmev. - ara mgonia Siodes. - aba, ra ggonia, ras Sveba gogo? - gogom avtobusidan Tvali gaayola. mxrebi aiCeCa. icno biWi. skolis pirdapir cxovrobda, amas Tu gaubedavda, ar egona. avtobusidan Camovida, isic guburebian gzas gauyva. neta, ra gauWirda aseTi, raRa maincdamainc Cems jibeSi Zvrebodao? gogo biWze fiqrobda. arada, moswonda, guli ewureboda. - ratom ewureboda guli? - imitom, rom biWi moswonda. - mere? - mere jibeSi xeli Caiyo da gaCerda. jibidan didi TeTri werili amoiRo. werili gaxsna, mere dakeca, Seinaxa da saxlisken gaiqca, Tan guburebSi xteboda. uxaroda, iwuweboda. - ra moswonda? - ra sulelur kiTxvebs misvam, ramdeni wlis xar? - me bevris. - mainc? - sabavSvo baRs vamTavreb. - mere, aravin mogwonebia? - ki, momwonda. SuadRis Zilis mere yovelTvis asvelebda logins da tiroda. - aRar mogewona? - ki, dilas momwonda, SuadRis mere - aRar. - axla? - axla aRar momwons da guli mewureba. manc, Sen vin xar? - me - kacuna. - vxedav, rom kacuna xar, magram naTuraSi ras akeTeb? - vcxovrob.

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- adre rom ar minaxavxar? - imitom, rom patara iyavi. axla didi gogo xar, ukve xuTis gaxdi. gilocav dabadebis dRes. davimorcxve. madloba gadavuxade, Tan guliT saCuqars velodi. kacunas TiTqos raRac gaaxsenda da TiTi SublTan miido. - ho, marTla, saCuqari fanjris rafasTan dagxvdeba, - da gauCinarda. me Tvalebi movWute. kacuna aRar iyo. angelozebian Wers avxede da Cavfiqrdi. haeri CavisunTqe. kedels Sevxede. bavSviani qalis suraTi isev ekida. rogorc dedam maswavla, pirjvari gadaviwere da viloce. yvelaferi rigze iyo, ubralod, axali nacnobi arsad Canda. saCuqari gamaxsenda. sarkmelTan mivirbine, saocrad lamazi Semodgomis foTlebi da yvavilebi davinaxe. aviRe da roialze Cinur larnakSi Cavalage. foTlebi aSrialdnen. moviwyine, magram guli imiT davimSvide, rom kacuna namdvilad cxovrobda naTuraSi da aucileblad movidoda. man xom aseTi lamazi saCuqari gamomigzavna. aucileblad, aucileblad movidoda da metyoda, ras CurCuleben Semodgomis foTlebi.

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*** - , ! - rao? ra mindao? - mogesalma, biWo, midi, Senc uTxari zdravstvuite-Tqo. deida anitam arc daacada misalmeba Tavis arc Tu ise axlobel naTesavs, aufriala cxvirwin marao, datrialda ukan gadagdebuli TaviT, Tavisi azriT, axalgazrda ymawvilze STabeWdileba moaxdina, magram deida anitas oxunjobas mas isev jibeSi gasatexad ganwiruli sigareti erCia. arc Tu ise Tavazianad Tavi daukra da verandaze gavida. - ! - didi emociiT amoRerRa yalbi sityvebi gawbilebulma qalbatonma. mere yvela magidas miujda. Cais smis dro iyo. yvelaferi: sufra, skamebis gadasafareblebi, xelsaxocebi, qolgebi (risTvis sWirdebodaT oTaxSi qolga?) da kidev bevri uazro nivTi, ra Tqma unda, TeTrmaqmanebiani iyo. aRfrTovanebulebi saubrobdnen: axalgazrda mwerlebs wina Taobisas adarebdnen, viRacis mogonil Worebs avrcobdnen da ase, momaval uazro TavSeyramde. qalbatoni anita vin iyo da ras warmoadgenda, gasagebia, axalgazrda ymawvili ubralod iZulebuli gaxldaT, garemocvas ahyoloda da xuSturebi daekmayofilebina, qalbatoni anitas ase Sinaurad mimRebi gogona burJuaziul sazogadoebaSi iyo gaTqvefili, meoTxe - susti sqesis warmomadgeneli ki mudam auRelvebeli adamiani iyo, Tumca aRelvebasac Zalian Cveulebrivad axerxebda. nikotinis mcire dozis miRebis Semdeg axalgazrda ymawvilic dawynarda, axal stumars oTaxSi gamoerida. gogonebi da ufrosi qalbatoni saseirnod gamzadebuliyvnen. deida anitam isev ymawvilis gulis da gonebis mogeba scada, - . gogonebma CaixiTxiTes. mere fiqrebSi CaiZirnen. ymawvils sami mklavi unda hqonoda, rom yvelasTvis SesZleboda gadanawileba. deida anita erT mklavs daswvda, gogonebidan ki, burJuaziis qomagma moaxerxa mamakacis erTaderTi Tavisufali xelis dasakuTreba. meore, Cveulebisamebr, auRelvebeli iyo da namdvilad ar ekadreboda dasaxelebuli mizeziT aRelveba. mokled, saRamo xans, lampi252

onebis mkrTal SuqSi mdinaris piras miseirnobdnen ymawvili, mis mklavebs dasakuTrebuli qalbatonebi da axali mklavis maZebari auRelvebeli, aseve susti sqesis warmomadgeneli. aseTi, arc Tu ise azriani, mokle ambavi SeiZleba saqarTveloSic momxdariyo. gamarjoba! Cvenc msofliosken miveqanebiT!

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Svidi `or lulaSi" viyaviT me, nika da rkinis yuTi, romelic aTasi xaraxuriT iyo savse. velodebodiT SekveTas, romelic, wesiT, Tvramet wuTSi unda moetanaT, arada, ukve naxevari saaTi iyo gasuli. visxediT Cumad, TiTqos raRacas velodebodiT, ucxoebiviT viyaviT da iSviaTad Tu SevxedavdiT erTmaneTs. ori yumi. - ici, guSin, RamiT gameRviZa, - daviwye omaxiani xmiT, saWiro oTaxSi mindoda da imitom gameRviZa, - davukonkrete, hoda, isev sawolSi rom Cavweqi, daviwye fiqri. hoda, vfiqrobdi, me rom ocdasami wlis gavxdebi, Sen ocdaaTis iqnebi. saxe moeRuSa, magram ar SeumCnevia. - me isev aseTi viqnebi, Sen kidev mTlianad Seicvlebi, isev siCume. Semdeg gaviRime. mixvda. - mase ZaliT nu miRimi, ver vitan, xom ici. movida Cveni SekveTa. uxmod SevudeqiT Wamas. rames Tu ityoda, vpasuxobdi, Tu ixumrebda - vicinodi. mokled, mis xasiaTze avewye, rasac is akeTebda, mec vimeorebdi. Semdeg ratomRac iseTi Tema SemoiWra, arasdros rom ar gvisaubria - rogori biWebi mogwonso? daviwye raRac sisuleleebi, yvelas mived-movede, visac vicnobdi. araferi gamovida. raRac ver iyo kargad. rogor ar miyvars es SegrZneba, cudad rom aris yvelaferi da rom verafers Sveli. movrCiT Wamas, gviani iyo ukve, iketebodnen da Cvenc gareT gamovediT. raRac suleluri Cveva gvqonda, Cems saxlamde yovelTvis fexiT mivdiodiT. arada, im saRamos yinavda. arc xelTaTmani mqonda da rkinis yuTi SiSveli xeliT meWira. gamiwiTlda da gameyina. raRacebi vibodialeT, Semdeg gavCumdi. - Zalian mZime periodi maqvs axla, - Cumad Tqva. arc Semixedavs. Tavi davxare, rkinis yuTi CavbRuje da uxmod gavyevi. - mismen? - aha, - Tavi davuqnie. - albaT ianvridan gamivlis, biWebs raRac gamosdiT da

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saRamoobiT gareT gasvlas daviwyeb. mivxvdi, saiTac miyavda, nika muSaobda da erTaderTi dro, roca vxvdebodi, saRamo iyo. araferi miTqvams, arc SemimCnevia, rac, albaT, sruliad uadgilo iqneboda. zedmetad emociuri var. isev gavCumdiT. - Tak, ici, ratom var cudad? arc axla vupasuxe. - eqvsi Tve darCa zafxulamde, wels araferi zafxuli ar yofila, zRvazec ver wavedi, axla bolo zafxuli iqneba, an waval, an araferi... vusmendi. yvela sityva merWoboda, mZiZgnida, ise amtkivda yvelaferi, gayinul xel-fexs veRar vgrZnobdi. - Tak, me rom cudad var, SegiZlia mixvde, ratom var ase? gavCerdi. - Tak, ai, me xom bolomde gicnob? yvelaferi vici. vici, rodis xar cudad, yovelTvis vici, ras ratom akeTeb. Semrcxva, marTals ambobda. - da Sen ici? SegiZlia mixvde ase? - ara, - yvelaze suleluri pasuxi Cems cxovrebaSi, ras hqvia `ara"? - ici, ra Znelia iseT adamianTan urTierToba, romelic ver xvdeba, ras ratom akeTeb? ici ra momivida? yvelaferi erTianad miawva tvins, erT wertils magrad miaWira da Tvalebisken wamoiRo, nikamac Sematyo. - xvdebi axla amas ratom geubnebi? - ukve Cemi saxlis CasasvlelTan videqiT, - vera, xo? kargi, wadi. gavSeSdi. Tavi veRar Sevikave da Tvalebi cremlebiT gamevso. - Zalian daviRale am problemiT. ara, problemac ar hqvia, problema SeiZleba gqondes sami dRe, an erTi weli, es sxva raRacaa. wamskda cremlebi, saxe momeRrica, rkinis yuTi ukve nikas eWira, vaCuqe, rkinis yuTiviT civi gavxdi. - kargi, gaCerdi, - gaecina, uaresad amivarda slukuni, maRizianeb, ase rom dgaxar da tirixar! ici, rogori saxe mqonda? ai, rom ver dawer, unda naxo, rom gaigo. da, ai, damemarTa vai-uSvelebeli, cremlebi ise mom255

dioda, veRar vCerdebodi. - SeuZlebelia SenTan laparaki! rogor SeiZleba Sua laparakis dros tirili daiwyo? gaCerdi, xalxi giyurebs! miyurebda mTeli quCa, rogor videqi da vslukunebdi, ar mainteresebda, ise mtkioda yvelaferi, TiTqos talaxiani fexiT gamWylites. - wadi saxlSi! ra vqeni? usityvod Sevtrialdi da wavedi. ra davinaxe? gawiTlebuli da cremlebiT savse ori yavisferi Tvali, romlebsac Cemze aranakleb stkiodaT da romlebic arasdros damaviwydeba, radgan mxolod am ori Tvalis patrons SeeZlo ase etkina guli. is ocdaxuTis iyo, me Tvrametis.

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deJaviu martoobas ver rgaeqcevi, jein. marTalia, samyaro arc ise dalagebulia, magram aris raRac kanonzomierebebic. Cveni Sexeba iwvevs grZnobas, grZnoba iwvevs oms, oms danakargebi moyveba, omi an gagamdidrebs an miwasTan gagasworebs, amasobaSi gemarTeba nervozi, Cveni sxeuli veRar uZlebs Semotevebs oTxi mxridan, ibrZole, jein, ibrZole, Cven movigebT oms... da Senc, martoobas miCveulo jein... Senc moigeb oms, imedi arsebobs CvenSi da manam iarsebebs, sanam Cven viarsebebT, anu imedic ukvdavia, rogorc Cven, omic, rogorc movlena, arasdros mTavrdeba, ai, sad gverxeva, jein. sisxliani mdinareebi da nawlavebgadmogdebuli adamianebi izidavs am xalxs, xalxi brboa, brbo, ugunuri da impulsuri. brbos qarizma marTavs. qarizma xSirad pativmoyvarea. Cven miveqanebiT iqiT, saidanac daiwyo yvelaferi... `pirvelad iyo sityva da sityva iyo RmerTi", magram ar mesmis, rogor SeiZleba es dorblmoreuli vampirebi iqcnen erTad da es erTi iyos RmerTi, is xom yovlad wmindaa, is aris sawyisi yvelafris, is aris mTis da baris mSobeli, is aris Cveni sawyisic, ganvlili gzac da dasasrulic, is aris Cveni cxovelqmedebis mizezi da is aris yovelis mizezi... viTom xelaxali gadarCevis mowmeebi gavxdebiT??? neta ra ewoda momavalSi am movlenas, ucxoplanetelis xomaldi? Tu selapis navi?.. magram es yvelaferi jerjerobiT Sori momavalia, jer amerikas unda mixedva, ramdenime omi darCa gadasatani aziaSi, albaT, mere yvelaferi TavisiT dalagdeba... kataklizmebi aravis unda. ra Tqma unda, arc revolucia da masobrivi aqciebis sisxlSi CaxrCoba undaT, magram sxva gza ar aqvT, unda CaaxrCon... xalxma daiwyo adgilebis dajavSna maRliv ferdobebze ganmartoebisTvis, albaT mec male gaval. jein, me mjera, rom Sen moigebs oms, da me gtovebT marto Senc da Sens eSmakebsac. RmerTma daglocos!..

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ramdeni saaTia? dReSi ki ara da, dRe-RameSi? ocdaerTi, ori, sami, oTxio... da ar mjera.... Senc gaxsovs, albaT, maSin baRSi viyaviT me da Sen da gvawvimda marto me da Sen, imitom rom Zalian wvimda da baRSi marto me da Sen viyaviT. Sen ki ulamazesi iyavi da Tanac sveli... me giyurebdi Sen da Senc miyurebdi me, uyurebdi im "mes", romelic dros exveweboda, rom cotaTi Senelebuliyo, an sulac gaCerebuliyo da me da Sen, da me da Sen... meore dRes orives sicxe gvqonda. me ocdaCvidmeti da sami, Sen ufro maRali da me vnerviulobdi. me maxsovs, Sen rom maTematikis gakveTilze adiodi xolme ori saaTiT da qveviT gelodebodiT me da axvlediani. gareT kidev rom wvimda... me kidev, ho, da sawyali axvleda akawkawebda kbilebs da: `amo, ra, CemTan davelodoT, ori saaTi mainc ar gamova", magram me Sen ver galodinebdi sadarbazosTan da axvleda akawkawebda kbilebs. sawyali... maSin baRSi rom wvimda da ubralod, erTmaneTs rom vuyurebdiT, arc ki gvikocnia erTmaneTisTvis da mainc ucbad gavida mTeli dRe. arada, mTeli dRe wvimda, Cven kidev im TuTis xesac ar SevefareT, iqve rom idga. is ori saaTi kidev iweleboda xolme da me vxvdebodi, rom dRe-RameSi araa ocdaerTi, ori, sami da arc oTxi saaTi. me vxvdebodi, rom dRe-RameSi xan bevrad meti saaTia, vidre ocda... blablabla... da xandaxan saerTod arc erTi saaTi araa... me vxvdebodi, rom ar mqonia zustad, ocda... erTi raRaSuaSia da... ...oTxsaaTiani dRe...

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Rame mTel saxlSi marto xuTi sawoli da erTi magida idga. sawolebi rkinis iyo, ai, iseTi, rom gainZrevi da Wrials rom iwyeben, rom gaCerdebi da mainc rom Wrialeben. sinaTle ar gvqonda. koka-kolas boTlze sanTeli davamagreT da Rame vanTebdiT xolme. me movifiqre. - asanTi sad waiRe? - me sad waviRe? mand iqneba, daica, moginaTeb, - mobiluris ekrani avanTe, magram Cemi mobiluris ekrans marto Tavisi Tavis ganaTeba SeuZlia. - magrad minaTeb, xo ici! asanTi ver vipoveT. isic ver gavigeT, vin dakarga da, yoveli SemTxvevisTvis, yvelas saTiTaod vuwodeT debili da idioti. me rigiT mesame aRmovCndi. gansakuTrebuli efeqti ar hqonia, isedac sul idiots veZaxiT erTmaneTs. mere oTaxis centrSi did xaliCaze davsxediT. skamebi ar gvqonda. gviyvars Zirs jdoma. - mgoni Sokoladis `peCeniebs" davajeqi, - ivarauda marim. - gagiJdi, bolo kolofia!! - seriozulad aRvSfoTdiT. mari adga da xuTive mobiluris daxmarebiT aRmovaCineT, rom xaWapurze mjdara. - uf, eg mainc guSinwindelia. Turme sibneleSi mSvenivrad xedavs adamiani. - moita, ra, is Sokoladis "peCenia", barem SevWamoT. - daica, ra, xval SevWamoT, axla Ramea. - xo, ra, am SuaRames ra dros Sokoladebia! - daveTanxme nias. me da nia `wesiT dietaze" varT. `wesiT dieta" imas hqvia, erTi dRe rom dietaze xar, meore dRes bevrs rom Wam, mesame dRis pirvel naxevarSi isev dietaze rom xar, mere `SemTxveviT Sokoladi rom SemogeWmeba" da meoTxe dRes saerTod rom ar Wam, mexuTe dRidan ki yvelaferi Tavidan. mokled, `wesiT dieta" mazoxizmia da Tan aranairi Sedegi ar aqvs, magram me da niam amis Sesaxeb ar viciT. ufro sworad, viTom ar viciT. - au, Tqvenma dietam tvini waiRo ra, - ana gamxdaria da verasodes gaigebs, ratom vicavT xolme me da nia `wesiT dietas".

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- hoda, rao dedaSenma guSin, kide gvbombaveno? - mekiTxeba sofo. sofos Cven Soris yvelaze metad aRelvebs politika. yvelaze ufro morwmune da yvelaze didi patriotia. - kio, dagverxa mgoni. - avTom damireka da rezervSi apirebs wasvlas, rusebs deda unda vutiroo, tvini gaburRa. - eg xo debilia, ra! - kai, aba, saxlSi unda ijdes? - sofo, ra Tqma unda, aRSfoTda. - saxlSi unda ijdes, aba, jarSi ra unda, mainc da mainc unda mokvdes? - egre yvela saxlSi unda dajdes maSin! - zustad! yvela saxlSi unda dajdes, visi samsaxuric jarSi araa! modaSi Semovida axla es rezervi da yvelas mounda! - moda ra SuaSia, Seni qveyana rom omobs, fexebze unda daikido? - ar miTqvams fexebze unda daikido-meTqi, ubralod, rasac azri ara aqvs, is ar unda akeTo da ar unda ayve raRac sisuleleebs! ras izams axla jarSi! araferi ar sjobia megobrebTan zogadsakacobrio Temaze Cxubs, ai iseTs, mTlianad rom CaerTvebi. - idiotebi xarT ra, yvelafers fexebze ikidebT, egec Tu fexebze gkidiaT, aba ra ar gkidiaT maSin? - fexebze ar gvkidia, ubralod `dagruzvas" da dRe da Rame locvebis kiTxvas ar vapireb. sofo gaibutasaviT. - dRe da Rame locvebs arc me vkiTxulob. - ras hqvia, ar kiTxulob, axlave gaanebe mag Cifsebs Tavi da wamodi, vilocoT. gagvecina. Tumca, SeiZleba sulac ar iyo sasacilo. - xo, kai, gveyo, ra, amaze. - xo, sofo, Svidi welia ver gadagibireT oTxma kacma. - Svidi weli ara, eg axla gadairieT, Torem vin iyo, meSvide klasSi, Tema rom dawera samSoblos siyvarulze? gadavixarxareT. gulaCuyebulma qarTulis maswavlebelma lamis itira mag Temaze da mTel klasSi waikiTxa, rogorc saukeTeso namuSevari. bolo winadadeba gansakuTrebuli iyo:

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`saqarTvelo namdvilad RvTismSoblis wilxvedri qveyanaa." imis mere etyoba gavizardeT. - au, ram dagawerinaaa?.. - nia CabJirda. - ra ginda, ver gavige, ise moewona, mTel klasSi waikiTxa. Sensas mainc sjobda. raze iyo? - martoxela kaqtusze! - momeSvela ana. - gaCumdiii, - nia veRar sunTqavda. - au, ra idiotebi viyaviT, - daaskvna sofom. maganac eg igulisxma, imis mere gavizardeTo, pirdapir egre xo ar ityoda. - Sen marTla idioti iyavi, Tmebi gqonda bebiaCemiviT. - dampalo! sofom xeli mkra da ukan gadavvardi. e.i. xasiaTze movida. xeli raRac oTxkuTxedze davartyi, ufro sworad, marTkuTxa paralelepipedze. - eee, asanTi vipove! - idioti xar ra, mand ra undoda! - ra vici me, ra undoda! ,,mexuTe elementSi" brius uilisi asanTs rom anTebs, zustad iseTive sifrTxiliT avanTe da koka-kolis boTlze darWobil sanTels wavukide. - vaaa! - vTqviT erTad. mere kidev ufro meti efeqturobisaTvis mosaxdenad magidisken visrole kolofi. Ria fanjaraSi gadavarda. - fu, ra kretini xar! Tvalebi takunebSi gaqvs. ,,takunebi" xmarebaSi pampersis reklamidan Semovida da yvelaze sasacilo sityvaa dedamiwis zurgze. Cveni sityvaa. SarSan zafxulSi Cveni sityva "superultraimfraidioti" iyo, imis win - `komble". xeli idayvamde Cavyavi Cifsebis kolofSi. cotaRa iyo darCenili. - oRond, xvalidan dietaze varT, nia. - nu gaatakuneT, ra, am dietiT! koka-kolas boTlze rom sanTeli iwvis, lamazi sanaxavi yofila.

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tirili tirili daviwye. sanam daviwyebdi, mTeli naxevari dRe vifiqre, damewyo, Tu ara. xom unda iyos raRac mizezi, ris gamoc Rirs tirilis dawyeba. mec am mizezs veZebdi da ver vipove. hoda, daviwye tirili. mere gavifiqre, rom es ar unda iyos normaluri. ufro sworad, mere ki ar gavifiqre, isedac vicodi, rom normaluri araa, rad unda magas fiqri. magram mainc daviwye tirili da rogorme rom gamemarTlebina es aranormaluroba, ufro energiulad avamuSave tvini. xo unda momeZebna mizezi. ara, xom unda iyos raRac mizezi! ZaliT xo ar damiwyia tirili, marTla metireboda. albaT, raRac unda momxdariyo. da ra moxda? dRes iseTi araferi. diliT viyavi maRaziaSi da puri ar hqondaT. didad ar ganmicdia, mainc asuqebs! mere saxlSi amovedi da ,,hari poteris" meeqvse nawili CavikiTxe bolomde. boloSi dambldori mokvda. magaze Tu vtiri axla me, marTla cudadaa Cemi saqme! magram iqamdec metireboda, amitom eg gamoricxulia. kidev kargi! amasobaSi ki vtiri, da rom ver vipovo rame mizezi, gamodis, rom ver var! vuyurebdi CemTvis films, naxevari dRea metireba da films rom vuyureb, iqneb damaviwydes-meTqi. naxevari dRe viTmendi da mainc da mainc Sua filmSi mominda. filmic mainteresebs Tan, magram veRar vuyureb. Tan vtiri, Tan mizezebs veZeb, ratom vtiri da Cemi tvini damatebiT filmis yurebas veRar qaCavs. albaT, sasaciloa ase uazrod rom vtiri. `vafSe" sicils daviwyeb axla, magram Tan sicili da Tan tirili nametania. isedac ver var! vaime, marTla ver var! axla unda vimsjelo logikurad! dRes Tu araferi momxdara, iqneb guSin moxda da guSindelidan minda tirili, ubralod dRes mivxvdi, rom minda. qvecnobieri da rame. guSin raRa moxda, ro? viyavi piceriaSi, bevri ludi davlieT, mere kinoSi wavediT da patara darbazSi uCvenebdnen im `uJass", Cven rom gvindoda. SevediT patara darbazSi da radgan bevri ludi gvqonda daleuli, erT ambavSi viyaviT, aRar maxsovs wesierad. arada, ar vapirebdiT saerTod arsad wasvlas. yvelaze Zalian eg miyvars, arsad wasvlas rom ar apireb, mere uceb sadme rom waxval da gaerTobi kargad.

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magram ra SuaSia eg yvelaferi axla tirilTan! saerTod, bolos rodis vitire? axla Tu gavixseneb bolos rodis vitire, kidev rames mivxvdebi. ra moxda am bolo dros iseTi? ra da bebiaCemi mokvda ramdenime Tvis win, magram magazec ar mitiria. e. i. roca yvela normaluri adamiani unda tirodes, mainc da mainc maSin ar vtiri. axla raRa minda?! daica, mgoni morCa! xo morCa? ara, ra morCa, Sesveneba iyo, wavida meore wreze. saerTod raze vtiri xolme? erTxel, maxsovs, skolaSi axali qurTuki davkarge da imaze vitire. axla aSkarad ar damikargavs da, saerTod, ra dros qurTukia am Sua zafxulSi. kidev, maxsovs, imaze vitire, ezos bavSvebi rom skolis moedanze wavidnen saTamaSod da me miTxres, saxlSi mivdivarT yvelanio. arada, zustad vici, rom skolis moedanze wavidnen da specialurad miTxres, rom me ar gavyolodi. mere davinaxe. rom ar damenaxa, isedac vicodi, rom tyuilad meubnebodnen, yvelani saxlSi mivdivarTo, egreve mivxvdi, magram araferi vuTxari da mec saxlSi wavedi. saerTod, yovelTvis `maCmorebdnen" xolme eg bavSvebi. egec ra SuaSia axla, aTi wlis win iyo! axla erTi saavadmyofoSi wevs, kus tbaze CxubSi daWres, meorec saavadmyofoSi wevs, qmarma filtvi gauxvrita. danarCenebi ar vici. erTi magaTic! ara, kide vtiri! azrze xar, erTi naxevari saaTia vtiri. mTeli Cemi cxovreba gavixsene amasobaSi da mainc vtiri. Tan mainc azrze ara var, ratom vtiri! sarkeSi mainc Cavixedo! au, ras vgavar! morCa, amovida yelSi! vitireb ise! saerTod vin daadgina, rom mainc da mainc mizezia saWiro tirilisaTvis! fexebze mkidia, rom yvela raRac mizezis gamo tiris! me umizezod tirili momwons, va! odesme xom mainc gavCerdebi! da ro ver gavCerde?! marTla ro ver gavCerde?! Cemi dabadebis dRe modis da iqamde ro ase viyo?! iqamde ra, mere kide ro ase viyo, davuSvaT, universitetis damTavrebamde?! mere samsaxurSic?! mere ra vici, ra aris kide, qorwilSi, magaliTad. bolos rom movkvde da kide ro vtirode saflavSi?! warmovidgine. aqamdec warmomidgenia Cemi Tavi saflavSi. vambob, ra, ver var-meTqi! ara, aSkarad verasodes gavCerdebi! aqamde gavCerdebodi, rom SemeZlos! unda vifiqro rame kargze! da romelia kargi da romeli cudi?! morCa, damerxa!

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sawolze wamovweqi. sul erT pozaSi tirili mosabezrebeli yofila. ukve gasagebia, rom ver var da isic gasagebia, rom magrad damerxa! moxerxebulad mainc davwvebi da davelodebi, rodis movlen Cemebi saxlSi da fsiqiatrs gamomiZaxeben! neta ras aWmeven xolme fsiqiatriulSi? ra kiTxvaa axla eg? morCa, aRar vfiqrob! ar vfiqrob arafers! saerTod arafers, arafers, arafers, arafers! ar vfiqrob! ar maqvs ufleba, rom ar vifiqro? ar vifiqreb da ise vitireb!.. cota xani gavida. erTi `Cortia", gind ifiqre, gind - ara! au, daviRale, ra! etyoba CameZina. mere, ra Tqma unda, gameRviZa! rame damesizmra? ara! rom viRviZeb, yovelTvis sizmrebze vfiqrob da mitydeba xolme, Tu araferi maxsendeba. au, ratom araferi maxsendeba? daica, sizmrebi ki ara, aRar vtiri. vaaa, marTla! au, ratom aRar vtiri? sarkeSi Cavixede. mainc, ras vgavar! mere abazanaSi Sevedi da piri davibane. etyoba asec xdeba xolme. daikide, ra!

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alubloba 2009

gamarjvebulebi da nominantebi

proza

pirveli premia jaba zarqua - ,,kivili" meore premia sofia kenWiaSvili - ,,SaviT TeTrze, anu cxovrebis wamzomi" mesame premia irakli isakaZe -,,isev gavqri"

poezia

pirveli premia aleqsandre lorTqifaniZe - trilogia meore premia sofo miqiaSvili - ,,dalaqis paradoqsi" mesame premia salome SengeliZe - ,,ukaco saxli"

nominaciebi

meditaciuri proza nika sergia - ,,matarebeli" monologi Tamuna kareliZe - ,,gamivlis" dialogi giorgi jamburia - ,,Tbilisoba" giorgi gonaSvili - "cudi Tema" mSobelTa sakiTxavi luba (qeTi) kalaZe - ,,gakveTili mSoblebs (lesson N1)" fantastika aleqsandre lorTqifaniZe - ,,ise, araferi" ironiuli Rimili ana dabrundaSvili - ,,tirili" demetre maWavariani - ,,Sweet home sachhere" saSiSi moTxroba Teona biCinaSvili - ,,ieroglifi" originaluri metaforebi maiko mestumre "ambavi pirveli... ambavi meore" absurdi aleqsandre bagrationi - "Chocolate guys" specialuri prizebi erovnebiT araqarTveli monawileebisaTvis asTxik alvanjiani / proza / zoia bezoiani / proza / valeria warukiani / poezia /

wamaxalisebeli prizebi

zurab miqelaZe / proza / gvanca kalandaZe / proza / gia ximSiaSvili / proza / giorgi elizbaraSvili / proza / giorgi barixaSvili / proza / giorgi iagoraSvili / poezia / luka kalandariSvili / proza / nino TuTberiZe / proza / Tekla modebaZe / proza / beqa CuxrukiZe / proza / baia buiZe / poezia / Tamar foladaSvili / poezia / ana martiaSvili / poezia / daviT kunWulia / poezia / mariam Tofuria / proza / nuca maxaraZe / proza / mariam bequri / proza / daTo gorgilaZe / proza / ekaterine bulaSvili / proza / ana kalatozi / proza / salome maxaraZe / proza / nino qopilaSvili / poezia /

sarCevi

poezia maiko mestumre / Tbilisi, 1991 / daviT kunWulia / Tbilisi, 1993 / giorgi Sonia / zugdidi, 1992 / sofo miqiaSvili / Tbilisi, 1988 / nika ZoweniZe / Tbilisi, 1991 / nino qopilaSvili / Tbilisi, 1992 / aleqsandre axalkaci / xaSuri, osiauri, 1988 / ana martiaSvili / Tbilisi, 1990 / aleqsandre lorTqifaniZe / Tbilisi, 1988 / baia buiZe / Tbilisi, 1988 / giorgi iagoraSvili / yvareli, 1988 / nikoloz guSaraSvili / duSeTi, Jinvali, 1991 / oTar kaxiZe / Tbilisi, 1992 / lela (nino) daiauri / gardabani, gamarjveba, 1991 / Tamar foladaSvili / Tbilisi, 1990 / salome SengeliZe / Tbilisi, 1989 / proza aleqsandre bagrationi / Tbilisi, 1987 / demetre maWavariani / Tbilisi, 1991 / nino kekenaZe / Tbilisi, 1989 / Salva devdariani / Tbilisi, 1993 / nino TuTberiZe / Tbilisi, 1989 / daviT simonia / Tbilisi, 1990 / natalia kucia / Tbilisi, 1989 / beqa baRaSvili / Tbilisi, 1990 / giorgi jamburia / Tbilisi, 1992 / nika sergia / xobi, 1992 / TamTa rexviaSvili / Tbilisi, 1992 / mariam Tofuria / Tbilisi, 1991 / Teona biCinaSvili / Tbilisi, 1990 / nino beJaniZe / Tbilisi, 1988 / jaba zarqua / Tbilisi, 1988 /

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guram macxonaSvili / Tbilisi, 1989 / zurab miqelaZe / Suaxevi, furtio, 1992 / salome maxaraZe / Tbilisi, 1989 / asTxik alvanjiani / ninowminda, foka 1993 / zoia bezoiani / somxeTi, 1993 / giorgi barixaSvili / azerbaijani, alibego, 1991 / nini metreveli / Tbilisi, 1992 / zurab TurmaniZe / Tbilisi, 1992 / daTo gorgilaZe / Tbilisi, 1990 / levan maisuraZe / gori, 1989 / ekaterine bulaSvili / Tbilisi, 1990 / gvanca kalandaZe / Coxatauri, xidisTavi, 1993 / luba (qeTi) kalaZe / Tbilisi, 1991 / sofia kenWiaSvili / Tbilisi, 1988 / salome koWlamazaSvili / Tbilisi, 1990 / beqa CuxrukiZe / Tbilisi, 1992 / aleqsandre lorTqifaniZe / Tbilisi, 1988 / maiko mestumre / Tbilisi, 1991 / irakli isakaZe / Tbilisi, 1990 / mariam bajeliZe / Tbilisi, 1993 / Tekla modebaZe / Tbilisi, 1987 / giorgi gonaSvili / kanada, 1990 / nuca maxaraZe / Tbilisi, 1989 / ana kalatozi / Tbilisi, 1993 / levan gelovani / Tbilisi, 1993 / martin beki / germania, 1993 / giorgi elizbaraSvili / gurjaani, 1992 / Tamuna kareliZe / Tbilisi, 1989 / luka kalandariSvili / belgia, 1992 / mariam beqauri / Tbilisi, 1990 / gia ximSiaSvili / Suaxevi, furtio, 1991 / nana nucubiZe / Tbilisi, 1993 / irakli salia / Tbilisi, 1993 / zedgeniZe Tamari / Tbilisi, 1990 / Tornike miSelaZe / Tbilisi, 1992 / luka WoWua / Tbilisi, 1988 / ana dabrundaSvili / Tbilisi, 1989 /

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